ps you look better in black

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The Marauders on a rare warm and sunny day on the Hogwarts grounds (Remus is forgoing his Good Marauder rep to help Sirius cheat) 

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I’m opening up a shop on Society6 where you can buy prints and other things of my art! This is going to be the first drawing up, but more will follow ✧˖°⁎  

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you know how i can make a watercolor edit? most of the tutorials use brushes and things that are hard for me to do, im looking for something more easy it would save my life if you would tell me some

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Finally, after all these years of having owned KOTOR I & II, I’m actually…playing them. I’m still on the first one, and I’m assuming I’m still very early on. I’ve actually tried it a few times before but kept getting lost; this would be the first time where I’m understanding where I’m going, how to get back to places, and what I’m doing. Mostly.

But man oh man do I hope Carth gets better because I’m starting to get frustrated with my aimless wandering around getting interrupted with a cutscene of “Carth Onasi looks upset, you should talk to him,” only to have that lead to “omg don’t talk to me im busy and also angery.”

Like. Okay. Thanks, game?

PS: Also, NGL I cracked up when the partygoers just…simultaneously blacked out after having strong booze. Just. A black screen and a “thump!” noise. Wowie.

Moonshot - Chapter 3

I’m back with a new chapter! Hope you are enjoying this story so far. As always, any feedback is welcome <3

Hope you like this chapter!

summary: Phil had a feeling that this Friday was going to be different.

That didn’t mean he was ready to meet his favourite baseball player, Daniel Howell, while he was cleaning the windows of a building.

or the au in which Phil is a shy window cleaner and Dan is a famous baseball player. This is their story.

words: 2.1k

no trigger warnings

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Chapter 1 // Chapter 2

Chapter 3: Drizzle and Pink Cheeks

Wednesday and Friday came and were gone in the blink of an eye. Dan and Phil kept talking through the windows, both days playing the “20 questions” game so they could know each other better.

Phil had decided that he would try and not be so shy around Dan, try to think of him as a normal person; just because he was sport star didn’t mean he had to act any different if he was going to see him a few days every week.  

They often both got so excited to know that they liked the same movie or videogame their conversation went from one topic off to another easily, forgetting they were even playing a game and also making Phil forget he was talking to the real Dan Howell.  

They shared so many interests Phil was sure it was kind of unbeliveable to have found someone such like him. It had never happened to him before. Some of his other partners and friends even made fun of him for liking cartoons they thought they were ‘childish’, but not with Dan. They could talk about Steven Universe for hours.

It was Sunday evening now and Martyn was lazying around his flat since they had meet for lunch but it started raining so they came back to Phil’s.

“So, you are telling me, you met Daniel Howell? The same Daniel Howell that plays in the 'Rocky Planets’ and is one of the best baseball players of the country? Are you pulling my leg?”

Martyn asked what was new in his life and that was it! It wasn’t his fault that he didn’t want to believe him!

“Yeah, I was about to clean the windows on the top floor when suddenly he appeared! He moved in, apparently, and now I’m his window cleaner. How random, right?” Phil said, handing his brother a beer while he took a sip of his soda.

Martyn stood there, gawking at him until apparently he found his voice again. “Did you talk to him? If you did, what did you say? Could he even hear you? Did you get to meet him later? And most importantly, I am your brother, why didn’t I know about this sooner!” Martyn punched his arm slightly, making Phil wince at the not-so-weak punch.

“Calm down! Let’s just sit by the tv and I will tell you everything, okay?”

Both Lesters sat down on the comfy cushions and Phil started sepaking. He tried not te dwell into details, but it was impossible. He kind of wanted to talk about Dan 24/7 and all he had said to him. It was probably because he had the biggest crush on him but still, they had only talked like three days and Phil could consider him his friend already. It was kind of impossible to think about the possibility of having Dan Howell as a friend or even anything more to be honest. At least dreaing was free.

Once Phil had finsihed looked back at Martyn, who smiled cheekily at him. “I think Dan Howell likes you Philly”.

What!? What was his brother even talking about!? Yeah, Dan told him he was 'attractive’ (maybe not with that exact word but still), at least it was implied in some of the messages. Dan could flirt with a rock and even make it blush even thought it wasn’t even a living thing! But Phil wasn’t even sure about what to think… Dan could also be playing the 'flirty’ persona the media talked about with him too and even though Phil didn’t want to believe the media, sometimes it was inevitable.

“I… I… Martyn no! He doesn’t like me, at least not the way you think…” Phil’s voice got quieter by the end of the sentence. Why was he feeling this sad about something that had a chance of 1 in at least a billion of happening?

Martyn patted him on the back a few times, as if sensing he was upset. “Hey Phil, have you tried flirting back?”

Phil shook his head and muttered an almost quiet no.

