photo weigh in

Same pose, new me :) anything is possible if you work hard enough.
SW 303 lbs
CW 135 lbs

I don’t have the exact date, but this month marks 1 year of me working out (almost consistently). Yes, I did miss a few days because I was lazy or sick, but no one is perfect. I used a workout plan my wonderful boyfriend, Andrew, spent 3 hours making. He did his research on Crohn’s and arthritis and helped develop a plan that would be safe on my body but still push me.

My workout journey wasn’t about weight loss, in fact in was about weight gain. With Crohn’s I lose weight very easily. In the 2016 photos I weight about 100 pounds, in the 2017 photos I weighed 109 which is a big deal for me. It’s important to remember that gaining weight is good and that it doesn’t mean fat, it can mean muscle since muscle is more dense and takes up less space on the body. My journey was about getting healthy and taking care of the body I had. I’ve talked about my body dysmorphia in the past and how I’ve struggled to love my body because of Crohn’s. Working out really helped me connect with my body, feel better physically and mentally, and help me get to a more comfortable place where I felt like my body was mine.

Working out was also a victory for me. I’ve been in a hospital basically my entire life and when I wasn’t, I was essentially bed ridden. When playing sports I was always the last person to finish anything. I thought with my Crohn’s disease and chronic body pain that I’d never be able to be someone who ever really loved fitness (I was incredibly wrong). I’m so blessed I have the energy now, that working out has increased, that I can care for this body that I’m in.

There are contributing factors to my body change such as cutting out meat and processed foods, increasing my water intake, eating healthier foods even though I hated them (looking at you quinoa) but I guess besides sharing this victory I just wanted to remind people of a few things whether you deal with chronic pain like I do or you struggle with body image: you can find that rhythm and a workout that works for you, you can push through the pain and feel better, GAINING WEIGHT IS NOT A BAD THING, your body will change and you can get to a place of peace with it.

I just wanted to celebrate that victory with you guys. Thanks again to everyone who’s supported me with eating right and working out and once again thank you to Andrew for really kickstarting all of this because he knew I wanted to make a change and be happier. Here’s to another year of kicking butt.

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A little bit of a Throwback Thursday type thing? - 100lbs down from what I used to weigh.

Photos from May 2011, December 2015, and October 2016. I originally lost from 248 to 175ish and maintained that for several years until last August. As many of you know, I deal with Binge Eating Disorder. In July 2015, my endometriosis started kicking my butt again so I stopped skating because I was in so much pain I could barely walk, let alone skate. Comfort and binge eating started back up. Then, in October 2015, I sprained my ankle and was on crutches for a month. By December I had gained back up to 200lbs (it happens if you eat a large pizza and drink a 6-pack of cider nearly every night).

On December 28 I decided to get back to myself. Tracking what I eat is essential for me. I saw a therapist, I’ve read several books, but I’m still dealing with binge urges often. My last uncontrolled binge was about a week and a half ago. I’m not proud of it, but it is what it is. I’m a work in progress and I fully accept that.

Now that you guys have seen my before and after photo, I’ll show you who my biggest inspiration has been throughout my journey. This is my big brother, who is the most amazing individual I know! The first photo he weighed over 350lbs and the second he weighs just over 200lbs! 💪🏻👊🏻

Today, I fucked up by calling a kid a waffle.

One of my classes is a black and white photography class. We were assigned to take a roll of film worth of pictures. Photo assignments are weighed heavily so I wanted to take awesome photos. Anyways, I was taking a picture of a friend and this dude purposely walks in front of my camera and ruins my picture! He snickers and walks off. I am pissed because it is not like I can just delete the photo! So, I yelled my favorite insult

“You are a rude waffle! A crusty pancake with square holes!”

He turned around and looked me in the eyes and retaliated with

“This is why nobody FUCKING loves you!”

He walks off again and I just stand in shock. I knew this kid. He would follow me around sometimes and was really creepy. I turned around to finish taking a picture and one of my teachers comes up and starts ranting.

“Don’t use that language! It is improper for a lady!”

I looked at her confused.

“I just called him a waffle! He is the one that cussed at me!”

“Well, two wrongs don’t make a right. I’m disappointed”

“He walked in front of my camera and ruined a picture for photography. I am getting graded on it!”

“He has a hard life. You don’t know what he has been through okay?”

“I know he went through my fucking picture! I have a hard life to but I’m not an asshole.”

She got really mad and sent me to the dean. I had to explain to my mom why I called a kid a crusty pancake. I have to write an apology note. My dad finds this hilarious though and we are making waffles for dinner.

TIFU: Internet`s best fucked up stories are here.

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THERE. *thud* THERE. *thud*

Baymax’s armored hand is not as plush as vinyl.

…..or the natural state of the Hiro Turtle.

Yeah I don’t even know. I mean, what would you do with a giant hand?

Myself as Hiro, Photos by eugeneration

I started by cutting out sugary foods, truthfully I had no idea what in the world I was doing. I had been overweight my whole life and I thought things were healthy to eat that actually were not, I eventually just started eating a super clean diet and walking everyday a few miles. I weighed 225 pounds in my first photo, and at 4'11.5 that is outrageous. My after photo I weigh 118 pounds. This took me 12 months exactly.

—- SEND in your own Before and After weight loss progress photos HERE.

First photo: extremely unhappy with myself and my surroundings. I hated my body and my hair and my skin. I was denying myself singing and music and writing. I woke up and hated my days and my life. Everything was awful. I laid in bed for hours and did nothing. I started drinking and using drugs recreationally. It was the worst of times.

Second photo: I weigh 50 pounds less. I am sober. I let go of my anger and resentment towards others and best of all myself. I am living out my dream of recording music. I exercise and run on the beach. I am constantly driving all over LA. I count my blessings everyday. I meditate. I breathe. I write and sing whenever I can to whoever I can. I am vegan and proud of it. I am so happy and content with my life and myself.

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This beautiful bird is, in fact, a baby great-crested grebe! It was collected by one of our volunteers, Mike, after being found abandoned and struggling to stay afloat.
It was given a thorough checkup by our vet team and was luckily uninjured. It is still very young and has been put on full-time veterinary watch to make sure everything is ok. We are keeping our fingers crossed for a good outcome for this little guy!