January Recap!

Good things:

-Lost 6lbs
-Only took 2 rest days
-Had mostly green bars every day
-Am ahead/up to date with all of my classes
-Only had 2 binges

February Goals:

*Lose 10lbs
*Stay ahead in school
*Go to every single class
*Bullet journal daily (once it’s here)
*Lower than 50g of carbs a day
*5 days a week of gym
*Save at least $100 from each pay period (like put it away for moving)
*Only 2 cheat meals for the whole month
*No binging

My birthday is this month and I’d like to be down to 135 by then, I’d also like to make that my next cheat meal. This month is going to be great and I can’t wait to see what it holds!

headcanon 001 :: the book

he’d always liked stories. stories where good won and evil was squashed, for they were the only stories he wanted to call a reality. his hopeless optimism told him to continue to believe in those stories from the moment he knew what they were; from the moment he could discern between the good and the evil between the streaks of ink on worn paper he knew that he had to cherish such stories, and keep them alive in hopes that one day his own story could come true. 

he wrote stories for himself; his rhetoric grew, his handwriting straightened, as the stories progressed, as the clear divide between the good and the evil became more obvious. he wrote stories on the backs of paper bags in stolen ink, only to throw them away; he had no use for them, for he had no one to share them with. they were for his own sense of escapism, and for quite some time he was content to populate the stories with names and faces that no one else would ever see. 

but then there was a baby. 

a growing promise in the air, the possibility of someone to listen, to appreciate, to carry the stories and love them as much as he. the baby would understand the magic between the lines, surely. the baby would grow up hearing stories, and loving stories, and maybe one day the child of his dearest friend would write stories on his own. 

and so he wrote. he wrote, and he wrote; he bound the book himself with stolen parchment and leather taken from worn old boots. it was a fantastical story, with dragons and princes and princesses; red heroes and silver queens with evil behind their eyes and claws reaching toward the baby, but never reaching. and the hero– the hero’s name was gabe. 

but the hero disappeared from the pages before the story could finish, and emmett lost the will to write. a story without a hero is no story at all, and so he hid the unfinished edition from lake, from flynn; he never spoke of it, and he still never will. for if the hero cannot read his own story, what is the point? it’s hidden away now, beneath stacks and stacks of blankets in emmett’s quarters, in a corner well protected from the hero’s mother, who needn’t any more reminders that the story will remain unfinished. 

perhaps it would be good to finish it, to give gabe an end to his questing after all. but for now, the ink is dry. and the evil has made the will dark. 

What’s up my lovelies!! I’m extremely tired BUT I wanted to update you on very good and very nice progress! Lady Seymour is seriously come around really really nicely and i really can’t wait to ware her!

I will be debuting her on Saturday Morning around 9:30-11am for a Final Fantasy photoshoot then again on Sunday all day for Valentines Day. Both times my friend @shirtlessboywonder will be doing Tidus with me 😉

I’m so excited for Katsucon it’s only a few days away! The hype is so real…. But so is the stress, the nerves and the exhaustion.

Remember to not be shy and say hi~ 😜

#progress #cosplaycrunch #panic #cosplay #summoner #anima #finalfantasy #fayth #finalfantasyx #seymourguado #seymour #tidus #yuna #katsucon

years of progress in art

I was encouraging a penpal to practice art every day, and I made this to show her how my own progress has gone over the years. I simply sketch every day and thought it’d be fun to share.

And of course, here’s last year which was technically only a month away.

You can do it! :D

phases of an illustration

1. try to just start sketching an idea
2. “do I even know how to draw?! ugh”
3. disgust
4. “I’ll just find some reference photos”
5. three days go by browsing stock photos on deviantart
6. try sketching again
7. disgust
8. procrastination
9. snacks
10. forging the only pieces you like from 10 different sketches into an unholy frankenstein page covered with smudges
11. “that’s probably fine I guess”
12. start doing final lineart and decide you want to change half of it
13. lineart takes 3x longer than expected
14. start color
16. don’t move for 15 hours straight because you’re in the zone
17. reach ¾ progress point; lose all motivation
18. procrastination
19. whining
20. snacks
21. walking away for days or weeks if you don’t have a deadline
24. “Oops, I hate it.”

