ponder of something great

Life is valuable simply because we exist. What if we didn’t? We wouldn’t be able to see, hear or taste anything. No thoughts would be thought. No feelings would be felt.
We exist at this current moment, and that is enough to be thankful.

I had a beautiful experience with feeding my guest. I don’t know why I always feel anxious first… Something to ponder I suppose.

Last week I had a great experience in counseling as I am working on some personal goals….where I was reminded of how much I am valued and appreciated.

It can be easy to think we are not appreciated or cared for by others in our circle because we are all dealing with our own needs and issues. Everyone communicates differently. No wonder we have conflicts so easily as humans. We try to connect and understand each other through our own paradigm. It takes time, patience, and caring to communicate with others.

Tonight after my date and I parted for the night, I was again reminded. Not only through his thoughtful words and actions, but through music.

Sometimes I hear a song and know that message is meant for me at that moment.
Such was the case tonight. 😊

Introduction

Imagine you’re best friends with Jenna, and she introduces you to Josh.


(Beware, this one is longer than Passed Out)


You laughed as Jenna pulled her face away from her glass of milk to reveal a milk mustache. Her eyes widened as she saw you laughing at her, concerned that she had done something wrong. She then wiped her hand across her lip and laughed when she pulled it away with milk on it.

You two were having a girls night (just like every other Saturday, because Saturday’s were for the girls too) and Tyler was off with one of his buddies as well. You and Jenna had been best friends since your Freshman year of High School. You hadn’t had any friends yet, and she felt bad for you, so she “took you under her wing”. You hit it off and had been best friends ever since.

“So let’s talk boys,” Jenna said mischievously. She leaned with both elbows on the island you were sitting at in Jenna and Tyler’s new home. You rolled your eyes playfully at her before she continued. “Tell me about how it went with Brian last night.” She said with curious eyes, trying to absorb every sign that something went good or bad from your expression.

You laughed at her pressing manner but continued anyway. “I’m not exactly sure. The date went well, but it was afterwards that something felt… off.” You said, opening up to her.

“How so? Did he seem unattracted to you, or what?” She questioned concernedly. You shrugged.

“I don’t know. All I did was tell him that he couldn’t come inside because I had plans the next day. Which, obviously wasn’t why I wouldn’t allow him inside.” You said jokingly. You didn’t like the idea of having sex on the first date, and you were a virgin, as a matter of fact.

Jenna chuckled, because she knew both of these things. “Well that’s probably why then. He wanted to ‘do the do’ with you.” She said with a dimpled grin. You rolled your eyes again and blushed at the thought, causing Jenna to laugh again. She leaned back in the stool-chair that sat at the marble island, the pressing manner gone.

You sighed. You’d had a crush on Brian for months. He was your coworker at the record shop you worked at, and after months of hopelessly crushing on him, he finally asked you out. He took you to a drive-in movie where he did try to make a move at one point, resting his hand on your upper thigh. You squirmed under his calloused palm, but did nothing. When he tried to ease his fingers up your shorts, you laughed at him and swatted his hand away. He’d just stared at you and proceeded to go back to watching the movie. At your door when he dropped you off, he kissed you sloppily and asked if he could come in, and that’s when you awkwardly rejected him. He then pulled away, and said goodnight. You haven’t heard from him since.

You really thought he was gonna be “the one”, but it turned out that wasn’t the case. You’ve never been in a relationship where the guy you were dating wasn’t a pig. They always ended up using you for sex (failing, obviously), cheating on you, or being either physically or emotionally abusive.

“God, Jenna, I would do anything to have the relationship that you and Tyler have with each other.” You said wearily, laying your head down on your arms which were folded and resting on the counter. You felt exhausted. Why can’t you find someone? Were you not good enough?

You felt a hand rub up and down your back comfortingly. “Hon, it’s okay. You’ll find someone. I promise, (Y/N).” You sat up to meet the gorgeous blue eyes of your best friend, to see them staring into yours with empathy.

“You really think so?” You asked, sniffling, although there were no tears.

She smiled reassuringly. “I know so. Actually, I kinda wanted to talk to you about that.” You nodded.

“I know someone who I think you’d get along with well.” She said hopefully. You smiled at her; she was such a happy person, and anytime you were around her, you felt happy.

“Who? Is he nice?” You inquired. You knew very well that she didn’t hang around people who were mean. She stopped hanging out with them the moment they showed any signs of being rude or hateful. You didn’t even know why you asked the question.

She raised her eyebrows and smirked at you because you both knew that she doesn’t hang around people who make her feel bad about herself. You both chuckled a bit before she answered.

“His name is Josh, he’s Tyler’s best friend, and they play music together. He’s really nice and pretty attractive.” She said, listing his good qualities. Of course, Brian was attractive and all that, and you thought he was nice at first but… that didn’t work out.

You took a playful pause before talking again. “Go on,” you said with a deepened voice to make her giggle.

“He has bright yellow hair- we like to call him ‘Dunshine’ because his last name is Dun, and his hair is bright like the sun.” She smiled. You chuckled.

“Anyway,” she continued, “he has dark brown eyes and a really nice smile. And, although I still love Tyler, he’s got a really nice body. He drums in Tyler’s band and then runs on the side, so he’s really fit.” She said. You imagined what he looked like. But you’d never seen anyone with bright yellow hair before, so it was hard to picture him.

“He sounds nice.” You said, pondering what he must be like. It must be something great. “Does he know I exist yet or have you not told him about me?” You inquired, curious to know what his reaction was, if she told him about you yet. You also wanted to know what she said, hoping it was good, because you could really use a self esteem boost right about now.

She smirked at me. “Yes I did. He seemed very interested.” She said.

“What did you tell him about me?” You asked, trying not to sound too eager. But she could see right through you and laughed at your curiosity.

“Well, I told him that you’re really easy to be around, you have gorgeous eyes (which you do), you’re absolutely adorable, and that you’re smoking hot.” She laughed when she got to the last one. She was joking, but you knew she actually did tell him something along those lines.

You gave her a lighthearted shove on her upper arm and laughed with her briefly before asking more about Josh.

“So, what are his bad qualities?” You asked, knowing there must be a catch to a guy who sounded as great as he did, or at least, as great as Jenna was describing him.

“The only problem I have with him is that he’s always stealing Tyler from me!” She said with a silly “hmph” to make you laugh.

