posted it before but from youtube

Unwell

I tried to write a thing! I worked hard on it so I hope it’s good! Here we go.


“…-ack? Jack!”

The Irish, green-haired YouTuber flinched at the sound of his name. How long had he zoned out for? He swallowed before he replied, removing his hand from his mouth cautiously.

“Y-yeah? Sorry I’m kinda quiet.” As everyone this side of the Internet knows, this was far from normal for the usually loud jacksepticeye. It’s what he’s known for, after all, so he knew his friends would pick up on it if he was silent for too long. Especially if everyone else is talking.

“Nah, it’s fine, man. Are you okay? We were afraid you fell asleep on us or something.” Mark’s voice. As much as Jack wanted to shout “SLEEP IS FOR THE WEAK” into the mic, he could barely bring himself to open his mouth, for fear he would be sick on himself in front of his friends (well, more or less, considering they were all just talking through the computer). He was fine all day up until halfway through playing, when he got a sudden, powerful surge of nausea out of nowhere. It’s a feeling he absolutely hated. He sucked in a labored breath and attempted once again to speak.

“Yeah, sorry about that. I dunno I just…I feel kinda sick. It’s weird because…” he paused to swallow and quickly covered his mouth with his hand as bile rose in his throat. He shivered as it went back down. “…I was fine all day until now.”

“It’s fine. Just take it easy, alright? Let us know if you need to take a break,” Mark reassured.

“Yeah, man, we’ll understand if you’re not feeling well.” Bob chimed in. Wade replied with a simple “Yeah,” to add to the conversation.

“Thanks, guys.” Jack said. He looked back towards the glowing computer screen in front of him. Him, Mark, Bob, and Wade were all playing G-mod Prop Hunt, and as far as Jack was concerned, he was still pretty well hidden. For now, at least. A minute soon passed, and Jack reached out for his keyboard to switch objects and change his hiding spot when he felt his stomach suddenly lurch. Quickly, he leaned forward to speak into the mic.

“I’ll be right back, guys,” he said. He didn’t bother waiting for a reply from his friends. He hurriedly set his headphones down on the desk and left his recording room, jaw clamped shut and hand pressed firmly against his lips. He rushed into the bathroom, shutting the door behind him, and knelt in front of the toilet, one arm clutching the bowl and the other wrapped around his stomach. He stayed in that position for a while, dreading what was to come but at the same time wishing it would just happen already so he could return to his friends and his game. The stale stench of toilet water filled his nostrils, a smell that only became familiar in moments such as these, as he leaned over the toilet bowl, his breathing labored.

After what felt like an eternity, Jack began to cough, which then progressed to gagging. Finally, he heaved, shutting his eyes tight as he threw up whatever it was within him that was making him sick. His throat burned and his mouth tasted of vomit. Slowly, he wiped his eyes and opened them, gazing into the toilet bowl. His eyes widened at what he saw.

Blood.

Suddenly, the burning sensation was no longer just in his throat, but in his neck as well, accompanied by a powerful stinging and intense throbbing. Feeling something begin to slowly drip down his collarbone, he touched his fingertips gently to his neck. Blood stained them when he pulled his hand away. His throat appeared to have been cut open.

Frantic, Jack’s baby-blue eyes darted around the bathroom. This was no longer the room he was familiar with. The room was illuminated with eerie, dim red light, and blood dripped from the walls and ceiling, pitter-pattering onto the floor as a leaky ceiling would in a rainstorm. With widened eyes, Jack watched as the door slowly opened. There, in the doorway, stood a large, ominous figure, whose body looked not unlike Jack’s, its entire being cloaked in shadow. The most distinguishing thing about the figure was a pair of green, glowing eyes. The monster’s head tilted to the side and began to spasm and shake violently. Jack, frozen with terror, could only sit and watch for what felt like the longest two minutes of his life. Then, an unearthly scream emanated from the being, and rushed towards Jack, who also screamed in response, and he shut his eyes tight. Then, he reopened them.

And all was normal.

Frantic, with heart pounding and breathing rapid, Jack once again surveyed his surroundings. Normal bathroom. He touched a hand to his neck. No more neck wound. Shakily, Jack slowly stood up and flushed the toilet. All was…normal.

“What the fuck…” Jack whispered to himself. He made his way to the sink, and bent over it to brush his teeth and rinse his mouth of the horrid taste of vomit. Slowly he looked into the mirror, and what stared back at him was not Jack, but a doppelganger whose eyes were pitch-black, a wicked grin plastered on his face. A bloody wound stretched across his neck.

“A-Anti…” Jack whispered, terrified.

“I̺̙̪̿͊́ͮ̚̚'̫̱̜ͯ̍ͣ͑͛̽͘͡m̴̦͇̫̹̗ͣͤͧ̿ͮ̋͞ ̟̤͓͈͇͙̲̮̾̓̐̍̎͘a̢̺͉̰̺͌ḽ̇͝w̘̮̻͚̌̾͊͑͛ͤ͢a̴̮̾ͧ̊̈́͌̒̂͟y̡̛̻̼̥̓ͥ̐͞s̨̘̦̬͕̥̾̋ͤ͗͋͒͡ ̶̪̻̖͐͆̆̃t̐͐̽͐̉ͥͣ̏҉͎̜̫͓̳̜̞̰͘͜ḧ́̓͏͕̖̳͇̮̤͍̬̦ḛ̢̞̮ͬ̆̆̄͐̈́̎͠ŕ̩͙͖͙͙̙̖̫̄ͦͥ̑͟͠e̶̵̜͍̻̫̥͈͚̖̓͊̽̍̽ͮͯͤ” the being known as Anti spoke, and a loud, echoing, maniacal laughter emanated from his throat. The mirror broke, and Jack yelled out and jumped back in surprise, falling and smacking his head against the bathtub. His vision went dark and he conked out.

Jack awoke with a pounding in the back of his skull. His vision refocused slowly, and he pressed a hand to the spot where he had bumped his head. Suddenly, he remembered his friends, and he unsteadily rose, leaving the bathroom and returning to his recording room, worried that he had taken too long and they all had left. By the familiar sound of witty banter coming from his headphones, however, he knew immediately that that wasn’t the case. They were all still there, waiting upon his return. Jack checked the timer. He had only been gone for ten minutes.

“You guys still there?” Jack asked as he put his headphones back on and sat down in his green-and-black gaming chair.

“Hey, look who’s back!” Wade exclaimed.

“Hey, man, you feeling better?” Bob asked, sounding concerned.

“We were really worried about you. Hope you’re alright,” Mark added.

“Yeah, yeah, I’m alright,” Jack lied. He felt awful for lying to them, but if he told them the truth they would think he was going insane. Hell, if someone came up to Jack and explained to him what just happened, he wouldn’t believe them either!

“Sorry I took so long. I slipped over a bath mat and I hit my head on the tub. Blacked out for a bit. I’m alright, though.” While it wasn’t a complete lie, per se, it wasn’t the truth, either. It would just have to do until he could sort out that the actual fuck just happened. Even if he were to tell them the truth, what would he even say? He couldn’t begin to describe it, himself.

“Ooh. Sounds painful.” Mark said. “And you’re sure you’re alright?”

“Yeah…yeah, I’m fine.” Jack knew that was far from the truth. He was unsettled, disturbed. He was scared. He felt as if he was losing his mind. He’s seen Anti before, he’s been taken over by him before. But this, this was so much different than the last two times. It was as if Jack was living a real-life horror game. Until he figured out a game plan, he decided he was going to keep this to himself. So, he played off as if he were okay. Just for now.

“Are you okay to play a few more rounds, then?” Mark asked him.

“Sure, let’s do it.” Jack replied. Because at least playing a game with his friends could take his mind off of things. But, every now and again, through his headphones, he swore he could still hear the laughter.


“I̶͇͓̝̲̭̙͗͐̐ͯ͛ͨ͡ț̱̗̼̬̙͇̯͖̒̅̿̒̊̑ͤ͡'̗̜͓̂s̩͓̟̮̆͐͡ ̠̘͍̩͈͇̣̩̝̃͑̒̈́̈́̑ͤ̀̉m̨̖̻̬͂̒ͥͧ̓͂ͣ͒͗͡y̨̞̙̣ͭ̓̚ ̡̔ͤ̈̃͏̺̰͎̖͇͚ţ̹̱̜̰͙ͪ͐͡ų͖̣̼̹̯̅ͪ̒̔ͣͬ̍̋ŗ̙̦͍͔͒ͬͤͩͤ̏ͭ̌n̡̹̊̄̇̏̃̋̍͡ ̼͔̹͈̙̟̟͇̪ͨ͌ͪ̋ͭ͋̚͘͡n̷͖̦̮͋̍ǒ͎̜̳̺̗̦̹̹͐ͫw̧͎̤̭̺̘̗̘ͣͭ̈͑ͪͭ͒̉̐͞ͅ,̧̭̪̣͙̱̟͈̼̽̉ͣͬ̑̆ ͇̘̬̆ͧ͛̅ͮ͡J̘̞̩̲͔̞ͩ́̄́͘͝a̢͙͚̖̹̭̠͍̬̋̿́͟c̝̙̞̭̰̿̿ͪͤͯk̨ͦ̒̃̄͞͏̲̠̻̼͇.͓̤̥̥̂͗́ͩ̐̐ͥͧ̆̀ͅ”

Makeup Tutorial For Trans Women

Hey loves! I’m about eight months into my hormone replacement therapy journey, and for the longest time I’ve been searching for the right makeup look. For months I wore full face makeup with eyeliner and lipstick on the daily (and that is totally fine for you to do as well) but it got to a point where I dreaded getting ready every morning. It wasn’t good for my skin and sometimes it did the opposite of what I intended it to do, for I kept getting misgendered. So I learned to start doing less; I feel better about my skin, and I am able to pass much easier. And although I know for some of you passing is not a concern, I am aware that for others passing is a matter of safety and security.

