-Great Expectations- (part 5)
Warning: Cursing. You getting disappointed.
Notes: I hope you’ll like this one, and I hope you’ll still like me after reading this. If there are some grammar mistakes please don’t mind. English is not my first language. Kisses!
I never realized how traumatic it is when someone jumps screaming on you when you sleep. At least not until this morning.
Cassie entered in my apartment and tip toed to my bedroom to wake me up…in her way. And, of course, I screamed so loud I think everyone who lives in the building have heard me. Well, good morning world.
‘’What is wrong with you?!?!?!?!’’ I screamed at her while trowing pillows at her. She was just laughing hysterically at me because ‘’my face looked so funny’’. How does your face have to look when someone scares the crap out of you? I calmed down after a few minutes, then she came closer to sit on my bed.
‘’Y/n, I really don’t know how you’re gonna act when you find a boyfriend. You’re always so grumpy when you wake up. There will be no morning sex, and morning sex is important for a healthy, stable relationship.’’
‘’Trust me Cassie, if my morning started with sex, I wouldn’t be so grumpy.’’
The brunette in front me just laughed at my words, then got up and went to the kitchen with a ‘I’ll make us some coffee.’’and then reappeared on the door with a ‘’But really Y/n, your face looks really funny when you scream.’’
‘’GO MAKE THAT COFFEE!’’ I threw another pillow at her, but she was quick to avoid it.
I had no other choice than to get up, because if I don’t do so, she will come back with another traumatic experience for me. I wasn’t in the mood for it. I checked my phone to see what time it was. It was 9 a.m. That’s like…the middle of the night. ‘Ughh’ I sighed in frustration.
‘’You slapped him?’’
‘’Yes, I did.’’
She was looking at me with that ‘Bitch said what?’ face.
‘’I think you need to be slapped.’’ I rolled my eyes.
‘’Cassie, I only did that to show him not to mess with me. And although, the slap wasn’t hard, he was just shocked because he thought I was going to kiss him.’’
Her mouth hang open.
‘’YOU WERE GOING TO KISS HIM? ‘’ she screamed.
‘’Yes Cassie/’’ as always I wasn’t able to finish that sentence because she interrupted me.
‘’But, you didn’t kiss him. Instead, you slapped the poor guy. And then he still told you to call him after that? Wow, he must really like you.’’
I smiled at her words. The thought of Alex having any kind of feelings for me made knots form in my stomach, and she noticed that.
‘’You really like him. Don’t you?’’
‘’I don’t!!’’ I squealed like some animal.
‘’You do. Even if you don’t want to admit it.’’
I felt my cheeks burning. Actually, my whole face was burning. But, I didn’t want to admit it.
‘’I can’t like him. I know him for like, what, 4 days?’’
‘’It doesn’t matter how long you have known him. He makes you smile the way I haven’t seen you smile for a while Y/n. And that, as your best friend, makes me very happy.’’ the tone of her voice was soft, and her face wasn’t telling a different story.
‘’I don’t know Cassie. It’s worrying me.’’ I finally said.
‘’What is worrying you?’’
‘’Nothing. It doesn’t matter.’’ I told her off, and she understood that I didn’t want to talk about it, so she changed the subject.
‘’You’re seeing him again tonight, right?’’
‘’Yes. Btw do you think I should invite him here, or is it better to go at his place?
She thought about it a little. ‘’Depends, are you comfortable with him coming here?’’
‘’Yes and no. I don’t know.’’
‘’Then don’t. Instead, go at his place, so after you finish the series, he can walk you home and you can spend more time with him.’’
‘’ You’re a genius.’’
We both laughed at that and changed the topic. But in between collections of moments where we would just drink our coffee in silence, my mind constantly went back on a special pair of piercing blue eyes.
‘’Okay Y/n, you’re gonna call him now, and act natural. It’s just a call, don’t be nervous.’’ I was giving myself this pep talk while searching for his number on my phone. ‘’Okay. Let’s do this.’’ It was ringing for a while. It made me think he was not going to answer. But he did.
‘’ Hey Y/n. What a surprise.’’
‘’Hey Alex. Why are you surprised, you gave me your number to call you?’’ I was confused.
‘’I honestly thought I was going to be the one to message you first again.’’
‘’Oh…Well, I don’t have a smart answer for that.’’
We both giggled.
‘’So, about tonight’’ he started ‘’I thought you could come at my place, and I could order some pizza? Or you want something else?’’
‘’Yes, and yes. Pizza sounds good.’’ I was satisfied.
‘’I have another proposal.’’
‘’You let me try, and guess what your favorite pizza is. But, if I do, I chose the reward. And I promise it’s not gonna be something that you’re gonna be uncomfortable with. Okay?’’
Not bad. And I was probably going to win this time, since he probably thinks my favorite pizza is the one I ate the first time we met.
‘’Okay. ‘’ I was confident about this.
‘’I’ll text you the address. I have to go now, see you soon Y/n. Bye!’’ he sounded pretty confident too.
He hung up.
Cassie was still at my place, and she was watching me the whole time while I was talking with Alex.
