so many things going on, i am overwhelmed.

not only have i lost/distanced myself from my former best friend, our third friend whom i thought i was quite close to just told me she has no actual connection with me… so i guess she was just faking a friendship the whole time?

betrayal, man.  and these are girls i’ve been “friends” with for 16 ish years.  i get it when i make bad judgment calls on people i’ve just met.  this is so big…so baffling… and yeah i did tell my former bff that she was being a bad friend (due to the fact that we never hang out, ever, and several times i needed someone… SOMETIMES YOU NEED YOUR FRIEND… and she was never there)…. and that alone has caused all kinds of shit to surface.  they spend weekends together bitching about me.  :/  

said third friend is a wee bit psycho (having a 3rd baby with your uninterested husband who is probably cheating on you with his female roommate because you live in the same state but you don’t live together??)… so that’s not quite as heartbreaking.  but to fake a friendship for more than decade… that’s talent.

ink road is going SO well, it’s taking all my extra time.  which is wonderful and stressful all together.

talking to my birth mom and learning things about my birth family, etc… emotional/stressful.

thank god my day job is smooth sailing for now.

i don’t think i couldn’t handle any more fuckstickery or stress or just…. big events in general.

prettybonesdavis  asked:

22, 44, 55 (random lol)

  • 22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? Yep…seen it happen too many times. There is a karma bus..and it rolls 24/7.
  • 44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? Yeah, gonna need a mulligan on that one. No bodily invasions :)
  • 55: Where are you going on your next vacation? Sunny FLORIDA! Gotta go in April…can’t wait.
I had a dream..

Kim K. and Kanye were about to get married and then Kanye was like “nah… Hey Lara! You wanna jet off to [insert tropical island]?!” And of course she said yes and invited me along. So we’re packing our bags and getting ready and Lara is making a scene about it in front of Kim (girlfrannn… Really?!) and then she jumps on the helicopter that we’re going to fly off in. I finish applying my lip gloss and get on too and there’s Lara and Kim K. Just hanging out and talking like BFFs, no matter Lara just stole Kim’s fiancé. So Kim’s like “well I’m coming with you guys.” We’re all super excited and then Kylie Jenner jumps on board, she’s coming too. So it’s just the four of us hanging out on this helo waiting for Kanye to come fly this thing to paradise.

The weirdest thing about the dream is that Lara and I didn’t look like ourselves. We were like runway models, except for really pretty (because you know they mostly are just plain looking) with perfect hair and we were wearing gorgeous, red carpet worthy gowns.

And I’m pretty sure Kylie Jenner stole my phone.