Am I the only one?
  • With the second half of season 6 just a few days away I have to get something off my chest. When it comes to the whole "Who is Negan going to kill Glenn or Daryl?" I say Glenn. Not because I like Daryl more or because I want Glenn to die. I love them both greatly but for the show to progress like it needs to, it just makes more sense to be Glenn.
  • With Glenn's death you get a pissed off, broken hearted Maggie who wants to leave Rick's group to escape Glenn's memory. So she stays at Hilltop. Then becomes their leader and has Herschel jr.
  • With Daryl's death you only get a bunch of pissed off fan girls. Which would probably make fans hate Negan more but it just doesn't push the show in the direction in needs to go. Now I'm not saying that Daryl isn't going to die, but I just don't think it will be at Negan's hands... at least not this soon.
  • Any time I try and talk to anyone else about this they all jump in to a crazy fit and try and tell me other wise. So if any one would like to have a calm and reasonable discussion about it, or anything else about The Walking Dead, I'm here.

I’m complain about tiredness more probably lately, but I’ve been doing so much more than I used to.

I did Social Interaction 3 days in a row + I’ve been sewing + my room has stayed fairly clean for a couple weeks now

I’m tired, that’s a symptom that probably won’t go away without medication, but I’m doing things. That’s so much progress from going multiple days in a row only leaving my bed when I absolutely must.

Guys, I posted my client Ryan’s progress before but I am blown away with how much he has stepped up his game and accomplished in only 60 days. All my clients motivate me everyday single day and Ryan is killing it! Remember guys if you’re working hard that’s great, but if you’re working at things that don’t get you closer to your goals then you end up just spinning your wheels. EMAIL ME to find the right plan for you so you yourself can get the results you deserve. by sadikhadzovic

Itโ€™s not my fault
That you could not see
All that we could be,
In our entirety.

Maybe one day,
After all of this dismay has gone away,
We will be able to find a reason for all of our pain.

But, as for now, this has been my gain
Because youโ€™re the only one seen as insane.

Youโ€™re not sorry,
And I dont care.

Iโ€™ll write this like a poem,
But only you can sing it as a song
Because I was only ever good for my word
And you were only ever good with your tongue.

—  A work in progress

    A sense of silence had fallen over
    Karasuno High; the birds had begun
    their nightly routine, all students
    were safely home and enjoying the
    company of their family. As always,
    the only noise that interrupted the
    evening peace came from the gym,
    where the volleyball team was still
    hard at work. Their improvements
    may seem small, but every day, the
    team made a little more progress.
    The preliminary games were still far
    away, but every moment given was

    Though exhaustion weighs down on
    a tired ace’s shoulders, Asahi knows
    he has just enough energy to practice
    a few more serves, dig down just a bit
    deeper, or spike the ball just a couple
    more times. Though the task could be
    done alone, the boy knows he’ll do
    better if he has  company-someone
    who can help push the little drive he
    has last out of him.

    So, he relies on the one person he’s sure
    will have enough energy for the job.

                                         “Oi, Nishinoya. Are you sticking
                                         around? Wanna give me some tosses?”

Tomorrow morning marks the exact day last pregnancy that I began spotting before my miscarriage ...

It was around 7/8 am on August 14th and I noticed light spotting. It was only there when I wiped in the bathroom. (It slowly progressed for about 6 days which is why I was in such denial). I immediately went to shoppers a few blocks away to buy a digital pregnancy test so I could reconfirm that I was indeed still pregnant. It was that day after going to the bathroom only an hour before that I took that test. It was positive with a 2-3 week indicator, which I was more then 3+ but obviously didn’t have enough HCG in my urine to detect a 3+.

Anyways it was that day that I called my boss and told her I had puked and wasn’t able to go to work. She had no clue I was even pregnant but that call gave her a indication. I took another digital test 3 days later as the spotting progressed into bleeding but I used first morning urine and that test Sunday morning was 3+.

Unfortunately I began seeing clots and I knew deep down, I was losing my baby. The only person I told about the whole experience at the time was my mom. She has had a miscarriage and she kept telling me it was all going to be ok and the baby was going to be fine. I knew otherwise.

I finally and officially miscarried my baby the Thursday morning at about 4 am. I saw it all. It was all natural and I wouldn’t wish anyone to go threw that experience. I couldn’t ask for another day off since I had really only been at my job for about 4 months and I called in sick the first day of spotting 6 days prior.

I went to work completely depressed. I cried to myself 3 times that whole day. No one knew, no one had a single idea what I was experiencing. I began to develop a serious fear of going to the bathroom. It was more blood upon clots which seriously became a real life nightmare that I had FEARED my entire life. I wasn’t in the most pain that I probably could have experienced but my boss could tell I was NOT myself.

