I tried to explain to my mum why I was so quiet after all the things going on in the past few days, even though they were nice things. I’m not sure how good the quality of the image is.
The image shows a setup with a container in the center labelled “Processor,” representing my general processing capacity. It has a plug in the bottom and is filled with a small amount of liquid. To the left there’s an IV-like container labelled “Inside” and a similar one to the right labelled “Outside”. These represent the inside and outside influences, such as thoughts, worries, sensory input or social activities.
These IV’s are filled with fluids. In the second part of the image, the Processor has been filled to the brim with fluids from both sides.
In the third part, the container has been filled further, the side walls bulging out. This part is labelled “overload” and represents stressful situations, and trying to function beyond my usual capacities. I still “seem” functional, but I’m under a lot of pressure and have to struggle to keep it together and not burst (as in meltdowns or shutdowns).
The final part of the image shows the Processor emptying through the hole on the bottom, from which the plug has been pulled. The walls of the Processor are worn out from having been stretched. The pulled plug is labelled “rest”. This part of the image represents being exhausted after stressful times, and needing recovery time.
Of course the diagram is flawed, as most simplified representations are, but it helped explain the general issue. Maybe it is helpful for some other people to explain themselves to other people, relatives or friends.