“Then, flirt back!” Martyn ruffled his hair, trying to cheer him up like when they were little “and if you don’t feel comfortable enough or if Dan seems unamused just stop it. There is still a possibility of you two being friends. I mean, from what you have told me you have so much in common, even more than you and I have and we are brothers!”

Phil just shrugged, “I guess… we could be friends.”

With that last sentence they let the topic aside and talked about a few other things till Martyn had to leave.

Phil looked out of the window as soon as the front door was closed. It was still raining and he could only cross his fingers so it would stop by tomorrow because cleaning windows with rain was a real nightmare.

He must have the worst luck ever because he had to grab his raintcoat next morning because it kept drizzling.

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Dan woke up slowly on Monday morning, rolling around his king sized matress and white sheets for a few minutes before opening his eyes only to see that a light rain was hitting his bedroom window.

Groaning, he picked up his phone and checked his social media and read the few messages he had received during the night, not bothering to answer them since he was still sleepy and din’t want to risk sending something stupid to his agent.

He put his phone back on the nightstand and rolled on his back, putting one of his hands behind his head, the other lazily caressing his stomach as he watched boringly his white ceiling, just… thinking.

Dan moved his neck a bit and stared at hs bedroom door, kind of expecting someone to burst in with a tray, carrying his coffee with some fruit and pancakes with a small vase that had a rose on it.

He internally laughed at this thought. Real life was never like that.

With a sigh he turned his stare back again at the ceiling, finally teh realization of how lonely he was settling in, felling a weight on his chest as if he was scared of being alone forever. Not having anyone by your side was a scary thought that often made him anxious. Yes, he had his team mates and also friends, but it wasn’t the same.

He wanted a romantic relationship, having someone you can share your love and affection with. He couldn’t even recall teh last time he had recieved a hug… It had been so long. He craved caresses and cuddles, shot and long kisses, even sex…

Since he became a famous baseball player the madia talked about the few romances he “had” with certain celebrities. Yes, “had” because they were never real. They were all publicity stunts so his partner at the time could ensure their fame for a while.

The brown eyed kind of hoped that those fake relationships would turn into something real as he ahd seen in many movies, where people have to pretend to be in love and somehow manage to fall for eachother and lived a “happily ever after”.

But it was just pure bullshit that never happened in real life.

It had been a while since he had had this kind of thoughts but now they had decided to come back and Dan didn’t like it.

A lone tear made his way down his cheek, trailing down his face and getting lost on his neck, but before he could dwell into that though some more he got up, grabbed his pyjama bottoms and a sweatshirt and walked out of his bedroom only to find a bored looking Phil already cleaning his windows while he wore the most yellow raincoat he had even seen shielding him from the drizzle.

Phil looked so damn good in that hideous yellow raincoat it was ridiculous! No one looked good in yellow! But somehow Phil was making it work… That yellow raincoat was making Dan feel something in his stomach…  

Dan was glad the rain seemed to be stopping soon so Phil couldn’t be out in the rain for too long, he felt bad enough seeing him working under this weather but it didn’t seem like the window cleaner was minding it much, or if he did he wasn’t showing it.  

The blue eyed finally spotted him, waving at him before taking out a notebook and a marker from a light blue backpack.

Dan softly smiled at the gesture, walking closer to the windows so he could sit by the couch armrest as he also grabbed his paper and sharpie.

'Thought you left me alone on this rainy morning… :( ps: cute morning bedhair’

The brown haired shook his head and looked at his feet at Phil’s message. He didn’t expect this message and less from someone so shy like Phil, but maybe he was trying to be closer to Dan (even as a friend) and if Phil wanted, Dan was going to let him, because he was feeling a bit vulnerable and probably was blushing now, something he didn’t like showing. Maybe because he had to hide his 'soft’ side from everybody for so long that it felt strange now…

He had always acted so forwards towards everyone, even to the window cleaner on those first days, but Dan wanted to leave that aside, let his unvarnised persona be shown a bit more. He only acted that way when he felt that he could trust someone, and with Phil he felt he could even just after a few days.  

Maybe it was because he hadn’t feel this comfortable in a while and needed to be showered with some affection after this morning, but he wasn’t thinking about that.

'No, you are not getting rid of me that easily! Sorry you have to work under the rain, it probably sucks. ps: my morning hair is not cute, it’s gross… but thank you for the compliment’ Dan wrote and showed Phil, whose black fringe was getting a bit wet since the hat of his raincoat was falling down.

It was Phil’s turn to shake his head, a few dropplets of water moving at the action, trying to shield his notebook from getting more wet. 'Your curls are nice, but messy curls look even better on you. Adorable’

If Dan hadn’t blushed a few seconds ago, he was sure his red cheeks were showing now. He hid behind his notepap as he tried to tame his hair a bit, he was sure it wasn’t that nice to look at.

He kind of liked being showered in compliments that weren’t shout by strangers… But Phil was being so nice that Dan felt the need to compliment him back just to make it even between the two. It wasn’t fair if he was the only one getting the pretty words.

