I’m Jewish, and my dad- a goy- was watching it with me.
one of the scenes that really got to me was
because you can see the way Erik’s face changes because Charles just doesn’t understand what he was doing when he said that.
Think back to the bar scene in the beginning. What does the Nazi say to excuse his actions?
So when Erik heard that? It just reminded him of what he knew and has been saying up until that very moment. Nothing’s changed.
I identified so much with Erik’s plight and I felt a physical ache in my chest when he spoke the next lines
Because growing up, all Jewish kids have heard or seen that in remembrance of the Shoah. Never Again.
My father made it clear that he didn’t understand; “So he’s gonna kill them all for following orders?”
“Dad, following orders blindly, without even questioning them set us up in some really dark times.”
“Whatever, the guy’s just blood thirsty and ready to blame anyone.”
And the thing is, Erik isn’t bloodthirsty, and never really has been. He’s logical and see’s the world based on his experiences of human actions. He’s seen the worst of them and refuses to be lulled into the false sense of security that working with the government had given some of them. Or the never-ending optimism Charles seems to have for the human race.
Because the fact is, Charles didn’t go through what Erik did and that’s one of the biggest causes of their thought differentiation.
It just showed me how much Erik’s backstory impacted me more than it did goyim. Sure we didn’t experience it like our grand and great-grandparents did. We weren’t actually in the Shoah; But it’s left such an intense impression and stain on our history that we are still triggered by it, threatened by it as ‘jokes’ and forced to see it used as a rhetorical device in arguments with no relation to it.
We didn’t experience it but it is part of us in ways others can’t understand. And I think Erik-an actual survivor- really truly realized that when Charles spoke that line.
Ok so here it is, my first and endless Jimin smut story. I reaaally hope y'all like it. Please don’t be to hard on me, as English isn’t my first language, i really tried to make it as read-able as possible. If it gets enough positive reactions i will think about writing a part 2.
Word count: 4,4K
Feature: Jimin x Reader
Genre: SMUT/ANGST and a little bit of everything i guess
“Wake up! (Y/N), we’re going to be fucking late again” You hear your roommate’s voice coming from across the room. You look up, while rubbing your eyes to get a clear sight of the situation. “What time is it?” You ask while slowly sitting up and scratching your head out of confusion. You see your roommate rushing into her favorite jeans.
“ It’s passed 9 already, we’ve got to leave in like 10 minutes if we still want to make it to Economics.”
Economics was giving by Professor Park, the young handsome professor who you spend way too much time staring at during lectures. You quickly rush into the bathroom to brush your teeth and wash your face. You didn’t have enough time to pick out a trendy outfit, so you just chose a a baggy vest and summer dress with some ballerina’s to wear under it. You both rush into the halls of the campus on your way to the classroom the lecture is being held in. Relieved to finally arrive, you stumble in loudly, still laughing about the joke Melanie made about Prof. Park’s nice round butt. You both swallow your laughter after looking into the very quiet, not so amused class and a serious looking Mr. Park. “ You ladies decides to come early today? ” “ Sorry professor, we keep getting lost in this gigaaantic place.” Melanie replied in a innocent and childish like tone while moving her hands apart to indicate how big she was talking about. You could tell he hadn’t had much experience as a professor, as her reply made him act a little uncomfortable. “ Alright girls, last time.” He said while turning his back towards both of you. You quickly walk up to find a spot in the back of the room. At the end of the lecture you grab your bag and make your way towards the door, when a sudden voice stops you from moving. “ (Y/N) could you come here for a second? ” You turn around to see Professor Park looking at you. “ Uh yeah.. Sure professor.” You reply You tell your friend to wait for you outside before turning around and walking towards the handsome professor. “ I noticed you are having trouble following my lectures, is there maybe something i can help you with so that your thoughts don’t wander off as much as they do? ” You felt your face turning red. Could he have noticed your endless staring at him whenever his plump lips explained the hectic arts of Economics? Of course he noticed, he’s a teacher. And besides, every time he asked you something you didn’t even know what the question was, let alone having an actual answer. “ I uh.. I’m just not really into Economics professor.” You said while looking down at your blue and white dotted ballerina shoes. “ Well, i could help you with learning a few basics maybe? So you could at least know where to get back to if you are completely lost ” He offered kindly. You restlessly look behind you and back to the ground. Is he serious? Like you could actually pay attention to stupid economics when you’re in a room with him alone. You look back at him to find him staring at your chest. He quickly looks up and turns around to take some papers from his desk.
