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The Birthday Party


Description: long days at work but finally having the time of your life with your friends only to be introduced by a real life Christian Grey.

Genre: Smut (18+)

Word Count: 1,579

A/N: hello! This is my first ever one shot and I know its a little shakey at the moment but I do promise that I’m going to improve in the future so please look forward to my other works!

After long dead nights at work, you finally have the weekend off to spend time with your best friend. After all, today is her 21st birthday and that indicates that she is at the age to FINALLY drink. You and a couple of girlfriends decided to take her out to her first club night out, she is a party animal so it is most likely that she’ll LOVE it.

As you walk into the building, your ears are filled with loud music, having skin contact with sweaty bodies eveywhere, and your nose being filled with alcohol. This was what you called freedom.

To start off this amazing night, your group of friends and yourself grab a couple of drinks from the bar to release any remaining stress in your mind; to finally have the time of your life of not having the thoughts of work and assignments running through your exhausted mind.

Drink after drink, song after song and dancing with strangers and your friends, you’ve finally decided to take a rest at the bar, asking the bartender to give you a shot of Hennessey. He gives you an “Okay”, leaving you to rummage through your purse for your wallet. A tall figure approached the seat right next to you and told the bartender that he was paying for the drink. But being the drunk person you are, you couldn’t focus on this man’s face. You frown at yourself for being this fucked up and not being able to see the gentleman that’s offering to pay for your drink.

You start to make your way to have the drink in your hand but without any warning, the stranger aggressively grabs a hold of your wrist.

“Caaaan youuu let goooo??” you say, but all he does is laugh because of your slurring of words. He didn’t reply but still had his firm hold onto your wrist. He shifts a little bit, and you see him add something to your drink but you were too dizzy to care what he was adding into your drink.

Finishing his suspicious task, he finally let go, leaving you alone with your drink. You then look at your drink and thought of what he would have added into your beverage. Unfortunately, from all the thinking your head started to throb, making you carelessly drink out of the spiked drink.

You made an attempt to stand up to go back to your friends but all of a sudden your vision started to get blurry. You started to wobble your way to your friends but your legs turned into noodle, making you end up collapsing in a pair of arms.

You slowly wake up, being greeted with a huge headache, which makes yourself regret drinking all of those shots from earlier. But as you open up your eyes, you’ve realized that you are in an unfamiliar room. You started to examine the room and finally notice that both your hands and feet were tied to each bed post. Your heart rate and the sweat forming on your head starts to increase as you start to panic.

You tried your best attempt to get yourself untied but it was no use, you were tied up tight. You looked more into your surroundings to find anything that can get you out of this mess, but all you came across with were… Toys?

You shudder as you realized that they weren’t the normal “kid” toys in a toys R us store, they were those types of toys you would see in a fifty shades of grey movie.

Your heart rate increases more making it feel like your chest was going to explode any second.

But then you suddenly hear the door of the room creak open, which gave you the action of closing your eyes. With your eyes closed, you hear the footsteps of the person entering the room, the stranger’s footsteps moving closer and closer to you.

“I know you’re awake. No need to pretend, princess.” he purrs. You forcefully open your eyes to see your kidnapper.

Your mind was confused, it was like deja vu. You had the thought that you have seen this man before. His facial structure looked familiar but it wouldn’t budge.

“You don’t remember me don’t you?” he asks you. You shook your head no, but you swear you knew this man.

“I was that gentleman who bought your drink.” he says with a smirk. Your eyes widen in realization. You finally remembered, he was the guy that drugged you.

“You were that guy tha-” You started to scream out but he cut you off by inserting a gag ball in your mouth.

“You silly girl. Don’t start screaming out or else my punishment for you will get more dangerous. The name’s Taehyung, Kim Taehyung.” he winks at you. You force out a scream but it comes out as a muffle. Tears form in your eyes as you realize that you’re going to get laid by a complete stranger.

