I'm really sorry for your loss. It probably helped her to know that you loved her and were there for her.
i sure hope it did. my family was there too
i had already gone to sleep when she began to take her last breaths, and when i woke up in the morning i didn’t know that she was gone yet (because my parents took the body away to the cemetery), so i was looking for her under the couch and in her box and all the usual places she would go…
it might have been good that i didn’t see her last breaths? i’m not sure i would have been able to deal with seeing that. some of my last memories with her was carrying her in a towel in my arms and she just looked right up at me when i began to cry.
i had a dream with her in it last night and she just rubbed against my hand and stuff
i don’t know. It’s just… she was so young. she was only about 10 months old and we only had her for about 6 months, i just… can’t believe i’ll never have her suddenly jump up onto my keyboard again and lie down on it while i’m doing things, or meow at the door so that she can look outside, or meow excitedly at the sight of the leash and sit in excited anticipation while i put the harness on her to take her for a walk, or just run around the house just because she wanted to.
i’m rambling at this point, sorry. she… she’s in a better place now. she’s not suffering from her illness anymore.
she’ll be happy there.