So let’s get into this makeup look!

First things first, priming is very important!! Now I know from paying hormones and other things I have to do financially, I have a pretty tight budget. However, through the help of the internet and some makeup YouTubers, I’ve discovered this very cheap primer. It’s NIVEA for Men Sensitive Post Shave Balm ($5). It works like magic, and it is cheap! The glycerin in the formula helps your makeup stay on all day long. Also, I shave my face right before doing my makeup, therefore an after shave balm really helps. You’ll kill two birds with one stone!

Next up, I like to color correct my five o’ clock shadow, which is mainly my upper lip and chin area. I use Wet n’ Wild MegaLast Lipstick Just Peachy ($1.50). Because my facial hair has a blue-ish undertone, I am using an orangey/peachy color before my foundation to cancel it out. I apply and blend it out with my middle finger.

I like to let it sit for a bit, so to save time, I move on to concealing/highlighting/priming- all with one product! And that is the Maybelline Instant Age Rewind Eraser Dark Circles Treatment Concealer, Neutralizer ($7). I apply it on the bridge of my nose for a subtle highlight, under my eyes for brightening, and on my eyelids for priming the eye makeup!

So once I look like I belong in The Lion King, I use a damp Drugstore Beauty Blender ($4), and blend it all out with patting motions. Be gentle, but really work in the products.

Viola! So now we move onto foundation! I used to wear liquid foundation every day, but I found that it was drying and too cakey for a daily look, so I moved on to bb creams! An lawddddddd, they work wonders! It’s light and breathable, yet is buildable and can cover up problem areas, such as the peachy orange color concealer I use. My current favorite is Maybelline Dream Velvet Soft Matte Hydrating Foundation, 90 Honey Beige ($9). I apply it with my fingers all over my face except for the color corrected areas. I will get to that after with a different application!

I learned that it is not necessarily what brand of makeup you use that makes you look incredible, but the techniques and the brushes are what will do you wonders! So for the bb cream I am using E.L.F’s Powder Brush ($3), which is meant for dry products, but the density and surface of the brush makes for a perfect buffing brush. So blend that in!

Now all you are left with is your upper lip area and chin area that has the peachy tone lipstick on it. So what I do is I take more of that bb cream, and put it on my middle finger, and apply a generous amount on top of the areas. Afterwards, I use the bottom part of my beauty blender and pat that in, making sure to blend out the edges so I’m left with one unison color for my foundation.

Yay! Foundation is all complete! Now because there is quite the thick layer on my upper lip and chin area, I need to set it so it does not move or smudge throughout the day. So what I do is I use Coty Airspun Loose Face Powder, Naturally Neutral ($5) with my beauty blender, and pat a generous amount on my chin and upper lip. This is called baking, where you let the powder cook the makeup and set it really well.

Can’t forget about the rest of the face! So what I do is I take a little amount of that loose powder and apply it mostly on the highlighted areas, such as the under eyes, and the bridge of my nose. But this time, I use a little bit and blend it in really well. Because the deweyness of the bb cream is lovely, and you don’t want to take that away!

While I bake, I like to move on to the eyes. I start with highlighting beneath the brow, with Nourishing Long Wear Eye Shadow + Built-in Primer, Classic Nude ($8). I take the top pinkish highlight color with my ring finger and apply that under my brows for a nice shimmery highlight.

Next, I move on to the eyeshadow, which will actually be the bronzer that I use. I like to keep the eyes simple and nude neutral, for a more natural look. I bought Wet ‘n’ Wild Color Icon Bronzer, Bikini Contest ($3) bronzer at the dollar store, and it is by far one of my favorite bronzers to date! I will apply it with E.L.F.’s Eyeshadow “C” Brush ($3) and pack it on my eyelids. After, I use E.L.F.’s Blending Brush ($3) and blend out the edges to smoke out the eyeshadow.

Next, I highlight the tip of my nose, inner corner of my eyes, and cheekbones with ColourPop’s Glo Up Highlighter ($8), all with my ring finger. It has a more thick powder consistency, and I find using my finger to be the easiest method.

The reasoning for highlighting is that because we have concealed, applied foundation, and powdered our face, adding shimmer brings back a glow to the face. Also… highlighters are so pretty! 

So the next step is to dust off the powder on the chin and upper lip with a very light and fluffy brush.

Now, I move on to contouring/bronzing. I like to use one single product to do the job. Contouring and then bronzing is too much work, and I’m not going for a night time party look, therefore a warm and bronze glow will do the job, if done strategically. I use E.L.F.’s Complexion Brush ($3) and the bronzer earlier and work it right above the natural hollow of my cheekbones, and blend it in in circular motions, whilst blending in the highlight on the cheek too, to make one uniform look.

Don’t forget the forehead, sides of the nose, jawline, and down the neck. I also blend some on the upper lip and chin because the powder earlier can make the areas look slightly ashy. Blend, blend, blend! Very important!

For my eyebrows, I like to use Maybelline Volum’ Express The Rocket Mascara ($6) because it darkens my brows, and the waterproof formula keeps it in place. Eyebrows frame your face, they are very important, so experiment to see what works best for you!

You can honestly end right here, but I like to do mascara. I find that applying mascara on my eyelashes helps feminize my eyes. Take a looksie!

As you can see, simply curling them makes a big difference. Now let’s apply the mascara! My favorite is L'Oreal Paris Voluminous Miss Manga Mascara, Waterproof Blackest Black ($6). Unfortunately, my genetics did not bless me with the best eyelashes, but this mascara knocked me off the park and gives me length I never thought I could have! Look at the difference in the two eyes.

I focus the mascara mostly on the outer corner because it almost gives it a darker smokey/gradient eye look. Now do the same for the other eye and we’re almost done!

For the lips, I like to line them with Rimmel 1000 Kisses Stay On Lip Liner Pencil, Café Au Lait ($3), and fill them in with CoverGirl Lip Perfection Lip Stick, Sultry ($2)

Because I’m going for a more naturalistic look, I like to make the lips more matte. Here’s the trick: You take a tissue paper, put it over your lips, and use a fluffy brush and a loose powder and lightly brush it over my lips for a matte effect.

AND YOU’RE DONE!!

Now finish up getting ready, and live your life!

You can either add more, or take it all off. At the end of the day, your makeup is your own art, so go with whatever you are most comfortable with!

anonymous asked:

What's your opinion on this robot harry?For me it's so annoying he can't even pretend to be excited for his own tour, his social media presence is such a turn off

Well I’m sort of digging myself a grave with this one, but since I haven’t seen a post I can fully agree with, here we go. Disclaimer, I actually study this at uni. I was the Social Media Manager for the planning and putting together of a fashion show, on all platforms. I just handed in last month a 6-months marketing plan that was based around social media promo. So I do have a bit of knowledge in this area. I am by no means an expert, but this is my future field of choice, so I like to think I’m at least educated.

The situation isn’t as black and white as people have put it so far. All I’ve seen is “he’s horrible at engaging with fans” and “he doesn’t own you shit so stop complaining”. The answer is a very big grey area in which Harry’s actual social media presence fits perfectly in my opinion. First of all, there’s two main templates we studied for marketing purposes this year, Gaynor Lea Greenwood’s promotion suggestions (2009) and Burcher (2013)’s Paid, Owned and Earned media concept. Long story short, the first one is your traditional marketing campaign and the second one relies more on social media and advertising on it. Now, I think Harry’s team went for the more traditional approach, and let me explain why.

Harry started distancing himself more and more from twitter and Instagram ever since the hiatus started.Even before, during OTRA and MITAM promo, most of his tweets were promo stuff, lyrics I’m not sure we fully understand even now, charity work, promoting friends or tweeting about holidays/important days or events. His fan interaction has been low for quite a while, and I’m honestly baffled people are acting like this is news. Looking through his Twitter in 2015, there are some tweets to fans, yes, but they’re very sparse.I counted about 12 in 5 months, most of them in September, when Perfect came out, and around the release of MITAM.His tweets were mostly thanks to fans for various awards and nominalisation, promoting the songs/album, some lyrics and, without fail, after every concert he tweeted a thank you for coming.

It felt more personal than what we have now (tho in all honesty, his tour hasn’t started yet and if we eliminate the OTRA tweets it’s already a different story), but Robot Harry has been a thing then, and people were riding along with it instead of condemning it to the extent they do now.But, the thing is, Harry didn’t have the entire burden of engaging with the fanbase like he has now.Louis, Niall and Liam always took turns in taking the lead in replying to fans and interacting with them, which allowed Harry to do his part and everyone was mostly happy.