You giggled. You’d made your decision; you decided to ask her to introduce you to him sometime in the upcoming week. Maybe he’s a good guy.

~~~~

(Two days later)

You tapped your fingers on the table you were sitting at, alone, waiting for Jenna, Tyler, and Josh to arrive at the local diner you’d agreed to meet at. Your eyes were on your black converse that rested on the darkened and scummy red carpet of the diner, trying to distract yourself from your anxiousness.

You were very nervous, as this would be your first time meeting they guy who you’d asked endless questions about for a few days now, ever since Jenna just told you a couple things about him on Saturday. You just kept thinking about him, even though you had never met him. You were somehow crazy about him.

Every time the door at the front of the diner opened and jingled the bell on the door, your heart leapt into your throat, just at the anticipation of them finally getting here. This time, though, it really was them. You watched your best friend, her husband, and a very attractive man walk through the door. You blushed when you saw him; he was even more attractive than you had been imagining.

His eyes searched the diner, looking for you, until his eyes landed on you and your table at last, at the very back of the diner. When he saw you, his composure changed to an expression that looked like he was interested, and wanted to see more, which made you blush again. At least he seemed like he was as crazy about you as you were for him.

When he finally realized he was staring, he gave a shy smile and a wave. You gave a timid smile back, and wiggled your fingers at him in a hello from across the room.

Jenna pointed you out to the man at the front desk, and the man followed her gaze and let them in to get to your table that you’d picked out. The small group made their way to your table, and you stood up to greet Josh officially.

Up close, he was maybe 4-5 inches taller than you, and when he got close enough, you had to look up slightly to see his eyes. When you did look up, you saw him staring into your eyes as well.

You looked back at Jenna and Tyler to make sure they weren’t watching you two before you decided to begin a conversation with Josh.

They were enthralled in each other, of course, because they were the cutest couple in the universe. Since you’d been friends with Jenna before she met Tyler, you had always third wheeled them throughout their entire relationship, watching as they never lost interest in each other.

That’s what you wanted in a relationship. Always that thrill you get when you see your crush come around the corner. The butterflies when they rest their hands on your waist. The blush when you get complimented on how beautiful you looked tonight. And they just never lost that spark.

You finally spoke to Josh, looking at him with a small smile playing on your lips. “Hi! You must be Josh.”

He smiled back and you noticed his perfect teeth, gleaming white and straight, and you also noticed that when he smiled, he got little crinkles around his eyes.

“Yes, I am. And you must be (Y/N)? Otherwise, It’s kinda creepy that you know my name.” He said with a chuckle.

You laughed. “Yes that’s me. And, no, I’m not a stalker.”

“Oh well that’s good.” He said, looking into your eyes again with a fading smile. You both paused before you spoke again.

“Well, how about we sit down in this really, kinda low quality booth that I had specially reserved for our group?” You said in a sarcastic tone to make the brief moment of silence less awkward.

He chuckled and then made a gesture for you to sit down closest to the wall, ladies first. You grinned and shuffled into the yellow and red colored booth, and looked back to see Josh focusing on also trying to maneuver his way into the booth beside you. You watched as he struggled to fit in next to you without having to crush you into the wall (which, you actually wouldn’t mind…) and laughed when he finally got himself situated.

He gave a playful scowl followed by a grin, and the two of you turned your attention to Tyler and Jenna who were looking at you with an amused expression, waiting to have a conversation.

~~~~

The meal went great. You all talked about a number of topics, the main one being Tyler and Josh’s band. They’d just gotten back from their tour of your hometown, called Tour De Columbus. You hadn’t realized that they were twenty one pilots. You’d heard them on the radio all the time and you’d loved their music, but you had no idea that it was Jenna’s husband. You just never really looked into them (of course you would now).

Of course, though, you and Josh did get some alone time when Tyler and Jenna broke off into their own conversation. When you got the chance to be in your own conversation with Josh, you talked out the basics like favorites and life stories.

Your favorite part was when he started talking about how he began drumming. He said that he’d walk down to his local record store, and ask the toughest looking dude for an album recommendation, and then he’d buy that album, and use the drums in their store to practice/ learn how to play along to the music.

As he told the story, you saw him get passionate about it, and you knew it was a story that was close to his heart, and you loved watching him speak his mind.

He paused and looked at you with a shy smile. “Why are you looking at me like that?” He said.

You felt your face get hot when he asked this question, knowing that since it was only the first date, you can’t tell him something as romantic as ‘I love watching your expression when you talk. You’re such an amazing person’.