'shut up! you are the one looking all adorable on that yellow raincoat!’ he wrote fast, trying to keep his best handwriting. It would be so much easier if they could talk… Was it too early in they 'friendship’ to ask for his phone number? Well, he didn’t have time to think about that now.

He turned his notebook around and saw how Phil’s cheeks went also a bit pink, trying to also hide his face by ducking his head.

They both lowered their notebooks and chuckled at the same time, making both of them burst into laughter at their identical gestures. Once the giggles died down Dan was teh frst to signal to his kitchen, as a sign taht he felt hungry and needed breakfast. Phil nodded as he took a green bottle and started spraying the windows.

Even though they were trying to do theirr repective tasks, the two boys kept sneaking side glances and smiles at each other for a few minutes until Phil already finished and wrote his goodbye, Dan quickly writing back his, trying not to show how sad he was that Phil was leaving him all alone with his thoughts again…

“Bye Phil, hope to see you on Wednesday…” Dan said out loud with a loud sigh once the black haired had disappeared from his sight.

Dan groaned loudly as he threw his body on the sofa. After these messages Dan was sure his crush on Phil wasn’t that little anymore. It couldn’t be. The man was so sweet and nice and they had so much in common it was difficult to stop his feelings from developing. Feelings that were new for Dan and felt scary but also exciting to discover.

He could only hope for the best now.  

Chapter 4

evitierri  asked:

hi I was wondering what did you use to do those Instagram commissions? What kind of ink/ brush pen did you use? I'm looking for a new inking tool and I saw your work and gosh. I'm dying to know what you used because I would love to try it and see if I finally can stop looking for inking tools :'>! thank you ! have a wonderful day! (ps. your art is just phenomenal and always makes my day better )

Hey there, @evitierri! Here’s a list of the inking tools I use:

- pilot pocket brush pen

- Derwent waterbrush (I use it for inking large spaces and for shading)

- Waterproof black indian ink (mixed with water for the waterbrush)

- Sakura Micron pens in black (0.3, 0.4, 0.5 and 0.8)

I hope this is helpful! *hugs*

coloring tutorial

hello friends!  i’ve finally had the time to make a coloring tutorial to explain how i color my gifs.  i’ve been making gifs for about a year now, and i’ve spent a lot of time fiddling around in photoshop to figure out what works on star wars scenes (which anyone who’s ever attempted to gif understands is somewhat of a nightmare).  the coloring i’m going to walk you through can be used on pretty much any medium with some minor adjustments.  we’re going to be turning this (look how dark that bitch is smh)

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Maester Luwin had once made Bran learn the names of every one of the forts along the Wall. 

At the feast in honor of King Robert’s visit to Winterfell, Bran had recited the names for his uncle Benjen, east to west and then west to east. Benjen Stark had laughed and said, “You know them better than I do, Bran. Perhaps you should be First Ranger. I’ll stay here in your place.” That was before Bran fell, though. Before he was broken. By the time he’d woken crippled from his sleep, his uncle had gone back to Castle Black. 

Lucky One

Originally posted by minsecretsoul

“She was then, and still is to me, the most beautiful thing in the world.”

Summary: It’s crazy how you think you end up bumping into someone out of coincidence or sometime it’s just fate.. You were planning just a normal trip to Korea to see you favorite Kpop group of all time BTS… But what will happen when you start seeing than more than you were originally planning to?

Previous Parts:

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6

Part 7 is here~

Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12 Part 13 Part 14 Part 15 Part 16

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Yoongi’s Point of View

I wake up and as begin to blink. What time is it? What day is it? I sat slowly sat up and felt my head like it was going to explode any minute..

What the hell happened last night?

The last thing I remember was talking Y/N and Jin interrupting our conversation to join them with drinks and after that I blacked out…

Where is Y/N? What happened to her? I looked over at my dresser and see water and aspirin and a note.

Wait a note?

I slowly reached over and grabbed the note.

Dear Yoongi,

Last night seemed like a pretty wild night the way you drank shot after shot, so for you killer headache in the morning I left aspirin by your bed and water. I hope you feel better :)

Ps: Don’t worry about me I’m home safe when you read this. I hope to see you again sometime.

                                                                  Yours truly: Y/N

She didn’t even leave a number? She left? How was I supposed to see her again?

Was that it?

No I had to see her again…

~

Your Point of View 

Last night you took care of everyone. You made sure you put all the boys to theirs beds and then you caught your cousin and Taehyung making out in the couch… Let’s just say… taking them two apart wasn’t easy..

But eventually after making them stop swallowing each other, you took Taehyung to his bed and your cousin wanted to sleep in his bed with him as he wanted the same but they were both wasted.

You put all the cups in the sink and the bottles you left in the table not knowing what to do with them. You called up a taxi for you and your cousin and of course babysit your cousin all the way home.