And yet, I personally don’t feel this frustration many people feel. I think it’s quite interesting actually. A bold move that wouldn’t work for other artist whose career relies on people who live and breathe social media (maybe Beyonce or Adele, but they are in another league). I was very intrigued by Harry’s statement in the Behind the album video, in which he said that there was a time in his life when people knew everything about him, and he didn’t like it.He has been overexposed since 2012, his personal life splashed across tabloids, fake relationship or not.And now he disappeared for a year (and has been retreating into himself for at least 2) and he wrote this mysterious™ album, trying to see if people can listen and understand it without knowing much about the current him. In this context, having an album that surrounds itself in mystery and then doing 4 Q&As on twitter and 3 livestreams sends…extremely contradictory messages. I can, and will fault his team for presenting a dual image of Harry that sometimes makes 0 sense, for handling a lot of things so poorly, and for the entire Carolina mess, but I will say that his social media fits this old school mysterious rockstar image they’re showing of him. I also think his actual reason is very personal and very real, and I respect the fact that he didn’t compromise this choice he made for promo purposes.

His promo relied on more traditional channels. TV and radio appearances, print magazines, and most importantly, the secret gigs. Now, I’m sorry, but I felt entirely more connected to Harry running across London at 8AM in my pyjamas than by any twitter spree he’ll ever do. I never did this before. This reminded me of the stories my dad told me, of queuing up for days in front of the box office so he’d get the tickets when they went on sale. It was very old school and it worked for me. It was a phenomenal experience, something I will never forget. And he did this for us. All profits went to charity, he didn’t do this for money. And while I know this was for a few selected cities and a handful of lucky fans, it was intimate and it was special and I think everyone, regardless if they were there, or vicariously living through pics and videos, felt a connection to Harry. We got emotional on his behalf when he sang with his idol on stage 2 weeks later, you don’t do that for someone you have no connection to.

Now, the actual reason I’m happy with what we’ve got is that it is genuine from my POV. Liam is the perfect candidate for a comparison, since he also took a bit of a break from social media (not as heavy as Harry’s, but he definitely wasn’t as active as Louis or Niall) and his promo is as textbook as it gets. He slowly, but surely increased his activity since January, a few more tweets, a few more pics on Instagram.A big turning point was April when he posted 13 pics on Instagram, compared to 8 in March, 4 in February and 3 in January. His Twitter went through a similar process.Now, the moment he started posting more, I knew his music was gonna be out soon. It’s pure marketing. You start your campaign weeks before the actual launch, it’s only natural. Unless you want to drop it as a surprise, but that’s another discussion. Actually Harry did it too, with the TV ad, but that was ruined by the info getting leaked beforehand and everyone getting pissed off by that so whatevs. Now, Liam is going for the approachable celeb route. Streams, Instagram stories, snapchat, tweeting fans, loads of pics, videos with popular Youtubers. It’s nice and about as well handled as it gets (apart from that weird video release earlier than it should have been and Liam just generally being a bit…odd?off?idk how to explain it, but a lot of people feel the same way from what I’ve seen). It fits with the image Liam is going for, it aims at the right target audience. He’s not trying to enter a new market like Harry is. He’s consolidating his place in the current market from what I’ve seen (and I’ll admit I haven’t followed his promo as closely as Harry’s). Trying to imagine Harry doing this sort of promo doesn’t really work for me.

Niall has been present on and off social media ever since he came back from his trip last year. Literally, if I pull up the calendars people have been making each month, he doesn’t get more than a handful of days without doing something, so it’s unfair to compare him to the others, since he’s always around and posting and doing stuff.

Louis deserves a better team and I won’t have anyone uttering anything else in my presence, and yet somehow, despite Niall’s constant presence and Liam’s textbook engagement, I’ll never feel as connected to them as I feel to Louis. Louis’ tweets are the perfect mixture of absolutely adorable fan service (“our year” 😭😭) and some of the things he’s passionate about (tv shows, fashion, footie/sports). His promo for JHO was….I have no words for it and I’m gonna have a rage fit if I start thinking about it, but his overall persona is charming and endearing when he’s posting things himself. He created a real communication channel between us and him and he knows how to use it when he needs to send a message (warning selfies anyone?Only you?). There’s an actual analysis of Instagram stats that shows he’s the number 1 male account in engagement and overall likes and that doesn’t surprise me one bit. Louis is a smart businessman, he has a loyal fanbase who is here for him through thick and thin.

And on top of everything I said so far, none of them owe us anything outside the promo bubble. Apart from shoots, songs/albums/tours info and official announcements, they do not owe us anything. If they chose to share a picture from their home, that’s their personal space, and while it’s good for PR, amazingly good in a society that thrives from the feeling of knowing everything about everyone (like what’s your fave’s breakfast and how’s their cat is doing), it’s still a part they can choose to keep private and no one should be entitled to ask for more.

Have you seen Adele’s Instagram? It gives you this illusion of closeness to her, with make up free selfies, funny poses and landscape shots. Too bad literally everything is from touring and other official appearances right? There’s one picture of her home, and that’s to celebrate the end of the tour. Harry sort of did the same with the booklet pictures. He allowed you into his personal space in a controlled manner, just like Adele did. Only he did it in a different way. His promo is just different and you have to think a bit outside the box to see that he actually did a lot of things other artists do. Just a bit differently. Was it perfect?Fuck, no. Was it as bad as many people make it look like?Personally, I don’t think so. It was just different and people are entirely justified to see it as a good or a bad thing. I see it mostly as a good thing. Mostly.

if ts doesn’t promote this comeback properly (which they probably won’t, seeing as b.a.p only have two weeks to perform on korean music shows before the tour, if they even do perform that is) then what are we for? we’ve fought for b.a.p so much that at this point, protecting and promoting them is part of being a fan. make a hype about this comeback! make gifsets, edits, graphics, write fics, reblog b.a.p posts and make your own, even if it’s just you screaming about how they deserve the world - your followers, some from other fandoms, will see. make our presence noticeable on social media: tumblr, twitter, youtube etc. ask popular channels for reactions to the mv, and upvote b.a.p-related comments so more people see them. spread the love for b.a.p!

Happy Birthday @ryuusadesu!


Continuing what you mentioned before…
Once Chat Noir arrived to wish Marinette a happy birthday, it was clear that having a friend who is the daughter of bakers has its benefits. Although he would definitely want to visit her for other reasons too.
~Something sweet (¬‿¬)~

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sleepyhead

this was an anonymous request, hope you like it love!

Word Count: 1000+

Rating: PG

You couldn’t help but chuckle as you scrolled through your Instagram. 

“What’s funny?” Joe asked, looking down at you. You were on your back on the couch, your head on his lap, his fingers running through your hair. You passed your phone to him, showing him Caspar’s Instagram post with Maddie. 

“They’re so cute,” you said, reaching up to toy with the strings of Joe’s hoodie. 

“We’re cuter,” Joe smiled at you.

“I know,” was all you said, but Joe knew you well enough to read what you didn’t say. He took your hand, kissing the back of it gently. 

The two of you were a very open couple when it came to each other, but not when it came to the rest of the world. Joe wasn’t really one to share his personal life, and that included you. You understood it, of course. After seeing all the hate on Maddie’s profile, or any girl who could possibly have any connection with any of the boys for that matter, you didn’t have to question why Joe wanted to keep your relationship a secret. 

That didn’t mean it didn’t suck though. From no PDA in the vlogs to no social media posts, it was hard to keep up with sometimes. Joe was Joe, but Joe was also thatcherjoe, and not being a part of that side of his life was almost like missing a big part of him. Sometimes, you just wanted to post a cute picture of your boyfriend. All the thoughts made you feel selfish, so you never brought them up, but Joe saw right through you anyways.

“I wish we didn’t have to hide either,” he murmured to you. “I’d show you off to the whole world if I could.”

“You can you know. I’m sure I’ll develop a tough skin,” you replied.

“You shouldn’t have to.” His voice was sharp, and you tread carefully.

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Being a Tarot professional and hobbyist can be such a wonderful experience. For many, the exploration of Tarot is one of the best parts of their lives. Some Tarot users use divination as a means for a successful career. Some use it as a side income, while others enjoy Tarot because it is their passion. Tarot is a wonderful tool for people to connect with each other and provide services of enlightenment and understanding. But what if you don’t want to sell readings? What if Tarot reading is an introspective process for you? What if you are someone who isn’t comfortable reading Tarot for others or plain don’t like doing it? How will you make money then? In this post, I have provided thirty-one ways to make money with Tarot that isn’t offering Tarot readings.

Spread Creation Services

Do you like creating Tarot spreads for yourself or clients? If you have an online eCommerce shop, you can provide spread crafting services to other tarot readers or clients who may need help in formulating a Tarot spread of their own.

Deck Modification Services

If you are a fan and skilled in Tarot deck customization and modification, you can provide such a service to the Tarot and Divination communities. Some of these services may include removing borders off decks, edging decks with faux gilding, customizing card backs and fronts, etc.

Tarot Business Coaching

Sometimes as new tarot professionals starting out we could use some tailored guidance on our journey. One fantastic thing you can do to help other Tarot readers or upcoming Tarot professionals is to offer some form of business coaching. If you have been in this business for a significant amount of time, your voice, experience, and know-how can be very much sought after. Online webinars and one to one training seem to be popular in this line of work.

Teaching A Tarot Class, Workshop Or E-Course

Tarot is becoming much more accessible and more mainstream. Teaching a Tarot course or workshop is a fantastic way to help other Tarot readers on their journey. I have taught an introductory Tarot course at one of the metaphysical shops I have worked at previously and it was such a rewarding experience. You can also create an e-course that can be downloaded and followed through online means.

