promise me forever

I’ve been inspired lately by pixel RPG games along with watching the new walking dead trailer (more than once), getting extremely pumped about it, so this was born

it isn’t supposed to be good, I just wanted to do something fun aha

and fun it was not

props to pixel artists, I don’t know how you guys do this stuff

I don’t think I will ever be strong enough to fully move on from you. Although, deep down inside, I’m not sure that I’ll ever really want to move on from you. You see me like nobody else ever has- you see my potential, who I can be. You’ll never see this, you’ll never know these words exist, but I hope you know, B, how much I truly love you. You bring out the ultimate best in me. You’ve been my best friend through everything and you’re the only one who has been here when I’ve needed you most. We weren’t perfect together, neither of us are perfect, but damn, was our love special. If moving on means forgetting, then I never want to move on. Honestly, I’m still praying that it’s you and me in the end.
—  An excerpt from a book I’ll never write (#7).
and i can promise to be there for you
but i can’t promise that i’ll be happy for you
because when i make my promises i keep them
and “i swear” isn’t something that i throw around easily
so when i promised that i loved you
i wasn’t lying
because i don’t shove my infatuation down the throat of every person who makes me feel less dead
and i know you’ll swear to god that you meant it
but you also swore to god you were going to stay
and sometimes people make promises that they know they can’t keep
and sometimes they make them only because they sound good in the moment
and sometimes people leave when they said they wouldn’t
and sometimes people cry when they’re happy
and sometimes the world is a little bit backwards
but “i promise” was never something i said without thinking it through
so when i promised that i’d always be waiting
i meant it
—  you promised me forever, but you’re not here
Death dangles a cigarette between his lips. Unlit. Death makes the sky rain blood that stains my porcelain skin. Death is the only one to promise me a forever worth waiting for.
—  Unlit Cigarettes & Other Childhood Tragedies (emf)

they’re still babies and their dad wants them to play with the big kids

(based on a real story)

Some days I think I’m over him and then there are days where I end up crying on the bathroom floor till 5:00 am staring at his picture, wondering why he thought I wasn’t good enough. Cursing myself for not being good enough for him.

Excerpts from the book I’ll never write #283


9:34 pm

“He promised me forever,” I told her.

“And you fell for it, didn’t you?” She was quick to accuse.

“No. No, I didn’t,” and I let out a little laugh, “because I knew. I know that sometimes you try so hard to make someone happy and one day it doesn’t mean a damn thing anymore. And it’s so sad but there’s nothing you can do about it. You take it as it is and you move forward, because that’s the thing about this: all we’re doing is making promises we can’t ever keep. But there’s this little piece inside of you hoping that it might be different this time around - whatever helps you sleep at night, right?”

—  c.f. // “whatever helps you sleep at night”
Life Looks Better with Eurovision✨

I love making lists (Slavic ESC songs [x]) and music usually helps me cheer up at least a bit, so here is a little list with songs for a better mood. Warning(as last time): cheesiness, Disneyfeelings here and there not the deepest lyrics

A Million Voices - Polina Gagarina

Believe - Dima Bilan 

Children of the Universe - Molly

Da Da Dam - Paradise Oskar 

Et Uus Saaks Alguse - Birgit

Gravity - Zlata Ognevich

Heartbeat - Can-Linn

Heroes - Måns Zelmerlöw

Hold On Be Strong - Maria

Horehronie -  Kristina Pelakova

Hour of the Wolf -  Elnur Huseynov

I Can - Blue

I’m Alive - Elhaida Dani

It’s My Time - Jade Ewen 

Life Looks Better In Spring - Jon Lilygreen & The Islanders

Loin d'Ici -  ZOË

Love In Rewind - Dino Merlin

Made of Stars - Hovi Star (Bonus: the first version [x])

Monts Et Merveilles - Louisa Baileche

Mojot Svet - Karolina Goceva

My Dream - Thea Garrett

No Degree of Separation -  Francesca Michielin

No Prejudice - Pollapönk

Not Alone - Aram MP3

This is My Life - Anna Bergendahl

Tomorrow - Gianluca Bezzina

Shine - Natalia Kelly

Unbreakable - Sinplus

Unbroken - Maria Olafs

Wars For Nothing - Boggie

Walk on Water - Ira Losco

We Are The Heroes - Litesound

What If - Dina Garipova