He begins to stroke your face, pushing your hair back to make your face more visible. Taehyung’s hand starts to linger more around your body. Touching your breast to touching your womanhood and lastly your legs.

“Ready to have some fun?” he states with a smirk. You rapidly shake your head no but he just chuckles.

He makes his way to the back of your dress to unzip it, exposing you with only your bra and underwear. He softly touches your body once again, sending shivers down your spine.

You haven’t been touched in a while but having a stranger touch you made you shudder in disgust. However, the touch of this man sent thoughts of lust into your mind. Making you slowly give in to his soft contact.

Taehyung notices that you are finally accepting this. He then removes the gag ball from your mouth and connects his lips with yours. He places his hands on one of your breast and softly squeezes it, releasing a small moan from your mouth. Taehyung disconnects his lips from yours to make trails of kisses from your neck to your lower region. He then removes your underwear, revealing your womanhood. You see him reach over to the table that was covered with items, seeing him grab a whip

“Every time you make a loud noise, I’ll whip you. Got it?” he states. You nod while looking fearfully at the whip.

Taehyung starts to grab a hold of your thighs and starts to lower his head to your opening, feeling his warm breath hitting your entrance. He begins to lightly lick your clit, causing a great sensation happening inside your body, making your back form an arch.

Through your wetness, he begins to enter his middle finger in you, causing you to quietly moan in pleasure.

“You like that sweetheart?” he mumbles through your pussy but as he spoke, vibrations were sent to your core, making you whine as an answer. Hearing those noises from you made him smile in satisfaction.

He begins to use his tongue to roughly create circles around your clit, increasing his pace with his fingers. You forced your eyes closed as you were starting to hit your high. But Taehyung’s presence from your entrance disappeared. You whine, but as a response, he whips you. A small squeak coming out of your mouth.

“No whining either.” he points at you.

Taehyung stands up from his knees and starts to remove his pants, revealing a large bulge from his underwear and pre-cum leaking through the fabric. He then lowers down his underwear, his long manhood standing up from excitement.

He gets on the bed once again and places his length right in front of your face. He roughly grabs your hair and forcefully inserts his member into your mouth, causing you to gag. He begins to slowly move his hips back and forth as tears start to roll down your cheeks. Moans starts to escape his lips which made your core throb in response.

His moans started to get out of control, queuing you that he was about to reach his climax, and he was. He quickly removes his length from your mouth and begins to move his hand up and down from his hard member, releasing the white liquid all over your face and your mouth.

“swallow it.” he demands, having the whip up in the air which made you do what he says.

He then goes back to your entrance and inserts his member inside you. You were expecting his to start off slow for you to adjust to his size but he does the complete opposite, making you cry in pain. As a response, he whips you.

“Did my words not go through your fucking head little slut?” he growls. You whimper at his sudden harsh words but that only made him thrust faster and harder, causing you to grab a hold of the sheets beneath you.

He gives his last thrust, sending the both of you to your climax. Your moaning and his uneven breathing were ringing through your ears as your limbs were twitching from the insane sensation you just had with this stranger.

After Taehyung recovers, he makes his way out of the bed to reclothe himself. He then leans over your sweaty body and smirks at your exhausted state.

“I’ll see you again tomorrow.” he says then walks to the door, leaving you alone on the bed, naked.

When your umbrella really isn’t big enough to shelter two people comfortably but that’s okay because you love your boyfriend so much you don’t mind standing in the rain on the walk home. 

Long time no post! Have some SeriRei. It’s good for the soul. I’m probably going to open up commissions soon, so please look forward to that!

”Music game gravure competition”
Everyone、Thank you so much for getting all those points in those busy times。
Nako too、did her best to achieve the first place💦
But、more that anything I am thankful to all of you who worked hard to give me this result、the 1st place😭
Please look forward to NakoMirun’s gravure💗

[Twitter] Yabuki Nako / 2017.10.20 [English Translation]

If you miss me, contact me, call me, text me, message me, find someway to send something to me. Don’t tell me you miss me and disappear for days. I miss you too. But I’m getting tired of being the only one starting talks.
—  Zachary Wolfgang Applebaum

You’d best never forget this w o r t h l e s s pride of mine.

