so, as you may or may not know, on twitter, i have posted screenshots of dms that jason has sent me in the past that are really compromising and disgusting. i feel like i need to explain why this whole thing is making me so angry/uncomfortable/emotional.
first off, i just want to say thank you to everyone who supported me so far, it’s really great to feel that you’re not alone.
so, to begin the story, i found jason in one of bribry’s videos and i thought he looked nice and funny, so i went over his youtube account and subscribed. then i followed him on twitter, facebook, tumblr and all that stuff. i watched his videos and i thought he was really fun. so i started tweeting him, and he would sometimes favorite, which was nice, then i bought his bracelet and when i tweeted it to him he then dmed me to say thank you.
i started commenting on his facebook pictures, and he was always very nice and funny. it gave me the idea that he was really close to his audience and that he really cared about them and that he was really into talking with them and make friends with them. which i thought was great, every youtuber should be close to their audience!
and then i started leaving comments on his youtube videos, and he would most of the time reply to them.
as you may or may not know, jason had this way of promoting his videos. he would tweet his video and say “rt for a dm”. at the time, i was a big (i hate saying that word but i’m gonna say it anyway) fan of his, so i excitedly retweeted his tweet. but jason thought it was a great idea to send his viewers (which are mostly underage girls) dirty pickup lines! yes of course what a good idea, jason!!
anyway, only wanting to get noticed, i retweeted and waited. as he wasn’t dming me, i decided to join in with the pickup lines. being 15 years old, i went with a classic, cute pickup line. but then, of course, he saw it and favorited it.
immediately after, i was greeted with a nice little message in my dms.
i would like to remind you that, at the time, i thought it was the most innocent, funniest thing. it was one of my favorite youtuber ironically sending me a dirty pickup line… right?
but then, right after that first dm, i got this one. and then all of these.
yeah. really “:D” there jason. back then, i was as excited as a child on christmas day because, wow, look at how many times he had noticed me! i thought i was so cool because i had made him laugh. it’s only now, after all the stuff that came out about him, that i realize how gross and how truly unnacceptable that was. he never even stopped and thought “wait, is this actually okay to send these kinds of message to my young audience?"
after that, i was really freaking out and tweeted "JASON JUST SENT ME ABOUT 10 DIRTY DMS I CAN’T STOP LAUGHING”. and then, of course, he had to see it and retweeted.
to be completely honest, to me now it only shows how much shit he didn’t give. like “yeah guys i just sent 10 truly disgusting pickup lines to a 15 year old, look at me i’m funny.” real funny there jason.
after that happened, i was still freaking out and decided to post the screenshots to tumblr. and, of fucking course what did i expect, jason saw it and reblogged adding this. (i was veethreeeye, i now changed it because of all this)
this hit me so fucking hard. back then i was again all happy that he had noticed me ONCE AGAIN on the same day. but seriously, i’m like crying right now. he’s so not sorry for sending obscene messages to an underage girl, so not sorry for saying these things while you sexually abuse other women using alcohol and asking for nudes to underaged girls. yeah, so not sorry.
after that, when he tweeted his “rt for a dm” thing, he would reply to me almost everytime, making me feel like we had some kind of bond. he also started to dm me randomly, when i never mentioned him or retweeted his stuff. and looking back at them, he was being so creepy! i’m a girl who thinks everything that is a sexual reference is being said ironically when it’s a friend. but now i’m pretty sure none of it was ironic. i’m literally so scared.
okay first off “no bunk” is a sex joke in the phandom, why would you even tell me that and call me “bb”??then telling me things like that. seriously, where was he getting at?!
also the fact that most of the tweets he decided to favorite that i sent him were ironic sex jokes such as
to which he then replied
and also things including me being naked
and to get even more creepy he added me to this list that was back then called so
that he then changed to “the cute list” and added more people to.
i can’t even begin to comprehend how he could do all of this. he never once asked for my age, he never once stopped himself because it was too much or even thought about how creepy all of it really was.
fortunately, not long after that, jason and i had an argument about his bracelets (which was literally so stupid, i was just saying they were expensive for people outside uk and he got extremely butthurt and was super rude.) (no need to show you these dms it’s just him being rude and trying to humiliate me because he dmed me and i had to reply publicly.)
anyway, after the argument jason stopped talking to me, which now i realize was FUCKING BETTER LIKE THIS.
thinking about all of this back makes me sick to the stomach. please understand that nothing ever happened physcially between jason and i, i wasn’t sexually abused or anything (i live in canada anyway), but it’s just thinking about the fact that i could’ve been a victim. because i remember thinking if jason ever came to canada and asked to hang out, i would probably say yes. and it’s where it scares me the most now, because hearing about all the stories, and with everything he’s said to me, i’m pretty sure he wouldn’t have hesitated.
the thing that upsets me the most in this whole story, it’s that i liked him quite a lot. i thought jason was a nice guy, and that everything he told me was just friendly jokes and nothing more. i never considered jason more than a friend. i was 15 anyway, never did i ever think about it. and the fact that i now learn that he sexually abused underaged girls… it’s just so much to take in.
now, please, don’t make the same mistakes as me. if a youtuber or someone you look up to tells you things you don’t feel comfortable with or says things that don’t feel right, please call it out. you are in no way obligated to deal with them because you think they are friendly. establish your comfort zone and make them know.
please, please, please, stay safe.
thank you for reading.