Time Flies (8/10)
Written by: @ilovebeingjoyful
Posted: March 31st, 2017
Warnings: Love-making *will post a starting warning before it happens*, swearing, annnddd I AM SORRY!!! (><)
AN: Everyone voted for longer chapters! :) Sooo, here we go….
Pairing: 1940s Bucky x Reader Rogers
**This is long–just warning you!**
“D–(Y/N), please–I didn’t just do it for that. Yes, that was a small–small reason–but overall–I wanted you. I loved you–hell, I still do. Not a day has gone by where I regretted what I did and said to you. It mattered to me. You being the first–and the only girl I ever kissed–it mattered to me. I loved you when we were running around in the woods as kids. I loved you that night when we made love in that tree fort. Even now, as you sit before me–I love you. I know, I hurt you. I am so sorry about that. If I could, I would go back and slap the fire out of the younger me. I would change it, but I can’t, and I have to live with the burden knowing I broke the heart of the most important dame in my life. You do not have to forgive me, but I just wanted you to know that I am sorry.”
(Y/N) had tears running down her face as she squeezed his hands, “I forgave you long ago, Bucky.” As her right hand came up and wiped her face. Bucky smiled softly, noticing the fact she didn’t say she loved him back. Which is what he expected, but what he wasn’t expecting was when he swiped his thumb over her left hand–his thumb traced over a ring on her hand.
Bucky’s felt cold sweats come upon him, making the slow smile forming on (Y/N)’s face stop, “Bucky? You okay?” Her voice sound muffled to him as a sound almost like static–or maybe it was a ringing in his ears he was hearing. He wasn’t sure. The only thing he knew is he felt sick, as his entire mouth dried up as his heart pounded in his chest. Reluctantly he let go of her hand, as his vision of her face mouthing his name over and over again became blurred as he took a step back from the counter. Closing his eyes, as he tried to calm his pounding heart down, but he was failing–
“In–out—in—out—” He whispered to himself as he fought of this panic attack. His chest felt tight–as if it was closing it on itself.
(Y/N) eyes watched him closely before moving to him and taking his arm, “Bucky, you need to sit down.” She spoke to a zoned out Bucky Barnes as she lead him to a chair and sat him down, “I am going to get you some water–I will be right back.” Running her fingers through his short locks before moving into the kitchen.
“A ring–she has a ring on–ring–a ring–she’s married–engaged–” His mind raced, “You just told her how much you loved her–you told a taken woman you loved them–this is like some romantic book or something…” Bucky felt himself get sick again, “What if she is with–Lucas..” His hands went to his face as he mentally attacked himself till her footsteps pulled him from his thoughts. As his eyes looked up, he couldn’t get himself to look at her hand–even when she pressed a cool cloth to his forehead.
“There, this should help.” Her (Y/C) eyes looking into his greyish blues before his shut when her fingers went through his hair. Her touch felt so good—so relaxing—so like–
“Buck?” Her voice made his eyes open, “You okay?” Her soft voice matched her soft smile her left hand came up to press against his forehead, “You don’t feel like you have a fever.” The feeling of her hand slowly moving to cup his cheek made a closed mouth smile form on his face as he leaned into her embrace. Then he felt that metal on her finger touch his skin, he swallowed a lump in his throat before slowly reaching up and taking her hand in his. He brought their joined hands down to the table. Taking a deep breath he looked down and felt his shoulders slump at the sight of a silver band on her middle finger.
“Idiot…” He whispered to himself before smiling as thumb brushed over the band.
“What?” She looked down, “Oh–Steve gave that to me as my graduation gift. Wait–” She replayed that just happened in her head, “You thought–noo–Bucky–I’m–I’m not seeing anyone.” She giggled before cupping his face in her hands and making him look into her eyes, “I couldn’t get myself to go on a date with a fella that wasn’t you.”
Bucky felt his cheeks heat up as he looked at her, “Really?” He whispered before watching her nod her head, “Well, do you wanna go out this weekend?” Smiling shyly at her as she beamed.
“About damn time you asked.” She giggled before pulling him into a hug tight embrace. His arms wrapped around her before he pulled back and brushed his nose against hers with mirroring wide smiles. Their eyes flicked to one another’s lips in sync, they giggled to one another before slowly leaning in till their lips captured one another’s in a gentle kiss.