What the hell.. Did he just stare at your breasts?
You look down at your chest, finding your nipples to be pointing straight forward. Fuck, you were in such a rush this morning that you forgot to put on a bra. You awkwardly cross your arms against your chest. He hands over a piece of paper with says “The fine lines of economics” “ Maybe this can help you.” He says while returning to his desk and sitting down. “ Thank you professor, i will read it through before coming to class next time ” you thank him before rushing out of the classroom. You make your way to your second class when you spot Melanie a bit further making her way to the entrance. You take sprint, to get to her before she gets in.
‘’ MELL wait, why didn’t you wait for me asshole? I just went through the most awkward shit ever ’’ “ What? You mean when you were alone with Park? Couldn’t you just text me after? ’’ “ NO I COULDN’T. I had to tell you this in person. I forgot to put on a fucking bra Melanie! He was staring at my rock hard nips.”
“ NO. ”
“ YES! ”
‘’ NO WAY ’’ Melanie says before bursting out of laughter ‘’ YES WAY MEL! Caught him staring at them for like a full 2 seconds.’’ ‘’ Fuck my life seriously. He probably thought they were hard because of him.’’ you said while baring your face in the palms of your hands out of shame.
‘’ HAHAHAHA you are such a slut, (Y/N). Hard nips are like a girl-boner. At least that’s what guys think.’’ she says before bursting out again. “NO THEY’RE NOT. The damn room was cold okay? They weren’t hard because of him JESUS’’
You storm off into the classroom with a red face and your friend still screaming out of laughter and making fun of you.
You both arrive at your dorm room.
‘’ God, i feel so dirty. I haven’t showered this morning and my perverted professor stared at my tits.’’ You sigh while making a staring face with open mouth looking at Melanie’s breasts. ‘’ Yeah the guy’s probably thinking about your tiddies right now ’’ Melanie replies while making a jacking-off motion with her hands. ‘’ Isn’t he like married though?’’ Melanie said while letting herself fall into her bed. ‘’ Seriously? I didn’t even know that? ’’ You look up, shocked and kind of disappointed. ‘’ Yeah i think so, or engaged or something like that. I saw him kiss a woman once before class. It wasn’t french-ing or anything it was classy, like a mall kiss on the lips.’’ ‘’Really? Was she pretty?’’ Escaping from your lips, sounding more desperate than you wanted it to sound.
“ Are you jealouuuus..’’ Melanie said while narrowing her eyes at you ‘’ NO, why would i be jealous? He stared at my boobs not the other way around. You snort, sounding overly cocky and headstrong.’’
‘’ She wasn’t ugly. She had a cute doll-like face and she seemed happy.’’ Melanie finally replied. ‘’Hmm.. Well maybe she just doesn’t have nice perky tits like meee’’ You proudly laughed while lifting up your dress and sticking out your tongue before making your way to the bathroom to take a shower.
‘’What??’’ You yell from out of the shower.
‘’What????” You yell a bit louder this time ‘’Let’s go to a bar tonight’’ Melanie replies ‘’Uhh.. Ok but let’s not make it too late, i’ve got a lecture at 11.’’
‘’ Which bar are we going? ‘’ You ask while struggling to walk proper on the rough streets with your delicate pumps on. ‘’Uhm.. Let’s not go to that dumb place all the students go to, i’m kinda sick of their faces’’ ‘’Ok, so where to then?’’ ‘’Let’s go to somewhere more classy.’’ Melanie replied with a calculated grin on her face.
You arrive at this modern-styled bar with handsome looking bartenders wearing tight white blouses with black bowties.
‘’ I already like it here.’’ Melanie said sounding like a little kid in a candy-shop’’ ‘’Let’s sit at the bar’’ She said while pointing at a particular spot.
You make your way to the spot Melanie referred to.