‘’If you aver that you don’t like him, why are you smiling so much now?’’ she asked me, amused by the situation.
‘’Well, I guess it is because I DO like him?’’ I said, shrugging my shoulders.
‘’I knew that, I just wanted to hear you say it.’’ I rolled my eyes.
‘’I won’t, but Alex will.’’ Oh, no she didn’t.
I was standing in front of a black door with a number 10 on it. Rechecking the message with the address on it, I gained confidence to finally knock. After a couple of seconds I heard the door unlock and a familiar face appeared in front of me. He was wearing gray sweatpants and a simple white t-shirt, and suddenly I felt so overdressed, since I really put effort into finding the right outfit for this.
‘’Hey gorgeous.’’ He smiled. It was terrifying how I grew into loving that smile in a short amount of time.
‘’Hey Alex.’’ I smiled back, aware that my cheeks were burning. My whole face was probably turning red, but I tried to ignore it since I didn’t want to make things awkward.
Alex stepped aside so I could come in. The inside of his apartment was very nice. It was very simple, but stylish at the same time. And it was pretty tidy too, which was a surprise, I expected it to be messier. Much messier.
He had everything prepared for our little marathon. Even the pizzas were there.
‘’The delivery guy came like a minute before you.’’ he said when he noticed where I was looking.
‘’Good. Then, shall we begin? I got a lot to catch up.’’
‘’Yeah, you do.’’ he laughed, and then we made ourselves comfortable on the couch. I put the box with my pizza in it on my left, Alex was on my right side, our arms and legs touching. I opened up the box to start eating my pizza and I was surprised. He was right. Again.
‘’How did you…You asked Jordan, didn’t you?’’ The blue eyed man turned his head to me.
‘’Yes.’’ He sounded very satisfied with himself.
‘’It’s not fair.’’ He rolled his eyes.
‘’You never mentioned any rules, so I guess there was nothing to be broken. I’ll take my reward later. Eat your pizza now and stop looking at me with that ‘mad child’ face expression and start enjoying this.’’ and with those words he turned on the episode.
‘’No wonder you’re always in a good mood. You get to be so moody while working.’’ We both laughed at that.
‘’Nothing but happy days.’’ He says, now looking at me with a huge smile on his face. The next thing he did got me frozen in my place. He started leaning towards my face, his eyes now focused on my lips. He stopped then, our lips just a few millimeters away.
I could feel his breath on my face. I could hear his breathing getting uneven the more he hold on like that. I could sense how he moved his right hand to put it next to me, probably to give himself more balance. I could sense the tension of the moment in the air. I could feel my heart racing in my chest. I think Alex could too. But he wasn’t doing anything. He wasn’t moving, and then he did.
But he didn’t move forward. He didn’t kiss me, and only God knows how I wanted that to happen. He moved away, and he was holding a slice of my pizza in his right hand. This was his way of getting revenge for last night. And damn it, this hurt more than any slap ever would.
‘’I think you realize why I did this.’’ he finally said.
‘’Yes.’’ I said, with my voice sore, like it was the first time I ever spoke. I felt my whole face burn, mostly from embarrassment. He knew I wanted him. He knew, but he moved away anyway. But then again, that’s what I did last night. But I still got mad. How could he do this?
‘’This slice is my reward. And you learning something out of this would be a bonus.’’ he was looking at me. He was waiting for me to say something.
‘’How didn’t you get mad last night? Because I am mad with you now.’’ were the only words that came out of my mouth.
He left out a heavy breath.
‘’Because, in that moment, I came to understood that you didn’t act like a bitch because you are one. You acted like that because you got hurt before. Because you were tired of people playing you. But this, right now’’ he made a circling gesture with his free hand ‘’is me showing you that you should respect me. Believe me Y/n, I had no intention in hurting you. But you have no right to hurt me like that because someone else did that to you before. You have no right to do that. You could have just told me, but you didn’t. And I let it go the last time, but I don’t wanna be treated like a fool.’’ His voice was calm, like he was talking to a little child. And that made me feel worse than I was feeling already. He was so understanding, and I wasn’t deserving that. I was wordless. I was looking at him with pure shock.
‘’I don’t want to hurt you Y/n. I would never want that. I just want you to trust me. I understand it will take time, but I’m not giving up on you just yet. You fascinate me, from the way you walk, to the way you talk. And if time is what you need from me, so I could finally call you mine, that’s what I will give you.’’
He was looking at me now, patiently waiting for my answer. I didn’t know what to say. I just wanted to kiss him right now. Because he deserved to be kissed. A thousand times, and it wouldn’t be enough for me to express how I was feeling right now.
He was confused. ‘’And by that you mean…?’’
‘’Okay, like, ‘Okay. I’ll give you a chance.’ and ‘Okay. I’ll give myself a chance to be happy.’ ‘’ I finally said.
He smiled, and put his left arm around me, bringing me closer to him. He kissed my forehead, and then turned his head to the TV to put on the next episode. I closed my eyes and rested my head on his shoulder. God, how I loved his scent. He always smelled so nice. He smelled like…home.
I opened my eyes when the opening music started playing, implicating that the episode was starting,