Pairing: Zayn/Liam Rating: Explicit Word Count: 15,325
“You don’t think I look stupid?” Zayn murmurs, fingers spreading across Liam’s thigh to tug him closer. He keeps his hand there, resting against his inner knee, gently cupping it and smoothing a thumb across the rough material of his jeans.
Liam snorts, he can’t help it. His breath is catching in his lungs just looking at Zayn because he is so beautiful, and he can’t grasp the concept of how Zayn doesn’t get it.
[Alternatively, the one where Zayn and Liam will do anything to protect and take care of the other, but admitting their feelings well -]
“You know, I said you didn’t have to come.” “Doesn’t mean I had to listen.”
Let’s talk about my favorite Camsten moment. Right now. I can’t hold it in anymore and I have been toying with posting this for a while now.
This whole episode had Kirsten dealing with a lot. She battled with how she felt about Liam and what she should say to him, she battled with what she saw in the stitch, and she battled with developing feelings. Realizing that she needed to find out who she was as a person before she could give her heart to anyone.
Too bad she wasn’t the one to give her heart away.
I’m in love with this scene. I love that he was her first phone call after Liam left. She could have called Camille, the person who actually lives with her; her friend. But, she didn’t. She told him he didn’t have to come, and I could just about imagine that he was almost home. Probably turning the key to his apartment, feeling dejected knowing she was going back to give Liam her answer; when his phone rang. Actually, I’m surprised he answered. But, this IS Kirsten, so why wouldn’t he? I wish we had the scene where he got the call. So I could have heard her voice. Heard what she said to him, how her voice probably cracked when she told him he didn’t have to come. Probably felt a sinking feeling when he immediately hung up his phone, taking the key out of the lock and getting to her as fast as possible.
Back to the porch scene. “You know, I said you didn’t have to come.” The way she turns to him as soon as he sits down. So that she isn’t facing away from him anymore. It’s a role reversal because most of the first part of the season, he was the one facing her, while she faced away from him.
“Doesn’t mean I had to listen.” He lingers on her. Just a second longer, because for the first time in a long time, she isn’t fighting him. She isn’t putting up a barrier or a wall. She’s opening up to him and letting him inside of her mind. And I think that he is such a willing participant that of course he would have come to her. He would go anywhere for her.
“So?” I like to think that she didn’t even need to say the words. She didn’t even need to acknowledge that Liam was gone. But he so desperately feels that he’s getting so close to her, that he is finally hoping she is feeling something from all of those stitches, that he is genuinely interested in how she is feeling. If she’s feeling anything.
“You know me, I’m already over it.” She’s still trying to linger on to not feeling anything at all, and I think he can see right through her. That’s why he smirks and they break their connection with each other. Because he knows, he can see it on her face that she’s still strong, tough, Kirsten. But her eyes, they are saying something different. There’s sadness there.
Changing the subject to the case brings back the bantering. I think they can both feel the shift in their relationship. It’s so much stronger now than it was even when they started the case. I think Kirsten can feel it. She can feel it.
That’s until, he pulls out the rock. You can see the panic hit her face the moment it hits the air. She saw him in the corpse cassette. Even though it was only a vision- the thought it could actually happen. The thought of him not being around her anymore. The thought of losing him is actually on her face. You can see it when it happens. She can’t even imagine living in a world without Cameron Goodkin in it, and I think in this moment she realized it. I think she wondered how she had ever gone this long living in a world without him in the first place. Because once you find your soulmate, once you find the person you’re meant to be with; you suddenly can’t imagine a single day without them. You can’t picture what your life was like before them, and just like Kirsten, it almost feels as though the moment it happens; it becomes instantly familiar.
“You take it, to protect your heart.” He hands over his metaphorical heart to her. He wants to protect her, with every inch of his life. If he could, he would wrap his own heart around hers so that she would never have to feel another ounce of pain. He would always be there to shield her and to make sure that she always felt like even if he didn’t have to come…that he would always be there.
Because even with a damaged heart, he has always known that hers was way more fragile.