I saw a post about Aqours paired up for song's, Like (Ruby+Dia)(Yoshiko+You), it was mentioned a while ago and I wondered if you knew anything about this, and their song group names? I'm a bit lost, are they supposed to release 1 song only? Or are the songs up already? >_< *Help*
Yes, the Duo-Trio sets! Chikanan, Youhane, DiaRuby, MaruMaRiko (which coincidentally they divide the parts for Shoujo Iijo no Koi ga Shitai… gawd, I love the Riko-Maru-Mari end)
There’s no news about them, but since this is part of the Next Step Project, I’m assuming more should be announced once the subunit singles are out? I’m very curious what Image Colors each sets will have/which ones people voted the most for. If they follow the μ’s way, I suppose a Duo/Trio song + singles for each girl, and drama tracks?! Or a completely new format, who knows? Aqours keep surprising me (´∀｀)
Can’t wait to see what style each combo has. Heavy/ industrial metal for Marumariko pls. And yo-yo-yosoro rap/breakdance song for Youhane pls. We know Anchan and Suwawa are capable of ikemen voices, so pls ikemen song for Chikanan (though I’m pretty sure their song will be mellow and fuwafuwa).
One, two, three. One, two, three. The steady rhythms of the stretching exercise made the tempo of the upbeat song, limbs exceeding further than most people could even attempt. Breath in through the nose, hold it steady, now out through the mouth. Alexander began an intricate foot work, working through the jazz warm up as his muscles grew more pliable for dancing. He smiles as he does a simple Soutenu Pique, unaware he had an audience (ErieXAlexander)
Erie was not at all very physically adept at dancing and though she could sing a little, she was not in the arts school for her slight ability. Erie was a sculptor and an animating major in this prestegious fine art academy and she had been staying late in one of the buildings, searching for a muse for her next sculpture when she heard the Jazz flowing into the hall. She perked up and allowed her curiosity to get the best of her as she walked to find the source of the music and once there she noticed an amazing specimine of pique physical fitness. She felt inspired to sketch and take pictures for her sculpting project but first she needed to get permission to use this man’s image. She sat and watched as he danced, entranced by his movements as well as the music that surrounded them and when he finally finished the number, she clapped happily from her spot and approached him. “I am so sorry for intruding bu’ I heard the music…” She began before trailing off as she caught sight of his eyes. “I was wondering if ye would allow me t’ take a few pictures of ye an’ sketch ye a while so I can use ye as a muse for my sculpting projec’…”
It looks like the chase is back on for Battle Chasers.
After a 14 year hiatus that saw creator Joe Madureira begin a video game career and return to comics doing a string of high-profile projecs for Marvel, a Battle Chasers return has been announced as part of Madureira’s new company with Ryan Stefanelli, Airship Syndicate. Revealed on Polygon, the comic book plans are to return in three-issue arcs picking up from the original series while the game spinning out of that story.
I’m going to cry. The prodigal son returns, ha ha. This is just the adrenaline boost I needed. I’m overwhelmingly excited and happy for this dude as both a colleague and a fan! Just…man.
“It’s over, I’m done going after her,” Scott mumbles,
watching Allison at her locker, “She doesn’t even know I exist.”
“Good on you, Scotty,” you pat him on the back, “it’s good
you’re moving on.”
Just as the words leave your lips, Allison flashes a small
smile at Scott and he lets out a long sigh, slumping against his locker, “She’s
“And you’re pathetic,” you grumble, slamming your own locker
shut, “Where’s Stiles? Maybe he’s doing something productive.”
“He’s watching Lydia study,” Scott mumbles, still gazing at
“Great,” you groan, “My two best friends are idiots.”
“One day you’ll fall in love with someone you can’t have and
you’ll know the pain,” Scott grumbles.
Your eyes linger on him for a moment and then you look away,
hoping he doesn’t notice the change in your heartbeat, “You’re full of shit. I’m
going to class.”
“Wait, I’m coming,” Scott sighs, following after you. Just
as you walk into first period, Isaac greets you in the doorway.
“Are we still studying after school?” he smiles.
“Mhmm,” you hum, “Your place, right?”
“Right,” he smirks, giving you a nod and then walking back
to his seat.
As you step into the room, Scott pulls you back into the
doorway, “What are you doing with Isaac?!” he hisses.
“Nothing,” you huff, shrugging his hand off your shoulder, “I’m
just his tutor.”
