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I headcanon Lance as bi. I also sort of self project the way I grew up and how my family is/was on him too…? Anyways, more langst

-Lance never thought it was weird that he was attracted to both genders until he was 11
-He first told his mom and she told him it was just a phase
-His older siblings laughed and teased him for it, calling him many slurs
-Slowly he grew to hate himself for being attracted to men and started to become more and more homophobic
- When he was 13, he met a boy in the summer who was gay
-He dated said boy in secret while denying who he was all the while
-His younger sister caught him with the boy and told their parents
-Lance never thought he’d ever see his mom so disgusted with him
-At the same time, he never thought his Dad who seemed the least accepting, would accept him and try to help him
-Lance started to realize as he got older that no men wanted to date him because he was bi
-So he thought it’d be easier to pass as hetro, though by now he was no longer homophobic but was trying to help out in LGBT community
-Lance’s older siblings started to become more understanding of the LGBT community and was no longer homophobic
-His mom understood but didn’t except that he was bi. Instead she’d talk about how it was a phase in his life
-He knew deep down that she’s never accept him
-Growing up, Lance was a middle child
-He never really got new clothes, being able to have hand-me-downs from his older siblings
-But his younger siblings got new clothes as by the time he was down with his, they were outdated
-He tries not to think too much about the times he’d get locked out after walking around late
-It wasn’t their fault, they just didn’t notice he was gone
-When his anxiety was starting to get bad, he had to hide it because his family rejected the idea that anyone could have a mental illness in their family
-He learned how to cry silently early in his life, so it was no surprise that no one knew when he was having an anxiety attack
-His self esteem issues started pretty early in his life
-His older siblings, one was a genius and the other was a troublemaker
-Whatever he did was average in his eyes and only his friends congratulated him
-It would never feel as good as it would’ve been coming from his parents
-When he’d get into trouble or hang around a “dangerous” crowd, his parents didn’t seem to care too much
-His “dangerous” crowd was pretty much just his group of friends which consisted of an addict, an alcoholic, a pot head, a kid who came from a rough home and two high school drop outs who dealt with mental illness, and the other poverty
-Some of his friends knew gang members but it wasn’t an issue because they’d never bring them around
-When Lance got an 89% on an exam, they threw him a little party on the beach by a campfire
-They’d all celebrate each other’s success and Lance started to call them family
-Lance’s siblings always forgot he was with them when they’d tell a story, or they’d replace him with a different sibling
-His own mom and dad started to do that as well
-He started to feel like he was replaceable and forgettable
-He started to fall into depression around the time he was 12, though he never realized it was depression until he was 15
-He started self harming when he 11, a little bit after he came out
-At first it was anger, he felt like he deserved to be treated like crap
-It soon turned ugly as he started to notice more and more things he wasn’t good at and traits that were displeasing
-When he was 15-16, his friends noticed the scars he carefully kept hidden and they tried so hard to help him
-Lance learned that he didn’t want their help as it felt more like pity which only fed into his self-loathing
-When Lance was 16, his friend who was an alcoholic died by drowning in his own puke
-Lance didn’t take it well and couldn’t handle it, so he repressed those memories
-He never remembered until he was in his 20’s and woke up sobbing and shaking(it wasn’t pretty, it was horrible and he could shake the imagines out of his mind for weeks)
-When Lance got accepted to the garrison, his friends threw him a party
-At the same time, he never told his family until two days before he was leaving
-They thought it was just a boarding school and didn’t realize how much he worked for it until after he left and they looked into it
-Lance tried to hold back tears after the first month he was at the garrison and he still hadn’t gotten a call from his parents or siblings
-He didn’t hold himself as he thought of his friends and the fire they had
-He didn’t think of how his parents practically jumped around when his older brother got accepted into university
-He didn’t compare himself to everyone he knew and only focus on his bad points
-He didn’t have an anxiety attack that night
-When Lance met Hunk, he felt relived because finally in his life, he met someone who didn’t know his family
-Because finally he had a friend who saw him and didn’t know of or about his family
-And when he met Pidge, he was ecstatic to meet someone who was so smart and chill
-It didn’t hurt him at all when they kept avoiding him though
-It didn’t remind him of being overshadowed when his teachers started to compare him and tell him he was there only by luck
-It didn’t hurt when he was taken as a joke by his self proclaimed rival because it reminded him of his siblings
-No, it didn’t hurt at all when he realized he really didn’t belong with the other paladins
-And it certainly didn’t hurt when his hero got mad at him for making a valid point
-Of course that didn’t make him start to doubt himself more than he already did
-No, Lance never thought of how much he hated himself or how he wasn’t good enough
-Not even about how he missed his family, when he was stuck out in space
-Or his friends, who’d usually try to cheer him up by taking him out to eat or play games all night
-Definitely not about how he wished he was a better person, never really seeing what an amazing person he was but the only what he saw of himself
-No, Lance was fine
-Right?

