I’m all for answering questions, giving advice, and talking to people. However I still want to point out I am just one person on the internet. So please, please get help from a professional or close loved one if your advice inquiry is of a serious/life-threatening nature.
Does all your ink have special meaning to you? I was surprised to hear you weren't a Brando "fan." I would have sworn you were a method actor. I have been an addict for over 40 years.How did you really "kick" your addictions? You have strangely awakened a lost part of me.