“He’s bad news – he’s in Derek’s pack, y/n. Tell him to get
“The tutoring centre assigns tutors, Scott. It’s not up to
me, plus…” you trail off, “He’s kinda hot.”
blows a raspberry, his face filled with shock, “You have the worst taste in
“It’s why I’m friends with you,” you spit back, “I’m gonna
sit with him this lesson so I can ease his load for tonight.”
you roll your eyes, smacking the back of Scott’s head, “Go sit with Stiles.”
Scott pouts and rubs the back of his head as he takes his
seat, his eyes pinned on you and Isaac the entire lesson.
“I can’t believe she’s fraternizing with the enemy,” Scott
grumbles to Stiles who stares at him with a puzzled expression, “She’s just
“She thinks he’s hot, Stiles… HOT!”
Stiles frowns, “Stop saying ‘hot’ so loud,” he scowls,
looking around as a few stray eyes watch them.
“He has his hands all over her!”
“It was a high five,” Stiles rolls his eyes, “Can we please
work on our project now?”
“Projec- Stiles, he’s trying to seduce her!”
“So?!” Stiles huffs, “What do you care?” Stiles pauses, studying
Scott with narrowed eyes, “Unless you have a thing for her…”
“What? No – you’re way off dude,” he chuckles nervously, “I’m
just – she’s like my sister and I don’t want Isaac Lahey putting his hands on
my siste-“ he begins to say but abruptly stands up and rushes to the desk in
front of you, turning his chair to face you.
“Y/N, could you go help Stiles for a second?”
“We just can’t get the experiment right.”
“Fine,” you grumble, walking over to Stiles’ desk.
“Alright, Isaac,” Scott says, “Listen to me. Y/N is mine,
she’s my friend, okay? She’s mine. All mine. And you-“ he wiggles a finger in
his face, “- are going to find a new tutor and stay away from her. You don’t look
at her. You don’t breathe near her. You don’t even stand near her. Got me?”
“And why should I listen to you?” Isaac leers.
“Because if you don’t, I’ll join Derek’s pack and slowly
drive you out.”
Isaac stiffens, “Fine,” he spits, just as the bell rings.
You return to your desk and Scott beams at you as you turn
to Isaac, “How’s four o’ clock?”
“Can we reschedule? I forgot I have to retake my English exam,”
Isaac says, giving Scott the side eye.
“Sure,” you nod in confusion as he rushes out the door.
“I’m free tonight,” Scott smiles.
“Oh, no, that’s alright. I was hoping I could finish up with
Isaac early because I have a date tonight,” you whisper excitedly. Scott stares
at you with wide eyes, “A d-date? With who?”
“Ohhh Josh,” he mimics.
“What the hell is wrong with you today?” you ask, half
“Well, what’s wrong with you? Since when do you date all
these guys, huh?”
“The guys that – the guys, okay? You know what guys.”
“Scott, I think you need to go drink some water or
something,” you laugh, pushing past him. He spins you around by your arm, “Tutor
“Scott, I just told you-“
“What? You have time for Isaac but not for your best friend?”
“What? What is it? Isaac and Josh are more important? They’re
“Then what? What is it? Hmmm?”
“Oh my god, you’re such an asshole,” you frown, “What’s
gotten into you?”
“Into me? You’re the one hanging out with all these guys all
of a sudden,” he says.
“Says the guy who was drooling over Allison this morning.”
“That’s different!” he argues, crossing his arms over his
“How is it different?! I watch you go on and on about her
every morning and you’re mad at me for going on one date?! I can’t wait for you
forever!” you blurt out, clapping a hand over your mouth immediately after.
“Wait for me?” he furrows his brows together, “Wait for me
“Shit, you like me!” he exclaims, grinning.
“So?! You like me! You got all jealous of Isaac and Josh.”
“Yeah,” he nods, still smiling.
“Yeah,” he says quietly, walking towards you and taking your
hands in his, “You’re right. I do like you.”
“So then we both like each other?”
He nods, “So we’re dating, then?”
You inhale deeply and then nod slowly. Scott smiles at you,
swinging your hands slightly.
“FINALLY!” Stiles’ voice booms from the opposite side of the
room, “NOW SOMEONE HELP ME FINISH THIS DAMN EXPERIMENT!”