You glanced at your cousin as you seen your cousin slowly open her eyes. You walked over to your cousin with a cup of water in one hand and aspirins for the headache she was going to have in 3….2…..

“Ugh why did I drink so much?” Your cousin asks murmuring as she rubbed her head.

“I ask that all the time.”

Your cousin gave you a glare and slowly sat up.

“Drink up,”

Your cousin grabbed the cup of water from your hand and the pills and you approached your bed and pulled out your laptop and camera.

“What are you doing?”

“Uploading the concert vlog duh,”

“Oh right the life of a famous youtuber.”

You rolled your eyes and giggled. You’ve been making the most random youtube videos ever and surprisingly got a lot of subscribers over the time. So the more subscribers you continued to get, the more videos you made.

The room was completely quiet as you continued to edit the vlog and just as you were lost in your thoughts…. You hear your cousin scream.

“What?!”

“Is this real? or are you pranking me? I swear if you are pranking me I am going to kill you!”

“What are you talking about!?!?”

“First of all did we hang out with BTS yesterday or was that a dream?”

“It re-” before you could even answer your cousin interrupts you.

“Answer me!”

“YES WE DID!”

“Oh my god… THIS MUST BE REAL!” You cousin shouts in excitement and you just continued to stare at your cousin confused as hell.

“What is going on?”

“I HAVE TAEHYUNG NUMBER!” 

Wow.. Here your cousin has better luck than you do and get’s taehyung number… You however got unlucky and didn’t get Yoongi’s number or anything… So that was the last day you were going to see Yoongi, besides on the internet or on tv of course. 

“I’m assuming you have Yoongi’s number too, am I right?”

You looked at your cousin slowly and didn’t know if you should lie or not… It sounds pretty sad if you think about it. Your cousin got lucky and got Taehyung number but you couldn’t get Yoongi’s number?

But then again if you lie… she will properly want to see proof…

“No..”

“Ya- wait what? Did you just say no?”

“Yeah…”

“How did you not get his number!”

“I guess he didn’t bother asking me for it I guess.” you said as you looked at your laptop blankly…

“Maybe he forgot?”

“It’s whatever..”

~

Yoongi’s Point of View 

“Do you remember her name?” I asked looking at Jimin as he was laying down on the couch scrolling through his phone.

“Who are we talking about?”

“Come on, Jimin work with me here. The girl you met at that freaking food place and we seen at the concert and w-”

“Okay okay I think I know who we are talking about gesh boy. Y/N.”

“Do you have her number?”

Jimin stops looking at his phone and sets his phone down looking at me with a huge smile on his face. 

“Why?”

“What do you mean why?”

“Why do you need her number?” Jimin asks crossing his arms and smirking. I just sighed and eventually gave up. 

How didn’t I ask for her number? That’s the first thing I should've done when we were in the room alone talking… But I clearly wasn’t thinking…

“Wow, gave up so easily.” Jimin asks interrupting my thoughts and I looked at him.

“It doesn’t matter, it’s not like your going to give it to me anyways.”

“Your right,”

“What?”

“Cause I don’t have it.”

Jimin smiles and I rolled my eyes. Here I am asking Jimin for her number and here he is making it seem like he had it… Wow ..

“Why didn’t you ask for her number?”

“Because I’m an idiot..”

“Can’t argue there,” Jimin replies.

I looked around me and grabbed a near by pillow and threw it right at him. Yes I am stupid.. But he didn’t have to agree..

“What the hell happened last night?” Taehyung asks as he steps in the living room rubbing his head.

“You don’t remember anything?”

“I do… I remember us drinking with two beautiful girls and then after a couple of drinks later…I blacked out.”

“I did to..” I said sighing and I closed my eyes.

So much for looking for her number… Will I ever see here again? Where could she possibly be? Ugh why didn’t I ask for her number? Why didn’t that question come in my head?

“Hey I have one of the beautiful girls number on my phone,” I hear Taehyung say and my eyes opened and I looked at Taehyung.

“What what?”

“Huh?”

‘What did you just say?”

“I said I have one of the beautiful girls number on my phone….”

“Y/N’S!?”

Taehyung continued to stare at me confused as hell so I got up from the couch and snatched his phone from his hand. As I had the phone in my hand, I looked at the name and it was Y/N cousin… 

“Nevermind,” I said tossing the phone to Taehyung’s lap and i sat down.

“What’s his deal?” Taehyung asks jimin and they both stared at me.

“Yoongi here has a crush.”

“Do you have her number?” Taehyung asks and I gave him a glare.

Was he really asking me this right now? If I had her number I would be on my way to see her instead of snatching Taehyung phone and trying to look for it…

“No…”

“You’re stupid.”

“RIght!” Jimin says agreeing with Taehyung and I just rolled my eyes and got up. 