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If you think you’re worthless, stop scrolling right now and read.

I’m writing this for a specific mutual, but it isn’t only true for one person, so read on.

You know those inspirational posts you see people reblog every day?

Stuff about people all throughout history who failed and went bankrupt and were depressed and were told they weren’t good enough - and yet somehow they rose above it and defied all those notions to become heroes and legends and history makers and culture movers. And the post always ends with “so don’t be hard on yourself when you mess up” and it’s all nice and sweet and pretty. Maybe you scroll past them. Maybe you hardly ever see them on your dash at all.

Maybe you’re among those who reblogs these posts.

But maybe every time you hit the reblog or the like button, your brain is whispering “this isn’t about you” and “yes people can do amazing things, but not you” and “ah yes amazing stories, too bad it will never happen to you” and you listen to these whisperings and you laugh and shake your head…

Because you know exactly where you stand: worthless. irredeemable. a loser. a lost cause.



Listen to me.

As your friend.

As a stranger who doesn’t know you. Who doesn’t have to know you, or your failings, or your depression, or your anxiety, or your embarrassments, or your deepest darkest most heinous crimes.


Just stop.

Look up. Look around you. Open. Your. Eyes. Are they open? Good. Keep them open. Don’t ever close them again. See the world. See you: a human being, valid, flawed, journeying, changing, growing, scraping, failing, rising, a masterpiece that will never be made again.

You are beautiful. You who think you are overweight and lazy. You are beautiful. You who think you are stupid and uneducated. You are beautiful. You who think you are a loser, and amount to nothing. You are beautiful. You who bleed and ache and never rest. You are beautiful.

You have worth.

Want to know a secret? If you wake up in the morning and tell yourself you’re not going to amount to anything that day, then you aren’t going to. If you go to bed at night thinking nothing will change tomorrow, then you are going to change nothing.

Because you’ve resigned yourself to that lie. And it is a lie, friend. A straight-out, soul-condemning, out-of-the-pit, self-deprecating, self-pitying lie. A lie you don’t have to believe. A lie you should not believe.

If you stand in the corner and bow your head and stare at the ground, you’ve already lost the battle without fighting. This is a surrender in which there is no honor, and in it there is no hope.

Life isn’t easy, friend. Life isn’t fair. It’s hard. And getting things done is hard. Some days, just getting up out of bed is hard. Just breathing. Just doing homework. Just going to work. Just trying to keep the dishes and trash from overflowing.

But we do it anyway.

Why? Because there’s life to live. There are choices to be made. Jokes to laugh at. Awkward conversations to be had. Art to mess up and start over on. Jobs to work. Pizza to be eaten.

We do it anyway.

So guess what?

You do it anyway too.

Why? Because of this:

You are special.

Right now, this second, turn off the voice that hears these Disney-fied words and scoffs and ignores them. Listen.

There is not a human being who has ever lived or ever will live on this planet that is not important, that is not here for a reason. No life is worthless, and most certainly not yours. My God doesn’t make worthless things, and he doesn’t make mistakes. There are no extra pieces in this universe, no spare parts. He made you. And he made you for a purpose, and that purpose is not to sit in your room, afraid to try, afraid to love, afraid to hope, afraid to climb and fall and hurt and get back up again.

Want to know another secret? You aren’t alone. Every single human being in the history of everything has struggled with feeling worthless at some point in their life. Every single one. That is not a lie. Your feelings of worthlessness are not what is special about you. You are what is special about you. The God who created you is what is special about you.

No matter what you’re going through, no matter what you’ve done, no matter what you have failed to do, someone else has gone through worse. Sometimes, a lot worse.