So a beautiful thing happened and Reikiwie actually wanted to do an art collab with me ;///U///; I feel so honored like aaaaah~ She did the amazing line art and I scribbled in the colors. I was super sick while coloring this but she likes it so I’m super happy <3 ENJOY, QROWIN BABIES, A BELATED CHRISTMAS GIFT~ Thank you Reikiwie for coming together with me for such a fun projec ;u; If you guys haven’t followed this super sweet lady yet, you best do it now!
The most unusual, as well as exciting constellation of the
year has to be Lindemann. Peter Tägtgren (Hypocrisy, PAIN) and Till
Lindemann (Rammstein) joined causes to record the already much posted
about, “Skills in Pills”, while commuting between Swedish Pärlby and
Berlin. The result: a monster of an album and a band that perhaps even
has something of a future. In an informal conversation, Till and Peter
talked to Metal Hammer about what Lindemann means to them.
Out of fun sprung seriousness – not very quickly, but
rather, after years of beating around the bush. The two protagonists
from LINDEMANN, Peter Tägtgren and Till Lindemann, talk about how much
time and effort it took from the first idea until the originally
unplanned album took form.
It’s been a long time since the first idea of the band, Lindemann,
to the finished product. Have you used this time to get to know each
Peter Tägtgren: Not only that, but we have
also needed the time to synchronize our calendars. We’ve been friends
since 1999 and we have met with each other as often as it was even
possible, and we’ve been calling and sending text messages. Two years
ago, I went to a couple of Rammstein gigs before Wacken; Till had
invited me. We met and he said that he was due to go on a break and that
we should realize our plans. It started that way and with only one song
Till Lindemann: Before we went about it, we met up in
Sweden at the Bråvalla Festival, but we had friends and family along and
we couldn’t talk much. I said, “I’m going to have a break for six
months up to two years, let’s do something in the meantime.” Peter
didn’t put much faith in that initially, since we’ve promised this to
each other for almost ten years. But a few days after Wacken, I actually
rang him up. I said, “Send me what you’ve got.” Four weeks later, I
received a file and worked on it for a few days – that was what would
become ‘Ladyboy’, our first track. I think that Peter was almost annoyed
at first because I said, “Let’s post it on the Internet and see what
they say.” Peter never did that, though, but he sent me more files. It
just kept rolling on.
And then you met?
TL: No, we did that only after another five or six songs. We simply sent ideas back and forth for the duration.
PT: Till wrote the lyrics and I wrote the music.
I worked with my Logic system and he, with Pro-Tools. I loaded his
stuff into my system and worked on the song. Admittedly, the first few
demos were pretty bad. Nonetheless, suddenly, we had five songs and that
begged the question: an EP or a Mini Disc? I declined, to gain some
more time to think about it, but Peter insisted: “Let’s make an entire
album!” I didn’t think it was such a brilliant idea. But then I visited
his studio and began commuting back and forth. That was great, it was
like weekend getaways. I was busy doing other things during the week,
but from Friday morning to Sunday evening, I could be at Peter’s and in
the studio. His studio is right next to a lake so it was really like
having a vacation.
Did the pleasant atmosphere in Peter’s studio help the project along?
At least it helped with not wanting to cut short the studio time
because you didn’t like the place. The atmosphere was very nice, even if
the studio itself was rather dodgy (laughs). Somehow, it all fit
together, it was the perfect working conditions. Additionally,
everything went very quickly as Peter brought in an enormous amount of
experience and I could describe to him how I like to work. Subsequently,
we only needed a few weeks and a few sessions before it really clicked.
How does it feel now, when it’s clear that there actually is an
album, and a band, both totally different from what you do with your
PT: Quite honestly, we don’t really appreciate
that. Before, there wasn’t a record label, no management, no one else
was involved and that was nice.
TL: It wasn’t easy for Peter to
bring this to the public, to show what we had and have them respond to
it. I, on the other hand, had a good feeling about it from the
beginning. For me, it was this mix between Gothic and Metal, colliding
like in a great big accident, that’s so exciting.
it decided from the beginning what the sound on the album should be and
that the vocals would be in English? Or how did you discover this mix?
No idea. Learning by doing, I’d say. Originally, we only wanted to make
a song or two. All the rest came about when we got inspired by the
lyrics in relation to the music. It was sort of a snowball-effect. The
only thing we knew was that we wanted it to be clearly separated from
Rammstein and my own projects, Pain and Hypocrisy. For Till, obviously,
that’s only possible to a certain extent when it comes to Rammstein. But
it was interesting to work on the lyrics, and Till was like a kid in a
candy store with all these new words and phrases. We often laughed
whenever he’d sung something. Sometimes, before he even started on the
vocals, he’ throw in the towel whenever something didn’t work out. Then I
said, “Come on, let’s try it,” even if I realized: Oh God, this will
TL: Obviously, I wanted to explain to Peter what the lyrics were about.
