so many things going on, i am overwhelmed.
not only have i lost/distanced myself from my former best friend, our third friend whom i thought i was quite close to just told me she has no actual connection with me… so i guess she was just faking a friendship the whole time?
betrayal, man. and these are girls i’ve been “friends” with for 16 ish years. i get it when i make bad judgment calls on people i’ve just met. this is so big…so baffling… and yeah i did tell my former bff that she was being a bad friend (due to the fact that we never hang out, ever, and several times i needed someone… SOMETIMES YOU NEED YOUR FRIEND… and she was never there)…. and that alone has caused all kinds of shit to surface. they spend weekends together bitching about me. :/
said third friend is a wee bit psycho (having a 3rd baby with your uninterested husband who is probably cheating on you with his female roommate because you live in the same state but you don’t live together??)… so that’s not quite as heartbreaking. but to fake a friendship for more than decade… that’s talent.
ink road is going SO well, it’s taking all my extra time. which is wonderful and stressful all together.
talking to my birth mom and learning things about my birth family, etc… emotional/stressful.
thank god my day job is smooth sailing for now.
i don’t think i couldn’t handle any more fuckstickery or stress or just…. big events in general.