“Uh, no reason. You were saying?” You stuttered. He hesitated before diving back into his story again.

~~~~

You stepped out of Josh’s car and into the humid night. It had been raining for most of the night, and it had just recently stopped. So, moisture + heat = humidity, which would begin making your hair puffy any minute now.

He closed the passenger door behind you. You turned back to make sure that he was following you up the driveway to your door; what gentleman doesn’t walk a lady to her door?

The two of you walked hand in hand to your front door, his thumb slightly caressing yours, giving you butterflies. When you reached your door, you turned to face each other like they do in the movies when a girl gets dropped off. And you decided to say the most cliche thing ever.

“Well, this is me.” You said with a smirk.

He chuckled at your cliche joke that most people wouldn’t haven’t gotten immediately. During dinner you’d talked about how you hated cliche endings in movies, and he surprisingly shared the same hatred for it.

And he had an even better cliche comeback; he moved his hand to the side of your face and gently holding your face, stroking your cheek, making you shiver. He moved his other hand to the other side, and he leaned in and you felt your eyes close, to be left with only the sensation of his soft lips touching yours lightly.

The kiss started out slow and light, but it escalated into a rough passion, his left hand moved to the back of your neck and your fingers lightly tugged at his yellow hair. You felt your face get warm from the ever escalating moment that you had caught yourself in.

Suddenly, he pulled away, and looked into your eyes with a hungry expression. You were both out of breath from the experience.

“Um… would you be okay if I uh… maybe uh came in?” He stuttered out nervously, his eyes roaming anywhere other than your eyes while he eventually got the sentence out.

You put you hand on his face to move it so that you were looking into each other’s eyes. You smiled reassuringly before speaking again.

“Of course you can.” You said with a slight seductive edge to let him know you were getting impatient.

He smirked and pressed himself against you as you unlocked your door, and you turned around to kiss him again. He picked you up, and you for some reason felt like it would be right to wrap your legs around his waist. As you walked into your apartment, you knew that this was the right person to do it with for the first time.

End.

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Hey there! I’m glad that I’m finally starting to get reads, as I’ve uploaded a few chapters on other social medias such as Tumblr and once or twice on Amino. If you’re reading this, I sincerely thank you for reading my content; it makes me feel better about myself.

I’m really sorry that this chapter was so long 😂 I was expecting it to be cute and short when I started working on it, but it ended up being almost 3,000 words.

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Song fics

Moving On - Kodaline
‘Sometime in the future we can share our stories, when we don’t care about all of our mistakes our failures and our glories…but until that day comes along we’ll keep on moving on’

Flying High Falling Low - Walking On Cars
'It’s that time of year again and you know I’d love to buy you something but you know that I’ve got nothing…’

Marry Me - Train
'Forever could never be long enough for me, to feel like I’ve had long enough with you’

Perfect - Ed Sheeran
'I found a love for me Darling just dive right in, and follow my lead. Well I found a girl, beautiful and sweet I never knew you were the someone waiting for me. Cause we were just kids when we fell in love…’

The Fighter - The Fray
'Lover held her love, she begs him not to go, she unwraps his gloves, the lover says I know I know I know. She touched his finger tips, kissed his trembling lips. Somehow they both know, he’s not coming home’

Say You Won’t Let Go - James Arthur
'I met you in the dark, you lit me up. You made me feel as though I was enough’

The Moment I Knew - Taylor Swift
'And it was like slow motion, standing there in my party dress with red lipstick, and no one to impress…’

If You Could See Me Now - The Script
'It was February 14th Valentine’s Day, the roses came but they took you away…’

Not About Angels - Birdy
'We know full well that there’s just time, so is it wrong to dance this line?’

I Wouldn’t Mind It - He Is We
'Tell me everyday I get to wake up to that smile, I wouldn’t mind it…’

Breakeven - The Script
'Still alive but I’m barely breathing…just prayed to a god that I don’t believe in…’

I Found Myself - Anna Clendening
'My heart was beating, barely breathing but still alive. Lost along the way I’d given up my fight…’

Dancing On My Own - Callum Scott
'Now I’m in the corner watching you kiss her. I’m right over here, why can’t you see me? I’m giving it my all but I’m not the guy you’re taking home…’

All Too Well - Taylor Swift
'Cause there we are again in the middle of the night, dancing round the kitchen in the refrigerator light…’

Hurt - Christina Augilera
'I’m sorry for, blaming you, for all the things I just couldn’t do. And I’ve hurt myself in hurting you…’

Hiding My Heart Away - Adele
'This is how the story went, I met someone by accident, who blew me away…’

Thinking Of You - Katy Perry
'Comparisons are easily done once you’ve had a taste of perfection…’

To My Parents - Anna Clendening
'I’m sorry mum and dad I know I messed up bad, I should’ve done, should’ve done better. I’m sorry mum and dad for all the time I’ve had to get my life, get my life together but I didn’t…’

Take Me Home - Jess Glynne
'Came to you with a broken faith, you gave me more than a hand to hold…’

One - Ed Sheeran
'Tell me that you turned down the man who asked for your hand because you’re waiting for me…’

Leave Your Lover - Sam Smith
'I don’t have much to give but I don’t care for gold. What use is money when you need someone to hold’

In My Veins - Andrew Belle
'Nothing goes as planned…everything will break…’

These Four Walls - Little Mix
'I feel so numb staring at the shower walls…it’s begun the feeling that the end has come. And now the water’s cold.’

The Man Who Can’t Be Moved - The Script
'Going back to the corner where I first saw you gonna camp in my sleeping bag I’m not gonna move…’

T-Shirt - Birdy
'I know because I’ve spent half this morning thinking about the t-shirt you sleep in’

Still Falling For You - Ellie Goulding
'It took us a while, because we were young and unsure…’

One and Only - Adele
'You’ve been on my mind, I grow fonder everyday lose myself in time at the mention of your name.’

The Town - Niall Horan
'Waking up to kiss you and nobody’s there. The smell of your perfume still stuck in the air…’

Fake Smile - Rebecca Ferguson
'Put on you fake smile and wipe away your real tears, it’s not real anyway…’

Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx
'Oceans apart, day after day and I slowly go insane…’

Broken Arrow - The Script