Books, E-Books, Zines

Your voice should be heard and what better way to share it than with a book. You can make money with Tarot by creating independently published books and ebooks be it through Blurb, CreateSpace, Amazon, etc. One of the most popular topics are how-to guides. You can also craft your own zine both hard copy and electronic ones and sell them online. Another very lucrative market in regards to selling books is having your books in audio book formats. Using services like Audible and Apple iTunes, or even selling your own packaged mp3 files through your e-commerce store can prove a great way to make money.

Guest Writing

Do you like writing about Tarot but aren’t ready to create a full book? Something you might want to consider is writing original blog posts and content for other bloggers or providing articles for sponsored tarot networks. The pay varies but it is a cool way to make money and get your name out there.

Sponsored Content

If you have a large social media following you can do promotional and sponsored written and video posts for deck publishing companies both large and independent. You can also write and record sponsored reviews of Tarot products, goods, and services.

Ads

Do you have a significant amount of followers on your social media platforms, Youtube, blog, and website? Something you can consider implementing is Google Adsense and tailored ads that you can run on those platforms. Running Adsense on your Youtube videos can get you money from advertisers who put ads before and after your videos.

Affiliate Programs

If you use sites like Amazon and Ebay you can sign up for their affiliate program. An affiliate program is when you share links to products and services like Tarot decks and deck bags with your following through the affiliate program links and if your following purchases that product through your specific link, you get paid a commission by the program because you brought them traffic and sales.

Being A Reseller

If you have a registered Tarot business, you can apply to be a deck and book reseller for various Tarot publishing companies. You essentially purchase products (decks, books, misc accessories) at wholesale pricing and resell them.

Deck Creation

Have you ever wanted to make your own Tarot deck? Creating and selling your very own Tarot deck can be a great way to share your creativity but also make money in the process.

Tarot Deck Artist And Illustrator

If you are an artist you can market your artistic ability and services to deck creators and publishing companies who are looking for artists to create Tarot decks.

Tarot Tattoo Artist

I know of some great tattoo artists who work solely on esoteric and tarot themed tattoos. This could be something to consider if you are interested in this line of work.

Sell Your Own Tarot Decks And Books

Do you have decks or Tarot books that you don’t use or want anymore? Are you trying to slim down your Tarot collection? A wonderful way to obtain some extra money is to sell your decks and Tarot books. You can sell unused and or out of print decks for higher rates.

Missing Card Services

Do you have a deck that is missing one or two cards? A great way to put a deck like that to use and help others is to sell individual cards of that deck for people to buy if they have also misplaced a card within that deck. If the deck is popular or one that is out of print, this can be another lucrative way to use something as simple as an incomplete deck to make some money.

Tarot Merchandise

Do you like to create your own Tarot inspired merchandise? Do you like making Tarot deck bags or cloths? Making and selling tarot inspired jewelry, clothing, deck bags, deck wallets, deck wraps, deck boxes, deck mats, deck cloths, t-shirts, hats, pins and other divination accessories can help make you a significant income. You can also offer custom pieces at much higher rates and even sell them through your own online e-commerce shop, fairs, and festivals or through local metaphysical shops.

Artisan Craft Templates

Do you have beautiful artisan designs that you are willing to share with other Tarot craft creators? You can provide paid video tutorials, and templates for your deck bags, tarot cloths, crochet and sewing deck bag techniques. You can also sell tips and tricks for your tarot inspired jewelry, etc.

Printables

Do you like creating tarot journal and planner pages? This can be a great way to help other tarot readers on their journey stay organized and implement tarot into their daily routine. You can create printable pages for a card of the day, week, and month posts, as well as journaling pages. You can also create and sell Tarot themed activity worksheets, Tarot business trackers, etc.

Private Tutorial

If you have no interest in creating and selling a large course but still want to provide a specific tutorial on a Tarot or divination topic, you can sell that tutorial.

Guided Meditations

Many of us have trouble relaxing or getting “into the zone” before a Tarot reading. Like audio books, you can also sell your Tarot and divination themed guided meditations to those who are interested in that type of meditation and relaxation resource.

Tarot Speaker

If you like to talk about Tarot, you may want to try giving talks about tarot at conventions, events and Tarot themed panels.

Photographer For Hire

Are you a photographer? Have a good camera? You can offer your photography services to Tarot businesses to take product shots, and tarot themed photography for their website or blog.

Writer For Hire

Are you proficient in copywriting services? You can offer your skills to those looking to better their web copy for their business, products, and services.

Social Media Marketer For Hire

Are you a social media marketer marvel? You can offer your services to Tarot businesses who want to better their social media platforms and drive more traffic to their business.

Graphic Designer And Web Designer For Hire

Are you a graphic artist or web designer who loves Tarot? You can offer your design services to Tarot businesses and professionals who need websites, landing pages, logos, header images, promotional graphics, and banners.

Subscription Services

If you are interested in offering monthly subscription services you can create a membership service on your own site or use websites like Patreon to supply your supporters with fresh Tarot themed content monthly. You can also use websites like cratejoy if you are interested in creating monthly subscription boxes that are Tarot themed. You can also create monthly subscription “communities” tailored to Tarot and your specific audience.

Mobile Tarot App

Are you proficient in creating mobile applications? You could create your own Tarot themed app and sell it on Apple and Android mobile marketplaces. You can also make additional income if your application has advertisements within it.

Paid Focus Groups

A focus group is when companies bring a diverse group of people together to talk about, discuss and try a product or service before it is released for feedback. The pay varies by company but it is a great way to make some money. I have been in two focus groups for Tarot applications in regards to their usability and ease of use.

Middle Man Mailing Service

For those who live in various parts of the world other than the United States, there are Tarot decks that come with large shipping fees. You can offer to purchase Tarot decks for others who live in a different part of the world or have a difficult time obtaining a certain deck because of their geological location and include a service fee and send them the deck at a much lower rate than they would have to pay if they purchased it directly.

Rent Out Your Space

Do you have a store front, office space or own your home? You can rent out your space for Tarot events and meet ups.

Virtual Assistant

Do you excel in helping other people’s businesses off the ground? You might want to consider offering virtual assistant services in helping Tarot readers and businesses who need an extra set of eyes and hands to help them run it.


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Disclaimer: The intention of this post is to share the various different ways I know of to make money with Tarot that are not Tarot readings.This isn’t the only way, the absolute right way or the way that you “should” approach this topic. I can only speak from personal experience and what I know about first hand. I encourage you to do your own research, to do what you are comfortable with and to tailor any advice provided henceforth to your specific needs and individual situation. Also please keep in mind that there are various different rules, regulations, and laws that precede your location, state, country in regards to many of these money making opportunities that may be different from my own. The services and websites mentioned in this post are not affiliated with Ivan Ambrose / TarotProse.com and are only used as examples. No professional or personal relationship should be assumed. I encourage and open up this conversation to added commentary to supplement this post of any kind.
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Somebody somewhere said Quintessa talks to Optimus like he’s a bratty child.

NO.

That’s not how you treat a child, not even if they are being bratty and rude.

The way she treats Optimus is straight up physical and emotional abuse.

I’ll break it down. I posted about this before, but fuck it I’m doing it again.

All pics were dug off Google. Gifs were made by me with help from Youtube and gifs.com


Optimus lands in a less than optimal condition. He’s been in stasis for who-knows-how-long. He’s got dents from space rocks that probably hit him while he was out. He’s half-frozen, as in you see ice fall off him when he looks up. He’s probably in pain because space is really fricken cold.

And he’s pissed off.

Optimus walks in to Quintessa all “I’ll kill you!” because he believes Quintessa is the person behind the Seeds and as a result is a direct threat to Earth. He’s trying to protect a place and people he values.

Quintessa, despite her tiny size, has powers that make her able to render Optimus helpless against her without effort. She hurls an energy blast at his arm to knock his sword from his hand, calls forth the chains that restrain him and shoots him in the upper body / head with a stronger energy blast that knocks him into his knees. This is an establishment of dominance, which she completes by saying, “You dare to strike your god?” Her voice is very cold, angry sounding.

Now the emotional and physical abuse begins as Infernocus walks behind Optimus.

Quintessa spits at Optimus, “Your war doomed Cybertron.”

This is when Infernocus starts to beat Optimus and grab his head to further immobilize him and force him to look at Quintessa. It’s right as Optimus says, “Megatron started the war!”

Quintessa takes hold of Optimus’ chin and gaslights him with this accusation: “You destroyed your world, you fool!” 

Keep in mind, Optimus launched the Allspark (Cube) into space. Cybertron was already dying, and this would seal its fate. An act of desperation to stop the war. Cybertron was probably screwed no matter what choice Optimus made. He wrestled with the decision before and after he made it. This is what Quintessa hooks into when she gaslights Optimus by making it sound like the loss of Cybertron is entirely his fault. His fault, nobody else’s. We all know the real blame lays on everyone involved on the war, yet Quintessa puts all that blame on Optimus alone. 

Think about that for a moment. That’s what Optimus is doing in this scene. I bet he sees the face of every soldier he ever lost or killed in battle as well as the Cube zooming into space. It’s all flashing through him. He’s silent, stunned by her words. And the slap happens while he’s still reeling from what she said to him. It’s not a little love tap. Optimus grunts in pain, sparks fly and the blow jerks his head to the side. He doesn’t turn his head, her slap does.

It’s interesting how the red mark doesn’t just appear. It starts small and propagates until it “solidifies”. It’s like you see the physical pain of her slap and accusations / gaslighting manifesting as glowing gold light spreading on the left side of his face.  Optimus realizes she’s done something to him; his face is twitchy with a look of pain and fear. 