Oh, now you feel invalidated. “Why can’t I just believe in myself? Other people have it worse, I shouldn’t complain, I should just try harder, but I know trying harder isn’t going to help, so what’s the point.”

Guess what?

Stop that too.

Stop it dead in its tracks.

Kill that thought. Every day. Every morning. Every minute it shows its ugly lying face. Kill it and put it to rest. Stack headstones on top of it and move away, far far way, friend.

Don’t tell me I don’t know what I’m talking about. I don’t know where you’ve been, but you don’t know where I’ve been either. Don’t ignore hope because you think it’s for other people. Don’t keep yourself from making an effort, and pushing yourself forward. Bury the lie. You have worth. You are loved. You are important. God does not make worthless things.

One of my favorite lyrics says “How does it end when the war that you’re in is just you against you against you? You’ve got to learn to love, learn to love your enemies too.”

Learn to love.

Your enemy.


Start learning to see you the way God sees you.

See you the way I see you.




Just at the very beginning.

Every single day you wake up is a brand new start.

A bright new chance. Every. Single. One. You will never stop getting chances for as long as you are here, so why dismiss them? Isn’t that the most beautiful thing there is? You get to keep trying. Every single day. You have the gift to go again, try again, start again, live again, breathe again, hope again.

Guess what. When the morning is wasted, the afternoon is still there. When the afternoon is wasted, the evening is still there. When the evening is wasted, the night is still there. And then morning comes again.

So the next time you see a motivational post, an inspiring reblog, a story about how someone overcame something horrible, and turned it into something amazing, look long and hard and take courage, find hope in that. Stop dismissing it as being from a universe you have no part in. Stop putting yourself to that measuring stick and turning away because you’re not there yet.

You’re looking at the end result. At some point, they were standing in your shoes. They couldn’t see the end. They couldn’t see what they might or might not amount to. They had no idea, just like you now. Just exactly like you.

Hope, my friend. Every time you start to think “I can/will never” do this or that or amount to anything or accomplish anything… Hope. Stop those thoughts immediately. Kill them. Bury them. Never stop burying them. They are lies and you are better than them.

Drive them out. Open your eyes. Look around. Pick yourself up. Brush away the tears. “I will try. My God doesn’t make worthless things, so I am not worthless. My God does not create without meaning, so I have meaning. I am here for a reason. Today I will live to find out what that reason is for today. And tomorrow I will hope again.”

Life is hard, my friend. Stop beating yourself up. You are worth more and capable of more than you can ever imagine or hope or dream. Don’t let your past or present failures stop you or beat you down. Keep going, keep hoping, keep killing the lies. You are bigger than them, you go beyond them. And God is greater, and he knows your heart. Trust him. Wake up. Open your eyes. Move forward. Keep your eyes open.

“You’ve got all that emotion that’s heaving like an ocean
And you’re drowning in a deep, dark well
I can hear it in your voice that if you only had a choice
You would rather be anyone else

I love you just the way that you are
I love the way He made your precious heart

Be kind to yourself
Be kind to yourself

I know it’s hard to hear it when that anger in your spirit
Is pointed like an arrow at your chest
When the voices in your mind are anything but kind
And you can’t believe your Father knows best

I love you just the way that you are
I love the way He’s shaping your heart

Be kind to yourself
Be kind to yourself

Well how does it end when the war that you’re in
Is just you against you against you
Gotta learn to love, learn to love
Learn to love your enemies too

You can’t expect to be perfect
It’s a fight you’ve gotta forfeit
You belong to me whatever you do
So lay down your weapon, darling
Take a deep breath and believe that I love you

Be kind to yourself
Be kind to yourself
Be kind to yourself

Gotta learn to love, learn to love
Learn to love your enemies
Gotta learn to love, learn to love
Learn to love your enemies too

[Article] BTS Is Back! The K-Pop Kings Talk Their New Album and Ever-Evolving Style

Just ahead of the release, the members sat down for an exclusive interview with Vogue to break down their new look and evolving personal style. Despite a long day of filming and dance rehearsals, they were in good spirits, laughing and chattering happily. “Let’s go!” J-Hope said. Here, we do.