'This time he’s not gonna be another could’ve been. This time she’s gonna live to work she’s not working to live…’

Above The Clouds Of Pompeii - Bears Den
'I was too young to understand the flowers sleeping in her hands…’

Alive - Sia
'I had a one way ticket to a place where all the demons go. Where the wind don’t change bad nothing in the ground can ever grow…’

One Of These Days - Olly Murs
'My room is big enough for the both of us, won’t you come around help me fill it up…’

Car Radio - Twenty One Pilots
'I ponder on something great my lungs will fill and then deflate. They fill with fire, exhale desire. I know it’s dire my time today. I have these thoughts so often I ought to replace that slot with what I was bought 'cause somebody stole my car radio and now I just sit in silence’

Near To You - A Fine Frenzy
'Near to you I am healing but it’s taking so long. And though he’s gone and you are wonderful it’s hard to move on.’

My Immortal - Evanescence
'When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears, when you screamed I’d fight away all of your fears’

Just A Kiss - Lady Antebellum
'Lying here with you so close to me, it’s hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breath’

Secret Love Song Part II - Little Mix
'Why can’t I hold you in the street or kiss you on the dance floor? I wish that it could be like that, why can’t it be like that 'cause I’m Yours…’

Happiness - The Fray
'Happiness damn near destroys you, it breaks your faith to pieces on the floor.’

Please Don’t Say You Love Me - Gabrielle Aplin
'Please don’t say you love me because I might not say it back. It doesn’t mean my hearts stopped skipping when you look at me like that…’

Come To Me - Goo Goo Dolls
'I caught you burning photographs like that could save you from your past…’

All Again - Ella Henderson
'I am falling, but I’m too weak to fly. Now my heart’s wide open and you’re the reason why…’

I Know You Care - Ellie Goulding
'Clinging to me like a last breath you would breath…you were like home to me, I don’t recognise this street.’

Suitcase - Emeli Sandé
'Didn’t see it coming, no kind of warning, I can’t work out where I’ve gone wrong. His clothes are missing, but his key’s still here…’

I Can’t Make You Love Me - Adele
'Turn down the light…turn down the bed. Turn down these voices inside my head…’

Bad Blood - Bastille
'We were young and drinking in the park we had no where else to go. You said you’d always have my back oh but how were we to know…’

Better Man - Lady Antebellum
'When I first laid eyes on you in that downtown cafe I loved the way your auburn hair danced across your face…’

Shine - Birdy
'Shine, if your heart tells you to then who are you to question it. Shine, if the world gets you down don’t be afraid to wrestle it….’

Fix You - Coldplay
'When you try your best but you don’t succeed…when you get what you want but not what you need…’

Freedom - Rebecca Ferguson
'There is hope…even as the tears fall on your lips even as you take another sip…’

Wasn’t Expecting That - Jamie Lawson
'It was only a word, it was almost misheard and I wasn’t expecting that. Just a delicate kiss, anyone could’ve missed, I wasn’t expecting that.’

Yours - Ella Henderson
'I wear your winter coat, the one you love to wear…so I can feel close to what’s beyond compare…’

Kiss It All Better - He Is We
'He sits in his cell and he lays on his bed covers his head and closes his eyes. He’s sees a smoking gun and the coward he ran and in his arms is the bleeding love of his life…’

Beautiful Disaster - Kelly Clarkson
'He drowns in his dreams…an exquisite extreme I know. He’s as damned as he seems and more heaven than a heart could know…’

The One - Kodaline
'Tell me, tell me that you want me and I’ll be yours completely for better or for worse.’

Beautiful To Me - Olly Murs
'She ties her hair up tight, she puts her armour on when she steps outside…’

Only Love Can Hurt Like This - Paloma Faith
'I tell myself you don’t mean a thing what we got, got no hold on me. But when you’re not there I just crumble…’

I Hope - Rebecca Ferguson
'I used to hate you so easily, look into your eyes so eagerly and where there was cold I wouldn’t walk away.’

I’m Yours - The Script
'You touch these tired eyes of mine, map my face out line by line and somehow growing old is fine…’

Breaking the Law - Emeli Sande
'I’ll never stop braking the law for you. I’ll never stop helping to pull you through.’

Begin Again - Taylor Swift
'And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid…I think it’s strange that you think I’m funny because he never kid.’

Hard Work - Ella Henderson
'I know I’m not wasting my time, for you to be the reason I cry, and no I’m not gonna lie. You’re hard work but you’re good for me.“

Nature’s Law - Embrace
'You should never fight your feelings, when you’re very bones believe it…’

Shirtsleeves - Ed Sheeran
'When salted tears won’t dry I’ll wipe my shirtsleeves under your eyes. These hearts will be flooded tonight, I’ll wipe my shirtsleeves under your eyes’

No Angel - Birdy
'Remember once the things you told me and how the tears fell from my eyes. They didn’t fall because it hurt me, I just hate to see you cry’

Like I Can - Sam Smith
'He could be a stranger you gave a second glance. He could be a trophy of a one night stand. He could have your humour but I don’t understand 'cause he’ll never love you like I can’

Friends - Ed Sheeran
'That’s why friends should sleep in other beds and friends shouldn’t kiss me like you. Yeah I know there a limit to everything but my friends will never love me like you’

This Woman’s Work - Greg Laswell
'I know you have little life in you yet. I know you have a lot of strength yet. Should be crying but I just can’t let it show, should be hoping but I can’t stop thinking. All the things we should’ve said but we never said. All the things that you needed from me. All the you wanted for me. All the things we should’ve done but we didn’t oh my darling…’

Dead Man Walking - The Script
'Already seen it in your face already someone in place. I’m a breathing talking dead man walking’

Be The One - The Fray
'They’re two lovers in the night waiting on the sun to rise. Passing ships into the night under different skies. But you just whisper what you said one last time I could’ve sworn I heard you that 'you are mine’

Promise Me - Beverly Carven
'When I go away I’ll miss you and I will be thinking of you every night and day. Just promise me you’d wait 'cause I’ll be saving all my love for you…’

Kiss Me - Ed Sheeran
'Because I’ve been feeling everything from hate to love from love to lust to truth I guess that’s how I know you…do I’ll hold you close’

Lay Down - Ella Henderson
'Won’t you lay down and tell me the places you’ve been. Won’t you lay down and relive your story again…’

Bridge Over Troubled Water - Simon and Garfunkel
'When you’re weary, feeling small. When tears are in your eyes, I’ll dry them all. I’m on your side, oh, when times get rough. And friends just can’t be found. Like a bridge over troubled water I will lay me down’