And after that, Quintessa’s tone of voice changes to something more gentle and condescending. There may be dialogue missing because all I have are somebody’s low quality thirty-second long clips to verify, but she basically says “My perfect creation… you’re going to fix it, or the race of Transformers dies forever.”

Then she runs her hand down his cheek and smiles. “I made you. You are mine to command.” (Human parent abusers might say, “I’m your mom / dad / relative, so you have to do what I say.”)

The whole time, Optimus just looks confused, hurt and scared. It’s a huge contrast to how utterly pissed off he was mere seconds ago. 

Quintessa has taken every doubt he’s ever had and twisted it to destabilize him. She knows she’s got him when he avoids eye contact and remains silent instead of throwing verbal barbs back at her. No more “What have you done to my world? I’ll kill you!” He’s just…silent.

Something interesting of note is how Optimus keeps avoiding eye contact even as Quintessa lifts his chin to turn his face towards her after the cheek caress. This would be perfectly normal behavior for an autistic person like me, but I don’t headcanon Bayverse Optimus as autistic. Eye contact for an autistic person hyper-activates a part of the brain related to faces in a way that doesn’t bother non-autistic people. Depending on the culture, NT’s who place a lot of importance on eye contact avoid it when they feel defeated or are afraid of somebody. 

Quintessa maintains eye contact the whole time, even leaning into Optimus’ personal space as if to tell him he’s not allowed to have that anymore. She knows she’s got him when he’s avoiding her gaze. It takers her less than five minutes to utterly destroy him mentally.

A “skilled” abuser can tear somebody down real fast, and she does exactly that. She’s totally screwing with his mind.

She starts feeding Optimus lies about the Staff being stolen and basically sweet-talks / orders him to get it back. That’s where the “Do you seek redemption, Prime? Do you?” line comes from, to which Optimus replies, “My maker, I do.”

This leads to even more abuse and there are other things they discuss while Quintessa is making the chains zap Optimus. I’m sorta guessing this is part of what she considers his “redemption”. She basically groomed the hell out of him to accept her treatment of him as normal. He’s making noises of pain, but not fighting it because she conditioned him to see it as fixing the problem she convinced him he caused. I can’t say what she tells him without spoiling the movie for those who haven’t seen it yet, but Quintessa feeding Optimus this information while inflicting pain on him. To avoid spoilers, all I can say is she tells him Earth has the Staff and something on Earth can rebuild Cybertron. She convinces Optimus that this thing on Earth is something that must die for Cybertron to live. 

The chilling part is Optimus mumbles “yes” as she’s saying “Earth will die, and Cybertron will live.”

Optimus accepts what she says as true. She has totally squashed his will and twisted his identity, and you know the damage is complete when Optimus says “I will fight anyone who stands in my way.”

Abusers find out what gets under their target’s skin and they will hook themselves under it and rip whenever they please to cause maximum pain whether it’s physical or mental. Then they play ‘move the goal posts’ where they imply doing this one thing will appease them, but when their victim does that thing it’s suddenly not good enough anymore. 

She preys on Optimus after he’s been betrayed by nearly everyone he has ever trusted or looked up to. The way she talks to him almost sounds like she’s saying do my bidding and I will never betray you while literally betraying him. I shudder to wonder what else Quintessa had planned had he been the one to hand her the staff.

But the scene with the chains and dialogue is such a powerful scene. It shows how abuse doesn’t take long to destroy someone, especially if that someone is already vulnerable for other reasons. And it’s not Optimus’ fault that this happened. Yes, he walked into her ‘space’, but she, or whoever made the Seeds, became a threat to him first. The Creators sent Lockdown, who killed Ratchet. Lockdown mentioned the Creators, which named the threat Optimus had to target next to protect Earth.

Ultimately, Quintessa takes two things Optimus values greatly and forces him to pick one, yet her tactics coerce him to pick what she wants. You know abuse has done serious damage when the person being abused obeys their abuser’s will instead of their own because they’ve been twisted into believing they want what their abuser wants. They can’t think for themselves anymore because every action they take is based on “will it please them enough to not hurt me?”

It’s very easy to destroy and control a person if you know exactly what they value most. Destroying people inside and out is what abusers do. And it’s exactly what Quintessa did to Optimus. 



I’m not saying nobody can make memes out of the slap or whatever. Have fun with that. Just remember how serious and damaging that scene is in the context of the movie.

Twisted In Lies (D.T) Part 1

Summary: It’s been 6 months, since Y/N and the boys spoken to each other. They’ve all moved on. Y/N even has a boyfriend now. But what happens when Y/N reunites with Ethan and Grayson? Does a reacquainted love occur? Are there more lies? Will more hearts be broken? 

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A/N: We had so many ideas for Twisted In Love, that it was only right we continued the series! So, SURPRISE! Here’s the sequel! As you can see it is called Twisted In Lies. Why? You’ll see as you read the series. Feedback is always welcome! Let us know what you guys think! Make sure you guys keep an eye out on @sniperdolan blog for part 2!

Hope you guys enjoy it!

Love you! :) 

( the boys are 20 in this series.)

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Reader’s POV

It’s been 6 months since I’ve spoken to either Ethan or Grayson. The last time I’ve seen them or spoken to them, was the night we got back from Playlist Live Orlando, and everything kind of blew up.

They ended up working things out, and I’m glad. Thank god the Dolans Twins were still together, and from what I see and hear on social media, the boys have been doing great. I tried to keep up with their videos, and watch they whenever they post but it was hard. I missed them. Before all of the craziness, we were friends. I missed being their friend.

I think about reaching out to them, to see if we could try to amend our friendship, but I wouldn’t even know what to say. Grayson was in a relationship now. He was dating a 21 year old college student named Gabriella. She wasn’t a model, or a YouTuber, or anybody in the social media world. She was your normal everyday college fan girl. She was really pretty, and they looked super cute together. I was happy for him. He deserved to be happy.

A lot has happened in the last 6 months. After all that drama passed, everything has been going great. I now have 4 million subscribers on YouTube. I have 5.9 million followers on Instagram, and I was 3,000 followers away from 3 million on Twitter. I’ve doing a little modeling here and there, and taking on some acting rolls for a few shows. I’m so grateful for all these amazing opportunities I’ve been blessed with.

Tonight was the Teen Choice Awards, and I have been nominated for 2 awards. Choice Female YouTuber, and Choice Female WebStar. It was an honor to even be invited to go, let alone be up for 2 big awards. I was currently in my apartment, getting ready with my best friend and my roommate Lena, and my boyfriend Cameron Dallas.

Cameron and I started dating a few months ago. 4 months to be exact. A few weeks after all the drama and stuff had gone down, I was asked to do a photo shoot for Calvin Klein, and Cameron was my partner for the shoot. We got along really well while we were on set. Cracking jokes, and just making each other laugh. He reached out to me on Twitter a few days after the shoot, and asked me to film a collab video with him for his channel. He was a flirt let me tell you! We ended up texting, and snapping each other, and went on a few dates, and now here we are. I really like Cameron, he makes me happy.

“Ready to go beautiful?” he asked, holding out his hands for me to take into my own.

Cameron, Lena, and I walked down stairs to the front of the apartment complex, and got into the Uber. We were finally on our way to my first TCAs.

* * * *

We pulled up to the venue, and as we were getting out the Uber, Cameron and I were immediately called over to the blue carpet. We walked over to the carpet and waited at the end before we were told to go on. I haven’t been here for 10 mins yet and I’m already seeing a ton of celebrities and I’m fangirling a little bit on the inside. There was so much going on. People interviewing, people taking pictures, cameras flashing everywhere. I wasn’t s nervous as I thought I would be, and I guess that was because I had Cameron with me, and he’s done this like a bunch of times already.

“You guys are next.” the lady said to Cameron and I.

“You ready?” Cameron asked. I nodded.

Cameron held my hand, as we both stepped onto the carpet. Immediately there were cameras flashing at us. We stopped and posed for some photos. We took some silly ones, and some normal ones. They wanted some pictures of us by ourselves, so Cameron went off to take his pictures, and I was over here taking mine. I did a few cute poses, and headed over to the next part which was the interview.

* * * *

“Y/N! You look gorgeous. So it’s your first TCA and have already been nominated for 2 awards! Congratulations!” the interview said before placing the mic in front of me.

“Thank you so much! I’m grateful to even be here, so being nominated for 2 awards, I’m truly honored! I hands down have the best fans in the world! I love you guys!” I said blowing a kiss into the camera.

The interview carried on for a little bit, with questions about my channel, and what else I’ve been working. Now here comes the one question I’ve been dreading the most. Great.

“So Y/N I think everyone is dying to know. Have you and the twins talked at all since all the drama happened? Do you think it’s possible to fix the friendship?” she asked.

I did not want to answer that question at all, and I didn’t know how to answer that question. That was a question I was hoping to avoid, but of course it was going to get brought up so am I surprised.

“We haven’t talked, but I mean I have nothing against them. I’ve been hearing a lot of great things, so I couldn’t be any more proud of them.” I said truthfully.

Thank god Cameron finished his interview because he came over shortly after I answered the question.

“Clearly everyone is talking about “You and Cameron’s Ship Name” How are you guys feeling about being nominated for Favorite Ship?” the interviewer asked.

“I think we’re a pretty cute couple, and I think the fans would agree.” Cameron said, giving me a kiss on the cheek.

“Before we let you guys go in, we have something for Y/N here.” the interviewer said, before walking off to the side to get something. She came back with a surfboard and I was so confused. Was it mine?

