“the most important conversations you’ll
have are with your fingers” -rupi kaur
Let’s talk about the intimacy and
what Shawn and Y/N’s fingers have gone through.
How they first touched each other
when Shawn was walking into a café in front of Y/N and realised she was behind
him so both of them grabbed for the closing door.
How they both waved at each other
when they met again at a mutual friend’s party, realising they have bumped into
each other previously.
How they high-fived when they had
won beer pong when they had been put together in the same team.
How their hands were gross from
cleaning up all the trash at the party, being the only two who weren’t passed
out on couches.
How they typed on their phone
screen after the party, not being able to stop talking to each other.
How they would casually bump into
each other during their first date as they walked alongside the beach.
How Y/N’s cupped Shawn’s face
during their first kiss.
How Shawn’s went directly in her
hair and on her back.
How they eventually ended up
tangling themselves together as the couple began to grow more serious and held
How Shawn’s would go through Y/N’s
hair each time they lay together, before going to sleep, or when they were
How Y/N’s would knead all of Shawn’s
tense muscles from all the pre-concert stress.
How Shawn’s would tap her knee
softly in encouragement when she was nervous.
How Shawn’s would engulf Y/N’s cold
ones on their countless night-time picnics.
How they held each other during
their first time. How Shawn’s traced every single bit of Y/N’s body, wanting to
feel all of her and discover all of her. How Y/N’s went to squeeze his hair
when his were working wonders on her. How Shawn’s gripped the side of the bed
in pleasure when Y/N was making love to him with her mouth.
How Shawn’s would occasionally cheekily
slide up Y/N’s leg during dinnertimes with the parents.
How Y/N’s would grab onto anything
she could of him when they hugged.
How Shawn’s would softly rub Y/N’s
stomach every month to alleviate some of her pain.
How Shawn’s would grip his
microphone a little tighter singing on stage as the piercing memory of Y/N back
at home and away from him lingered in his mind.
How Y/N’s would hold a picture of
him close to her during their times apart.
How Shawn’s would tingle with
excitement as he opened a cab door outside the airport, knowing he would be
going home to Y/N in less than an hour time.
How Y/N’s would clutch her lungs as
she tried to breathe during their first fight.
How Shawn’s waving all over the
place as he tried to explain his part of the fight.
How they held each other tightly
when the fight resolved.
How Shawn’s thumb would slightly
tap Y/N’s palm when they held hands in public, a signal that they were both
thinking of the same thing but couldn’t say it out loud so just grinned
internally at all their inside jokes.
How Shawn’s were full of sweat when
he made sure the small box was in his pocket.
How Y/N’s jumped up to her mouth as
Shawn got down on one knee.
How Y/N’s fourth finger looked as
Shawn slid a bright ring onto it.
How Shawn’s always went around Y/N’s
shoulder when they discussed wedding preparations.
How Y/N’s clammy fingers played
with the white fabric of her dress right before she walked down the aisle.
How Shawn’s immediately relaxed
when he took hers and lead her to the top of the altar.
How both of theirs went up to wipe
each other’s tears after having kissed as bride and groom.
How they stayed interlaced as they
danced across the floor to John Mayer and Ed Sheeran as their friends and families
were smiling, and chatting, and helping themselves to wedding cake.
How both of their fingers were red
from moving boxes back and forth to their new house.
How Y/N’s were filled with dirt as
she planted roses in the front and back yard.
How Shawn’s clutched the pregnancy
test to his chest after examining the result twice to make sure he wasn’t
How Y/N’s would grip onto Shawn’s
tightly when her stomach grew huge and going up the stairs was cardio to her.
How Shawn’s never ceased to rub Y/N’s
shoulder as they made their way into the emergency room.
How Y/N’s tried to crush all the
bones in Shawn’s hand as she was giving birth to their child.
How Shawn’s grew feather soft when
he first received their baby in his arms and gave the most minuscule tickle on
How Y/N’s relaxed into the hospital
blankets as Shawn’s took a piece of her sweaty hair out of her eyes.
How each of theirs spent numerous
times changing their kid’s diapers.
How Shawn’s would expertly open up
countless jars of baby food.
How Y/N’s would rub the top of
their baby’s head soothingly to get it to stop crying in her arms.
How one of theirs hands were
interlaced and the other was softly touching their sleeping baby’s finger.
How all of this repeated itself
when they had another baby.
How Shawn’s heart welled up when
his toddler ran beside him to the playground, their whole hand wrapped around
one of Shawn’s fingers.
How Y/N’s would slam the table as
their adolescent was acting out again.
How Shawn would instantly massage
her tense shoulders as they talked it out with their hormone-filled child.
How Y/N’s wiped her tears off her
face when their kid graduated high school.
How Shawn’s wiped his tears off his
face when their kid graduated university.
How Shawn’s would be holding his daughter’s
as he walked her down the aisle to give her away.
How Y/N’s would run across her son’s
hair when he moved across the country.
How Y/N’s and Shawn’s slowly became
wrinklier but still as soft to the touch to each other as fourty years ago.
How one of their hands held the
other’s while the other one held a photograph of time ago.
How Y/N would still hold the Shawn’s
cheek when they kissed.
How Shawn’s would be dusting all
the furniture during each holiday for their children and grandchildren came to
How they spent the last of their
days sitting on their porch gazing afar but still interlaced.
How Shawn’s held Y/N’s as she lay
on the hospital bed at age ninety.
How they simply held hands, Y/N
unable to speak with the air mask on her face.
How their fingers spoke for them,
each little second of holding each other bringing back the memories of their
life. How they said they wouldn’t have spent their lives anyway else and
thanked each other for the years of love and companionship.
How Shawn kissed Y/N’s goodbye when
How the nurse put both of theirs
together when Shawn joined Y/N in her slumber.