For The First Time - The Script
'She’s all laid up in bed with a broken heart. Whilst I’m drinking jack all alone in my local bar. And I don’t know how, how we got into this mad situation. Only doing things out of frustration. Trying to make it work but man these times are hard.’

How To Save A Life - The Fray
'Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness. But I would’ve stayed up with up all night had I known how to save a life’

Black Is The Colour - Cara Dillon
'Black is the colour of my true love’s hair. Her lips are like a rose so fair. She’s got the sweetest face and the gentlest hands. I love the ground where on she stands’

Riding To New York - Passenger
'I met him in Minnesota, he was dark and overcast. With long grey hair and eyes that stared through me like I was glass. I asked 'where are you going to?’ He said 'I’m the wind I’m just blowing through’… then he lit up a cigarette and began to talk’

Lay Me Down - Sam Smith and John Legend
'Can I lay by your side? Next to you. Next to you. And make sure you’re alright…’

Castle On The Hill - Ed Sheeran
'I found my heart and broke it here. Made friends and lost them through the years…’

Silhouette - Tom Odell
'It’s just a silhouette, a flick of the blinds just a mind trick. I don’t know why but it reminds me of someone that I used to know…’

Supermarket flowers - Ed Sheeran
'Took the get well soon cards and stuffed animals. Poured the old ginger beer down the sink. Dad always told me don’t you cry when you’re down but mum there’s a tear every time that I blink…’

Sentences

1. "Are you kidding me?”
2. “What is going on?”
3. “Please tell me that was you?”
4. “How long have you been stood there?”
5. “Let me in.”
6. “Why is it so cold?”
7. “Paint is meant to go on the wall not your face.”
8. “Are you okay?”
9. “How long have you known?”
10. “That could’ve gone better.”
11. “You really thought that this was a good idea?”
12. “Where am I?”
13. “It’s One in the morning.”
14. “Let’s bake!!”
15. “Why are you holding our child like Simba?”
16. “I don’t trust you.”
17. “I hate you…”
18. “Don’t talk to me.”
19. “Just stay away from me okay?”
20. “You don’t know what it feels like…”
21. “They’re dead…”
22. “What do I do?”
23. “I’m pregnant…”
24. “This is going really badly. It’s like watching a car crash in slow motion.”
25. “I wasn’t staring! I was watching…intently.”
26. “This is what you call handling the situation?”
27. “Truth or Dare?”
28. “They’re your child before 5AM.”
29. “We’ve watched 12 episodes we need to stop now.”
30. “You know you can talk to me right?”
31. “Everything is going to be fine.”
32. “Aw, you’re so cute.”
33. “Don’t make me come over there.”
34. “Run.”
35. “Calm down.”
36. “Dance with me.”
37. “Just stop talking.”
38. “It’s getting late…”
39. “Wait. Are we lost?”
40. “Don’t go…”
41. “This is…a strange turn of events.”
42. “Everything we do is weird to everyone else but us.”
43. “That was the police…”
44. “Bro…”
45. “Please don’t hate me. I couldn’t bare the thought of not seeing you every day…”
46. “This is as far as I had got plan wise I’m afraid.”
47. “And now it’s snowing. Brilliant.”
48. “Yay…road trip.”
49. “Let’s play 20 questions.”
50. “What makes you happy”
51. “It’s complicated…”
52. “After everything…I’d still choose you.“
53. “This could only happen to me.”
54. “Say something…”
55. “Come here…”
56. “Don’t shut me out.”
57. “What are we waiting for?”
58. "We need to talk…”
59. .“We can’t keep doing this.”
60. "Haven’t you read that already?”
61. .“I can’t stand back and watch you do this…”
62. “You’re such an idiot.”
63. .“Why did you kiss me?”
64. .“Don’t pretend you’re not having fun.”
65. .“PUPPY!”
66. .“Do you really think I could replace you?”
67. “Because I love you…”
68. .“Duck.”
69. “I said there was a plan, I never said it was a good one.”
70. “Put. The snowball. Down.”
71. .“Did you just smile?”
72. .“When did things get this hard?”
73. "I suppose…we’re all stories in the end.”
74. “Did you have to hit me?”
75. “FOUR HOURS I’VE BEEN HERE.”
76. .“Come inside…”
77. “You deserve better than that.”
78. “You’d do that for me?”
79. “You were willing to give up everything…”
80. “Oh for the love of god just kiss already!”
81. “ITS HAPPENING!”
82. “Are you saying goodbye?”
83. “Another life…”
84. “Well that was stupid.”
85. “You love me really.”
86. “That was smooth.”
87. “Sometimes, the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.”
88. “I have a very good explanation for all of this.”
89. “Wait…are you actually struggling for something to say?”
90. “Nice save.”
91. “Do you want me to go?”
92. “What are you even talking about?”
93. .“How are you allowed out in public…”
94. “I’m going to stay, okay? I’m going to stay with you.”
95. “And when were you planning on telling me this?”
96. “Because…I care about you…”
97. “That’s stupid! Let’s do it!”
98. “Why am I friends with you.”
99. “It’s okay! You’re safe, I promise. It was just a nightmare.”
100. .“What is it? What happened?”
101. "It could’ve been worst.”
102. “what an appalling piece of advice!”
103. “Pizza and a movie?”
104. “If you weren’t so cute…”
105. “I mean you could’ve just stopped talking?!”
106. “You’ve been awake for 48 hours this isn’t healthy.”
107. “I think we should take you to hospital…”
108. “Please say you know who I am?”
109. “It must be awful to look at the person you love and for them to look back at you and have no idea who you are…”
110. “Nobody is invincible…”
111. “GIVE ME THE AUX CHORD OTHERWISE WE’RE MAKING THIS 39 HOUR ROAD TRIP IN SILENCE!”
112. “I would never forget.”
113. “Oh my god that rain is vicious.”
114. “Is it bedtime?”
115. “How’s my little soldier?”
116. “Bored. Bored. Bored.”
117. “Your go.”
118. “Stop staring.”
119. “Oh. Bit of a domestic going on.”
120. “You really don’t believe me…”
121. “What now?”
122. “I’m sorry, you’ve been cheating on me how long?”
123. “Look, I’m sorry I put you off when you were playing Mario Kart. Please can you let me back in now…”
124. “Don’t worry I took care of your animal crossing town whilst you were ill, I did all the weeding and helped almost pay off your loan.”
125. “Let’s get you to bed.”
126. “How can something so small be so loud?”
127. “Here. Take my jacket.”
128. “I’m not special. I’m nothing.”
129. “I don’t want to lose you.”
130. “I have calculated how far that window opens. Take it as a warning.”
131. “How was that supposed to help?”
132. “Come to bed.”
133. “Please sit down. I can’t pick you up off the floor if you fall over.”
134. “Look at me. Are you hurt?”
135. “How much longer can we keep doing this?”
136. “We could be happy…”
137. “Are you an actual idiot?”
138. “I may have..sort of… just adopted four dogs…”
139. “We’ve watched this film 7 times.”
140. “I could kiss you!”
141. “Are you limping?”
142. “On a scale of one to ten how illegal is this?”
143. “Wh..what do I do? Tell me what do I do?”
144. “Will you stay with me?”
145. “I’m doing this to protect you.”
146. “I’ve nearly lost you once. I’m not risking it again.”
147. “Two minutes. Just give me two minutes…”