Closer the the end of the day she brought me to the back of the shop to ask if I was ok because I didn’t seen like my “happy go lucky” self and just like word vomit I immediately said “to be honest right now I am experiencing my first miscarriage”. She didn’t expect me to say that I could tell but she began to say “it will all be ok, you will get pregnant again”. I felt like saying well it took me 2 years to even get pregnant but I just began crying because it wasn’t confirmed yet but I just knew, I was miscarrying. She told me if I needed time off to just give her a call, and she let me go home a half hour early because obviously I had been having the worst day ever. The following day on the Friday August 21st I called her at 7 in the morning and asked for 2 days off to go to the doctors etc she let me. Luckily I had 3 days off after that so I had 5 days to do anything I needed to, and shit did I ever! I went to emerge August 21st and they confirmed I had miscarried (which I already knew) I would have to say after about 11 days of bleeding it finally tapered off and it was over. On the Monday I had a vaginal ultrasound to confirm I had passed everything and it was confirmed. My fear of going to the bathroom slowly went away. I began to feel empowered that I literally conquered my biggest fear of miscarrying. I finally felt like the strongest woman I could have ever felt. I knew no matter what, I could and can survive a miscarriage. I am a strong woman.

If there is anything I would change is the fact that having a miscarriage is so taboo, I had a baby that I unfortunately lost. Nearly no one knows about that baby, I think that’s why I NEED to include my miscarriage in my pregnancy announcement this time. To pay respect to the baby that was simply to perfect for this world. This baby was due March 28th 2016, a day I will hold dear to my heart always. 💗💜💗

Getting to this part of my current pregnancy has been slightly hectic. I’ve been pretty nervous BUT I believe this baby will be with us forever. After I reach 8 weeks and 3 days (which is a week away) I WILL feel even that more relaxed! I believe it. Ironically my first prenatal appt is February 12th and that is my 8week and 4 days pregnant. Oh the irony! Wish us a wonderful week of happy thoughts and amazing vibes!

Form: Squats are killing my knees via /r/Fitness

37M - 75 Kg - 1.80 m beginner, bulking on ICF5x5 for past 6 months, and will begin cut in 1 month.

tldr: knees hurt. squat form check, please.

So I did SL5x5 for 3 months to gain strength and moved to ICF because my thighs got big while my upper body changed very little. I’ve been steadily following the program for another 3 months. Progression is far from linear, but overall I gained almost 1 Kg/month and I’m happy with the results.

But 3 weeks ago I started feeling pain in my knees the day after. It’s mostly while getting up from chairs or walking down stairs. I eventually started feeling it during squat warm ups but it would go away during the exercise. This happened from 90 - 102.5 Kg, which is my historical maximum. Despite deloading to 80 Kg, it only got worse and it was time to stop.

Last day I tried machine leg press, but I still felt it. I’d already checked with you guys when I was at 70 Kg, because of back issues, and everything looked fine. I workout at night, and there’s no one to spot or check on me. This is me at 92.5 Kg.

Can you form check for my knees? What’s a good alternative exercise while I heal, and should I also do 5x5 on those?

Also, last time I was advised to use flat shoes or go barefoot. I chose the cheapest option.


Submitted February 10, 2016 at 10:44AM by _whatevs_
via reddit

i’ve lost about 1 pound every day this week. i don’t physically see any progress yet but seeing it on the scale is so promising. if I keep this up, i’ll be at my goal weight in less than a month. 

the only thing is my husband is home on the weekend and it will be a lot harder to get away with not eating…. I will just have to eat breakfast in front of him before he goes to the gym and purge while he’s gone. I don’t know what to do about lunch and dinner =/

