posting this while i know both of you are online


Alright here comes a long sappy post. Taylor, I can’t even begin to fathom that three years ago I was sitting in your living room. I’ll never forget how nervous I was to meet you (I will never forgive myself for babbling incoherently and saying nothing I wanted to say). You showed me an unbelievable amount of kindness toward my mom and I. I’m honored that you actually wanted to meet me and am so grateful for the opportunity. Three years ago I was struggling with my friend situation. I was excluded from almost everything they did. I didn’t have the strength to give up my friends, but then you invited me to hear your album early. Listening to Bad Blood and Clean before they were released gave me the strength I needed to let go of something so toxic. I sobbed to Bad Blood in your living room because it hit so close to home with my friends. Then, when I told all my “friends” about meeting you, none of them were all that excited for me even though they knew how long I had been a fan. You taught me to let go of any toxic relationship I was facing that night. Fast forward three years later, and I am currently sitting in my college dorm room six hours away from my hometown where all of that toxicity was. I truly understand the meaning of being clean now. This is the happiest I have felt in a very long time. You’re the most compassionate, caring, and sweet person I have ever met. You have continued to keep checking up on me online and like my posts every once in a while. I will never lose my love for you. Thank you for giving me 89 friends that I will always share that special night with. I can’t believe how much we have both matured and grown. I am so so proud of you and will support you in whatever you do. Thank you, thank you, thank you. @taylorswift

Sending you loads of love, 


k-chymaera  asked:

Hello !!! So in love with your drawings, particularlh historical hetalia or now your au mafia...Can I ask some «news» about France in this AU ?

merci bqp! 😊 im actually working on two aph art books! ones historical/smutty and the other is for my eastern promises mafia au. ill probably post the first one as a pdf online but sell both as printed versions in the future. i try to act like i dont care abt aph france but those of you who have been following me for a while know that i started college as a french hist & lit major and plan to get a louis philippe tattoo (😑🙌🍐)

in the ♔ the world belongs to you universe, france is uk’s former partner. after a botched murder case gone cold, he quits the force citing irreconcilable differences and joins the fourth estate. eventually on the press/journalist road, he and spain (ex-mafioso muscle turned amateur free-lance photographer) settle down and start a PI firm

I have been a whumper since before I learned the term, which was from the SGA fandom and the amazing Shep Whump fanfic authors.

When I was younger, my Barbies and Beanie Babies would go on grand adventures and of course someone always got injured :). I used to constantly daydream about my favorite characters getting hurt and comforted (it’s still the only way I can fall asleep sometimes).

There’s something so beautiful about breaking a character down and then re-building them. You glimpse a side of the whumpee you normally wouldn’t see and see a different side of the comforter, too. Everyone becomes stripped down to their true selves.

Side Note: I was going through old papers recently and came across an 10+ year old entry explaining why I liked to hurt characters. I may have been a baby whumper, but I still stand by my words.

“I love it when characters get hurt. That’s when you see everyone’s loyalties. I love to see heroes fall because that’s when you are truly able to see him or her. That’s when you get to see who they really are.”

I love whump and thought it was time I dedicated an entire blog to it. I’ve been around for a while. You may better know me by my main blog @dancingwerewolf.

I enjoy male and lady whump so I’ll be posting both and tagging each accordingly. I also recently learned how to gif and will be trying to gif my favorite whump scenes to share with everyone (time to dig-up my old dvds and try to find my old vhs shows online).

I wasn’t sure if I wanted to post about this since this post will do practically nothing but I just wanted to say that this whole situation in the USA is heartbreaking to see for me. I live in a small, poor country, who fought on Germany’s side in WW2 and there are literal communities, both online and in real life, full of entitled white men who support Hitler’s ideologies, who think he was right for murdering all these innocent people. And it just makes me both sad and angry seeing that these type of people exist in the USA, a country who lost people while fighting against Germany. I really wish I could do something about it, and I know that posting about it online isn’t exactly helping, but I think that in times like these it’s better to speak out than to keep all this stuff to yourself. If you want to talk to someone you can always message me or really anyone you think you can trust and talk to.