Sometimes, he sent me the lyrics for one of my music files. Under other
circumstances, I just received a lyric that he’d recorded on his
Smartphone in the bathroom, and I built the song around that. So we
worked in many different ways.
So it was completely different from how you normally work?
PT: Yes, completely different. There wasn’t any such thing as pressure, we were just experimenting.
So there’s a lot of freedom in the album? That you could go ahead
and do what you wanted, without the pressure from other band members or
the record label?
PT: And without any pressure from the fans. We could just try out everything and do the craziest things.
For me, it was like the time when we started the new band project and
Rammstein was still very young. You just played, everything was allowed,
it was like free style, there were no limits. So, there still aren’t
any limits in Rammstein, only the expectations from the fans, on like
artwork, music and concerts. This is a playground in the middle of
In which it’s also a lot easier to decide on things, while there’s just two people involved instead of five or six others?
TL: You are very right. It was a big relief for me.
So now, when the music and the lyrics are done, how will the visual elements, namely photos and artwork, be perceived?
PT: The ideas all come from Till. I have only helped a little with this.
We simply divided the tasks. Everyone did what they do best. I brought
along this experience from Rammstein. Peter was heavily involved in all
the aspects of the production, while I took care of the visual design.
Every idea was discussed back and forth, regardless of whether it came
from me or from Till originally. That was the easiest for us. The photo
shoot in October was really a lot of fun, since we didn’t have any idea
where it would all take us. Four photographers were present.
TL: We had an idea…
No professionals from big firms, but friends. This is how Stefan
Heilemann crystallized as one of those who would be doing the most work
for us. The others were then chosen to do press shoots and such things.
Then Till took the photos and edited them. A mind blowing task!
Frankly, no one had expected a collaboration between Till
Lindemann and Peter Tägtgren. But now, when the finished result is here
and with perhaps even more records to come, it’s obvious that this is a
perfect combination – Till as the lyricist and vocalist, Peter as the
composer and producer. Why did we have to wait so long for a
collaboration like this?
PT: Because we quite simply had too many other things going on.
Every project has its own designated time. But I was rather sure about
this thing. Even my colleagues predicted it: “Whenever he’ll get bored,
he’ll go to Peter Tägtgren and make music with him.” I’ve had this idea
in my head for quite some time, and finding the time to do it was the
only problem for me. As it always has been and always will be: Rammstein
comes first. But I was certain that I wanted to do this project with
Peter. I had a clear vision of what I could be singing to this massive
wall of guitars, bass and sequencers. And this is exactly what I
appreciate with Peter’s music and his composing. I wanted to make it
even better than he could himself, and thus, we weren’t discussing
lyrics, but melodies. And then, when you one day come to the realization
that these visions have come true, it is a really good feeling.
So only Till is doing the vocals and Peter is not doing any singing, right?
PT: That’s right, and that’s how we envisioned from the beginning. Till’s the captain of the ship; of THIS ship…
TL: Yes, on THIS ship, that’s to be said.
This experience is really a true relief for me and it would also be the
only plausible solution on stage. I’m so tired of being the frontman.
And Till is one of the best in the world. I can hide behind him. That is
the perfect situation for me because then I can concentrate on my music
and on the production. If you split up things the way we do, only good
things can come out of it. When I’m working on my other projects,
there’s always a lot of stuff I have to take into consideration. You
notice it only a couple of months after the release of an album when you
realize: Damn, I could have done that a lot better. With Till, we’re
two producers, so to speak, who both know exactly what we want. We
always find an agreement; everything that we decide on makes sense.
even if you’ve quite obviously known each other for ten years, there
are surely character traits in the other that you didn’t know about, or?
PT: Till is the biggest crybaby I know (laughs). No, but honestly, we joke a lot with each other.
TL: All day long.
PT: We’re like brothers who horse around all day long.
In a project like this, are you bickering a lot about details, melodies or such? Are you taking everything seriously?
TL: In the beginning, everything is pure sunshine, of course…
PT: Like newlyweds: I love you (laughs). And then later on: you fucking bastard, I hate you!