“Thanks.”

~

Taehyung Point of View 

Jimin and I watched Yoongi walk out of the room and I looked at Jimin.

“He likes her a lot doesn’t he?”

“She likes him too, yesterday her cousin told us her bias was Yoongi…”

I began to think and a plan hit me. It was time to play cupid for Yoongi. Here Yoongi is grumpy and sleeping half the times, he worries me. Maybe all he needs is a little bit of love.

“Well Jimin my friend, i have an idea.”

“For what?”

I gave Jimin a glare and he continued to stare at me confused. Wow who knew people were slow in this house.

“Are you serious?”

“Huh?”

“I have her cousin’s number for crying out loud! I can call her up, tell her to meet us somewhere with Yoongi’s crush and we bring Yoongi and pretend like we accidently bumped into each other.”

Jimin continued to nod his head and he smiled.

“BRILLIANT!”

“I try,” I smiled and I went on my phone and clicked on her cousin number right away.

Let’s hope this works.

~

Your Point of View

“Where are we going?” You asked your cousin completely confused and she smiles.

“Don’t worry, you’ll see.”

“Oh come on, can’t I know?”

“You ask so many questions, you need to earn to just go with the flow.” 

You just looked at your cousin and before you could say anything she grabs your hand and pulls you into a random what seemed to be coffee shop. You loved your cousin but you hated when she always did unexpected plans and doesn’t tell you about it.

“You should go sit down, I’ll order the drinks.” Your cousin says and then winks at you. 

Something’s up… Your cousin would usually be the one to go sit and make you order…. 

You just shrugged and looked around the coffee shop. You noticed an empty table by the window and you sat down. You pulled out your phone and looked at your lockscreen.

Yes you have Yoongi as your background… There is nothing wrong with having your bias as your background.

~

Yoongi’s Point of View 

“Why are we at the coffee shop?” I asked looking at Taehyung and he smiles.

“Come on, we are always at the dorm. Let’s go out for a change.”

“Does it look like I want to go out?”

“Coffee’s help with hangovers, now shush and pretend like your excited.”

I just sighed and looked around as we walked in line. I noticed Taehyung looking at his phone and smiling… That could’ve been me…

“Taehyung? Yoongi?” 

I looked up and see Y/N’s cousin standing in front of us in line. 

“Hey!” Taehyung says pulling her into a hug.

“Hi,”

I said and i pulled out my phone and began to look at that.

“What brings you two here?”

“Coffee helps hangovers…”

“So I heard,” she says and she giggles.

Is Y/N with her? I don’t see anyone next to her… 

“What brings you here?” I asked her and she smiles.

“Actually came here with Y/N for some breakfast.”

As soon as I heard her name I couldn’t help but to look around and tried to scan the room to look for her… 

At last one table caught my attention and I see Y/N sitting then and there.

“I’ll be back… I’m going to go say hi..” I said looking at Taehyung and Y/N’s cousin and they just smiled at me.

I slowly approached the table and I took a deep breath.

“Y/N?”

She looked up and as soon as she saw me she looked completely surprised.

Was this fate? 

To Be Continued

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And now some details about my present for @TheRealLukevans… ;)

I’ve gotten into cross stitch recently. And I wanted to try to make a portrait, so when I heard that Luke Evans is coming @ HobbitCon instead of Dean O’Gorman, I thought: “Asdfghjkl, perfect!!!”. And I spent 16 days making this portrait… and took it to Germany with me :)) So the night before HobbitCon we were sitting in Piano bar (in Maritim hotel) and drinking beer ;)) And suddenly the actors appeared x’DD Almost all of them, except Luke! I went up to my room and took the portrait although everyone was like: “Pfff, he’s not here! And he’s not coming until tomorrow”. I was disappointed, but still had a feeling it’s not quite true… AND I WAS RIGHT! x’D Luke appeared in the bar after midnight. I was so amazed… and I chickened out, lol :DD Fortunately, I wasn’t alone. My friends started trolling and inciting me to call Luke xDDD I said: “Nooo, I can’t!!! I’ve had 2 flights in 2 days, I look like sh#t and I feel like sh#t. Don’t want him or anyone else to see me like that”. But they didn’t listen xD They called to him when he was leaving the bar: “Hi, Luke!”. He turned to us and said “Hi, girls!”)) I freaked out a bit)) “What are you doing, girls?? Stahp it, staaahp!” xDD  But they laughed and called to him again when he came back! x’DD They said I’ve got something for him :)) So Luke turned to me and I suddenly  forgot English, Russian and everything, including my name, lol xD He probably thought I’m an idiot, hahaha xD I just handed him the portrait. But his reaction was better that I could imagine! He was very surprised and kept saying: “This is amazing/awesome/etc., thank you!”. And then he asked: “You did it?”. I nodded. He smiled even wider and asked again: “YOU did it?!”. Apparently, he didn’t immediately believe it xD “That’s so much work!”. He also said it was his first present at HobbitCon ^^ I asked if I could take a pic of him with the portrait, he said “Sure”. So I took 2 photos, and then he hugged me and my friend took 3 more photos but I’m not gonna post them, sorry :)) Then he hugged me again and even kissed me on the cheek o___O xDD I’m still shocked xDD

