it’s october and suddenly you’re in love again and you’re driving around town at 2am as you and the leaves are both falling. you almost crash the car because you’re too busy focusing on him laughing in your passenger seat but he’s too busy to notice because he’s watching your face light up from watching his. every time you kiss it’s a new adventure and soon you want to explore every peak and valley of his body with your fingertips. for once you get drunk off his smile rather than the vodka that used to inhibit your senses and it’s a high like no other. all you want to do now is intertwine your bodies and souls until not one inch of you is discernible from him. one day he stops smiling as brightly and never seems to return your texts anymore and you feel yourself coming down from your euphoric high into your depression again. all of a sudden it’s “get out, don’t come back, she’ll be here soon and i don’t love you anymore” and you wish you had crashed the car that night because that would be easier than walking away with the emptiness in your chest.