StarkStrange Headcannon - Part 2
  • Zhou: I'm so in love with this pairing. Just, holy shit. I can't stop thinking of ways for them to get together and all the little ways they make each other happy. Also really want a scene where for what ever reason Rogers n his team are in the other room n they hear Tony n Stephen kinda muttering to each other then they just hear Tony gasp/moan "Stephen!" They aren't even having sex, maybe Tony just got pinned to the wall n kissed senseless. I just want the horrible discomfort the team feels while Rogers now knows what it's like to hear Tony call his name but knows that he'll never be calling foe him. (Am I petty for this? )
  • Me: Of course not!
  • Let's add to it, the team is all gathered around and Tony walks in and calls for Stephen and both Stephen and Steve turn to look at him but Tony only gives his attention to the sorcerer.
  • Or when the team is giving Tony a hard time, making request for stuff and not being very grateful (even though Tony has a full plate righty now) So Stephen joins Tony where ever he is (living room, lap) but puts up a barrier with out Tony knowing so Tony can't see people approaching (basically puts up a mirror image of the rest of the room)
  • Anyway so say Clint's being a dick and the second he comes off the elevator he's ranting at Tony "What the hell man ! You said you'd finish my new arrows yesterday and-" that's when Clint walks into the force field.
  • "What the fuck!?" And then he starts kicking and yelling at Tony who has no idea he's there and Strange is standing there staring at Tony who's looking at his holo screens. Strange never looks at Clint or the others that show up but his smile does turn a little smug every time someone does show up.
  • Zhou: Stephen is hella causal with affection. Always kissing Tony, hugging him, pulling him down to sit on his lap.Tony never accepts any invitations from the others to "reconnect." He's always got plans with Stephen.
  • Tony starts to notice that the others are leaving him alone more n more n happens to see Steve walking face first into the barrier in the Windows reflection. It's so hard for him not to laugh.
  • Me: Ugh yes ! I am a firm believer of second chances but I'm also very committed to keeping "bad" people out of your life.
  • Like for intense Natasha could be given a second chance. She supported him and believed in the accords but she also played neutral when she realized something more was going on and let Steve and Bucky go.
  • Where Steve and Clint or even Sam and Wanda never gave Tony a chance. Although they did take his money, gadgets and such yet when he asked you to compromise or listen you turned your cheek. Those kind of people don't deserve second chances.
  • Bucky could, he was innocent and just try to get better. I believe that Tony (after some good time adjusting and just getting a chance to grieve) would be a bigger person and extend a hand to help Barnes, seeing him as the victim that he is.
  • Scott is just a person that jumped on the band wagon cause everyone else was so he don't really matter. But really Tony is done with letting these "toxic" people leech off him.
  • I just need more Tony moving on, a lot of people write him as someone who would crave that connection with those people or he would forgive them and let them back into his life.
  • Where's the Tony that sees these people as ungrateful and no longer wants to be used while they call it Friendship and Team Dynamics
  • Give me Tony who is fed up with people who use him so he cuts them from his life. And when they need to be around each other he is simple Civil. You don't have to be friends to work together.
  • So while Team Cap is trying to be "the team" again or having "team bonding" or just do friend stuff Tony just looks at them like "I'm not your friend and I am no longer an active Avenger, simply a consultant to SHIELD. If you need anything SHIELD related you may send me an email but please do not try to things when we are just coworkers."
  • And then leaves a surprised Steve, Clint and Sam behind.
  • Zhou: Second chances are great, but you have to be careful with them. Natasha is going to have to work for her second chance, and that will be shot when Tony learns that she also knew about his parents and didn't tell him.
  • Sam Steve Clint n Wanda have been nixed. They're toxic and l think he's ready to move on. He deserves more than they gave him.
  • While I can sew Tony being the bigger person n offering help for Bucky, I think it'd be more of a "here is this person, they're the most qualified to help you." But I can't rally see them being friends. Because no matter what he saw Barns physically kill his parents. Do want matter that he was controlled, Tony saw him do it.
  • Yes! It's time for Tony to move on. Surround himself with new friends (or old ones. I'm a sucker for Strange n Tony having known each other for years and have a deeper friendship before they hook up) and Tony is done with trying with the old team. He doesn't want to be a part of it and he's happy where he is.
  • Me: yeah I like that Natasha has to work for it and then it be shot to hell. And I only like the idea of Bucky and Tony having a small friendship because it makes Steve SUPER jealous . Also I see Tony reconnecting with "old friends" like T'Challa, Hope Van Dyne and Bruce Wayne since their all in the superhero community.
  • Or all the new (teen) Avengers Peter, Kamala, and Donnie being little ducklings around Tony and he's a great mentor for them.
  • Sharon Carter is pissed that Steve hurt her favorite older cousin and refuses to talk to him.
  • Zhou: All of that. And he has biweekly chess games with reed Richards. Reed is determined to win at least once. And Doom comes by once every week or so to talk science and/or magic with Tony n Stephen.
  • Last thing she says to him "I need to gargle a gallon of bleach..." ((Sharon))
  • Me: Tony and Logan go to get beers together.
  • Zhou: Yes. I can see them being friends n playing pool while having a few drinks.
  • Me: Like they don't have deep meaningful conversations but they both know that the other would do anything if the other asked.
  • Like they have that relationship where Tony just looks at Logan , "I need a favor and you can't ask any questions."
  • Logan calmly says "I'll meet you in 10."
  • Also thinking about friendships Tony is friends with the Fantastic Four, him and Reed love to challenge each other and then often Sue will join him and Pepper for lunch. Johnny completely fanboys over Tony and is constantly taking selfies and posting them online, it irritates the hell out of Steve. And with Ben he just lends an ear to the man when he needs to vent his frustrations.
  • Zhou: Tony now has this huge support network. He regularly hires Gambit to break into various stark industries buildings to test the security. He talks science with beast and business with Angel
  • Me: Social Butterfly Tony that actually has a lot of friends that he keeps contact with and is well loved among a wide variety of people.
  • He even gets along with Loki so when they fight each other they keep a playful banter going and Loki doesn't kill people just fucks with the Avengers. (Aside from Tony)
  • Him and Xavier have a telepathic game of Chess going all the time. ((I always think about RDJ playing Sherlock Holmes and he plays chess with the bad guy and they don't use an actual board or anything))
  • Zhou: I love it!
  • He's one of the only outsiders that's welcome in the thieves guild. Mostly because of his friendship with Gambit.
  • He also has Matt Murdoch on speed dial. Never calls him for legal help. Just with random ass questions.