#aotd is Nocturnal Masquerade by TOOTHGRINDER. This album combines the technical aspects of Progressive Metal with the heaviness of Metalcore, all the while integrating melodic guitar passages and clean vocals to break up the heaviness. Nothing Toothgrinder does sounds particularly exciting on paper. Both Melodic Metalcore bands and Metalcore bands which integrate more progressive, technical playing, usually don’t elicit anything more than an exasperated shrug from me these days. Toothgrinder are different however, their sound is more reminiscent of the battering heaviness of bands like Meshuggah than any Metalcore band and they don’t shy away from the more extreme aspects of this sound. Perhaps the only place where the band doesn’t impress is through the melodic clean singing, as its atonal blandness sticks out amongst the inspired performances which surround it. The harsh vocalist is consistently excellent all over this album, alongside his more than competent growls he also gets in touch with his inner Mike Patton with some devious whispered vocals and shrill high screams on tracks like “Blue”. Instrumentally, the thick, twisting guitars and off-kilter drums benefit immensely from the brilliant production which gives them a tonne of kick. The compositions on the album bank on the density of the instrumentation quite a bit, though there are hardly any breakdowns per se, there are plenty of ‘jumpdafkup’ moments. Luckily, the instrumentation brings more than enough bravado to give these moments the bounce they need, like at the end of “Dejection/Despondency” or the punishing intro on the opener “The House (That Fear Built)”. Only the out of place slower track “I Lie In Rain” disappoints, as it roots itself in the most poorly developed aspect of Nocturnal Masquerade, it’s clean vocal performance, and ignores the technical heaviness which makes every other track so enjoyable. Nocturnal Masquerade is a ridiculously heavy and ridiculously fun Metal album that puts an invigorated spin on tired sounds and comes through with something that feels refreshing and addictive.
Rating: 3.6/5

anonymous asked:

You are literally the biggest coward ever for blowing off all of these little girls for eve. I hope you can learn to grow as a person one day and face your problems Instead of running away like a fucking coward. Bro your bridges kaelin but you'll never be able to get over all the people you've lost for being a fucking coward

I’m happy and thats all that matters. I’m not a coward, far from it. Eve’s my first and only love. I’m healthy and progressing. You can continue hating from your distance.

J&K govt formation: Amit Shah meets PM, PDP unhappy over fund delay

Still to go public with the future of its alliance with the BJP, the PDP is cut up that there has hardly been any progress on the implementation of the economic package that Prime Minister Narendra Modi announced for Jammu & Kashmir on November 7.

“There was an understanding that about Rs 5,000-6,000 crore will flow through various schemes within a month, but hardly 20 per cent of that has reached the state,” a PDP leader said.

It took two months for the Centre to finally release Rs 1,200 crore. “Even this happened only on January 7, the day Mufti Sahab passed away,” the leader said, adding that no more funds were disbursed thereafter.

Watch video: J&K crisis: What Is Troubling The PDP-BJP Alliance?

Dismissing reports that PDP chief Mehbooba Mufti was set to seek popular support after snapping ties with the BJP, PDP sources said the channels of negotiation were still open. “She (Mehbooba) told party leaders that discussions on government formation are still underway. If the alliance with the BJP does not continue, then the PDP will not be part of any other government,” the sources said.

In New Delhi, J&K BJP leaders held a series of meeting with their central leadership Monday.

Sources said BJP chief Amit Shah had met Prime Minister Modi for over two hours Sunday during which both leaders also discussed developments in J&K.

State BJP leaders met Shah and had a discussion with party general secretary Ram Madhav, who was instrumental in bringing the two parties together to form a government last March.

The BJP, party sources said, will ask Mehbooba Mufti to spell out her stand on the alliance before taking any step. “Mehbooba has not conveyed anything to us so far. Let her spell out her position on the alliance and the government,” sources said.

A section in the BJP wants the party to continue its alliance with the PDP and form the government, but there are others who are unhappy with “the way Mehbooba has been handling the issue” and they don’t want the party to blink. “We have formed the government and drafted the agenda for governance for the development of Jammu and Kashmir. We will continue to do so,” a party leader said.

“The agenda we have agreed upon is for six years and we have started working on it in the last 10 months. How can PDP expect us to give another assurance now and set a timeframe? We can carry them forward only if the government is functioning,” a leader said.

Forgive the To-Do list. It’s helping me keep track of what I have planned. ;P I’ll tag these as davionrambles.

-Wake up (This usually takes a good hour on weekends, and that’s even after I drag myself out of bed) DONE

-Clean Kitchen: IN PROGRESS (Waiting for the dishwasher to cool down before I put anything away)

-Clean Desk DONE…enough. At least I have desk space again.

-Recycle cans at grocery store since I’ve been lazy and I have multiple bags of them (we only drink a can a day each, to give you an idea of exactly how lazy I am) DONE, 2 bags today, will go out again tomorrow to do 2 more.

-Write more of Zaik and Tempest story

-Finish that pic of Tempest and Jill

-Level my Scholar up to 40 in FFXIV DONE

-See how bad my internet connection is in my new game room in the basement

-Try Ranked mode in Splatoon again, see if I can’t upgrade from C+ scrub to B- scrub