148. “Welcome home.”
149. “I don’t belong anywhere…”
150. “What about us?”
151. “You are the human version of a headache.”
152. “I’m not sure how much more of this I can take.”
153. “Why didn’t you tell me?”
154. “Just take my word for it.”
155. “Look, we’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.”
156. “Sorry I stopped listening about ten minutes ago. What on earth are you talking about?”
157. “I thought I knew you but now? I don’t know…”
158. “Respect and trust go both ways.”
159. “Oh ye of little faith.”
160. “Well, I just put 2 and 2 together…”
161. “It’s a stupid stupid idea.”
162. “Why do I let you talk me into these things?”
163. “When are you going to stop pretending that nothing ever hurts you?”
164. “Who put you in charge?”
165. “What did your last slave die of?”
166. “In your dreams.”
167. “We make a pretty good team you and me.”
168. “Leave it. It’s not worth it.”
169. “I didn’t want to get you involved.”
170. “I shouldn’t have come…”
171. “We know how it’s going to end…we always have…”
172. “Do you know what’s it’s like? Wanting to give up but knowing you can’t because everyone else needs you to be strong.”
173. “I’m guessing that wasn’t part of the plan.”
174. “I haven’t got time for this.”
175. “What happened to being one of the good guys?”
176. “What was that you just threw at me.”
177. “If I have to do this then so do you.”
178. “Are you angry?”
179. “Why are you being so nice to me?”
180. “What if this isn’t how it’s supposed to be? What if we’re just clutching at whatever time we’ve got?”
181. “Maybe I wasn’t meant to have friends…maybe I’m supposed to be alone?”
182. “Ugh I do not have an interest in football I can’t believe you made me come here.”
183. “I’m too late aren’t I?”
184. “Don’t quote 'Only Fools And Horses’ at me I’m trying to be dramatic.”
185. “Even if I wasn’t awake I would be now.”
186. “I fall for it every time.”
187. “Don’t ever do that to me again!”
188. “Are you safe? Where you are now…tell me that if nothing else. Are you safe?”
189. “I want my family back.”
190. “I’m just tired.”
191. “I bet you think you’re funny.”
192. “Real monsters are human…learnt that a long time ago.”
193. “I had a weird dream about you last night.”
194. “If you’re going to have your friends round you’ve got to play nice.”
195. “Oh well that’s made me feel much better.”
196. “Did they lay a finger on you?”
197. “Of all the things to be hereditary.”
198. “You owe me a new door.”
199. “I’m going to bed because I can’t cope with this anymore.”
200. “Next time an idea forms in that head of yours share it with the group.”
201. “text me when you get there.”
202. “In hindsight it wasn’t my best idea.”
203. “Is that my hoodie?”
204. “Excuse me but let me get this straight. You want me to sleep here? In the haunted house?!”
205. “Okay well that’s broken.”
206. “But…it was so real…”
207. “Look, I appreciate you trying to be kind but you’re really not helping…”
208. “Drive!”
209. “Well this is it. This is how it ends!”
210. “Don’t look at me in that tone of voice.”
211. “How many energy drinks have you had?”
212. “As the adult here I shouldn’t be encouraging this.”
213. “Okay so we just follow the recipe. I mean how hard can it be?”
214. “Hi. Yeah. I’m lost and have less than £10 on me and my phone is on 3% Erm. Help. Please…”
215. “What the fluffing beans was that?”
216. “My stress levels reached crying in McDonalds yesterday but apart from that I’m fine.”
217. “Why does coming to a fair make me feel 12 years old?”
218. “I wanted to tell you. I really did. But how could I?”
219. “I was falling apart and no one could tell…”
220. “I’m you’re real dad/mum.”
221. “Well…this has certainly been the most entertaining evening…”
222. “I’ve seen enough episodes of Poirot to know nothing good ever happens on a train.”
223. “When are you going to realise that what you do effects everyone around you?”
224. “The memories hurt more.”
225. “I wish I’d just…I wish I’d done more whilst I had the chance…”
226. “We’re best friends because our parents could not cope with us as twins.”
227. “We’ve all lived through our own horrors and I think, no matter how fast we run, they’ll always catch up with us in the end.”
228. “I was replaceable…”
229. “Someone just ran us off the road.”
230. “If we’re going we have to go now.”
231. “I knew someone was missing from my life. I just didn’t know who…”
232. “We were young and messed up.”
233. “What do you know? You don’t know anything!”
234. “I wish I’d never met you.”
235. “I was scared you’d leave.”
236. “I don’t like the person I’ve become.”
237. “Why do you even put up with me?”
238. “He/she’s better off without me.”
239. “When did everything become so tragic.”
240. “Everyone has that story they never tell.”
241. “I’m leaving. I’m sorry but…i just can’t do this anymore..
242. "If you’re gonna be like that do it yourself.”
243. “Why do I let him/her treat me like that?”
244. “I’ll take them to school today.”
245. “I’m sick of everyone thinking I’m someone I’m not.”
246. “Just give me your hand.”
247. “Don’t do this…”
248. “You were always there when I needed you.”
249. “Mind if I join?”
250. “Maybe we’ll just have to figure this out together.”
251. “I heard this song and thought of you.”
252. “I’ll be back before you know it.”
253. “I’ll get this.”
254. “Just…take care of yourself. If you do one thing for me.”
255. “Out of all the things I thought I’d prepared myself for…I never expected to fall in love with you…”
256. “I can’t forget you.”
257. “I did this for you. All of this! Don’t you understand?”
258. “I may be a little drunk…”
259. “You look like you need a hug.”
260. “Try not to fall over.”
261. “Do you know how long I’ve been trying to tell you I’m hopelessly in love with you?”
262. “Well if you didn’t move it and I didn’t move it then who did?”
263. “Ah, the plot thickens.”
264. “Just shut up and get in the car.”
265. “Please let me survive this with a shred of dignity in tact.”
266. “But I dealt with it last time.”
267. “I want to spend the rest of my life with you.”
268. “You will call if you need me, won’t you?”
269. “Okay I admit it. I’m worried. I’d hate for anything to happen to you…”
270. “Have I told you how much I love you today?”
271. “How long have we owned this?”
272. “You’re quiet. What’s wrong?”
273. “Move over. I am not going top and tails with you.”
274. “They’re never going to hurt you again.”
275. “I am no where near drunk enough to be agreeing to this.”
276. “I made the excuse of having to baby sit. Though looking at you I don’t think it was that much of a lie.”
277. “Power cuts are all fun and games until the last candle goes out.”
278. “For god’s sake take some responsibility!”
279. “Don’t go to sleep. Stay awake and talk to me.”
280. “I’ll be home soon. I promise.”

Silver Bowties

A oneshot set in season 4.

There’s going to be a grand dinner party, well a charity one, or so Sofia had promised. It would benefit the orphanage she’s founded, and as a promise to young Martin, Oswald has offered to allow him to be a part of it.

A bellringer for dinner if you would.

