places i've been too

honestly, boys are so dumb like why would you give me a tour of your place, introduce me to your friends, give me a little gift, walk me to my car, ask me to get dinner later this week, kiss me, and then cut off all communication? 

When I was 17, from a kinda terrible home, newly out as Trans, and hugely angsty, Anthony Head took me into his life, and for the first time I was made to feel that I was worth something, he told me that he believed in me and that I should follow my dreams.

He then proceeded to spend the next few years proving those were not empty words. Now I just turned 20, I know that I’m loved, and I followed my dreams. I’m studying at university, a national award winning poet, and this is the dedications page of my second book:

Trust me when I say, life gets better. So much better. And dreams, they can certainly come true.

The moon loved the sun;
That’s how the story goes.
But the universe cares not for star-crossed loves
And the story ends as it began:   
The moon loved the sun.
—  but love is not always enough // p.s.
  • Kenma: Kuroo can you come find me I think I'm lost
  • Kuroo: If you got yourself lost playing Pokemon Go I swear--
  • Kenma: I caught an Eevee, I'll name it Kuroo if you come get me
  • Kuroo: I'm on my way
posh residential areas of england gothic
  • you are in queen’s court. you were supposed to be in queen’s lane - or was it queen’s road? you see a sign pointing you towards queen’s street, and you realise you no longer know where you are or where you should be. you fall to your knees, hopelessly lost in this queen’s maze.
  • “private road”, says the traffic sign. “no entrance.” looking down the road, you see it’s fully signalled, with lights, signs and markings on the asphalt. however, it seems to lead to nowhere and you never see anyone using it. you wonder about the mysteries of the private road.
  • walking past a row of houses, you see how neatly the hedges have been cut into walls. a bit too neatly, in fact; all of them blend together and become nearly featureless green rectangles. you feel like you’re in a computer simulation with low-poly graphics, and for a second you doubt the reality of everything around you.
  • you walk past a church. it is old and grandiose, truly a historical relic. a couple of blocks later, you walk past a church. it is old and grandiose. truly a historical relic. you turn to another street and walk past a church. it is old and grandiose, truly a historical relic.
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All my favourite conversations
Always made in the A.M.

WELL after working for a week i think i’m doing okay?

it’s not easy work. i’m on my feet all day, wet laundry is super fucking heavy, and it feels like it’s just an endless Sisyphean cycle of separate-wash-dry-fold

but weirdly i don’t feel super overwhelmed or anything? that might change (especially with a massive holiday coming up in my city) like i’m fucking exhausted by the end of the day but here’s hoping it’ll all be worth it when i get my first paycheck

This Song Is A Goddamn Emo Mess but here are some of my favorite lines so far:

- it’s a cold night to be kissing concrete/save it for a warmer year
- now if somebody could see, if somebody could hear me/but darling it’s up to you
- am i broken? what does that mean?/do you owe me anything?
- darling be gentle with yourself
- i’m still me i’m just lonely
- when you’re constantly trying to check off the requirements for passing/as a normal goddamn human being
- we were never meant to be caged
- it’s a cold night to be kissing concrete/save it for a warmer year

Something that needs to be addressed

For the past few months, it has come to my attention that the chat of the Escastream, is getting out of hand. And by getting out of hand, I mean GETTING OUT OF HAND. What I like to point out as a long term Seduce Me fan, is that the Erik topic has been constantly flooded in the chat at the most random times desperately towering other comments with Erik this, Erik that, Erik is bae/hot/sexy, omg do the Erik voice, Erik’s sex scene was steamy etc. I understand the love for this incubus, but it’s been nothing but Erik everytime the stream is happening. Whenever Erik from Seduce Me is mentioned, BOOM the chat becomes sexual real quick. This is a major problem, especially now that there are MINORS coming in and watching his streams.

Another thing I want to get off my chest, Chris is not Erik. It’s noticeable enough that a handful of SM fans in his streams are obsessed with a character he voiced in. A particular group in the chat have become attached and obsess over the VA because of it. To the few who decided to put Chris and Erik together in those said sexual conversations. For the love of Jeebus, why? Why was it a good idea to do this to the poor man? Honestly, I’m really worried about his safety and how these group of people that are seeing him that way is sickening. I really want these handful of people to acknowledge and differentiate between the fictional character and VA.

Please understand that the lovable Music-senpai is extremely uncomfortable with sexual content and the heavy swearing, yet some of his viewers seem to forget about the absolute important rules and toss them out the window. This is exactly what happened with the whole Laito situation when he fan voiced that character long ago. The chat is nothing but Erik and sexual things are being said, to the point that the streams are less enjoyable for others to watch without feeling super uncomfortable or annoyed by Seduce Me when the few other viewers are not fans of.

Honestly, seeing and observing THIS kind of behavior in his streams, is breaking my heart. He has done so much more than just voicing a flirtatious character. His beautiful music that he creates, his ability to play almost every instrument, his wonderful singing skills, and his absolute silliness. HIS VOICE WORK he has done from Attack on Space, Blind Love, Choose Me, Final Melody, Genius Insanity, and among others. All of his incredible talent, has been completely overshadowed by Erik. Chris can’t be known as Erik forever. I truly wish someone would see that…

anonymous asked:

I love your hollenstein headcanons and I need more

Aww thanks here have a couple more

  • The trio (try to) play Cluedo and Carmilla insists that Danny picks Miss Scarlet for her character, just because
  • (They spend ten minutes trying to convince Carmilla that No, she’s not allowed to be Mr. Black - he’s dead. And no, just because she’s also dead…)
  • Laura starts on a long rant about how sexist and imperialistic the colour schemes and character designs are
  • “Of course the men are professors, colonels or religious leaders, and the women get to be young and slutty, old and stuck up, or old and confined to servitude.”
  • Laura splutters when Carmilla chimes in with a question about whether Laura’s slut shaming, because she actually thinks Miss Scarlet is totally hot tbh would bang 100%
  • Danny agrees with Laura on the problematic stereotyping but points out that the pieces they’re using are all generic tiles with no specific characters and they could probably just come up with their own names and backstories
  • Carmilla hands Laura ‘Lady Sunshine, previously known as Colonel Mustard’ 
  • Danny gags 
  • And is handed the red figure, renamed ‘Merida Or Whatever That Girl Who Turns Her Family Into Bears Name Is She’s Pretty Cute And She Likes Archery’ 
  • Danny hands Carmilla the candlestick instead of a character because: you’re a broody philosopher major and annoyingly predictable and you’ll need it for your black candles
  • Carmilla stoically takes the candlestick and uses it for the rest of the game and they don’t get to guess it at all unless Carmilla happens to be in the room
  • Which she refuses to ever be because she doesn’t feel like it
  • “Hallways are more my thing.”
  • Carmilla keeps pointing out the flaws in murder theories and they don’t come close to getting through the game
  • Especially not when she keeps slyly glancing at Laura and Danny mumbling “I’d definitely do it in the kitchen; Laura could probably do it against the counter, it’s not that high” and “the dining room would be a good place - solid mahogany tables” and “billiard tables are set at really good heights, Red, you could totally bend over that and uh, kill a dude. Or whatever.”
  • She’s talking about murder techniques, ofc, get your mind out of the gutter.
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Everyone go read No place like home please. It’s golden. All of it.

It’s gonna be me!

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I love how sometimes when you’re just walking outside, wandering aimlessly, you happen to find a path you weren’t aware was even there, and it feels kinda like finding an easter egg in a game level.

Achievement unlocked: found a hidden path.