But I can’t say I like this portrait, to be honest. As you can see in the original picture he’s wearing a black beanie… and the background is black as well. So it kinda looks like his left ear is missing, lol xDD I realized it too late. But I could do nothing about that anyway. I mean, I couldn’t just draw an ear, hahaha))) I just hope he remembers this photoshoot and remembers he was wearing a beanie xD Next time I’ll choose a better pic :))

PS: my English sucks, hope I didn’t make too many mistakes xDDD

npr.org
Growing Up 'White,' Transracial Adoptee Learned To Be Black

Goller-Sojourner says every six months or so, he’d hear a racist insult or some other offense, and his mother would rush to his side. Still, it was confusing. “My source of love and hate came from the same well,” he explains. “My parents looked just like the same people who were calling me a n***** or porch monkey. … My mother and my parents were in my corner, but it was still difficult to process.”

In college he began what he calls a “descent into blackness and out of whiteness.” He describes it as a journey, giving up the privileges he claimed as a child of white parents and learning to accept his identity independent of them…

“I moved to New York City, where for the first time I found my own reflection pleasing,” Goller-Sojourner says. “I learned to fall in love with myself and being black in my mid- to late-20s. And although it was a beautiful experience, it shouldn’t have taken 25 years to do that.”

…His parents were among the first wave of transracial adopters, and did their best to prepare him for the real world. Parents today can do even better, he says.

“I don’t have a checklist,” he says, “but if I did, it would sound something like this: If you don’t have any close friends or people who look like your kid before you adopt a kid, then why are you adopting that kid? Your child should not be your first black friend.

i had to move to seoul before i learned to find my own reflection pleasing (which i wrote about here) it took me 27 years.

ps. this article is super "easy on the ears” - he even says that he’s not against transracial adoption (and is open about the colorism within black adoptive families) and STILL people are calling him an ungrateful, whiny brat with “issues” - that’s basically a given whenever adoptees are critical of adoption.

Lucky One

Originally posted by minsecretsoul

“She was then, and still is to me, the most beautiful thing in the world.”

Summary: It’s crazy how you think you end up bumping into someone out of coincidence or sometime it’s just fate.. You were planning just a normal trip to Korea to see you favorite Kpop group of all time BTS… But what will happen when you start seeing than more than you were originally planning to?

Previous Parts:

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 

Part 6 is here~ 

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You continued to look around and Yoongi eventually sat down on his bed.

“Can I ask you something?” Yoongi asks you and you stopped walking around his room and looked at him.

“Sure,”

“Are you always the type to stay to yourself?”

You looked at him confused and sat down right next to him.

“What do you mean?”

“I mean… I noticed you and your cousin are so different.”

“Well that’s true,”

“Like your cousin is outspoken and talkative and then you on the other hand…”

“Me what?” you asked curiously and he looks in your eyes.

“You are very quiet and a mystery. You don’t talk about yourself.”

“I’m not that interesting,” you said giggling and he smiles.

“I’m sure there must be something interesting about you..”

You shook your head and looked down blushing like crazy. Yoongi wants to get to know you… This was really happening! He lifted up your chin with his finger and looked into your eyes.

“I don’t care how long it takes, I want to know more about you..”

You felt your heart racing and butterflies attacking your stomach.

This boy was going to be the death of you..

~

You eventually slowly started to open up about yourself but not just quite… You weren’t doing that on purpose, but you also wanted to keep some things a mystery. 

That way if Yoongi wanted to truly get to know you, he would have to find an excuse to see you again.

“This feel good..”

“What does?” You asked him looking at him and he looks at you and smiles.

“Being able to talk to someone and actually have a normal conversation…. I haven’t had one of of these in a while..” 

You noticed Yoongi look down and then look back at you. A small smile starts to spread across his face and you felt your heart beating out of your chest. Even just looking at his smile in pictures made your heart race… But seeing it in person made your heart feel like it was ready to explode at any minute.

Yoongi and you started to stare at each other in the eyes and you couldn’t help but to smile.

“You have a beautiful smile.”

You looked down and at this point you felt like you were in a dream. Was this even real life? Was this really happening? Were you really in a room with Yoongi?

Just as you felt at this point Yoongi could lean in and kiss you….

Knock knock..

Of course someone had to come and ruin the moment.

“Come in,” Yoongi says looking at the door and you did the same and see Jin standing at the door looking at the two of you and then a huge smile spread across his face. 

“What are you guys doing?”

