i am forever falling in love with the utterly unattainable: people who will never acknowledge my existence, cities that will never embrace me with gentle arms, things and ideas and possibilities that are so ludicrous they may as well be considered fairy tales. upon realizing the avaricious desires of my heart, i can come only to one conclusion: i am eternally doomed to live a life just on the cusp of fantasticality. i am destined to stare out windows and dream incessantly, to have a plethora of wishes that will never be fulfilled. i will evermore have the light of unreachable stars dancing in my eyes and the beats of songs i cannot write pulsing in my fingertips. there is no hope for me; i am but an elusive dreamer, and i am afraid that that is all i will ever be.
the get down appreciation week: (day 4) favorite scene - Zeke’s poem
“they don’t care about us niggers,” is how my pops explained it. but I didn’t know I was a nigga until my dad proclaimed it. six months later my pops was dead, too. drug-related shots fired, his skin turned cold blue. on the news that night the president’s wife got a new hair-do. the news guy said ”I like it, how about you?” no word about my pops in the post or on cbs. why was that, you ask? take a fucking guess. and yeah, why is that? that’s what politicians should be asking. but who’s got time for questions when y’all skiing up on aspen? broads get gunshot to the head and all y’all serving us is aspirin. my momma was so lovely she would have made your head spin. level the playing field and y’all will see who will really win. and yeah I got anger, but I don’t let it take me down cause my momma taught me better. and she holds me up when I fall down. rest in peace moms, don’t worry about your son. some day I’ll make you proud, because, yeah, I am the one.”
Between copying and composing I have inked a great deal of paper, and it begins to be time for me to join in the concert of my snoring companions, who are extended before the fire in the style which we practiced in the interior parts of So. Carolina.