do you ever think about how it took leia organa 20 years to realize exactly how and to what degree luke had loved anakin skywalker
because leia organa does not love/forgive/take pity on anakin skywalker, does not understand how the mother she & luke share could have ever forgiven him—that monstrous plastiform Imperial, awful and black—how could anyone forgive him; witness at best and assassin at worst and even when he didn’t-kill, didn’t-hate, unconscionable and unmitigated—
but then leia gives birth to a screaming child, a boy who tears at the fabric of the world every time he moves, and leia loves him in a way that eclipses all else. Nothing will ever match her love for ben organa-solo-skywalker—his surname doesn’t matter, she carried him in her belly for nine months, and she will love him forever, despite-for-always. But….
Even he defects to the Order—the Imperials, or their remainders, and leia grieves but he is still hers. I’m sorry, leia whispers; ben is somewhere full of sand. She sings to him, even when—and yes, when—then too—-
her son kills a planet, and sings about it.
leia murmurs to him, I yes, and I love, and never go.