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rant about thai k-idols

okay so,,, i’ve seen A LOT of ppl using a thai idol’s real name as if it’s normal (esp in fanfics) and as a person who grew up in thailand and is thai,,, that is actually very awkward. a thai person is born w a first name, last name, and nick name. the nick name is the name you will be called by throughout your whole life and many of your friends would prob never know your full name tbh. your full name is only used in official papers and business type situations. for example, in school, the teacher would call you by your first name and your nickname (it depends what they’re saying,, if it’s roll call or smth like that it’s your first name!!) i’m going to use ten as an example, so bare with me. if you’re friends w ten, you would never call him ‘chittaphon’. not even his family would call him ‘chittaphon’. it’s really just used for MAINLY official papers. please just call your thai idol by their nickname (which is most likely their stage name). i’m sure this is hard to understand bc different culture,, but i’m honestly rly uncomfortable w it??? it’s okay that you’ve been ignorant to this, but i hope you guys learned something new!! feel free to msg me for any questions!

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They say that everything eventually comes together
But you see, i’m not okay and it’s not getting any better.

Apparently, nobody likes you when you’re 23
But fucking hell i’m a lonely wreck at only 16

I’m not a self help book
I’m just a fucked up kid
Everything I touch
Falls to pieces

Because lately you’ve been looking at me like i’m a ghost
And isn’t it obvious who’s missing who the most?

You’re the ember of my heart
Whether you like that or not
The idea of us
is haunting my thoughts

Because I sit here wondering if anything you said was true
And who taught you to speak bullets without considering the exit wound
Tell me, who?

You were mine to adore,
I was yours to regret.
It’s such a shame, we all became such fragile, broken things

It’s part of my nature to hide in my shell,
Can’t you tell?
We’ll never be the same again
Burry me, i’m not your friend

Hello? Is there anybody in there?
I love you so much that it hurts my head.

Can you hear the black parade?
The chanting refuses to fade

Well jesus christ i’m not afraid to die
I’m just a little scared of what comes after
You see, growing up seems to be a disaster

I do not deserve this
Moving on is something i always had trouble with
But this year, i swear i’ll get past it.

They told me “just think of the future and think of your dreams

you’ll get away from here, you’ll get away eventually”

So here it is, here I am
Thinking that if this year could just come to an end,
Then we’d all be okay.

I am through finding blame,
That is a decision that I have made.

—  Spilled ink: I wrote a poem using a bunch of song lyrics that speak out to me.