It’s sad how often I feel like giving up. I could just bury my camera under the weight of my clothes, close my computer and never touch it again. How simple and tempting it would be to delete all I’ve ever created and finally just move on. I could do something else. Something that would pay my rent and get food on the table. There’s too much to do and too little time and money and sometimes it’s overwhelming that I spend all my days editing, marketing, publishing and at the same time stressing about my bank account. I could give up.
But I can’t and I won’t, not just yet. I’ve come too far. I love this so much. I love the simple photoshoots (like this). Getting to know new people and finding their strenghts and weaknesses. Having a break from it all with my camera, model and me. I also love planned photoshoots and how much effort everyone puts on those so we can create cool photos. I love the feeling I get when I’m editing a good set. I love the feedback I get from strangers and friends. When I’m feeling desperate and down I go trough my website and just admire the work that I have done past year. And I love how calm I get after that.
Maybe someday it will be worth it. Maybe someday I can breath and still be doing what I love the most - capturing different people, make them feel beautiful and make the viewer see the same beauty I see in everyone and everywhere.