“Even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are only here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being dead or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain, wasting years, for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right. And it never comes or it seems to but it doesn’t really. And so you spend your time in vague regret or vaguer hope that something good will come along. Something to make you feel connected, something to make you feel whole, something to make you feel loved. And the truth is I feel so angry, and the truth is I feel so fucking sad, and the truth is I’ve felt so fucking hurt for so fucking long and for just as long I’ve been pretending I’m OK, just to get along, just for, I don’t know why, maybe because no one wants to hear about my misery, because they have their own. Well, fuck everybody. Amen.” —Synecdoche, New York
“For small creatures such as we the vastness is bearable only through love.” —Carl Sagan
Love is like a friendship caught on fire. In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable.
A (slightly late) results day post from a 21 year old dyspraxic.
Three years ago, I left college with 3 Ds on my a levels (psychology, sociology, and philosphy, just ftr) and without having even attempted to apply to university, because the idea of writing a personal statement terrified me so much that I instead spent the classes dedicated to it watching yotube videos of cats with headphones in.
Yesterday, I got confirmation that I’d been accepted onto my first choice, after spending the past year of my life on an Access to HE course.
So, to any ND people reading this who didn’t get the results they wanted yesterday, or who are maybe still in school or college and scared of failing- sometimes the reason you don’t get good grades isn’t because you aren’t good at the subject. Sometimes it’s because the education system is built for people who are not you and who do not have your neurology, and you need to figure out for yourself how you learn because the people teaching you don’t know, and how to advocate for yourself and ask for the accomadations you need even though you’ve never had them before and aren’t sure what would help.
I’m not going to say that balancing student-ing with my famously terrible memory and organization skills and executive function (or rather, lack thereof, on all three counts) is easy, because it isn’t. But the problem isn’t you and you shouldn’t give up. That sounds cheesy as hell. Okay.
I don’t normally post my beliefs online, but after seeing some people posts, I figured I might be able to help…
To start off and give some perspective, I’m probably not your average tumblr user. I’m not an artist, and I’m not saying that because I’m insecure in my artistic skills. I’m a programmer, its what I’m good at and what I enjoy. Coders in general are much less emotional than artists, so I figure a potentially more logical view might shed new light on the subject.
What I’m going to talk about is human nature. I’ve seen lots of posts talking about how people are shocked about how rude and awful people can be. Sometimes its homophobics, sexists, anon haters, it doesn’t really matter. It causes people to be cynical towards others who don’t specifically prove themselves to share your beliefs. “How can I trust someone if I don’t know they aren’t going to judge me unfairly”. The short answer is you can’t know they won’t be jerks. There are people everywhere who will be jerks, but there are also the good people. The ones who love everything you do, and love to spend time with and talk to you. And if you don’t have people like that, then I would encourage you to find some. If your unsure if someone would want to talk to you, then try anyway. I guarantee that there is someone that you would get along great with out there. Find people like that and surround yourself with them. If people are being rude, ignore them and get back to being with the people you enjoy.
There have always been people that have different beliefs and will cause trouble because of it. whether its people disagreeing on slaves being right, If your ship makes you a bad person, or if that guy over there is taking all the good farm land, hardly anything has changed since the dawn of time. The issues change, the way we deal with those issues change, but there has always been problems, and as long as two human beings are allowed to coexist, there will always be problems.
I think some people still somewhat believe that people are inherently good, everything is great except for these few problems that could be listed on a paper. Saying it out loud the implications are ridiculous. Even if you could simplify every problem to be a single name like ISIS, there still wouldn’t be a big enough paper to hold it. However its not even that simple. Every individual case of rape or abuse is its own issue. Each is caused for its own unique reasons, and each needs to be solved differently. In this way of thinking the phrases like ‘The world is filled with hatred’ make a lot of sense, and are accurate.. But this is where the mistake is. Yes the world is filled with hatred, but it is also filled with love and hope, the bad things just tend to stick out more.
How many times has someone asked a genuine question to learn more about your blog/oc/ship whatever, compared to the number of people who have just came in to be a jerk. Ya what they asked is already in your FAQ, but they are interested in something you made! Another human being says that your stuff is more important to them than spending their time dreaming up their own perfect story. Think about how amazing that is. Yes they weren’t observant enough to go to the FAQ, but even then: How many people got it right and looked to the right place?
If you look for the worlds mistakes, you won’t have any trouble finding them. But if you look for what the world got right, you won’t be disappointed either. The world is both a Evil AND Good place, and will show you what ever you look for.
Now please. Look away for your screen for a second and think about his if you’ve ever been bothered by this kind of thing. Then get back to what ever you were doing. Go watch some cat memes, or get back to drawing that comic. But next time you feel the world at your throat, please look for the silver lining. It won’t make it a better place, but it will make your day and possibly the days of other around you better.
Sometimes we have to take a risk just to know, to know the possible outcome. I hate to not know, I despise the unknown so I live to understand. Regardless, of how many heartbreaks and tears I have inflicted upon myself, I am grateful I have not wondered what if?
Couldn’t screenshot this because it was too long, and while the answer is a bit dodgy, it does confirm a standard business philosphy - users who provide monetary support will naturally be rewarded more. :/
thanks to @ryansbirthdaypartysucked for tagging me, i appreciate that x Rules: tag 10 followers you would like to get to know better.
Birthday: 13.02.1999 Gender: female Relationship status: single Favourite subject: English, then Philosphy and Physics First three songs on shuffle: 1) Revolution Song - Noely G’s HFB 2) R U Mine - Arctic Monkeys 3) Bring It On Down - Oasis Zodiac sign: aquarius Siblings: an older brother Height: 1.76 Favourite colour: bordeaux Pets: no pets are allowed in my house, but i’d love to have a dog What time do i wake up? now that i’m on summer break, 9/9.30. on school days i need to be up at 6.15 Last thing i googled: μελλωσι, for my translation schoolwork
Favourite books:Kafka on the Shore by Haruki Murakami and Guards! Guards! by Terry Pratchett
Favourite bands: Oasis, and then, in no specific order: Stone Roses, TLSP, Libertines, Sex Pistols, Nirvana, Verve, Bring Me The Horizon, Blur, Green Day, Kasabian, System of a Down, Arctic Monkeys, