poems for the signs

The fire and blood of a dragon runs through your veins,
and it takes only but a spark to light your fuse
Your soul is an inferno, that wanders through the night, 
wailing like a lonesome wolf.
You are a force to be reckoned with,
with your tempting, but destructive beauty.
You have the ability to scorch even Earth itself,
with just one single glance.
You, my dear, are built out of gold,
one of the most rarest and beautiful things to find in life.
Never lose your flame, for you will lose nothing but yourself.”

You have flowers blooming through your soul,
even in the most darkest and hidden parts of you.
You illuminate a brightness, brighter than the sun,
with your silent radiance.
People are memorized by the power behind your voice,
as the honeyed taste of spilling love falls from your lips.
You are nature itself, grounded and tough,
but pleasuring and lush, like the trees around you.
You are the healer, kissing people’s wounds,
with your undying love.
For you are hard-headed, but not hard-hearted.”

You are the unusual, the chameleon soul,
changing your colors, due to your inner indecisiveness,
that is as wide as the ocean.
Your eyes are like stained glass windows,
holding many colors that represent the wide range of emotions that you hold.
You are the soft skin your lover craves to caress,
the skin that smells of lilac and sunflowers.
Your deception is playful and freeing,
for you are a sharp-tongued lover.
Darling, you are a safe haven, a home,
and anyone who dares to entangle their soul with yours,
will be changed forever.”

You are the nurturer at heart, 
the one that keeps lovers safe in soft silks.
Your soul is bathed in moonlight,
while your tears ripple in the crystal oceans of your collar bones.
The blue-dark belongs solely to you,
and your soft hands part the dark,
letting the light shine through for everyone to be entranced by you.
With beauty as dangerous as a knife,
and love like a double-edged blade,
You are the moon, the keeper of night.”

You are the vibrant goddess of the day, 
with skin as gold as the sun, 
bringing hope to the sunrise. 
Unconditional love brews inside of your photosynthetic heart,
with the ability to keep people alive with a burning desire.
You are sharp-tongued and made of broken glass and honesty,
which is to be admired throughout your life.
There are heartbeats in your eyes that shine so brightly,
you are to be mistaken for the sun itself. 
You are so much more than all of your sins and mistakes,
and all of the tears that stain your radiant eyes,
will soon turn to gems.”

You, my love, are a flower born in the heart of a drought.
Your skin is made of lace and silk, for you are fragile thing,
to be handled with love and care. 
But deep in that pure soul of yours,
lays ardent thoughts and dangerous beauty.
The scars across your heart shall fade like a distant storm,
for you are a soul seeker, a searcher, most importantly, a human.
You are a gentle nymph, singing lovers into a trance,
for you are as lovely and ethical,
as  a faery song.”

For you are a bed of roses, 
with your crimson petal lips and china doll cheeks.
Sometimes you are as bright as the day,
Sometimes you are as dark and mysterious as the night,
you keep people on their toes, waiting for your next move.
You are beauty, in the way that humans so rarely are,
warm and starry eyed,
for you truly are the child of Venus.
You love with the strength of a storm,
but with the kindness of a child.
Darling. you are the oxygen that everyone needs.”

Silver raindrops drip from your lips like stars in the sky,
with hips like a hurricane and a soul to match. 
You are the body electric, the midnight dancer,
with passion that is to not be confused with arrogance. 
You are a supernova, the explosive rebirth,
with a smile that crafts magic.
So many layers and colors you hide, 
contained in your electric heart.
You seep poison into the veins of those who hurt your loved ones,
for your undying passion and love knows no bounds.”

You laugh and smile in sunbeams,
for you are ready to burn through the darkness of the night.
Your everlasting light is buried in the softness of love,
but the untamed dark lingers through your soul.
You, yourself, are a religion, a dreamer,
but as dark and deep as the midnight ocean.
You are so in touch with the earth all around you,
for you have stars in your eyes and moon dust in your hair.
You are a warrior, a light, a fire.”


You, my love, are the definition of inner strength. 
Beyond the hunger of your golden dreams,
a softness remains.
Your soul is a work of art, so bold and unique,
everyone wants a part of you.
tease, touch and dark,
love is something special, and you treat it like gold.
There are sparkles in your doe eyes,
and your touch entrances people,
with the undying mystery and ferocity in every stroke of your love.”

