plus srry for it being long

nymphette-neko  asked:

Once you get this, you have to say five things you like about yourself, publicly. Then you have to send this to ten of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool)🌸🌸

omf. uhhh let’s see.. > o >

1. my hair?? idk, its rlly soft n long n i play w my own hair sometimes bc i love it so much ;;;;its weird ik im srry aaa (i’m actually getting my forehead bangs cut again so thats a plus!!)

2. my voice?? otay, well that’s actually debatable lolol.. it’s rlly high pitched n annoying at times but?? idk sometimes i like sounding like a chipmunk lmFAO

3. my height!! also debatable (god i’m srry i sound so negative bc i rlly dont like alot of things abt myself hhhh) it sucks being short but in the long run it means ppl can carry u c;<<<

4. ??my uh.. eyebrows?? i mean i’m not necessarily saying that they’re on FLEEK or anything wtf they’re far from that lmfao i just rlly like them bc i think they go nicely w my facial features even tho i look like a shrimp; ^ ;

5. my eyelashes!! ok this one i can positively say,, i rlly like my eyelashes. i think theyre rlly cute n they’re long n they make my eyes look big (even tho they arent hAH)

ty for this aaa ; w ;!! this was rlly fun even tho istillhatemyselfy’knowbutitsok i love you ♡ ♡ ♡


Tbh I don’t know why but I’m really starting to think that I have to lose weight just to get a boyfriend or be in a relationship. It’s hard being fat and black.
I don’t even think I’m ugly. I’m beautiful. I used to think I was ugly because boys (mainly dark skinned boys and even girls lighter than me) would talk bad about my skin tone and always call me ugly but as I got older I realized that I’m pretty.

I just don’t get why no one really approaches me or anything. Like if guys do approach me it’s always older men or guys my age that are honestly creeps. And I had nice guys approach me before but I honestly pushed them away because I thought they were talking to me as a joke (that has happened to me a lot) I know I’m not ugly. I’m overweight but I consider myself kind of thick too because all of my weight went into my butt and thighs and boobs and I do have a little chubby-ness on my tummy but my tummy is one of the smallest parts of my body and my waist is defined so I just don’t get it.

I’m even losing weight right now. I lost like 15 pounds (I used to be 270 like 2 years ago but now I’m 240 something. I was 260 something like two months ago) and I definitely see the difference in my hips and torso and I definitely look skinnier but like part of me feels like I’m gonna have to be like 150lbs just to even get approached but the other thing I don’t get is that I see other girls bigger than me get approached all the time so it makes me think there is something wrong with me.

I’m trying to be confident and I’m doing well with it but I still think guys will look at my physical appearance instead of my personality and confidence. I keep my head up high, I smell good and I dress nice and I’m a nice person. I don’t get it at all.
And like I even see black couples pictures on here with the girls mainly being skinny and that makes me feel as if the only way I’ll be in a relationship is if I’m skinnier. It’s unfair.

I never used to want a boyfriend but like at this point I feel like I should have one. I’m turning 21 in the fall and I’ve still never been kissed or been in a relationship and I’m still a virgin. And if I do get in a relationship I think that the guy will think I’m weird because I’m still a virgin and have no experience with kissing or dating. I know people are gonna say focus on myself and that being single is better but I still feel ready to be in a relationship. Like how do other plus size girls get in relationships? I need some tips. I just feel so awkward. 😔

**srry this is so long.