“Nothing…” Yoongi quickly answers and Jin just continues to smile at the two of you suspiciously and then look at you most of all.

“I see you,”

“What do you need?” Yoongi asks interrupting him and he sighs.

“Are you guys going to join us with the drinks or not?”

Yoongi turns to look at you and you looked at him. To be honest you weren’t so big on the drinks so maybe one wouldn’t hurt but drinking more than that… that wasn’t even an option.

“One won’t hurt.”

“Great! Follow me!”

Yoongi and you watched Jin leave the door and you two continued to stay on the bed. Eventually Yoongi got up and he looked at you.

“Ready to go?”

“I guess so,”

Yoongi pulled out his hand and helped you off the bed bringing you closer to yoongi. You were now standing right in front of him looking at him and you feel your heart still racing from before… It didn’t seem to want to stop. 

He smiles on last time and the both of you left out of the room and back to where the boys were.

~

By the time you two arrived into the living room back to the rest of the boys on the couches, there was already 9 cups on the table in front of the two bottles. 

“Let the night begin,” Namjoon says smirking as he reached over one bottle and started to pour the drinks into everyone’s glass.

You felt your cousin staring at you as you paid attention to Namjoon on how he poured the drinks and at last your cousin finally comes in and speaks her mind as always.

“Y/N doesn’t drink.”

Namjoon ended up stop pouring and he looked at you. 

“Oh… I didn’t know.”

“No it’s okay, one is fine,” you said smiling at Namjoon and you glanced at your cousin giving her one of those glares that you gave earlier to cool it.

Your cousin just shrugged and Namjoon began to pass out everyone their cups with their shots in it ready to be drinked.. You slowly reached for your cup and you could feel all eyes on you.

You awkwardly scanned the room and felt your cheeks heat up. Everyone made it seem like this was the first time you were ever drinking in your entire life! 

At last the eyes were off of you and you all gave each other a look and drank the shot.

As you finished chugging it down, you closed your eyes and felt your throat burning. Why the hell do people like this?

You shook your head in disapproval and as soon as you opened your eyes, you could feel Yoongi eyes on you as he smirks.

You instantly blushed and you began to see Namjoon pour another shot to the glass. Just as you see Namjoon approach to your cup you looked at him.

“No thanks, one is enough for me.” 

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah,”

~

Everyone around you were drinking shot after shot and at this point they were feeling their buzz but you. You were the only sober one around. This called trouble already.

You glanced at your cousin and Taehyung and noticed them whispering to each other and giggling. What the hell is going on?

Yoongi was right next to you and he whispers in your ears.

“You’re extremely beautiful.”

This must be the liquor talking. But you weren’t going to say anything except thanks..

“Thank you,”

Just as you were expecting maybe Yoongi to stop whispering to you.. he whisper something unexpected.

“Can I get a kiss?”

Your eyes widen and you glanced at Yoongi slowly. You have no idea how bad you wanted to say yes… But it was wrong… He was drinking and probably drunk.. Were you going to take advantage of him and kiss him because he drunk?

You were so close to saying yes… But then you stopped yourself and sighed. If you were to kiss Yoongi.. You wanted it to be memorable.. not only for you but for the both of you.. 

You started to notice Yoongi slowly getting closer and closer to your face and you felt your heart racing. You were so tempted to kiss him.. but it just felt wrong… 

“Yoongi.. you’re drunk.”

He stops from leaning in and he continues to stare you in your eyes.

“But I know what I’m doing,”

“Are you sure?” you asked him and before he could say anything… Here comes Namjoon screaming “NEXT SHOT!”

~

You looked at the table in front of you and see the two empty bottles right in front of you and everyone basically beyond waisted… WOW

First time spending time with BTS and this is what you get drunk BTS.. Not that your complaining. You kind of wish you were feeling happy and jolly like the rest.

You glanced at Yoongi and could see him kind doze off on the couch but kind had his eyes open.

“Yoongi, you should go to your bed. It was more comfortable.”

Yoongi looks at you and smiles.

He tries to get up but just the way he was standing… you knew he was to drunk to go on his own. 

Yoongi was still too cute looking drunk. You giggled as you seen Yoongi sit back down and you got up in front of Yoongi and looked down at him.

“Do you need help?”

“I’m fine..” he says awkwardly struggling getting up but you rolled your eyes and helped him catch his balance as he was standing. 

He looked at you and smiled and you let him wrap his arm around your shoulder and you basically dragged the boy this bed. Tomorrow he was going to have a killer hangover… But because he’s going to be your soon to be husband (cough cough) you had to take care of him.

As you approached his bed, you sat him down and he looks at you.

“You didn’t have to help me. I’m good. I’m not drunk.” Yoongi slurs and you giggled.

“Yeah sure, your not drunk. But I’ll be back, I have to go get water so you won’t be too bad tomorrow.”