You are made of nocturnal oracles and burning stars,
the brightest stars from all the heavens.
Your brilliant mind is as wide and colorful as the aurora borealis,
and oh, what I’d do to get lost in it for eternity.
Your heart bleeds in water colors, 
for you are the ocean itself,
keeper of the lively tides.
The bruises that paint across you skin are like galaxies,
for you are fully made of star dust.”

You are the galaxy in the skin of a human, the owner of the sky.
Your bruised mouth speaks an intoxicating type of love,
for you are a sweetheart, a seductress.
Your starving soul is desperate to wrap around another,
for you find beauty in the broken. 
Your mystical and rose colored aurora draws admirers in,
for you, yourself are the unknown.
Darling, you leave a trail of stars wherever you go,
for you a wanderess of the night.” 

ARIES (tarot: the emperor) is the beginning of self, the creation of self and therefore the chaotic creation of their surroundings in order to creat stability/find themselves - the leader of themselves and their lives. he is the authority figure and backbone. TAURUS (tarot: the hierophant) is the enjoyment of self, enjoying what was previously created and finding connections through faith, nature, friends and family and indulging in it. learning about the self through everyday living. GEMINI (tarot: the lovers) is the split of self. often in real life manifestation Gemini’s can have two very distinct versions of themselves, they have discovered the shadow and have separated themselves from it and must work out how to make them into one integral being. CANCER (tarot card: the chariot) is the success of that - born with the shadow and self already fused manifesting in a natural heightened sensitivity - they must learn to not let their sensitivity to the world allow them to harden or hide who they are. LEO (tarot: strength) is the sun in domicile, they are the self blended and shining - being themselves for the sake of being themselves, their job is to remain gentle in their approach. the nurture another is to give the self a friend & will not dull one’s shine but aggression can. VIRGO (tarot card: the hermit) is then, the critical analysis of self - “I am who I am, but what can I become to others”, a self journey to find where we fit into the other. then this is how LIBRA (tarot card: justice) is created, already born with a strong sense of society and it’s inner workings. they relate, communicate and observe their rules and people around them. their aim is to help society move with balance. SCORPIO (tarot card: death) is where the zodiac meets its first tragedy. the justice and interest expressed in libra us manifested in a want for revenge and a natural suspicion after discovering the darker side within the world, this is when we are brought back to ourself - taking all we have learnt and deciding who it is we /really/ are. it is rebirth. SAGITTARIUS (tarot card: temperance) brings us the natural inclination to search for a higher truth, something bigger than the world, something that holds more meaning then the mundane. what is required then is patience, as they learn find meaning within the mundane, as the learn that no one can truly achieve perfection and that moderation is far better than expansion. CAPRICORN (tarot card: the devil) brings the zodiac back down to earth and it’s where we are now learning our earthly (yet divine) lessons, our reason for our incarnation. it is hard, but the ultimate lesson is to remember to keep moving forward and not give into temptation. the disciplining of oneself. AQUARIUS (tarot card: the star), being the completion of capricorn brings us to the skies, a strange dichotomy between childlike youth and seasoned wisdom - after being connected to self, we delve deeper within, through the chakras and with the more that’s had the more there is to give - giving what is needed to help everyone on the same journey. PISCES (tarot card: the moon) is where we reach the end, an usual sense of melancholy that seems to exist constantly. the culmination of everything before and compassion & empathy as a result because even though we are all chaotically different we are all the same. the closest link to the divine, the blending of the soul and the self.

The 9th House and Role Models

The 9th house can indicate what type of people we look up to.  Take a look at your chart to figure out what sign is in your 9th house.

Aries in the 9th house: Might look up to daring, ambitious, dominant, and physically strong role models.

Taurus in the 9th house: Role models tend to be people who can show their success in physical ways, through wealth, possessions, praise.

Gemini in the 9th house:  Looks up to those who are intellectual, independent, those who speak up, people who relate to them with words.

Cancer in the 9th house: Role models are usually family members, a teacher, or mentor. A person who invests time and energy into them.

Leo in the 9th house: Role models are usually leaders, famous artist, people in the spotlight. Looks to those who inspire.

Virgo in the 9th house: Role models tend to be hardworking, possibly stern, get things done, is strong, serves others and is admired for it.

Libra in the 9th house: Role models are usually people who are highly praised for a talent, looks, or status.

Scorpio in the 9th house: Role models are people in power, sexually confident, are emotionally strong, externally tough, daring.

Sagittarius in the 9th house: Looks up to those who are independent, wild, freedom loving, explorers, the exotic, people of other cultures. Can look up to spiritual leaders, philosophers, and people who make a stand for their beliefs.

Capricorn in the 9th house: Role models are likely authority figures, looks up to the hardworking, pragmatic, mentally and physically strong.

Aquarius in the 9th house: Looks up to visionaries, rebels, leaders in ideas, activists, people with an eccentric personality.

Pisces in the 9th house: Associated with fictional role models, looks up to those who they can see themselves in or want to be.

the signs as shit i've heard at school part II
  • Aries:"I'm lawsuiting that house because the fuckin pink bush is throwing me off my game."
  • Taurus:"I literally just wrote "significant figures" as my name."
  • Gemini:"Jacob Sartorius makes my butt clench."
  • Cancer:"What's a synonym for revenge that isn't revenge-y?"
  • Leo:"You know what I don't wanna do!?" "Live!"
  • Virgo:*very offendedly* "Where are your pants??"
  • Libra:"No you idiot, Libra isn't Spanish, it's astrology."
  • Scorpio:"Will you marry me?" "He has his headphones in he can't hear you."
  • Sagittarius:"Did I just paper cut your face?"
  • Capricorn:"I just wanna eat my nachos, Josh Stokes!"
  • Aquarius:"Nikayla hit a guy in the dick on accident and he got a boner and then she hit it again. It was the worst ten minutes of my life."
  • Pisces:"This show's nothing but puree drama." *finger guns*
Signs As Rock Star

ARIES ♈︎: Angus Young, Steven Tyler, John Otto

TAURUS ♉︎: Pete Townshend, Bobby Ellsworth, Iggy Pop, Bono

GEMINI ♊︎: Bob Dylan, Paul McCartney, Kerry King, Chino Moreno

CANCER ♋︎: Phil Anselmo, Chuck Billy

LEO ♌︎: Ian Gillan, Mick Jagger, Bruce Dickinson, Max Cavalera, Joe Elliott, James Hetfield, Serj Tankian, Fred Durst

VIRGO ♍︎: Buddy Holly, Freddie Mercury, Zak Starkey, Jin Simmons, Dave Mustaine, Rob Halford

LIBRA ♎︎: John Lennon

SCORPIO ♏︎: Attila Dorn, Chad Kroeger, Anthony Kiedis, Ian D'Sa

SAGITTARIUS ♐︎: Jimi Hendricks, Jim Morrison, Ozzy Osbourne, Corey Taylor, Benjamin Kowalewicz

CAPRICORN ♑︎: Elvis Presley, Jimmy Page, Lemmy, Dave Grohl, Scott Ian, Rob Zombie, Jonathan Davis, David Bowie, Dexter Holland, Till Lindemann

AQUARIUS ♒︎: Aksel Rose, Van Halen, Alice Cooper, Brandon Boyd, Billie Joe Armstrong

PISCES ♓︎: David Gilmour, Kurt Cobain, Bon Jovi, David Draiman


The Signs as Ancient Godesses pt. 4 of 4 (Water)

Cancer - Hebe/Juventas Goddess of youth

Hebe is a young, beautiful and elegant looking woman. She is the goddess of youth, the keeper of the fountain of youth and she serves ambrosia at the heavenly feast as the cupbearer of the gods. Hebe is also the patron goddess of the young bride and an attendant of the goddess Aphrodite. As the personification of everlasting life she is known as a kind, self-sacrificing woman who always strives for upward movement. Hebe believes in magic and therefore is depicted as a pure and innocent goddess. She is also associated with the hero-god Heracles, whose bride she became when he was received into heaven.

Scorpio - Persephone/ Proserpina Goddess of spring and queen of the underworld

Persephone appears an attractive, mysterious and majestic woman. Once upon a time when she was playing in a flowery meadow Persephone was abducted and seized by Hades and carried off to the underworld as his bride. Although the young goddess grew to love him, she remained lonely for her mother and the life she had known on earth. Part of her missed her mother, but another part had grown fond of her husband. Persephone was allowed to rejoin Demeter, who arranged her release. However he had to return each Fall to spend 4 months in the underworld. Persephone possesses an introverted temperament and is deeply concerned with the world of spirit.

