positive ink

find someone who will

- make you laugh like no one else

- stay up late with you when you want to talk about things

- wipe away your tears

- surprise you with hand-picked flowers and love letters

- hug you when you need it most

- make you realise what the songs and quotes are about

- give you reasons to stay alive and be happy

note to self

•add a sprinkle of cinnamon to your coffee. it will change your life.

•always be kind to your waiter/waitress & the person behind the cash register. treat them with respect.

•take pictures of the things that make you happy, not for instagram, but for yourself.

•stop sleeping with your makeup on. you deserve better than that.

•don’t let yourself be consumed by the idea of perfection

•don’t let social media cause you stress. no one is paying more attention to your posts than you

•let people know when you’re missing them

•don’t be afraid to cut or dye your hair. life changes and things move on. just go for it.

•listen to music, podcasts or audiobooks while you clean. you can find many for free on youtube.

•don’t let anyone make fun of you for taking photos of your coffee or the sunset

•change your sheets more often

•use coconut oil as an eye makeup remover, it’s seriously a game changer

•make playlists for different moods, different people and for yourself

•remind yourself that you don’t have to be travelling & having adventures to give your life meaning

•ask yourself why you’re posting something. if it’s for anyone other than you, forget it.

•don’t be embarrassed to journal. put your thoughts to paper and clear your mind

there are people who are rays of sunshine, cherry blossoms, vanilla candles and the colors of dusk.

there are people who are marble floors, roman temples, black ink and the smell of the earth after rain.

there are people who are star-gazing, holding your breath, little smiles, subtle touches and soft fabric.

who are you?

i really REALLY wish the body positive movement had been “you don’t have to look good or be beautiful or pretty to be worth something and to make things happen for yourself and to be happy” rather than “everyone is beautiful!! don’t worry you’re still hot even if you’re not ‘conventionally attractive!!” bc that still puts this superficial idea of ‘hotness’ and ‘beauty’ on a pedestal when really it shouldn’t matter at all it’s literally just our outer meat sack it means nothing it’s going to rot anyway

Be kind and soft and powerful. Be the version of yourself you dreamed of being as a kid. Be the kind of person this world needs. Be confidently lost. Be astonishingly yourself. Walk the tightrope and know that you may fall, but the sky will not. Speak nectar when you can, and fire when you must. Be sad when you need to be. Feel. Flourish again, each and every spring. Be the rose amongst the thorns. Be the thorns protecting the rose. Be true. Be exactly who you are in this moment. Trust yourself. Bring magic into this world. 

good things:

- when a song makes you really happy
- being physically close with your favourite person
- knowing that ur loved back
- a cute new purchase
- having a new thing to obsess about
- being excited
- a new message from someone you love

You will wake up one day, realizing how tiring life is and hoping for the world to stop spinning and for people to stop talking. Wishing that you’re somewhere else but here. You will love to be out of this universe and imagine for yourself being in a different place. To be in a different situation. You will want to change things and arrange it like your own puzzle. Easily solved. And built in just one second. Things will be hard. And the waves will be stronger. You’ll wish that you don’t have to face it. You’ll try to turn around and run away. But you’ll realize that you cannot escape this—that for you to get through it, you’ll need to lift yourself just to fight it. And when that day comes, darling you’ll have all the courage you’ve been hiding in your heart. You’ll find out how brave you are. You’ll see what is more than that face who is always staring back at you in the mirror. You’ll know that you are capable of more. You’ll then realize, that life won’t give you something you can never take. That failure isn’t something that should put you down and every success is worth every—single—tear that has run out of your eyes. That you are the strongest person you’ll ever know, even if the world tried to make you believe otherwise. Someday, it’ll be all right. Someday, you’ll realize that life is still worth fighting for. That living life is still something we should dream of.
—  ma.c.a // You don’t have to believe me, you just have to believe in yourself, Positively

do it for the look on their faces when you prove them wrong.
do it for the feeling of finally reaching your goal.
do it for those who love you and will always be proud of you.
do it for your future.
do it for those you’ll be able to help.
do it for your eternal thirst for knowledge.
do it for your past self, who never stopped believing in you.
do it for the new opportunities and possibilities.
do it for yourself.

Places I wish I could be:

- in a studio ghibli movie. The sunny flower field around me is bright with innocent nostalgia and the clouds above are fluffy, shaped like cute animals

- on a plane to my favorite city. it’s evening, I turn the music up and look through the window. after the violet sunset, the city lights are like candles

- lying on warm golden sand, feeling the warmth on my skin. My friend just got us coffee ice cream and we try to enjoy it quick before it melts

- my best friend’s sofa. We’re watching her favorite movie and snacking on butter cookies, our hearts content.

- on a hill watching the foggy sunrise. it’s bitterly cold but the sun peaks through shyly at first then with dazzling confidence and it gives me hope

- curled up in a comfy bed with a good book. I haven’t read a book properly in ages but now it’s like reliving a fond childhood memory

Here’s to the people we said goodbye to, even though all we ever wanted was to hold on to them, begging them to stay. Here’s to those of us who still think of someone who’s long gone and struggle to let go. Here’s to the people we miss so much that the mere thought of them feels like a knife to the throat. Here’s to chances we didn’t take because the fear of failing was more than something that crossed our minds, it was a tangible thing that seeped into our skin and paralysed our bones. Here’s to the tears we allow to stream down our cheeks before we fall asleep at night so no one sees. Here’s to the love we have given over the years, the pieces of our hearts we handed out and never got back. Here’s to feelings we had to hide and fake smiles we plastered on our faces to uphold our charades. Here’s to whatever obstacle we’ve had to overcome, whatever battle we’ve had to fight, whatever pain we’ve had to feel, to make us kinder and better people - to make us evolve and grow. Here’s to everyone who believes in something more, in magic, in love, in the power of dreams and faith and everyone who has something to fight for. Here’s to everything that made us who we are today. Every glorious thing, the mountains we had to climb, the stars we had to count. Here’s to our ordinary lives we never fail to turn into something extraordinary. Here’s to our beautiful selves, raw and real, a reminder that life is not a line or a constant, but a vivid creature with its ups and downs and that all inconveniences considered, we’re doing pretty damn great.
—  here’s to life / n.j.