“Y/N you won Choice Female WebStar! Congratulations on your first award of the evening!” the interviewer cheered.

Cameron was cheering like one of those embarrassing mom.

“Oh my god! Thank you so much!” I said surprised. I was shocked to say the least. My first TCAs and my first surfboard! Tonight was going to be great!

* * * *

After the carpet Cameron head inside to meet Lena, who was already at her seat. I was seating down when Lena looked at me and kept motioning her head back, and mouthing for me to turn around. I gave her a weird look, but turned my around to see what she was trying to tell me.

It was them. It was Ethan and Grayson. They were sitting literally a row behind us. Grayson had his arm wrapped around some girl, who I realized was his girlfriend. Well I guess this will be interesting.

The award show went on, and it was time for them to announce Choice Male WebStar. A category both Cameron and the twins were nominated for. I was feeling so conflicted. Of course I wanted my boyfriend to win, but the twins also deserve it.

“And the winner for Choice Male WebStar is? …” the announcer paused as she opened the envelope. Cameron was holding my hand the whole time, while he was shaking his leg up and down nervously. It was cute how after all the awards he’s won he still gets so nervous.

“The Dolan Twins!” the announcer yelled into the microphone. I looked over at Cameron to see if he was upset or angry, but he wasn’t. Instead he was smiling and clapping for his friends.

As the twins were walking up to receive their award, they walked passed my row and Ethan did a little double take, as he tapped on Grayson’s arm making him turn around and his eyes landed on me. I flashed him a small smile, and he just turned around and made his way to the stage with Ethan.

“You okay?” Lena asked me.

“Yeah, it’s just weird seeing them since we haven’s spoken or anything you know.” I responded truthfully.

The boys gave their speech, and the fans went crazy! We went through a few more awards, a performance from Ariana Grande. Cameron had just won his Choice Comedian award, and I couldn’t be happier! They were announcing the awards for Choice Female YouTuber and Choice Male YouTuber next, and I was honestly freaking out! I was up against so many great YouTubers, there was no way I was winning that award. I was in my seat talking to Lena, and Cameron, when someone came and told me I needed to head backstage.

I was waiting backstage like the one of the backstage crew members told me to, but I wasn’t sure for what to be honest.

“Hey stranger.” I heard a familiar voice say from behind me. I turned around to see who it was.

It was Ethan.

“Hey!” I said, a little excited, but a little taken back at the same time.

“What are you doing backstage?” he asked me, nervously running his hand through his hair.

“I don’t know, they just told me to come back here and wait for something.” I shrugged.

“What about you? Why are you back here?” I asked.

“I don’t know either. Someone told Grayson and I the same thing.” he said, putting his hands in his back pocket.

There was an awkward silence between us for a few seconds before Ethan spoke again.

“I’m not mad anymore.” he said, causing me to drift my attention from the floor to him.

“I wanted to reach out but Grayson said you changed your number.” he finished.

“Yeah I did…” I paused.

“Ethan, I really am sorry about everything that happened.” I told him.

“It’s cool. I’m over it. I just miss my best friend.” he said flashing me his award winning smile.

“So friends?” I asked, as I was being pulled in for a hug by Ethan.

We both took out our phones, and decided to take a selfie. We posted a video on our Snapchat stories, and posted our selfies on Twitter with the caption …

@EthanDolan: “Ran into this stranger backstage. Congrats on your first TCA @YourTwitterName! Proud of you! 1 down 1 to go!”

@YourTwitterName: “Look who I met backstage at the TCAs! @EthanDolan”

As I was putting my phone away I saw Grayson coming from around the corner. I wanted to say something to him, but one of the crew members grabbed me and told me to stand over by the stage entrance.The announcer started making the announcement for the female and male YouTuber nominations.

“Good Luck.” Ethan said from behind me. The crew members had us standing in some kind of line up in front of the stage entrance, and I had zero idea as to why. Grayson was standing next to Ethan, paying attention on his phone and not once did he even try to look at me. I guess he wasn’t over it like Ethan was.

I smiled and wished him good luck as well.  

“And your winner for Choice Female YouTuber is…”

“Y/N Y/L/N!” one of the announcers yelled.

As I was walking up the stairs to get on the stage to accept my award, the second announcer started announced the award for male YouTuber.

“And your Choice Male YouTuber is…”

“The Dolan Twins!” the second announcer yelled, and the boys came walking onto the stage behind me.

We accepted our awards, gave our speeches and continue off the stage. I had some interviews to do so Cameron waited for me backstage so we could go together.

“2 awards! I’m proud of you babe!” Cameron said pulling me into a hug, as he placed a kiss on my cheek.

“Yo E, congrats bro!” Cameron shouted to Ethan, turning around giving him one of those bro hugs.

We made our way to a room, that had a beach theme going on.There were surfboards, a little swimming pool with sand around it, and a beach balls getting thrown around everywhere. It was pretty cute. Ethan, Grayson, Cameron and I were all getting interviewed by Tyler Oakley.

“So Y/N. You tweeted a selfie of Ethan and yourself and Ethan you did as well. So can we confirm that everything is good between you guys? No more drama” Tyler asked.

“Yes, everything is good. The past is the past, and I’m just happy to have my best friend back!” I said, as Ethan pulled me into a side hug.

“What about you Grayson? Everything’s good between you guys?” Tyler asked Grayson. To be honest, I didn’t know how he was going to respond. I mean he has even said a single word to me. Not like I expect him too, but I figured if Ethan got over it maybe he would too.

‘Yeah, we’re good!” Grayson said, fake smiling at the camera.

We were all answering a few fan questions, Cameron was cracking a few jokes back and forth with Ethan. Grayson tried to interact but you can tell he wanted to get the hell out of here as soon as possible. I mean I’m sure this has to be awkward for him. Seeing me for the first time in months, and I’m here with my boyfriend who just happens to be a friend of his. Someone bought out an envelope and surfboard, handing it to Tyler. He opened the envelope and read it before turning his attention back to the camera.

“Congratulations “You and Cameron’s Ship Name” you just won the Favorite Ship award!” Tyler screamed. Turning around to hand Cameron and I the surfboard.

“Told you we’re a cute couple.” Cameron said, before giving me a kiss on the lips.

Everyone in the roomed started awing following with chants of our ship name. Even Ethan was chanting it. Cameron and I pulled apart from our kiss, and I turned my head to look at Grayson. His eyes met mine, but quickly left as he turned his head and whispered something into Ethan’s ear.

After the interview Cameron and I went to go meet up with Lena before we started heading out. The TCAs were now over, and besides the awkward tension between Grayson and I, I had an amazing time. As the three of us were walking through the hectic crowd, Ethan approached us with Grayson and his girlfriend following behind. 

“Hey Y/N. Do you wanna go get some pizza and catch up? Cameron and your friend can come too.” Ethan said eyeing Lena. They never met before, but Lena being my best friend of course she knew all about him.

“Yeah, that sounds good actually! Cam you want to go babe?” I asked my boyfriend.

“Yeah, I’m down. Lets go! I’m starving!” Cameron said, wrapping his arm around my waist.

“Oh, I almost forgot. Ethan, this is my best friend Lena. The one I use to always be on FaceTime with.” I said introducing Ethan to Lena.

“So this is the infamous best friend we always use to hear about but never met.”

“Nice to meet you Lena, I’m Ethan.” he said shaking her hand, flashing her a wide smile.

We walked outside, and somehow managed to fit into one SUV. The car ride to the restaurant consisted of just jamming out, and taking snapchat videos. Well all of us except Grayson. He was sitting in the front seat on his phone the whole time.

“Babe are you okay?” I heard his girlfriend ask him. 

She was really pretty. They really did look cute together. I hope she treats him well. He deserved to be happy.

I started making small talk with Gabriella and she was really sweet. We talked a little bit about her, and school, she was really nice. Perfect for Grayson to be honest. Meanwhile Cameron was FaceTiming his sister next to me, and Ethan and Lena were in the back seat talking, and taking selfies. If I didn’t know any better, I would say Ethan was even flirting a little bit. Lena and Ethan? Lethan? Okay I would totally ship that! I wouldn’t even be mad if they ever dated. 

* * * *

We arrived at the restaurant, and the waiter sat us at a big circular booth near the back. 

I was sitting next to Cameron, followed my Lena and Ethan, and with Gabriella and Grayson on the opposite side of me. We all ordered our drinks, and Ethan ordered us a big pineapple pizza pie. 

We were eating and making small talk amongst each other. Everything was going great. The vibe with everyone was great, everyone except Grayson anyway. He was pretty much quite the whole time, unless he was talking to Gabriella or Ethan. He made small talk with Lena here and there, but as for Cameron and I he didn’t really speak to us. 

“Does anyone want anything else?” Grayson asked, picking up the check. He offered to pay the bill, which I thought was sweet of him. 

But I spoke to soon.

“What about you Cam? You could always go for seconds right?” Grayson said, smirking at Cameron. 

Great here we go…

CPR Training

Originally posted by lokitty

Pairing: Loki x Reader (Hinted)

Characters: (The Original) Avengers, Loki, Reader/You

Prompt: Based off of “CPR Training” from The Office ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vmb1tqYqyII ). Steve tries to teach Tony + company how to perform CPR, but they all end up getting distracted.

Word Count: 790+

Author’s Notes: OKAY. I wrote this in, like, 7th grade (which was a long time ago). I posted it to dA and people seemed to like it so I decided to post it here, too. I even edited it and everything. It was written before AOU, too. Anyways, enjoy! <3



Steve stood over Tony as the billionaire gave the dummy fake CPR. Steve looked a little unnerved.
     
