pairing: Loki x reader
request: @lady-loki-ren request. Loki x reader. Where he returns to Asgard after leaving his wife. ???(asgardian reader)
It had been two weeks since Loki had left you; you had no inkling to where he was or what he was doing and you thought it was all your fault.
Maybe it had been all your fault? The two of you had got caught up in a dreadful argument after you had said something small which then later turned into a screaming match before Loki disappeared in front of your eyes. You had searched for him all over Asgard but he was nowhere, where could he have gone to?
Heimdall said he hadn’t seen him meaning there was no way he had gone to another planet; you were left crying to yourself, just wanting you infamous husband back. The nights were cold and empty without him by your side and they carried out for what seemed hours on end.
This night was no different from the others: just you standing on your balcony, in yours and Loki’s chambers, staring out at the beautiful view of Asgard in front of you because you couldn’t sleep, and there was no point in you trying to go back to bed because you still wouldn’t be able to sleep.
It was evident that you lacked in sleep, dark circles were under your eyes and you slouched quite a lot but it wasn’t your fault, or was it?
The argument played over in your head and you felt yourself wince at the harsh words that you both had thrown at each other.
“Loki, I’m getting tired of your tricks that you play, they hurt people - they hurt me. Why can’t you see that?” you asked, your voice sounding soft but the anger and pain you held within was evident.
“What do you want, y/n? What do you want? You want me to be normal, is that it? You don’t want me to be this monster that I am?” Loki shouted at you suddenly, his harsh tone causing you to flinch in response.
“Loki, you’re not a monster-” you started but you were cut off by Loki.
“Then what am I?!” He shouted at you, “Everyone thinks I’m a monster - even you! My own dear wife thinks that I am a monster and that I should be locked up and never spoke of or thought of or even heard of again!”
His eyes glossed over with tears of rage and deep pain - you could see this, and you felt incredibly bad, you felt as if this was all your fault. However, Loki had been playing his mind ‘tricks’ on people and you had to stop him before he could go further. You felt as if this wasn’t the man you married anymore, he was changing. You did not like this change.
“Loki, darling, I never insinuated you were a monster” you said stepping closer to him, reaching out to hold his face but he pushed your hand away strongly and harshly, “I love-”
“You do not love me. No one could love ME! You even said yourself that I h-hurt people! Who would love someone like that? Not anybody - not you-”
“Loki, you’re not evening listening to me!” you raised your voice, you were beginning to grow impatient with him, “You’re my husband! My one true love! We’re together, we help each other, do you not remember your wedding vows that you said to me with tears in your eyes?”
“Of course I do” he spat out in such a bitter way that it caused you to snap - you couldn’t take it anymore.
“If you don’t love me then go! If you think you would be better off without you then just go - I’m sure its what the people of Asgard want you to do now that you’re becoming worse and it’s obvious that you want to too” you shouted at him, desperately trying to hold your tears back. You turned around, not wanting to face him anymore - you couldn’t at this time.
“Fine” Loki whispered with pain in his voice; you turned around quickly but Loki had gone. Just like you had told him to.
You let out a melancholy sigh, feeling the same tears of regret you had every night fall down your cheeks, slowly. “I’m sorry” you whispered to the sky, hoping that somehow, somewhere Loki could hear you and come home.
“I’m sorry” you heard a smooth voice behind you and you turned around without hesitation, wanting to see your husband. Loki looked a little rough, he had bags under his eyes just like you did and you could tell by his demeanour that he was still upset.
You stood a couple seconds before running over to him, wrapping your arms tightly around him and hiding your face in his neck, “I’m so sorry, Loki, I love you so much-”
“Darling, it’s okay” Loki spoke softly, moving your head so that your forehead rested upon yours and he could hold your face in both his hands.
“I was starting to think you weren’t coming back and I-It would be all my fault, and everyone would hate me-”
“Stop your rambling, my dear, I’m back. I’m back for you” he whispered, stroking your cheek softly with his cold fingertips, “I should’ve listened to you”
“I love you” you whispered, a small smile appearing at your lips.
“I love you too, darling” Loki whispered back, capturing you in a well needed kiss.