phot op

I’ve struggled with a lot of pain, anxiety, depression, and self harm in my lifetime. I’ve left scars on my body I cannot remove. This pose was very intimate and very special to me. I’ve never been more happy with a photo than I am with this one…OKAY SO!! I’m standing in line for my photos op and I’m coolin’. I’m calm and collected the entire time and than I’m next in line. And my HEART DROOPED. I started feeling lightheaded and watery eyed and I tried to save myself but it was too late, Jensen turned to me with his arms open wide, he smile. I nervously walk up to him and he can totally tell I’m struggling so he makes conversation.

Jensen: hey! How are you? Is this your first convention?
Me: yyyyeessss
Jensen: are you enjoying yourself?
Me: ahhh yyyyeessss
Jensen: *laughs* I’m glad! Is there a pose you wanna do?
Me: ahhhhh yyyyeessss

So we do the pose and as soon as I break away I lock eyes with him and just lose it. I break down crying in front of EVERYONE and I’m SO EMBARRASSED. Jensen just throws his arms around me and pulls me into his chest. So I’m sobbing into Jensen’s shirt and then I realize “oh shit, people need their photos!” So I start pulling away and Jensen just pulls me tighter. I’m like “OKAY GOOD I CAN STAY HERE IM GOOD WITH THAT” I’m in his arms for about a good 45 seconds. I pull away again and wipe my face a little, trying to collect myself. Jensen smiles at me ever so sweetly and wraps his arm around me once more, he says “I’m so proud of you, you’re so important and you’re gonna be alright. I love you.” I said “I love you so much. Thank you.” He smiled SO WARMLY, and before I walked away he rubbed my back a little and it made me melt… I’m finally walking out of the photo op and immediately volunteers are like “are you okay? Do you wanna sit down?!” I’m saying “no, no I’m okay!” One girl wraps their arm around me, another hands me a bottle of water, (😂) as soon as I’m about to leave I hear someone say l “hey! Wait up!” I turn around to see an individual who stood about 2 people behind me in the photo op line running up to me, they hug me tight and say “I know what it’s like to be alone, and it’s okay…would you like to hang out with us for a while?” And with that I made two new friends! I come to found out from them that in the middle of me breaking down in Jensen’s arms, the security and staff was trying to move me along to hurry up the line and Jensen shoved them off. He WAVED THEM AWAY SO HE COULD HUG ME, and that is something I will never fucking forget. That is the reason I hold Jensen so close to my heart. I couldn’t ask for a better first convention.
Thank you Supernatural family, truly

P.S. Jensen smelt like Irish Spring male body wash and musk, of course. #blamethemusk

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anonymous asked:

What is Sam and his pr staff hope to gain by posting this picture of two disinterested shabby people looking anything but uncool. It just give sites more evidence against Sam for whatever they are trying to prove. Sam ,live your life,but less is more.FFS

I don’t think it was posted so much to gain anything but more to avoid losing.
So far this little NYC “tryst” with MM has featured:

- a party pic that featured Sam and MM. Posing together, but separately.
- a gallery opening red carpet pic with Sam that looked more like a guy who ended up having to take his cousin to the prom when his steady girlfriend’s parents wouldn’t let her go.
-a #failed “ double date” for Sam and MM with Sam and Cait’s South African friends at an escape room that left Sam looking like he had just been made to snack on broken glass
- a holiday in Southern France for one…or at least not for these two. The streets of Rousillon will undoubtedly keep their secrets but it doesn’t seem at all likely that any of them involve Sam, though there were a few other interesting persons in the vicinity, and that certainly would need to be kept secret…
- a concert date with MM and a large purse at Summerstage in Central Park that interested no one-not even Sam enough to bother tweeting about it. Though to be fair maybe he actually. didn’t see the concert but left directly after the phot op and obligatory fan pic to mark his “appearance”? And he did show up for the event in his best “I’m doing a public appearance here” outfit. In fact that outfit was apparently so appearance worthy that he did another appearance in it the next week for his Barbour line opening.
-a whole weekend of fun for Sam at MPC. But just Sam. Maybe a second ticket to Scotland was too expensive?
-a whole day of Barbour promotions in NYC that featured only Sam and clothes, and no “girlfriends”. Oops, did she maybe get lost on the way over- perhaps get left at the petrol station when she got out to get another of those ubiquitous bottles of water?
-a Sam and Cait charity event to benefit both their complexly intertwined charity interests. Which, when you think about it is such friendly, completely not coupley thing for two people who obviously have completely separate lives to do…

So that’s been it so far, for the Sam and MM “All Loved Up and In New York” campaign and so far Sam’s sign has pretty much summed it up: #fail!!

Those pap pics are old- likely taken on the 9th of September before Sam left for what was most likely Budapest for a few days and MM went to France. And so far the single one they have released is pretty much a #fail as well, and it is likely the best of the lot in terms of them looking chummy, or even happy, or whatever, or why choose it for trying to make your story of an afternoon spent as a couple walking the streets of NYC between Sam’s Barbour appearances. But then Sam himself sent a video of him in the car being transferred to his next appearance for Barbour. Oops, so not walking then, oops!

So I think even though the pap shot is not very convincing they went with what they had- which was an older pic from a pap photo session done back before the S3 premiere- when it was decided it might be a good time to try to somehow interject MM back into a story that she hasn’t been featuring in very heavily these past days that have had so much focus on Sam alone, and on Sam and Cait.

And if the best pic they could come up to go with this little story of a Sam and MM afternoon was a weak and older pic, then that’s pretty telling if you ask me about how much time these two are really spending together…

Oh boy does this photo op come with a story.

I love Misha with a burning passion. He’s so nice and he just made my con experience that much better.

So I knew I wanted a phot op with Misha, but just my luck his normal photo ops were sold out so I opted for the Cas one instead and I’m really glad I did.

So from my understanding, Misha was in Cas mode when I first walked up. I told him what I wanted to do, I wanted to “pose like I’m whispering something dirty into Cas’ ear.” I’m just expecting a shocked Cas look. And I get into position and I touched his scruff with the side of my hand (which was a lot longer than I expected tbh). And we’re posing and I kinda lost my balance AGAIN like a dumbass but I figured whatever. Now I’m getting ready to walk by Misha to leave and breaks into this giant smile and he goes, “Y'know, you could’ve actually whispered something dirty in my ear.”

So I’m just like oh haha and I’m leaving and fuckin Chris Schmeke goes, “oh no you were kinda half leggy let’s take another.” Now I’m mortified. I walk back over to Misha and he’s grinning and he goes “look you’ve got your chance!” And I’m just standing there like ????????????? Because if you know anything about me, you know it takes me a full 48 hours to come up with a come back.

Now I’m getting back into position and I’ve got my hand back on Misha’s face and I just said to him, “Misha, I literally have no idea what to say to you.” And he responds, “Better think of something quick.” And my mind just fucking blanked. So I didn’t say anything and Chris took the picture. And after the flash went off and I stepped back, Misha was low key disappointed in me. He was like “You had two chances and you missed out!” But he was super playful and nice about it and he was laughing and like as I was leaving I had to defend myself and tell him that he put me on the spot and I didn’t know what to say.

But yeah, that’s how I broke Misha Collin’s character at Castiel ops. He’s everything I could ever ask for lmao.