Pisces - Selene/Luna Goddess of the moon

Selene is depicted as a beautiful winged goddess who wears a golden crown that radiates light. She drives the silver moon chariot which is carried by snow-white horses. Selene is also known for her numerous love affairs like for example Zeus or Endymion. As the patron of feminine she has the power to ease childbirth and inspire love. Selene also has the power to mask reality and conversely, to pierce illusion. Among these powers he is awaken to intuition and psychic visions. Selene is a selfless person who is obsessively passionate about her duties.

An Alternative Look at Exaltations and Falls in Astrology

Sun is exalted in Aries, but these people tend to not understand that other people are not as full of energy and motivation as they are. They push other people forward, which is great in its own right, but they don’t nurture the tenderness within themselves and others.

Sun is in its fall in Libra, in fact, since the season of fall begins when the Sun is in Libra could very well be the reason why we speak of planetary falls. October 5th is the most common birthday in the United States, and September 23rd is the most abundant birth day in Britain; all around the world, there are more Virgos and Libras than any other sun sign! The universe planned it to be this way because there needs to be plenty of people who just go along with others, harmonizing, not causing conflict. They might or might not think for themselves depending on other placements in their natal chart.

Moon is exalted in Taurus but is it really a superior placement? When the bull is expressed by one’s emotions, they get irrationally angry when other people do not do as they say. They might not know how to take a step back from the heat of the moment and consider that the other person has a valid stance. Grinding their hooves into the ground, they lash out if someone challenges them. When their progressed moon is in an air sign, they have the chance to learn to outgrow this behavior. (See my post about Secondary Progressed Moon Signs)

Moon falls in Scorpio, but these people are very perceptive. They can be vengeful towards those who have hurt them, unless if they have evolved past that. Astounding psychic abilities are their gift. Heartbreak cuts them down to their soul, other factors in their chart reveal how they process it.

Mercury is exalted in Aquarius, but many of us get annoyed by a know-it-all who has an opinion on everything! They can get too fixated on an idea.

Mercury falls in Leo, but their ego drives them to be productive. They may not view life objectively as an air Mercury would.

Venus is exalted in Pisces, but is it truly wise to put on those rose colored glasses to overlook problems and be “la dee da”? Virgo may be the “fall” of Venus but they value solutions and being discerning in how they give out their love! Venus in Virgo spends their energy on people who matter, rather than allowing compassion to spread themselves too thin as a Venus in Pisces would. Venus in Pisces experiences pleasure thru escapism, people with this placement often love to get drunk and ignore their life circumstance for a few hours. Venus in Pisces gets swept away when a loved one appeals to their wishes, they need to remind themselves of reality.

Mars is exalted in Capricorn, which can be sensibly handling their anger, IF this person has done deep emotional reflection to work thru their wounds. This is how the entire chart comes into play when understand just one planet, we’d also look at Chiron and the Moon to know exactly what kind of wounds they are processing in their soul. You can’t have a healthy Mars without a well-developed Chiron and a Moon that has looked at their own emotions in an honest way. Many with Mars in Capricorn are mature about getting to work but less mature about handling their feelings, or vice versa. They grind their hooves into the ground, holding onto facts about human nature and the world that they are angry about.

Mars falls in Cancer, as Cancer as known as the most womanly, motherly sign, but many men I know with this placement have no trouble expressing their masculinity! They are considerate about women’s sexual needs. In touch with their softer side, their psyche seesaws between masculine and feminine.

Jupiter is exalted in Cancer, but is it always a good idea to bask in the abundance of comfort? People with this placement might be generous and caring, but they might not have that “get up and put your nose to the grindstone” motivation unless other placements in their chart indicate that.

Jupiter has its “fall” in Capricorn, but people with this do not spend money on frivolous things. They have trouble giving out their love.

Saturn is exalted in Libra, but if a boss catered to their employees all the time, would that be most profitable for the company? Probably not. Sometimes authority figures need to be stern and not harmonizing. The most evolved manifestation of Saturn in Libra would be a fair minded boss. In Jungian psychology, or Myer’s Briggs, Libra can come out as Perceiving or Judging. The Libras who love justice and structure are Judging, whereas the Libras that are always pleasing everyone are more Perceiving. Point is, there are a variety of ways that Saturn in Libra could be. Cooperation between everyone gets things done! Saturn in Libra brings people and projects together by being the diplomat!

Saturn falls in Aries, but sometimes we need a pushy boss. This placement can be expressed as mean and demanding, or driven to succeed. Many people who have Saturn in Aries are very persistent.

Some astrologers claim that Uranus is exalted in Scorpio as she has a love for chaos! If someone has this placement, and Uranus makes hard aspects to other planets, it would express itself in a dangerous way. If I were giving a reading and someone had Uranus in Scorpio square sun in Aquarius, I’d be concerned that their detached nature would cause them to be hurtful to others without realizing. This is how Astrology can aid us in personal development!

Uranus is inhibited by Taurus because Uranus would feel confined from its erratic brilliance, thus it would fall. Look to other factors in the chart to see if this person is truly stable. Uranus in Taurus could be a generation of rebels that take logical steps to overrule unjust ways of this world!

Some astrologers say that Neptune is exalted in Leo as mysticism would be expressed as confident, steady creativity.

Neptune would fall in Aquarius because too much skepticism can blind us from inspiration just as much as rationality could be blinded by faith! Just let that nugget of wisdom sink in… One of my friends, Owen Burns said, “Science is just another religion unless you can actually explain it” Not everything in this world needs to or has to be proved by science, as we can find inspiration and hope in non-scientific practices like Astrology.

In my opinion, Pluto would fall in Gemini because it clings to what is light and breezy, not daring to face the depths. I see Pluto as exalted in Sagittarius, as it is still a soul searcher, but not as bogged down as Scorpio.

The Piscean symbol is an expression of the double bodied nature in Pisces, two mermaids bound by a Neptune halo, a marbled figment of duality and contrasting hues. One mermaid is tied to the material realm, filled with earthly anxieties, lethargy, fear, sacrifice, and competency. The other mermaid swims toward the ether of infinity, soaked in fantasy and imagination, leaking with the liquid of heaven’s ocean. She sings a glorious tune to her sister shackled on earth, promising escape and redemption, floating in marvellous inspiration and vision. They can be at one during dream, or artistry, even service or holding a baby or an elder, melting into one another, Offering a piece of their heart tugs the mermaids together, an infusion of the ultimate, sacred, godly love. This is why Pisces can also be the enchanted mirror, every face reflecting portraits of the divine grace inside. And the shadows in Pisces serve each other, transmitting images and beauty and holiness. There is pain and there is healing elixirs. There is anguish and there is ecstasy. So this is why the Pisces can feel in two places at once, pulled between different dimensions of time and space, and this is why they can seem confused or inconsistent but it seems mystical and magical about them. Two mermaids divided, but the soul dances as one.


art by Bruno Dayan


Aries: i’d kill someone for you hoe


Gemini: our ship name is “plox” cause he’s a box and i’m a plank (her bf’s a gemini)


Leo: *sees that i wrote shit that my ego made me do* oH MY GOD STOP YOU WANNABE LEO


Libra: yeah my bOyFRIENd is great yknow

Scorpio: *her sign* dAYAMMMMM *looks at a hot teacher*

Sagittarius: HECK


Aquarius: you’re my favourite Aquarius ❤️ (ily too mandy)


*^*~What are you OBSESSED with? Based on Pluto Aspects to Your Moon!~*^*

Pluto aspects in our chart indicate the ways in which we feel power struggles. How do we take out our deep seated insecurities? Hard Pluto Aspects can bring out the negative traits of the sign of the planet it makes that aspect to, whereas soft aspects can intensify the vanities of the sign of the planet it makes that aspect to. So whether your Pluto is conjunct, sextile, quincunx, opposite, trine, quindecile, or sesquiquadrate your natal moon, this is for you! For those of you who give readings to others(as I do, message me if you want a reading!), this will be very helpful in understanding the inner workings of people you read for, and provide them with helpful advice.

Natal Pluto in Aspect to Moon in Aries—obsessed with thrill seeking, your soul comes into this life saying, “Bring it on!” You have a tendency to think you’re always right. You are excited to take on challenges. You are also very daring, perhaps riding the scary carnival rides, spreading that wasabi on your sushi, or bravely confronting life scenarios.

