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08/21/17: Weigh In.

HW: 203.3 lbs
SW: 200.0 lbs
Last Week’s Weigh-In: 194.6 lbs
Today: 191.4 lbs
Total loss: 11.9 lbs

You guys. 

191.4 lbs.

I’m so!!! 11.9 lbs down!!! Ah!!!

I’m so happy. I’m so close to running out of the 190′s! And I thought I would’ve gained weight this week but I knew I worked super hard last week at the gym to make up for mishaps. I’m just super excited and happy that my body’s changing in a positive way. People at work, who haven’t seen me in the last two months, all complimented me on how much more healthy I look. I don’t always see it but I’m glad it’s becoming visible to at least the outside world. More detailed post about this week will follow after making/eating dinner!

I joined a challenge/community thread on MyFitnessPal called “Thirty lbs by Christmas” and honestly, I can see myself losing 30 pounds by then. I’m just. I’m happy.

Also, if anyone wants to add me on MFP: dawnoflight95

Well, I’m pretty impressed with myself. I managed today to go to the doctor’s, to two different malls, to get my camera checked for repairs. 

I got a crop top and shorts that fit me. But sadly my camera would cost too much to repair - it would make more sense to just get a new camera. I ended up getting a new piercing, and picked up some groceries. 

It’s pretty amazing…only a few months ago my energy levels were so low that I could barely even run a simple errand without feeling ready to pass out. I’m feeling pretty pleased, and the day isn’t done yet!

It takes a long time to accept your body, flaws and all. It can take even longer time when you’ve had a bunch of kids, and struggled with your weight and fitness for years.
3 years ago I wouldn’t have put on a bathing suit, much less a bikini. I still have some work to do, and significant fitness goals I want to reach before I turn fifty in the spring, but today I went to the beach with my children and felt pretty okay.

Never in my life have I ever gone swimming in a “two piece.” These Nike shorts and top bathing suiting top don’t go together, but it’s what I had and it matched with my new hat. I went for a 2 mile run this morning and I went swimming for 3 maybe 4 hours. It was just me, my mom and my two sisters, so I felt comfortable enough to wear this. This may not seem like a big deal to some, but this is so big for me. Yes, I’m still overweight, yes I have cellulite, but for most days I’m happy and proud of my hard work. Never thought someone like me could be comfortable in her own skin.

When you spend 85000000 years on a background so you don’t want to do the wings……………. and also because you were gonna do some hella framing that would eliminate literally like 95% of that backgrounf

if I keep this background I, I gotta do some lighting changes too…