I prayed to God, and I said - give me one more breath, and I’ll give it right back. Let me have another after that, and I’ll give it back again. From now on, every breath You give me, I’ll use it to serve You, to live for You, for Your work. And He listened.
Sif thinks of Loki falling, she thinks of his cape swirling around him as he falls through a million worlds and a thousand galaxies, thinks of shining stars at his fingertips, thinks of deaths and rebirths flashing around his lone still figure as he falls through the cosmos. She thinks of these things when she goes to sleep, the images imprinted against the back of her eyelids, and she dreams of dying stars.
for the boy standing in the dust of gaugamela, an empire open to him. for the splendour of babylon, for the journey east, for the search for the outer ocean. for the slow spiralling creep of madness, for the death grip of divinity, for the men trampled in the dust as he chased illusive glory. for the death of his heart, and the death of the boy. for the long journey home, for the boy who died alone and disillusioned; for the man who gained the whole world and lost his soul.
i. PAX DEORUM - enya; the oracle at siwah (instrumental) ii. TO LET MYSELF GO - ane brun; greater than achilles, herakles, dionysus there’s no use telling me / there’s no use taking a step back / a step back for me iii. BOAT SONG - woodkid; the journey east can we keep our bearing straight / or will we be blown off course / are we instruments of fate? / do we really have a choice? iv. IF I HAD A HEART - fever ray; the quest for the outer ocean this will never end / cause i want more / more, give me more / give me more v. FALSE KING - two steps from hell; the death of darius iii (instrumental) vi. THE HUMBLING RIVER - puscifer; the mutiny at the river hyphasis angel, angel, what have i done / i’ve faced the quakes, the wind, the fire / i’ve conquered country, crown, and throne / why can’t i cross this river? vii. DANCE TO ANOTHER TUNE - first aid kit; alexander stopped here there’s nothing new under the sun / all that will happen has already begun viii. DANIEL IN THE DEN - bastille; philotas, cleitus, callisthenes felled in the night / by the ones you think you love / they will come for you ix. SURFACE OF THE SUN - coordinated chaos; the death of hephaestion amyntoros (instrumental) x. APRES MOI - regina spektor; ‘to the strongest’ i must go on standing / i’m not my own, it’s not my choice / apres moi le deluge, after me comes the flood xi. GONE - ioanna gika; the king is dead, long live the king(s). what brings us together is what pulls us apart / gone our brother, gone our heart
“My hero,” she whispers and they come. She holds out her hands, raises her pure sweet voice, draws her fingers across her loom, and they trail towards her, as the earth itself gravitates towards her father the Sun. The song is the same every time - how I need you, rescue me, come to me; I am helpless and I need you. They are all the same; they all come in the end. In rain and sun and wind and fire, they follow her voice through the forest, into her hearth. The song is the same every time: I am a woman and I need you. I am a woman and you must help me. When they come, their eyes wide and their jaws open, she smiles invitingly, places her lips to their cheeks as their skin turns to fur. She strokes a hand across the beast’s head, and thinks: your natural state.