Pakiramdam ng magboboard exam:
Akala ko pagkagraduate ko eh tapos na ang responsibilidad sa pag aaral, kung pwede nga lang sana eh gusto ko ng itapon ang aking kwaderno at nacompile ko na mga papel na galing sa photocopy shop. Kaso hindi ganun ang mga pwedeng mangyari. Siguro for a while eh totoo pero I’ll come to the realization na pwedeng magpakaba sa akin, at yun nga ay ang sinsabing make it or break it na board exam.
5 months of preparations. Sounds like a long process pero kung tutuusin eh napakakulang pa ang limang buwan. Review is a long process. Magmemorize ng theories, definitions, at formulas. Mag solve ng magsolve. Alamin ang mga shortest method. Magbasa ng mga libro. Naman! Ang daming pagdadaanan makuha lang ang hinahangad na lisensiya.
Since review is a long story, I’ll focus kung ano nga ba ang pakiramdam ng mag ta-take ng board exam.
The day before the board, ako at ang aking dalawang kaklase went to Luneta Park just for us to calm our mind at mag aliw aliw, for short gusto naming takasan ang reyalidad na mag eexam na kami kinabukasan. Picture taking dito, picture taking doon, siyempre naman kasi sayang naman ang pag punta namin dun kung di rin lang kami makakapagpicture. After that we went to the house we were renting and watched inspirational movies like "Facing the Giants" and "August Rush" to boost our confidence.
The night came, I look all the formulas that I had posted sa wall. I’m rest assured that I did my best to remember it all. I force myself to go to sleep but before that I prayed what I feel towards the board exam to let God knows what I am feeling at the moment. I prayed sincerely that I already won the battle, that God is fighting for me. I prayed to let God control the situation. Then suddenly I felt sleepy and slept.
I woke up 2 hours early before my alarm rings and I found out gising nadin pala ang mga kaklase ko at ready to take a bath na. Nagmuni muni at nagdasal that I can make it kasi confident naman na kasi ako sa sarili ko na makakaya ko. Then it’s my time para maligo narin. We are now all wearing this white polo shirt, prepared the calculator, pencils, pantasa, noa, baon, etc. sa aming plastic envelope.
We decided to take our breakfast sa Mcdo at nag order ng pamatay nilang pan cake at kape. Hindi kami ang tanging nakaputi sa establishment na yun, all of us have the feeling na kinakabahan, scared kung ano man ang tatahakin namin sa journey na ito.
Pagkatapos naming kumain ay dumiritso na kami sa Manuel L. Quezon University sa may Quiapo. Lahat kami ay nag exchange ng maraming “Goodluck”, “God bless”, “Kaya natin to” at ang makatindig balahibong “Magiging engineer din tayo!”.
So there we are in our designated room and destination. The proctor discussed the do’s and dont’s.
Our first exam is mathematics. The proctor gives me my set of questionnaires. Napadasal ulit ako. I look to my right, the lady who is taller than me is now holding her rosary at sa likod nito’y may lalaking nakapikit na animoy may binabanggit na litanya.
"You can now look at your questionnaires and start answering, every second counts" sabi nung aming proctor.
Binuklat ko ang questionnaire. La la la la la ang dali ng number one. The same goes to number 2 through 5. Then I came answering number 6 and I found out hindi ako sigurado sa sagot and I leave it blank muna. Then 7, then 8, …, then 32. Oh my ang dami kong blinangko at that time eh lima parin ang aking nasagutan. Anyway there’s still hope na masasagutan ko parin ang lahat. I reached the 100th questions at napabilang ako sa sinagutan ko at meron na akong 22 na nasagutan. Oh my! 22/100 malayo pa sa passing score. I need to answer al least 70 items in every exam to lass the board. Kaya kayod at pumunta na ako sa medium at hard questions. Find the third derivative of the equation. Find the probability of the marbles. What makes the whole theory true? Bla bla bla.
"You only have 5 minutes left!" Ang sabi ng matandang babaeng proctor na tila binabagot ng maghintay.
Kaya nag umpisa na akong mag shade ng sagot sa aking answer sheet. Binilang ko lahat. Gosh! 37 lang ang nashade ko at may 63 pa. Tingin sa aking relo, I only have 3 munutes left. I closed my eyes and prayed "in the name of Jesus, papasa ako!"
I look at my answer sheet, at di ko na tinignan ang questionnaire and I shade all the remaining items. To every item I tell myself “In Jesus name!”
I pass my questionnaire and my answer sheet na may halong paghihinayang. Shems! 37/100
37/100 ang tanging nasagutan ko. The 63 items eh pinagkaloob ko nalang sa Diyos. 63 items meaning 63 din na “In Jesus name!”. Lol.
I walk out sa room, with a song of defeat in my mind. “I did my best”. Yung pakiramdam na pumasok ka with full of confidence, pero biglang naglaho.
I observe every people outside. Gosh! Bakit sila nakangiti while I was there lugmok na lugmok sa resulta ng aking math examination. I wait for my friend to come para maglunch sa mga kalapit na kainan. Then he came ang both of us devastated sa exam namin. Sabi niya, "Da, okay lang yan. Gawin parin natin yung best natin. May three exams pa tayong lalabanin". He did made a point, at kami’y kumain na.
Then after we eat, we were ready to take now the Electronics examination. As usual mahirap pero mas mahirap parin ang math. Natapos ko ang Elex exam ng one hour early bago mag time.
Still devastated sa naging outcome ng aking math examination.