Before you could walk off Yoongi grabs your hand and you stopped and looked at him. 

“Stay,”

“Yoongi..”

“Sleep with me,”

“Yoongi.”

He tries to pull you close to him but you gently took yourself off his grip. Yoongi was drunk.. He wasn’t going to remember anything he is doing now and if he found out.. he would probably regret it… and you don’t want to feel regretted. 

“Maybe you need to sleep,” You said looking at Yoongi putting his hands down and he pouts.

“I really like you.”

“I’ll be back okay. Just sleep please,”

He looks at you and gives in. He lies down and you see him quickly close his eyes. Time to put the rest to bed…

~

Yoongi’s Point of View 

I wake up and as begin to blink. What time is it? What day is it? I sat slowly sat up and felt my head like it was going to explode any minute..

What the hell happened last night? 

The last thing I remember was talking Y/N and Jin interrupting our conversation to join them with drinks and after that I blacked out… 

Where is Y/N? What happened to her? I looked over at my dresser and see water and aspirin and a note.

Wait a note?

I slowly reached over and grabbed the note.

Dear Yoongi,

Last night seemed like a pretty wild night the way you drank shot after shot, so for you killer headache in the morning I left aspirin by your bed and water. I hope you feel better :) 

Ps: Don’t worry about me I’m home safe when you read this. I hope to see you again sometime.

                                                                   Yours truly: Y/N

She didn’t even leave a number? She left? How was I supposed to see her again? 

Was that it?

No I had to see her again…

To be continued.

anonymous asked:

I feel like My digital drawings, especially the lineart part, always look blurry/not sharp enough, it ends up looking so messy in the end :/ is it something only practice can improve or are there any tips and tricks behind that?

Hi anon!

I hope you enjoyed your NYE.

If you have blurry messy line art, I can see three options:

1) Not the right brush. I wrote a post about my line work HERE. Basically, nothing fancy: PS default set, hard edges brush, around 4 px, black. If you use these settings I’m sure it will give you a clear lineart.

2) Not the right resolution. It’s better to work in 300 DPI on a big canvas because otherwise, when you save your art to post it on the web, the line work does look messy/blurry. In other words a 500 x 500 px in 72 DPI will give you automatically a blurry line work.

3) Not enough practice. It counts. You need a steady hand and it doesn’t come in one day. You have to be careful for instance not to draw multiple little lines to form a single line. This is mainly due to not having enough confidence in drawing lines. One stroke! Sharp and steady! Otherwise, the line part looks shaky.

You can also read this thread on Deviant Art: “Tips for drawing a smooth line art”.

But otherwise, yeah, I know, linearting is hard…

Good luck to you anon! I hope it helped and Happy New Year 2017 ♥

anonymous asked:

HOW DO YOU GET YOUR LINES SO NEAT I LOVE IT

I get quite a lot compliments about my lines
and I honestly don’t see why lol

So I thought, why not make a little tutorial how I line

ATTENTION: I’M USING PHOTOSHOP CS6 HERE
ALSO LONG POST INCOMMING

FIRST OF ALL before you line your sketches make sure you have selected these option with your brush tool

So know let’s see which brushes to use

These are all my brushes I’ve used for lineart. Here are some example

You see, I combine the 3px and 4px normal round brushes and decide myself where the lines has to be thick or fine. Mostly the lines which excludes various base colors or the outer lines have to be thick.
The pencil brush is ideal for sketch AND line, but it also cause so much cleaning, depending how clean you want your brushie brush lineart piece
The Starbrush gives a nice effect the combination with a hard brush in the center and a soft brush around it.

The round brush and star brush are brushed who should be already saved in PS CS6 (Starbrush in natural brushes), the other brushes can be found if you look up for brushes in deviantArt. Some of them are free to use and some of them have to be paid so pay attention!

So next are the colors to use

For lining it’s better to use dark colors. Of course if you like you can use whatever color you like, but in contrast with the white background I would use black or any other dark color.

So let’s start with lineart. First of all: time to sketch!

It would be recommanded to check if your sketch is anatomically fine, for example flip/mirror it and check out if it looks at some part weird.

Also very important: 

Well then, done lining?
Here I’m gonna go with the 3px normal round brush

Good, good, but we’re not done

There are still many mistakes which has to be corrected
Most of the cases will be pretty easy to be solved

There are parts of the lineart you don’t like? Erase and redo it again

Just remember ctrl+shift+z is your best friend in digital art

With this lineart I can happily go on, however, now we’re going to use the 4px normal round brush too

As above-mentioned:  Mostly the lines which excludes various base colors or the outer lines have to be thick. All together it gives a good contrast to the shite background and shows a good quality in lines.

Now you can open another layer and give colors to it

Feel free to experiment with several brushes to find yourself the brush you’re most confortable to line with. The base of all is the normal round brush one so you can do nothing wrong with it.

And most important part of it: have fun~