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So! we have had a Matt appreciation month, an Edd appreciation and now im putting together a tom apreciation month because hes a pretty darn cool dude ya know. He was in charge of legecy, voice of tom, and still does his own stuff with that one youtube channel named Tomska (Ill tag his ass later)

BUT TO THE IMPORTANT STUFF! Note: I will say Tom and then Tomska, Tom refering to eddsworld and Tomska refering to IRL Tom so yeah. Rules: dont be a goddamn dick for once, lets not put ship stuff in the tag, uhhhhhhh that should be good

NOW THE DAYS: NOTE THIS WILL BE TAKING PLACE IN MAY

(And if ya really wanna you can switch Tom to Tomska with a few of these but please dont make them the same people)

Day 1: Draw Tom
Day 2: Draw Tom being drunk, or getting drinks or something (chill with the drinks if ya drawing Tomska)
Day 3: Draw Tom with a harpoon
Day 4: Draw Tom with eyes
Day 5: Draw Scribble Tom! (or really any other reject with tom in it)
Day 6 Young Tom
Day 7: Toms parents
Day 8:Tom Doing a funny face
Day 9: Screenshot redraw of choice (with tom)
Day 10: Draw Tomska!
Day 11: Tom with Edd and Matt (Tord is optional)
Day 12: Draw Tom with outfit of choice
Day 13: Draw Black Tom (or any POC Tom, make hiim look fucking dope tho)
Day 14: Draw an EXTREAMLY small Tom right next to a GIGANTIC Tom
Day 15: Draw Jon I dont fucking know
Day 16: Look at or Binge watch Tomskas channel (its tomska or darksquidge)
Day 17: Draw your favorite Tomska video or like ASDF or something
Day 18: Sheriff Tom
Day 19: Future Tom
Day 20: Draw or say your favorite thing about Tom/ Tomska
Day 21: Draw or say your opinon on Toms eyes (orbs, empty, headcannon, etc)
Day 22: Tom or Tomska in a suit
Day 23: Tom with ringo, Or Tomska with his pet fox
Day 24: Monter Tom
Day 25: Tom with susan
Day 26: Tom with Tomme bear
Day 27: Just draw Tom straight up punching tord, just right in the face
Day 28:  Tom or Tomska doing something dumb
Day 29: Draw Dat boi or just post it and tag tomska with no context
Day 30: Tom and Tomska together
Day 31: Write a coolio heart felt note to Tomska

The tag is # Tomskaam and spread this to every site! (i swear i dont mean it to say scam)

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So with all the #fancynewtech and #easilyaccessiblehipstermagic, finding babies and small children for the faeries to steal has become incredibly difficult. They need a new strategy because what is the faerie realm without changelings, right?

So they set up a summer camp for highschoolers that takes place on the flipside of a really old college campus. It’s for teens interested in pursuing the arts, it says. GENEROUS scholarships and financial help, it says.

And they get like couple hundred kids signed up, all on scholarships cause the fae don’t need human money they just need changelings, for this “PRODIGIOUS” month-long “ARTS INTENSIVE SUMMER CAMP”

And it seems fine and normal and cool!

But as they eat, they all gradually try these cool yummy exotic fruits that trap them in the faerie realm and make them less and less human with every bite – all except for the one kid who is allergic to basically everything and refuses to risk it. So that one kid is the only one who can still travel between our realm and the faerie realm and he gets very confused because sometimes there’s a bunch of college kids he’s never seen before and sometimes it’s completely quiet except for his campmates.

Then this one autistic girl whose special interest is faeries and magic, who ate one bite of the fruit but no more because its texture didn’t agree with her, figures out what’s wrong and they have to work together to free their campmates because before they all get stuck in the faerie realm and replaced with changelings forever.