Q. Tell us about the new visual concept for this album. What kind of style did you pick to express it?

Suga: It’s about boys falling in love. There are four versions of love, and we shot four different photos to show them. Though each one is different, the same feeling of love comes through in every shot. There’s a sense of playfulness, of friends hanging out comfortably at home in their free time, and that kind of fluttering feeling. Visually, we cover a lot of ground.

The lyrics and the music themselves are about finding your fate. In this album, we cover a wide range of songs: There are high-energy ones, very hip-hop ones. It’s quite diverse. To match it, the style covers a range of colorful, sporty, leisure, and boyish clothes. They go well together: powerful music, colorful clothes.

J-Hope: It’s very colorful and sporty, overall. I think there’s a slightly retro feel, too. Among the seven members, I think we each kind of bring out our hidden boyishness through our clothes.

Suga: It’s totally different. When we did You Never Walk Alone, we wore a lot of casual clothes. This time, it’s a lot flashier. Super colorful, yet more high-end and comfortable at the same time. More of that comforting feeling.

J-Hope: Right, this time we wanted to show more of that boyish style.

Q. How would you describe BTS’s style in general, looking back across your work?

Rapmon: Just style.

Jimin: Truthfully, we have a very energetic style, I would say.

Q. A lot has been said about the kind of individuality you hope to express as a band. Is that something that comes into play with your style, letting each member’s own persona come through?

Jimin: Of course; it’s important. With each new album, we do a lot of fittings. And each time we do those fittings, we talk a lot and always share our thoughts as we go. We put a lot of effort into looking for clothes that express ourselves and the feelings we want to express with each album’s concept. We want to show that, [but] without losing our individuality either.

V: I don’t think we have one signature. With each concept, we change it up completely and the styles have been so diverse. For “Boy in Luv,” we wore school uniforms. For “Blood, Sweat & Tears,” it was a range of suits and white shirts. As artists, we have to change our style to match each concept. We’re always changing, ever changing.

Q. Do you have a favorite piece you wore for this comeback?

Suga: I loved all the oversize shirts.

Jungkook: Me too. There’s a loose, navy chiffon shirt I wore with slacks that was particularly light and comfortable. I liked that a lot.

J-Hope: I liked wearing those basketball jerseys, and those ultra-colorful sweaters, too.

Rapmon: There was a really big windbreaker that I liked because it was so big.

V: I liked everything, but the accessories most of all. Particularly all the rings and earrings, I liked those the most.

Jimin: For me, it was the bright red shirt from “DNA.”

Q. Who do you think has changed the most since you debuted?

J-Hope: V?

Suga: V has changed a lot, and Jimin changed a lot.

Rapmon: Jungkook, too.

Q. In what way?

Jimin: We’ve all gotten old.

J-Hope: Our maknae line [the youngest members] has changed a lot. They are the youngest and looked it when we debuted, but now, they look more grown-up.

Jin: Like Jimin. Overall, his face changed from cute to sexy.

Q. What do you want most for this comeback?

Suga: To make the Billboard Hot 100 is my dream.

J-Hope: Let’s get it! Dream!

Rapmon: I would like all the members to be healthy.

J-Hope: Health!

Suga: It’s the most important thing, really.

Jimin: I would like to be 3 centimeters taller.

V: For real. I want to have wide shoulders like Jin.

Jimin: Me too [laughs]. For real.

Suga: If everyone could be happy, I would be happy.

J-Hope: Peace!

Jungkook: For me, I’d like to travel a lot. Anywhere would be great. And if I could learn to speak English and Japanese well, that would be great, too.

J-Hope: I also would like the members to be healthy and happy. And everyone else, all our fans.