Bickering will come with time, probably. Right now, we’re still at our
honeymoon stage. No angry words, everything is harmonious and runs by
PT: The good thing is that what ticks Till off doesn’t
bother me and the other way around. He often says, “Do what you’d like, I
don’t care.” Everyone has their own role in this project.
Are you often thinking about where this project could take you? And how far you want to push it?
There aren’t any plans at all once the album’s released. We thought
that stage was splendid, since no one knew about the project and we
could make rather loose plans about videos and such things. We sometimes
asked ourselves if we should be thinking like a band? Or should we just
make sure that this would be a cool album?
Peter, are you playing all the instruments on the album?
Almost. But Clemens from Carash Angren played a crucial role too. He
helped me with the string sections, he makes movie scores and such
otherwise. He’s responsible for all the orchestral parts.
TL: Except that Peter played all the instruments, produced the record, recorded it, edited it – everything.
That was also what made this so easy, if we wanted to change something
in the arrangements, we didn’t have to call whomever band member in
order to try it out.
TL: Peter is an absolute workaholic, he can
sit for 14 hours in front of the computer. I have no idea how people can
do that, I would go insane after two hours. But he was still sitting in
the studio when I got up at night to go to the bathroom. I stood on the
terrace and saw that the lights were on in the studio, since Peter had
some unsolved problem or other and absolutely wanted to fix it. He gets a
bit crazy when that happens and it is rather intolerable for other
So this is why you have produced quite a lot of bands in the last few years…
Yes, I know, but I do try to take it a bit easier and enjoy life more.
But there’s always these calendar appointments that I have to check off.
what was the hardest thing for you — was it to sing in English? There
are only a few, rather short, English strophes in Rammstein, but here,
you are singing in English throughout. And you know better than anyone
how greatly the German language differs from others.
biggest effort was to gain the necessary self-confidence. I wasn’t sure
about this at all. That’s why I suggested in the end that we should
release something on the Internet and wait for the reactions. But Peter,
and a few other people around me, encouraged me. I wrote the words
first, only to then adapt them into vocals, which was a rather strange
way for me to go about it. But this way, it became a much larger
international attempt, right from the start.
PT: Do you miss the German lyrics when you hear the songs?
To be honest, whenever I hear Till singing in English, I translate
it into German. As a German, I immediately associate his voice with
German lyrics. But I suppose that international listeners see things
very differently. This could be really interesting.
haven’t heard any reactions at all to that yet. But perhaps no one says
anything if they don’t like it. I thought from the very first song: Yes,
that’s it! This is really cool! So it’s deliberately kept very raw. You
immediately recognize the attitude.
TL: We have exaggerated it a bit and I have also tried to ease up on some of my accent, but somehow, that’s part of the charm.
PT: I think that’s what people want to hear. They aren’t interested in someone sounding like an American.
That wouldn’t befit Lindemann at all.
Exactly. It would be foolish to change that. The only thing with which
we have been really particular, is the correct use of grammar. So that
no “you is” or somesuch slipped by us.
question I ask myself, after I have listened to the songs a few times
is, should this be taken seriously or should it be humorous?
TL: It’s good that you ask yourself that, that means we have done it properly.
PT: It should make you think. It’s like an open book.
The listener is forced to read a little between the lines to understand
the irony. The audience takes Rammstein way too seriously at times, to
the point that we’re misunderstood. People should read more between the
lines there too. It’s a large bandwidth, what you are singing and what
it could mean. The topics are very multi-faceted and just as different
as the reactions that we’ve gotten in the past few weeks.
Every song has a very different meaning for different people. It was
funny to hear just how different the opinions were for any given song.
Sometimes, we just sat there and thought: Oh, that’s right! It could
surely mean this too! It’s a good thing to be open to everything.
think one of the most harmonious songs is ‘Yukon‘, after I read that
you were there on vacation. You can see the scenery before you when you
listen to the song. I could really imagine how you felt when you were
PT: It was like that for me too, when I wrote the
music to the lyrics. I put down his words in front of me and composed
the music to it, and soon, this feeling of distance and seclusion came
‘Fish On‘ is also quite a sensational song.
And this song has quite a quirky genesis too. The listener probably
won’t hear it, but it was in a rather strange way that this song came
about. There are completely different parts in it, and to put them all
together was a pain in the ass. It just happened, while we were
experimenting with the arrangements, with the strophes and the chorus.
But it all came together in the end. Till had some lyrics and wanted to
record them to a Click Track – but he began rapping, like Beastie Boys.