“You’re going too fast.” Steve said, stopping him. Tony sat up and exhaled heavily with an expression of exasperation on his features. “All right, guys, look. You need to pump at a pace of one-hundred beats per minute, okay?”
     
“How many is that per hour?” Tony asked.
     
“How is that going to help you?” Clint replied.
     
“JARVIS will divide, and then he’ll count to it.”
     
On it, sir.” Came the British accent of JARVIS.

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Not everything is what it seems - Calum Hood

Pairing: Calum x Reader

Word Count: 1,8k

Rating/Warnings: General Audiences, no warnings.

Request: “Can you do an imagine where the reader is always purposely singing loudly and terribly around the guys and they take it as a joke, but one day cal (da boyfriend) and the guys come home early and hear da reader really singing and it’s beautiful and they find out that she actually has dis big YouTube channel but she just kept it a secret???”

Summary: Your ability in singing has been desrcibed as one that bleeds ears, but what happens when they found out your real talent?

A/N: Little late, but it’s better than never! I hope you like it and it was worth the wait though. Please, please, please, like/reblog if you enjoyed it - since it spreads the word and it’s a confirmation you liked my work - and also don’t forget to leave me your thoughts and comments. It makes me really happy to read your opinion on my work and it actually improves my writing. Happy reading! xx

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Black Box

YouTuber!Au Series

Word Count: 2611

Genre: Fluff

(A/N): For this series, the scenarios will not be posted in age order of the members like we usually do, though we will still start with Coups here.


Los Angeles really was a beautiful city. Never before had you seen a city that could so seamlessly mix so many different cultures. And amongst it all, at the heart of all the diversity, was the same post-modern lifestyle that brought everyone together. You couldn’t imagine a more perfect place to go for your first proper vacation with your boyfriend of three years, Seungcheol.

You’d met him shortly before he started his ever-growing YouTube channel, meaning you got to be there for his growth, his lows, his highs; everything. And throughout everything, he stayed by your side too, never even laying eyes on any of those beauty vloggers that could easily have any man on YouTube they wanted. The both of you were so undoubtedly in love, his fans could even see it from the few videos of his you agreed to be in.

Seungcheol’s videos were mostly reviews of strange products he found online, random comedy rap songs, and the occasional gaming video (which are actually more like just him screaming then laughing when his characters die). They didn’t really give his audience any clues about his personal life, so whenever Seungcheol happened to do a more personal video, he’d usually invite you to be in it. You could tell he loved interacting with his fans and answering questions about himself. But, the Q&As got boring for him after a while. So, this time, he promised his fans something different.

Not only was Seungcheol visiting LA to collab with his friends Joshua and Vernon, he was also planning a relaxing getaway for the both of you, part of which he promised to vlog and upload to his channel.

“How could someone be so loving and considerate,” You thought as you lounged around in Seungcheol and your shared hotel suite, “And just… Perfect?”

It was still early afternoon and the sun hung highly in the crisp spring sky. The big windows in the living room of the suite allowed for the rays to illuminate the pristine hotel furniture. It was only your first full day there, so as you walked around to check out the room, you admired how beautiful the furniture and the wall art was. You could feel a pair of eyes on you, and you quickly turned around to discover that someone had been admiring you.

“Beautiful, isn’t it?” Your boyfriend asked you.

“The view is amazing, Cheol. I can’t believe you booked this room for the entire week.” You replied, still astounded by the scenery outside.

“Oh, I wasn’t talking about the view. Though, my view right now is pretty great.”

You walked over and playfully slapped his shoulder before scurrying away slightly and pulling your shirt down to below your butt, so he couldn’t see your underwear. With your back facing him, you could only hear his voice, but somehow you felt the smirk on his face.

“Hey,” Seungcheol laughed, “Need I remind you, that’s my shirt. If you stretch it too much I’m not going to want it back. Which, in all honesty, probably isn’t even a bad thing because it looks so cute on you.”

As you blushed at his comment, a pair of arms latched onto your waist and pulled you closer to their owner.

“When are you leaving for Joshua’s house?” You asked, tilting your head a bit to the side in order to hide your blush. But this only gave Seungcheol more access to the side of your neck, which he didn’t hesitate to pepper with little pecks.

“We’re meeting tomorrow,” He said, in between kisses, “Today is all about you.”

“Really?” You asked, turning to face him.

He placed a chaste kiss on your lips before answering, “Well, you and the vlog. I planned some sightseeing things for today so I figured I might as well just vlog that. I mean, who wants to see a twenty minute long video of us just sitting at the beach?”

“Hmm, good point,” You responded, “So then, what kind of sightseeing things are we and your camera doing today?”

“Well,” He began, laying his chin on your shoulder, “Joshua told me about this really great shopping neighborhood. We could walk around for a while in there, then I made a reservation at this really fancy restaurant.”

“Oh? How fancy are we talking?”

“Like, I wouldn’t even be able to afford a table if YouTube didn’t give me a bunch of money to blow on this trip.”

Eyes widening, you replied, “Wow, so what should I wear then?”

“I don’t know, maybe like a short, fancy dress?”

You nodded at his suggestion, trying to assess your options.

“I’ll have to check my black box to see what dresses I brought.” You said.

Seungcheol’s grip around your waste loosened and his eyebrows furrowed, “Black box?”

“Oh, sorry. I meant to say ‘my black suitcase’.” You explained.

He nodded, seeming quite weary, and withdrew his hands from you altogether. As you watched his hunched figure shuffle into the bathroom and close the door, you pondered why Seungcheol could have been so taken aback by your little mistake. Though, you quickly shrugged it off, as he came out again soon afterwards, looking perfectly fine. The both of you quickly forgot the whole incident and began getting ready to go.

-

“So if you guys want, when we get back to Korea we could do a little haul video.” Seungcheol remarked at his camera.

The two of you were leisurely roaming down the sunny streets of LA, as Seungcheol filmed himself and some of the sights he thought looked nice. He’d been blabbing on to his camera for quite a while. You tried to remain interested, but he was just talking about random potential video ideas, so your mind started drifting off. Out of the corner of your eye, you noticed a quaint yet expensive-looking chocolate shop.

“Wow,” You exclaimed, tugging on the sleeve of Seungcheol’s dress shirt, “That chocolate shop looks really cool!”

“Do you wanna check it out?” He asked with a cackle, admiring the way you were so excited by chocolate like a little kid.

“Yes! One more thing to put in the haul.” You joked.

With another giggle, he turned his attention back to the camera and stated, “Alright guys, we’re going to check out that little chocolate shop. I’ll find out whether or not we can film in there and if we can, I’ll see you guys inside the shop.”

He placed a hand over the lens and stopped recording, then used his free hand to hold yours as you led him into the store.

With the jingle of some bells, the both of you ventured into the little shop and as you began revering the chocolate, Seungcheol asked one of the employees if he was allowed to film inside. You couldn’t hear their conversation from where you were, but the skinny, snooty-looking cashier did not seem to be falling for Seungcheol’s puppy dog eyes. You could infer what happened as soon as Seungcheol returned to your side, shoulders hunched as he put his camera into his backpack.

“That guy was not having it.” He chuckled.

You snickered and returned to your admiring of the fancy chocolates, feeling an arm place itself on your shoulder.

Pointing at the chocolate covered cherries, Seungcheol said in awe, “Wow, those look delicious.”

“Would you want to get those?” You asked.

He nodded eagerly in response, earning slight giggle from you. Seungcheol called the snobby-looking employee back over to pack up the cherries.

“Ok sir, would you like those in a white or a black box?” Asked the employee.

“A… B-black box?” Seungcheol stuttered.

You couldn’t figure out why Seungcheol was so stunned by the words “black box”, but you could tell the employee was having the same thoughts.

“We’ll take them in the white box.” You interjected.

The employee nodded and began placing the chocolate covered cherries in the box. When he was done, he handed the box to your boyfriend, whose eyes were still wide with shock. Though, he managed to snap out of it long enough to take out his company credit card and pay for the chocolates.

As the both of you exited the shop, you couldn’t help but dwell upon the situation for a bit longer, thinking about earlier in the day too. Why was Seungcheol so awestruck whenever someone mentioned a black box?

Your thought process was interrupted by Seungcheol taking his camera back out and continuing to talk about the chocolate shop. This time, you were left unable to zone out as he opened the box and fed you a cherry. He then proceeded to tell his viewers about the fancy dinner reservations he made for later on, and explained that that was the reason why you were both dressed so nicely.

After another two hours of walking around and shopping in the random stores you’d come across, Seungcheol called the both of you a taxi to take you to the restaurant.

-

“Choi, party of two.” Said Seungcheol to the maitre’d, subtly trying to out-fancy him by using an abnormally deep voice and fixing his tie.

After checking his book, the maitre’d stepped out from behind his host stand and gestured, “Follow me. I’ve an excellent table for the both of you.”

As the bony old man led you to the table, you could see that he was right. The table Seungcheol reserved was on the balcony of the restaurant, right next to the fence. From your seats, you both could see the majestic skyline of the city, in the glorious sunset lighting.

“Oh my gosh, Cheol.” You gasped as you admired the breathtaking scenery.

Pulling out your chair for you, Seungcheol replied, “It’s amazing, isn’t it? Kind of like you.”

As he shuffled to his own seat, you playfully smacked his shoulder for being cheesy.