Q. Any last words for your American fans?

J-Hope: Of course, American Army.

Suga: No matter what, our American Army is so big, and we are so very thankful to them. From now on, we want to put on even cooler performances, be cooler, be better, so look forward to it. Please, always look forward to it.

V: Thank you! We love American Army so much!

Q. Tell us about your personal style. What are you into lately?

V: In my case, I like to pick one piece that pops against everything else. I like flashy shirts, or I’ll wear a simple shirt with a fancy necktie. I also like vintage pieces, more standout ones. I’ll go to certain boutiques and look for clothes without labels. You can find a lot of nice unbranded shirts, and I wear those a lot.

Jimin: To be honest, I don’t think much about style, or “oh, this is my style,” that sort of thing. I follow my mood, which is so different day to day. Generally, I like a wide range of styles, but lately, I’ve been reaching for comfortable, simple things. Simple slacks and shirts.

Jungkook: Are you familiar with the term paealmot [fashion-know-nothing]? I don’t know anything about fashion. So for me, I reach for anything comfortable. I wear a lot of athleisure and workout clothes—sweatpants and sweatshirts—as I like to stay active.

Jin: I like to dress warmly, comfortably as I go around. Naturally I like easy fashion. My style is clean, polished, and gentle looking. Or you could say I prefer to wear big sweatshirts and hoodies.

J-Hope: I’m into streetwear, and more colorful looks. These days, bags have become more of a thing for me—these mini cross bags are so great.

Suga: These days I’m wearing a lot of Jordans, those sneakers. I’ve been wearing a lot of slippers, too, and comfortable clothes in general. I really like that kind of oversize fit.

Rap Monster: These days, I’m most into staying comfortable. I do have a lot of interest in Japanese brands, so I’ve been looking at cool Japanese hyungs [older brothers] and carefully studying their style. Brands like WTAPS, Visvim, I like a lot.

Q.  What is one item you can’t live without?

V: I like old-school, vintage-style glasses a lot. As for accessories, I really like them all.

Jimin: I like accessories a lot. Hats, caps, beanies, I like all of them. I also look for special standout earrings, rings, necklaces … I like to layer them on heavily.

Jungkook: I don’t like accessories all that much, except for hats. I like bucket hats and beanies a lot, and I sometimes wear rings or bracelets. I’m the kind of person that if I put it on once, I’ll leave it on forever.

Jin: I like silver accessories. I think they suit me well.

J-Hope: I like hats a lot—bucket hats, sun caps, beanies, and fitted caps. And like I said before, I like bags a lot. I like shoes that stand out, too. Lately, I’ve been wearing a lot of running shoes, the kind that look good with very wide pants.

Suga: I also love accessories, especially bracelets and rings. King rings, the really big ones. I’ll wear a lot of them at once.

Rap Monster: I like hats. As for a favorite … I like all of them, though? Really. I wear hats all the time.

Q.  How much interest do you have in fashion?

Jin: “How do I mix and match these things together … ” I tend to stand in front of the closet worrying like that.

Q.  Who is your style icon right now?

V: I don’t have a big role model at the moment, but later on, I would like to channel [actor] Ryoo Seung-bum [who is known for his unique style].

Jimin: I don’t have one exactly, but I like to look on the Internet for cool, well-dressed people and get inspired that way.

Jungkook: I am my own role model. I want to follow myself.

Jin: [Actor] Kang Dong Won. The clothes he wears, it’s the fit and style I like.

J-Hope: I like A$AP Rocky. How to put it … he dresses on-trend, but he also dresses for himself. He’s made his own style. It’s hip, but has a clean, polished kind of feel. That whole A$AP Mob style, I like.

Suga: Like Jungkook, I don’t really have one. I just look for what I like and what I feel comfortable wearing.

Rap Monster: Cool hyungs I look up to, even people I pass on the street in Seoul. People dress so well here, it’s easy to get inspired.