mouseymightymarvellous  asked:

i was worried for both our sleep schedules when you submitted an ask for an ask meme i'd just posted, because you had woken up while i had yet to go to bed, and we're only in time zones that are, like, 3 hours apart.

Please know that, while I am very coherent online, all verbal communication with me at that hour start with “MMmmmrrrrrrrrrr”.

No really. It actually sounds like that. 

But on a more important note *Mama Rae Mode activated* what do you think you were still doing up missy get thy bottom to bed at a decent hour or so help me I will come over there and tuck you in myself

I’ve left a few things in queue for you all, so do know that while posts will appear, I’m not certain I’ll be online during the next hours/Thursday. In case you message me and I don’t respond, ofc. I do so, so you enjoy some good FFXV content while I take care of myself over here, very needed and wanted, so everybody wins. Be happy! ❤

I also meant to send a few more comments as response to the ones you’ve left me, but I will wait for tomorrow. 

I’m honestly not doing as okay as I thought. I am emotionally struggling, and it’s been causing me physical consequences, too. 

A sound frightened me, thinking it was another major earthquake, and…keeping things short, I’m back at this ridiculous trembling, and now there’s buzzing in my ears as well, added to the two-days-long shoulders ache and headache and this hunger mixed with stomachache, and I feel it’s happening again, but then I notice it’s my legs trembling like a scared baby lamb, and when I think I controlled them I feel it again and I get so frightened, but I can’t show that because my brother is much worse than I and I don’t want to scare him senselessly, and then I end up noticing its my fucking legs again.

So now every tiny stupid sound is frightening me so bad. And they just spread a ghost story that spooked me so much and…that’s so childish and cliché, why did it frighten me so much?

An apology for ranting. I have random moments of joy, but truth is I’m not doing nor feeling too well. 

anonymous asked:

im abc (2+gen american born) and I'm half white too so despite being cantonese ethnically, i don't speak and don't have any opportunities to speak/learn as my family doesn't know well and all the chinese people around me are mandarin speakers :( do you know any resources for learning canto?

hey there :D I’m proud of you for wanting to learn about your cantonese heritage!!! Here’s what I’d recommend for you:

- A textbook I really like: Teach Yourself Cantonese (pdf). The audio for the first 6 chapters can be found on youtube, but so far I haven’t been able to get a hold of the audio for the rest of the chapters. (msg me off anon so I know who to contact in case I find the mp3 files for both cds online)

- Here’s a post I did on Cantonese dictionaries a while back. 

- Watch TVB/HK dramas (maybe start off with English subs haha). It’ll give you a taste of HK culture, you’ll be learning phrases AND you’ll be exposed to the language, making it easier for you to perfect your pronunciation. (link to my favourite TVB dramas). If you ever need help looking for a specific drama, let me know and I’ll try to find one with Eng subs~

- Finding a Skype/iTalki partner will be super important as you get better in the language so that you can actually practice the language with a native speaker. (also message me off anon, bc I’d be more than willing to help you with the basics)

- listen to Cantonese music!!! It won’t help you much with informal/conversational Canto, but listening to how words are pronounced will greatly improve your accent. Here’s an ask I answered about music (with a huge Canto section)

That’s it! If you have any other questions, my inbox is always open :) 