Of course, he can’t wear the school uniform. It’s not acceptable in any sense for this kind of event and Oswald brings his tailor aside to request something for the boy. A nice suit, one that matches his own.

After all they are conspirators together.

On the day of, Sofia brings Martin to the mansion with her, leaving him in the care of Oswald after Victor takes one look at the boy and shakes his head. “I’ll pass on the babysitting duty.” Understandably so, Oswald muses to himself, buttoning his waistcoat up and glancing down at young Martin.

Victor’s only sense of style is pleather and doc marten boots. Neither of which are acceptable this evening. “Here, let me help.” He adjusts the matching waistcoat so that it settles properly, the tie at the back tightening the fit. Satisfied that the boy is ready, other then the silver bowties that he has selected for them both, Oswald concentrates on his own appearance.

Once he might have worn eyeliner to such an event as he had when he was the Mayor. Instead, this evening, he has prepared two streaks of purple in his hair. A little flamboyance for the event among the stiff and rich of Gotham.

Gel in hand, he begins the long process of styling his hair. Entirely unaware of the small eyes that watch him. Martin’s silence is normal, as is the way he takes in every detail.

Quickly the boy jots down on his note pad, a simple drawing of two stick figures. One tall, the adult, the other short, Martin himself.

Both with matching hair.

He has a hopeful look on his face when he gets Oswald’s attention and shows him the sketch.

“I.. of course. Of course!” The initial surprise that the boy wanted the same style of hair as he did faded into delight. Perhaps this was what it was like being a father, Oswald considered. Not something he had ever pondered on to a great length. But he felt pride in it later as Sofia took a photo of them.

Oswald bending down to tie Martin’s silk bowtie, ensuring it was fluffed properly before he straightened at beamed at the camera. Matching proud smiles, Oswald’s hand on the boy’s shoulder.

Almost as if they were a family.

Work [Spencer Reid]

Summary // Spencer tries to sleep but you need to finish something for work so you decide to get back to the living room and end up with unexpected results

A/N // Kind of bad and it’s literally just fluff.

Originally posted by gubler-cm

“Y/N?” You put your phone down and glanced at your partner.

“Hmm?”

“Can you turn your phone off?” Spencer asked, he sounded sleepy and you knew he was, he hadn’t told you too much about the case but you knew it had definitely taken its toll on him, you glanced over at your phone and you only then realized that it was quite bright.

Keep reading

Car Radio

I ponder of something great/ my lungs will fill and then deflate/ they fill with fire, exhale desire/ I know it’s dire, my time today/ I have these thoughts so often I ought/ to replace that slot with what I once bought/ cause somebody stole my car radio, and now I just sit in silence/ sometimes quiet is violence.


Quiet is violence.

Without the beat of a song, or lyrical impact it owns… The deafening sound of silence would force me to befriend the bullet that leaves the hole in my skull. That’s a fact. Quiet is violent.


I could pull the steering wheel.

Or maybe stop on the tracks where my train of thought would crash into me, and then… Nothing. I could jump off the height of a bridge, but the sound of music yanks me back like a bungee cord, if only it were around my neck instead.

I’m forced to deal with what I feel.

I’m tired.

Tired of waking up everyday next to the empty side of this bed built for two. I’m tired empty promises filled with lies, but mostly… I’m just tired of life.

There is no distraction to mask what is real.

After the sound stops, and the music dies… So do I, a little more inside. Those little thoughts become the only thing I can hear, they scream in my silence. JUMP

But…

I ponder of something great, my lungs will fill and then deflate, they fill with fire, exhale desire. Then, I know it’s dire, my time today.



Song: Car Radio - Twenty One Pilots

MBTI Types as twenty one pilots lyrics

ESTJ: To a tree, tell it: “You belong to me / This ain’t a noose, this is a leash / And I have news for you: You must obey me.” 

ISTJ: I’m fairly local, I’ve been around / I’ve seen the streets you’re walking down

ESFJ: Won’t you stay alive / I’ll take you on a ride / I will make you believe you are lovely

ISFJ: Wish we could turn back time / To the good old days / When the momma sang us to sleep but now we’re stressed out 

ESTP: So bold and fearless in the risks we take / Laugh in the face of gravity as its laws we’d break 

ISTP:  Lean with it, rock with it / When we gonna stop with it / Lyrics that mean nothing, we were gifted with thought 

ESFP: I need to know that when I fail you’ll still be here / Cause if you stick around, I’ll sing you pretty sounds / And we’ll make money selling your hair

ISFP: Are you searching for purpose? / Then write something yeah it might be worthless / Then paint something yeah it might be wordless

ENTJ: You don’t know my brain / The way you know my name / You don’t know my heart / The way you know my face

INTJ: I ponder of something great / My lungs will fill and then deflate / They fill wth fire, exhale desire / I know it’s dire my time today

ENTP: I put my socks on my feet / Just so my soul won’t fall through my toes / And I walk through my door / Just so I don’t fall through the floor

INTP: Am I right? Of course I am / Convince me otherwise would take all night / Before you walk away there’s one more thing I want to say / Our brains are sick but that’s okay

ENFJ: We’re driving towards the morning sun / Where all your blood is washed away / And all you did will be undone

INFJ: Oh Ms Believer / My pretty weeper / Your twisted thoughts are like snow on the rooftops

ENFP: I don’t want to know who I would be / When I wake up from a dreamer’s sleep

INFP: I don’t wanna be heard / I want to be listened to / Does it bother anyone else / That someone else has your name?

The signs as Twenty One Pilots lyrics

Aries: “My lungs will fill and then deflate, they fill with fire and then desire”                      -Car Radio

Taurus: “And I know that I can fight or I can let the lion win”-Migraine

Gemini: “I’m never what I like, I’m double sided, and I just can’t hide”                                 -Semi-Automatic

Cancer: “I’ll take you on a ride I will make you believe you are lovely.”-Lovely

Leo: “Metaphorically, I’m the man But literally, I don’t know what I’d do”-Ride

Virgo: “Yeah, I think about the end just way too much”-Ride

Libra: “And now that my mind’s out,and now I hear it clear and loud”-The Judge

Sagittarius: “I ponder of something great,”-Car Radio

Scorpio: “Cursing the government for not using my taxes to fill holes with more                  cement”-Tear In My Heart

Capricorn: “Sometimes quiet is violent”-Car Radio