‘’ Aren’t you ladies a bit young to hang around a place like this? ’’ A bartender said, pouring a clear drink he’d just shaken up out of his cocktail-shaker into two martini glasses.’’ ‘’ Well the bouncer sure as hell didn’t think so, he didn’t even ask us for ID. ’’ Melanie snorted flirty ‘’ Oh well, If i didn’t know any better i’d definitely think you two were early college students.’’ He said while putting the drinks in front of us without taking his eyes of off Melanie’s. “ Maybe you should find out then.’’ Melanie replied playfully, bringing her glass to her lipstick-red lips and taking a sip, looking back into his eyes.
You start to look around to see if people were paying attention to the two of you. If he noticed you were college students, wouldn’t the rest notice too? You suddenly see a familiar face sitting a few tables further. You narrow your eyes to get a better view of the man. You suddenly recognize him. You recognize those unique beautiful brown eyes you spend so much time staring at during his lectures.
‘’FUCK. He’s here Mel, he’s here!!’’ You said while nervously yanking on her skirt. Not losing sight of Professor Park ‘’Who? ’’ She looks down at her skirt and then turns her head 180 degrees to see who you’re referring to. ‘’LOOK!’’ “FUCKKK. Park is here!??’’ She said said while looking back at you and then back at him
He notices the commotion and sees you both looking at him. He looks shocked. You and Melanie put on an awkward smile and look back to each other.
‘’(Y/N) he is with his fucking wife’’ Melanie shouted quietly
You were in such shock that you hadn’t even notice the woman sitting across to him. Was he really with his wife? You were so eager to see her face, you had become restless.
“ I want to see her face Mel ’’ ‘’ No you don’t. Stop making it more awkward than it already is. ‘’ Melanie whispered in an angry tone. ‘’ He sees us as nothing more than dumb college girls who are seeking attention at a bar like this.’’ She continues.
She was right. You felt embarrassed by the thought of him seeing you act so childish like you just did. So you decides to act like it was the most normal thing in the world and stood up to walk your way towards the bathroom of the bar. You wore a little black dress and your legs still had that nice golden bronze color from that day at the beach a few weeks ago. You wore pumps which made your legs even more feminine and you walked passed the couple like your were attempting a Victoria’s Secret runway show. You saw him looking at you from the corner of your eye, but you decided not to look back at him. Once in the bathroom you grabbed some mascara and gave your eyes a nice touchup. A few minutes later you walked out and finally saw the woman’s face. Melanie was right. She was pretty. A little dull-looking, but she seemed confident enough to not pay you any attention, like you were no match to her. As you sat back down at the bar chair you saw him looking at you again, as soon as he noticed you looking back, he looked back at the woman and started laughing at something she had just said. Wow… He just had the most beautiful smile. He never really smiled like that when you say him during lectures, or even in or around the campus really.
That night you couldn’t stop thinking about him. How handsome he looked in his casual clothing. Those light blue jeans which showed the lines of his strong muscular thighs so well. How sexy he looked when he pulled his hands through his thick, shiny black hair before bringing the beer-bottle to his plump pink lips and taking a sip. And how intriguing his gaze was when he looked at you. Would he fantasize about you when he is laying in bed is with his wife? Such a naughty thought, but you couldn’t help yourself enjoying thinking about it.
2 Days later.
‘’Ow girl you look so fiiiiinee!!’’ Melanie said in a hoarse voice, looking at your extremely short pastel purple tennis skirt you bought from American Apparel. “Going for it today huh?’’ She continued ‘’What’s wrong with your voice? Feeling sick’’? ‘’Yeah i’m staying home today, can’t even swallow my own saliva without being in pain, let alone boring lectures all day.
‘’ Is it not to much?’’ You asked completely ignoring what she just said ‘’ Well not if you want Mr. Park to get a boner during lecture.’’ She replied ‘’ Oh shut uppp. I think it looks cute’’ You said while looking at yourself in the mirror. “He sure will too’’ Melanie said while rolling her eyes away from you and pushing her tongue against the inside of her cheek with a closed mouth.
You put on your low white Converses, give your friend a kiss on her cheek and promising her to bring home some fruit and Thai soup to ease her flu, before quickly leaving the room.