I told Peter: “I have a strophe here, and for the first time in my
life, I want you to write music to an already finished melody.” I wanted
to have the written word and then compose the music around these words,
instead of our usual way of making the music first and then finding the
appropriate words. The only problem was that I was a bit short on time,
since I had to go to the airport. So I said to Peter: “Just give me a
Click Track.” Of course, I had absolutely no experience with working
this way, while the Click Track required some kind of rap-singing. The
freestyle raps often start out with a drum loop. So, I simply sang two
strophes and then forgot all about it almost right away. But three
months later, Peter sent me a file with this sequence and his music. It
sounded fabulous. When my voice came on, I remembered this short singing
session again. Peter had already written a chorus, too. It was a really
PT: Then Till put vocals to the final take and we had a new song.
There was only a few parts that were changed, the chorus and the intro,
for example. Additionally, we developed a C-part, it was a little like
with LEGO pieces.
PT: Half of the rest of the tracks are built
like LEGO. The longer we worked on an idea, the crazier it got. We
became more confident as time passed and also tried out really crazy
What is the biggest goal you want to achieve with this record? I
suppose that you just wanted to have fun with the songs from the
beginning. Although, now it’s a serious project…
TL: It’s in
the human nature that whatever you do, you want it to have a positive
outcome. Otherwise it would be useless to do it at all. No one makes
shit deliberately. Naturally we’re hoping for favorable reactions. It’s
not as if it’s Nirvana’s ‘Smells Like Teen Spirit’, but we have written a
really good album. The whole process of the genesis of the project was a
lot of fun since it was all made under vacation-like circumstances in
something of a holiday paradise.
Are you going to take something from this production along to Rammstein?
TL: Yes, guaranteed, but I won’t tell you about it (laughs)!
… perhaps the idea of experimenting with English lyrics in Rammstein?
You never know what will happen in the future, but only the German
language belongs in Rammstein. Of course, you could examine the lyrics
like ‘Pussy’ and ‘Amerika’, but I’ll leave that up to the German
division of my main band (smiles).
And you, Peter? Are you taking something with you from this project to your other work?
I brought with me my 20 years’ worth of experience and I was, thanks to
Till, motivated to become better than ever before. When I got the
feeling that it was good enough and stopped, it was never as good as it
is now. Besides that, I wanted to show Till that I could make things
just as well as anyone. It was a helpful kick in the ass.
It’s very interesting that Till, being a part of a democratic band, and Peter, who’s a lone wolf, work so well together.
PT: I don’t have an ego, neither does Till. We have only done what we thought was right for every song.
Peter, how do you feel about the fact that this project is called Lindemann?
PT: The thing was: we didn’t have a name for this project.
TL: Tägtgren would have made a good name too.
After we’d made a few songs, it was obvious that we needed a name. Both
of us texted stupid band names to each other for months. A lot were
just for fun, but some were honestly meant.
TL: It’s incredibly
hard to find a good name these days. We had a few good ideas, such as
“Way Outs” and “Kraut”, and, what I thought would be the perfect name,
“Stockholm Syndrome”. But we decided on a single word, and most of them
were already taken or were registered to domains already.
Are we going to see you live, somehow, somewhere?
TL: First we have to see how this thing plays out.
Then we have to wait for the reactions to actually know – in case we’re
going to do it – how much interest it would generate; and not only 50
people in a pizza joint. We’ll have to wait and see before we can make
any decisions for if and in which framework we could tour. It’s
difficult to estimate at the moment. But we still have time, we’ve got
the whole summer ahead of us to make plans.
help i just went to set up my board and theres all these people making neural network algorithms and processing cells with biologist and im just that one kid who grew grass in the corner of their parents bedroom with the most ghetto setup imaginable thats how bad my projec t is compared to everything oh god no amount of nat 20s will save me now ~ db
I am so fucking tired of discovering more and more things that are wrong with me. I wish I wasnt maladaptive daydreaming all throughout middle school I wish I just repressed and completely forgot my trauma I wish I didn’t have to look back at the past & think “wait that was actually a panic attack” or “that was actually an obvious symptom” I wish I didn’t want to scratch my skin off or hurt myself I wish I could just have healthy affectionate & intimate relationships I wish I wasn’t afraid of becoming who hurt me I wish my mood was stable I wish I would stop projecing the archetypes of people who hurt me onto my friends I wish I wasn’t paranoid and anxious I wish I could just be normal I wish I just be okay I wish I wish I wish