Aquarius: “I’m forced to deal with what I feel”-Car Radio

Pisces: “But it takes someone to come around and show you how”                                    -Tear In My Heart

Signs as Twenty One Pilots' Vessel Lyrics: (@asstrolorgy)
  • ARIES // you think twice about your life, it probably happens at night, right? fight it, take the pain, ignite it, tie a noose around your mind loose enough to breathe fine and tie it, to a tree, tell it, "you belong to me, this ain't a noose, this is a leash, and I have news for you, you must obey me."
  • TAURUS // and I will say that we should take a day to break away, from all the pain our brain has made, the game is not played alone. and I will say that we should take a moment and hold it, and keep it frozen and know that, life has a hopeful undertone.
  • GEMINI // I'm never what I like, I'm double sided, and I just can't hide, I kind of like it when I make you cry, 'Cause I'm twisted up, I'm twisted up inside.
  • CANCER // while you're doing fine, there's some people and I, who have a really tough time getting through this life, so excuse us while we sing to the sky.
  • LEO // I do not know why I would go, in front of you and hide my soul, cause you're the only one who knows it, yeah you're the only one who knows it, and I will hide behind my pride, don't know why I think I can lie, cause there's a screen on my chest
  • VIRGO // I have these thoughts so often I ought to replace that slot, with what I once bought, 'cause somebody stole my car radio, and now I just sit in silence
  • LIBRA // I ponder of something great, my lungs will fill and then deflate, they fill with fire, exhale desire, I know it's dire my time today
  • SCORPIO // behind my eyelids are islands of violence, my mind's shipwrecked, this is the only land my mind could, find, I did not know it was such a violent island, full of tidal waves, suicidal crazed lions, they're trying to eat me, blood running down their chin, and I know that I can fight or I can let the lion win,
  • I begin to assemble what weapons I can find, cause sometimes to stay alive you got to kill your mind.
  • SAGITTARIUS // don't wanna call you in the nighttime, don't wanna give you all my pieces, don't wanna hand you all my trouble, don't wanna give you all my demons, you'll have to watch me struggle, from several rooms away, but tonight I'll need you to stay.
  • CAPRICORN // let's say we up and left this town, and turned our future upside down. we'll make pretend that you and me, lived ever after happily.
  • AQUARIUS // am I right? of course I am, convince me otherwise would take all night
  • before you walk away, there's one more thing I want to say, our brains are sick but that's okay.
  • PISCES // I find over the course of our human existence, one thing consists of consistence and it's that we're all battling fear, oh dear, I don't know if we know why we're here, oh my, too deep, please stop thinking
Direct Instruction: What to do

Lecturing, the most common direct instruction method, is about the worst method for instruction for autistic students with executive dysfunction (which is most of us) or those with ADHD. It is long, boring, not engaging in the slightest, and can be overloading if our energy or senses start to kick into overdrive.


But you can’t always avoid direct instruction. So how can you teach a lesson that involves direct instruction without issues arising? Here are some suggestions:

•Keep it short: Direct instruction should only be 10-15 minutes per segment. 15 minutes is pushing it for most students anyway.

•Ask some open questions while teaching: “How do you think we should solve this problem?” “What do you think will happen next in the story?” Questions that could have multiple answers are great for giving students something to ponder so their mind is less likely to drift away from the lesson.

•Slip in some guided practice between direct instruction segment(s) or between direct instruction and a reengagement: Breaking up the lesson into bite size chunks will make it easier to process for those who have a difficult time focusing.

•Allow students to stim: I will keep repeating it because it is important. For the student who is dealing with sensory problems and/or attention issues, having something for them to help cope with their environment will help keep them engaged. It might seem like a distraction to you but it will help them.

•Keep everything as routine as possible: It helps if they know what to expect every lesson. If every math lesson, you do a practice problem that they should already be able to solve, then direct instruction, guided practice, and then independent practice, they will follow the routine.

the signs and tøp's car radio
  • ponders of something great: capricorn, virgo, taurus, aquarius, gemini, scorpio
  • ponders of something terrifying: leo, aries, sagittarius, pisces, cancer, libra
The Signs as Twenty One Pilots Lyrics

Aries: “I was told when I get older all my fears would shrink, but now I’m insecure and I care what people think.” - Stressed Out

Taurus: “Scared of my own image, scared of my own immaturity. Scared of my own ceiling, scared I’ll die of uncertainty. Fear might be the death of me, fear leads to anxiety. Don’t know what’s inside of me.” - Doubt

Gemini: “I wanna fall inside your ghost and fill up every hole inside my mind. And I want everyone to know that I am half a soul divided.” - Taxi Cab

Cancer: “Metaphorically, I’m the man. But literally, I don’t know what I’d do. “I’d live for you,” and that’s hard to do. Even harder to say when you know it’s not true.” - Ride

Leo: “ Night falls with gravity, the earth turns from sanity, taking my only friend I know. He leaves a lot, his name is “Hope”.” - Semi-Automatic

Virgo: “I do not have writer’s block, my writer just hates the clock. It will not let me sleep, I guess I’ll sleep when I’m dead, and sometimes death seems better than the migraine in my head.” - Migraine

Libra: “I am cold, can you hear? I will fly with no hope, no fear. And the ground taunts my wings, plummet as I sing.” - Isle of Flightless Birds

Scorpio: “I wish that I had two faces to prove which theory works. Yelling on the street corner or cleverly masking your words. I take my face off at the door ‘cause I don’t know who they will take me for.” - Clear

Sagittarius: “Stay alive, stay alive, for me. You will die, but now your life is free. Take pride in what is sure to die.” - Truce

Capricorn: “Put away, all the gods your father served today. Put away, your traditions. Believe me when I say, we don’t know, how to put back the power in our soul. We don’t know, where to find what once was in our bones.” - Hometown

Aquarius: “Dear friend, here we are again pretending to understand how you think your world is ending. Sending signals and red flags in waves. It’s hard to tell the difference between blood and water these days” - Lovely

Pisces:  “I ponder of something great. My lungs will fill and then deflate. They fill with fire exhale desire. I know it’s dire my time today.” - Car Radio