Since that day was Sunday, I went to the church to worship God and prayed solemnly. Mangiyak ngiyak pa nga akong nag church till the pastor’s said
"Si God nga nakaya ka niyang isave sa iyong kasalanan. BOARD EXAM pa kaya?"
Then all of us wearing our white shirt said “Amen!” Oh my nabuhayan ako ng loob, out of nowhere biglang sinabi yun ni pastor. Maybe those were God given sign.
Monday came and the battle started again, and that was General Engineering and Applied Sciences. One of the question in their na hindi ko makakalimutan ay ito.
"In a glass of water with an ice cube on it, imagine that the ice will soon melt. What will happen to the volume of the water? A. Increased B. Decreased C. Stays the same D.I dont care at all”
Sa pagmamadali ko, akala ko bonus ay sinagutan ko ng letter A, without thinking that the real thing that is happening is that nothing will trully happen.
Lunch came. Then Communication Engineering examinations. I still have more than two hours pero natapos ko na ang exam. I write “Engineer Daryl, ECE” in my questionnaires. Sit for more than two hours, nagmunimuni, worshipping and singing to God in my head.
"God is fighting for us. Pushing back the darkness. Lighting up the kingdom that cannot be broken.."
"We can trust our God. He knows what he’s doing. Though it might hurt us, we wont be ruined. It might seems there’s an ocean in between but he’s holding on to you and me and He’s never gonna leave. He is with us. ALWAYS"
For two hours all I did was to pray God at that time. After worshipping God for all the good thing He has done in me, I get my pencil and started writing in my questionnaire these sentences.
"This is the story He’s building in me. I can make it"
"Ang hirap ng exam mo Engr Detalla". Name yun ng examiner namin sa math, malay mo mabasa niya at gawin niyang madali para sa susunod na board.
Only two examinees ang natira sa room na iyon. Then I pass my papers to the proctor. I gave them a huge huge smile. The proctor looks at my questionnaire.
He searched for my name and said:
"Ilang araw nalang Engineer kana. God bless you Engineer Daryl"
Easy as slicing a cake yung mga naexam ko that day. Kung gaano kahirap kahapon. Ganun naman kadali ngayon.
And that’s it. Natapos na ang ECE board exam pero may isa pa akong board exam na itatake, lower version ng ECE at yun ay ang Electronics Technician. 50 items. I need to answer at least 35 items to pass this board.
The morning came, now in a different room. Natuwa ako kasi nung sinasagutan ko eh may 35 na akong sagot, so there is an assurance na papasa ako dito.
The exam was finished, i donate my pencils, erasers,sharpeners and the like to charity to help poor students to have one. Kasi rumors says that if you don’t donate mababagsak ka. so benefit of the thought to fail, I donated it WHOLEHEARTEDLY.
No need to take lunch kasi uwing uwi na ako sa probinsya. I need to tell my parents that I had done my best. Pero talagang sadyang mahirap.
That was the five hours heart breaking trip. Nakakalungkot. Then nakarating na ako sa bahay. All of them are smiling nung nakarating ako and the only words I had said that time was
I told them everything but still they do understand my situation. Even my friends know my situation and one of them told me.
"Ano kaba! Pinapangunahan mo si Lord. This is the moment of harvest, habang wala pang result eh the battle is not yet finish" nasabi niya yun with full of positive emotions contradicting my negative thoughts.
I just wan to end this three days of waiting para makita na ang result pero ganun talaga eh may moment of thrill pang nalalaman. Nakakaba. Akala ko tapos na ang paghihirap pero mas mahirap pa pala ang maghintay. Never been on line for three days straight cause I just want na lumayo sa mga taong kakilala ko.
Then all waiting comes to an end, it was now the third night after the board exam. Kinakabahan and waiting for a sign that somebody will text me that day. 7 pm and still no update. Mangiyak iyak nako hanggang sa malapit na mga 8pm.
Then biglang yung pinsan kong inhinyero texted me.
"Ay grabe, 986 out of 2579 pass the board out"
Lumabas ako para huminga. Isa ata ako sa mga bumagsak. Iiyak na ako eh. So I replied ” :( “
The world is against me. Sasabog na ako sa kalungkutan.
Then biglang lumabas ang grade five kong pinsan sa bahay nila, nakangiti sabay sabing
“Weh? Di nga! Baka sa Electronic Technician yung nakita mo at hindi sa engineering”
“Oo kuya, tignan mo sa bahay. Nakabukas ang net binukas ni ate andun pangalan mo. Punta ka sa bahay”
Since it’s only 20 meters away sa bahay nila eh tumakbo ako para pumunta doon.
"Ate Gretel, patingin nga."
“Oh eto oh!”
Una kung tinignan ang label na
PROFESSIONAL REGULATORY COMMISSION
MARCH 2-3, 2014
(Last name), Daryl P.
PROFESSIONAL REGULATORY COMMISSION
MARCH 4, 2014
(Last name), Daryl P.
Hindi ako maniwala that I passed the board exam for electronics engineering but also for electronics technician. I go out to express my emotion by shouting. Nanginginig na ako. Nagagalak. Maha high blood na ata ako sa tuwa. I shouted the loudesr shout I ever had.
"Engineeeeeeerrrrrr na akooooooo! Thank you Lorrrd!" With my hands held high glorifying and praising God for His goodness.
Lesson learned. Being confident to yourself is different with being confident with God.
Nakapasa ako by FAITH with confidence in God and by actions :)
At your service, ENGR. DARYL,ECE,ECT