Just a quick heads up, there will be sporadic posting on this blog from… most likely here on out. Currently, we have a queue set up to fill the blog while both mods are not actively online. I just wanted to let you guys know that this blog and tag is not going anywhere.

you, your best friend and luke on a roadtrip would involve:

  • singing so loudly in the car that the cars passing you on the highway give you some serious side-eye
  • your roadtrip playlist includes hollaback girl, burnin’ up and mr brightside
  • referring to yourselves as the ot3
  • “what about the holy trinity”
  • “you mean the unholy trinity”
  • “ok true”
  • stopping at every starbucks you see “cause hipster as fuck, son”
  • feeling really proud when fans approach him as you’re all sat drinking your coffee and seeing how invested and generous he is with them
  • making decisions on the flip of a coin
  • going through a car wash and purposely screaming the whole time
  • laughing until you’re breathless
  • wearing his snapbacks
  • piggyback rides
  • one of which is luke in the middle and you and your best friend kissing his cheeks ):)
  • “guys, when can we get food” luke every hour
  • noticing luke checking out a girl and you both wiggling your eyebrows at him until his cheeks flush
  • laughing when you check into a hotel and the reception guy is giving luke a questionable stare cause he’s sharing with two women
  • “WAIT-NO I’M NOT A PIMP ohfnfbjsa my god dhgt they’re my best frieinds pleas enos ajdj”
  • pizza and how i met your mother marathon parties in your hotel room while you look online and decide where to adventure to next
  • “vegas?” “[quotes the hangover from start to finish]” “luke, chill”
  • posting twitter videos of him signing while he drives
  • “i don’t actually know what i’m doing, i’m just pretending to look like i know.. can we call someone?” luke when ur car breaks down
  • being so sad when it’s all over but promising to make it a regular thing

((I know I’m not online right now, but screw it! I see some new followers, and I don’t have that many drafts. I’m pretty sure the next time I’m on here, I’ll have time to write up a few starters! 

 So LIKE this post, (or reply if you’re a side blog) if you want something with Clementine. Both old and new followers are welcomed! Keep in mind that if we haven’t met before, I’ll be looking for your rules and about page, and hitting you up with an IM.))

Small Business Saturday

Hello everyone! As many of you know, the day after Black Friday is called Small Business Saturday. This year I will be a vendor at a harvest festival for both these days. For anyone in southern California who is interested, I will post the info for it shortly.

However, that is not the point of this post. I encourage each and every one of you to shop small this holiday season. Black Friday is something huge companies can afford to do, while hurting small businesses in the process. Small business Saturday is a great opportunity to support local and small businesses either in your area or online. When you do this, you are helping make this holiday season so much better for the owners of these businesses and their families, and you are boosting the economy! When you spend money buying things from huge companies, almost all of that money goes to some ultra rich CEO who, for all we know, is going to spend it on their 5th yacht.. but when you shop small, you are helping small business owners put food on the table, pay their rent, or to send their kids to a good school. Small business also create LOCAL jobs, and are much more likely to pay their employees fair, living wages.

Not to mention, when shopping small, you are more likely to get a much better product. Most small businesses often do not mass produced their products, or send labor overseas. You are much more likely to get a high quality product crafted by a skilled artesian.

So, I truly hope you consider making this holiday season special for yourself, your loved ones, and small business owners by shopping small.

Please reblog this and give info either about your small business, or one that you recommend. (It can be an online shop, or a local shop, restaurant, etc., in your area.)

Happy Holidays everyone! I hope you all stay safe and happy with your loved ones.

Getting a lot of hate today!

I met my boyfriend through a girl I knew online named Kita. They were sorta dating at the time-they stopped dating, I saw him on a dating website and we went from there. I’ve documented this both while it was happening and then a year later when we were living together. Some of ya’ll need to get some dick in your life before you start talking about mine.

I love how these people always come for me like this. Clearly you’re following my life very closely to feel like you know all this shit.

Now, i’m posting this just as a note. This is an example of one of the millions of messages I get on a daily basis for being openly trans and a visible youtuber period. This is someone who tracks me on every website I go to and always sends me these messages. There are blogs dedicated to attacking me and youtube videos and channels dedicated to attacking me. I’m 99 percent sure that this is from a trans person or someone who aspires to be a trans person.

I try very hard to be positive and nice to everyone but it’s really hard when this is how people are always treating you. I’ve shut my channel down many times because of the harassment, but honestly that’s not gonna happen any time soon. So ya’ll can stay sending me these messages. If you think my ego is too big, you’re definitely not helping me be more humble.

And a gay black man has never looked so fishy. Suffah.