Natal Pluto in Aspect to Moon in Taurus—obsessed with enjoying earthly pleasures, passionately eating to the point of overeating, especially if Ceres aspects these too. You magnetize others to you without even trying. You are deeply lustful, enthralled by people who stroke you, as you love to be touched.

Natal Pluto in Aspect to Moon in Gemini—obsessed with your friends, you have a deep love for other people and you often care too much. You won’t be friends with just anyone, Pluto causes you to seek intense bonds with people who you consider to have a fascinating mind. You won’t spend your time with someone just for fun, they have to be intellectually stimulating and provide you with a feeling of deep connection. Out of your tendency to spend so much time on your friends, you have less of that drive to be productive.

Natal Pluto in Aspect to Moon in Cancer—obsessed with seeking comfort, to the point that you do not put enough priority and being productive or practical. You delve into an ocean of sentimentality, dwelling on lost loves and those who have hurt you. You may even “eat your feelings”, especially if Ceres is prominent your chart. You have a strong urge to nurture others, but to the point of controlling them.

Natal Pluto in Aspect to Moon in Leo—obsessed with gaining recognition, you are determined to achieve your desires. There is potential for superiority complex, you wish others would just believe what you say and go along with your commands, as you subconsciously feel inferior if someone challenges you. Keep in mind that a differing point of view is not necessarily an argument from the other person, since you tend to insist that you are right without considering that the other person has valid points.

Natal Pluto in Aspect to Moon in Virgo—obsessed with getting every little thing done correctly, you are highly critical of others who do things the way they are not “supposed” to be done. Consider that little things might not matter as much as you perceive that they do. You feel an internal desire to seek power that comes out as trying to control your outer world. Once you look within and transmute your inner battle, your competency at work will lead you to prosperity, the ability to manifest abundance in the real world.

Natal Pluto in Aspect to Moon in Libra—obsessed with getting everyone to like you so that you have them under your spell of charisma, you schmooze your way thru life. You are able to make so many connections with so many people, which will lead you to opportunities.

Natal Pluto in Aspect to Moon in Scorpio—obsessed with seeking your next high, whether that be falling madly in love, performing in front of hundreds of people, kinky sex, or knowing that you have someone else under your thumb to manipulate. You have the potential to understand people on a soul level and you make profound observations.

Natal Pluto in Aspect to Moon in Sagittarius—obsessed with understanding what other people believe in. You perceive religion on a psychological level, fascinated by fanaticism, your journeys to become aware of the human race leads you to find yourself.

Natal Pluto in Aspect to Moon in Capricorn—obsessed with figuring out the way the universe works and the way people work, you tend to think you know other’s intentions behind their actions. You may perceive yourself as wise to the point that you look down on others who do not have the same realizations that you have had. You hold onto anger you feel towards other people and take it out on them when they approach you again. Learn to be gentler with others and understand that people DO change themselves and their viewpoints, making it pointless to hold a hard grudge against them.

Natal Pluto in Aspect to Moon in Aquarius—obsessed with becoming brilliant at the subject of your choice, you have Uranian inspiration to be innovative. You have potential to revolutionize the way a concept was previously viewed. You will have a profound influence on other people in your field of study. You convince others to see things in a new way.

Natal Pluto in Aspect to Moon in Pisces—obsessed with fantasy, you wish you could drift away into an alternate reality as you feel like you’re barely keeping your head above water in this reality. Others have poked your tender heart and you are unsure how to cope, and so you struggle to find yourself, yet you have immense compassion for others.

“The ultimate aim of the quest must be neither release nor ecstasy for oneself, but the wisdom and the power to serve others.” ~ Joseph Campbell

i think this is an element of the jupiter expression in pisces. the final sign of the zodiac relates to sacrifice, and the axis of virgo-pisces devotes service to humanity and god. jupiter is the generator of the quest for meaning, purpose, for divinity and wisdom. traditional astrology has always associated jupiter with a quest in some form, the guru of god’s truth. the ultimate rapture of pisces is not to envelope into the sacred space and dissociate from the earthly realm. it is to dwell in an inaccessible place, to swim in a secret sea and use this knowledge to serve, heal, and cherish. venus exalts in pisces so love is the highest octave of pisces. there is a marvellous crescendo before the zodiac sleeps, and pisces can reach this peak, but the sign of the collective will drown without hands to hold