“You’re so corny. It’s a good thing you’re cute to balance it out.” You admitted.

“Hey, you don’t mind if I vlog some of this, do you? I talked to the manager on the phone a few days ago and he said I could film here.”

“No, go ahead. This place is so beautiful, your fans should see it too.”

“Thanks, (Y/N). I must be the luckiest guy alive to be able to spend my time with someone as understanding and stunning as you. But, don’t worry, I’ll only vlog the food and a little bit of us talking.”

You blushed at his compliment as the waitress arrived and gave you both menus.

“Hello, I’ll be your server for tonight. May I start you two out with some drinks?” Asked the petite brunette.

“Do you have any recommendations?” Seungcheol asked in response.

“Well, if you’re looking for something virgin, we make fresh fruit smoothies in-house. In terms of alcohol, most everything on the menu goes very well with champagne or certain wines. My personal favorite would be the Black Box pinot grigio.”

You only nodded at the waitress’s suggestion, not really thinking much about the wine, since you didn’t plan on drinking.

You looked up from your menu momentarily to ask your boyfriend what he thought about the recommendation, only to find him looking very uncomfortable, his eyes opened almost comically wide.

“Uh, you can order whatever you want, (Y/N). I have to find a restroom.”

With that, Seungcheol scurried off, leaving you alone with the waitress.

“We’ll both just have water, I guess, and a strawberry banana smoothie for me.” You told the waitress, sending her your best smile through the worry you felt for Seungcheol.

The waitress hurried off and quite a while passed before Seungcheol returned to the table. You would have asked him what was wrong, but he looked like he was not in the mood to talk. He simply trudged over to his seat and opened his backpack, which he’d placed right next to the chair. He looked through its contents for a moment then grabbed his camera and placed it on the table, not uttering a single word the whole time.

He set up the camera so that it could capture the both of you and the view of the city.

Before he pressed record, he turned to you apologetically, “Sorry about that. The toilet was calling and my bladder could not help but answer.”

After winning a laugh from you, he chuckled to himself and began recording.

“Alright guys, so we bought a lot of cool stuff earlier but we stashed it all in the hotel room and now we’re at the restaurant!” He filled in his viewers.

“This place is absolutely amazing,” You chimed in, “It’s like I can see the entire city from up here.”

“And the decor is so fancy. I’m going to feel like a millionaire until our waitress is inevitably rude to us then we have to leave!” He joked.

The two of you burst into laughter, earning strange looks from the other fancy diners. Once you both managed to settle down, the waitress arrived with your drinks. You imagined that Seungcheol would probably ask you what you were drinking and have you explain it for the sake of the vlog, but instead, he covered the lens with a napkin.

“Hey, (Y/N), I wanted to talk to you about earlier.” He said.

You hastily put the straw in your smoothie then turned your attention to him, “What about it?”

“Well, um, it was kind of obvious that I had something on my mind. And I bet you thought it was weird how I always seemed to freak out whenever anyone said ‘black box’.”

“I did notice that, but I didn’t really think much of it.”

“Good, good. That’s really good.”

The conversation died down a bit, leaving the two of you in an awkward silence.

Seungcheol cleared his throat, “It was just because… For the whole day… I was carrying a black box.”

“What?” You asked, your eyebrows furrowing.

Seungcheol took the napkin off the camera lens and allowed it time to focus before talking again.

“I had a surprise planned for you, to show you here, so I was worried that someone had found out about it. But, I was just being ridiculous.” He said.

He paused again, leaving you to grow more and more nervous. But after a moment, his eyes darted down, at his own pants. He reached into his pocket and pulled out none other than a small, black box.

“(Y/N), you mean so much to me, and I love you more than I’ve ever loved anything or anyone else. You make me so happy, so, if you’ll accept, I’d like a chance to make you happy… Forever. Will you marry me?”

Seungcheol opened the box to reveal a ring. The band was white gold and the diamond was bigger than you expected. You looked from the ring to your boyfriend, his eyes beaming with anticipation. As you reached your hand across the table, it allowed for him to take the ring from the box and slide it onto your ring finger.

You couldn’t find any words to express how you felt about the situation. Instead of talking, you simply admired the ring on your finger and how it caught the gleam of the orange sunset.

You opted for a simple, “Yes.”

Seungcheol reached over to take your hand again and placed a delicate kiss on its backside. With the crisp California air and your fiancé’s loving grin, everything just felt perfect as the sun set on what was undoubtedly the best day of your life.

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anonymous asked:

Hi there!I really love your blog!Would you please recommend some social media AUs?Thank u sooooo much!

Hello! Thank you so much, it means a lot ♡ And of course, socialmedia!AU is a fave of mine :) If these aren’t enough you can find other recs here

Title: Bad Boys and Good-byes
Author: blt_prf
Rating: Not Rated
Genre: Fluff
Summary: Jungkook’s life as a newly debuted singer is way too busy and he can’t afford to get distracted by Taehyung’s noisy friends, never mind fall in love with one of them. “Fine. I’ll just pretend you didn’t cry in front of hundreds of people and didn’t just indirectly admit that you’re still in love.” “It’s not love, it’s a stupid crush and it’ll go away.” “You wrote a song about it.”

Title: Eidolon (Come Back Again)
Author: TrappingLightningBugs
Rating: Teen
Genre: Slice of Life, Fluff
Summary: Life needs to quit throwing Jimin curveballs before he’s had his morning coffee–especially when said “curveball” looks vaguely familiar and is serving him his coffee.

Title: Fate Leads to Love
Author: jikoooktrash
Rating: Teen
Genre: Humor, Fluff
Summary: Jungkook was a decently famous youtuber with an impressive 4,123,098 subscribers. He knew what having a fanbase was like, and he knew that shipping was something they enjoyed greatly. What he didn’t expect was to be shipped with Jimin, a youtuber he’d never seen before. He also didn’t expect to fall in love with him.

Title: Fell for You in a Snap
Author: Polkari Seuta
Rating: General Audiences
Genre: Fluff
Summary: Jimin wonders if their attraction is only good for 24 hours.

Title: International Playboy (Don’t Answer)
Author: blt_prf
Rating: Not Rated
Genre: Humor, Fluff
Summary: or the one in which Jimin manages to mess up everything in one night and accidentally texts the guy he has a crush on

Title: Until Then, Sink Slowly
Author: flitter
Rating: Mature
Genre: Romance, Smut
Summary: Recovering from post-breakup restlessness leads to rash decisions, like buying a plane ticket to a remote island 5.4k miles away. Like spending ten days with an unsuspecting tour guide. Like maybe falling in love – this time, the right way. (also: the trip to Santorini and a dash of soulmates au that no one asked for)

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Hey Canadians! You’ve probably heard a lot of shouting today about First Past the Post from some members of parliament.

Why? Because of a recently released letter PM Trudeau issued to the Minister of Democratic Institutions (Karina Gould) in which “changing the electoral system will not be in your mandate” was mentioned. 

The opposition is in an uproar! But If you’re like me and haven’t really thought deeply about Canada’s electoral system since Grade 10 Civics class, here’s a video made by CGP Grey (trusted Youtuber who explains concepts visually and clearly) to help gain some background before delving into a heated debate! :) 

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This is a video uploaded to Youtube by an acquaintance of Dylann Roof and close friend of Joey Meek, Shane Kimrey. Shane died from suicide in 2014.

A few weeks before the massacre Joey Meek, who’s trailer Dylann had been staying in, took his gun from his car and hid it. “I thought he was going to do something that night, in his drunkenness,” Joey said, and as he went over it again, he started thinking less about Dylann and more about another friend of his named Shane, and what Shane had done in his own drunkenness.

Before the trailer, the Meek brothers lived in another part of Lexington, in a house in a subdivision called Ridgewood. Dylann had lived on an adjacent street, and Shane lived nearby. Shane often stayed with the Meeks, who liked having him around. 

He would stay for weeks at the house in Ridgewood, and when Kim lost the house to foreclosure, he would stay at the trailer, even though he had his own trailer by then. He was around when Roof arrived in May, but the two didn’t interact very much. Mostly, Shane drank and played video games. He was 21 at that point and saying troubling things that none of the Meeks took seriously. 

Kim (Joey’s mother) was the first to find out. She called Joey to say that Shane had put a shotgun in his mouth and killed himself. Joey remembers getting teary, and he also remembers not believing it and asking Dylann to drive him over to Shane’s trailer.

Lindsey Fry (Joey’s girlfriend), and Dylann stayed in the car, and Lindsey remembers him not saying a word or expressing any kind of emotion. Joey and his brother, meanwhile, walked up to Shane’s door, half-expecting to see Shane waiting for them, laughing that they fell for his joke. But then they were inside, seeing Shane’s blood all over the couch, and Joey was getting sick.

“Anyways, when I was in there I had grabbed his boots — they’re right over there,” Joey said, pointing to a pair of worn cowboy boots he took from the trailer that night as a memento. The boots were mixed into a pile of shoes in the bedroom where sometimes Shane slept, and sometimes Dylann slept.

thanks to the extended use of his little roblox avatar i’m no longer convinced he doesn’t have legs

maybe it’s one of those things where a youtuber like, doesn’t show their face, just to mess with people. like everyone was going “does fandroid even have legs??” and then he was like “i’ll never tell, the intrigue will garner me fame muaha”

i 100% stole the circles on his legs from @dootdoodley & turned them into speakers which i realize makes no sense but whatever these are just doodles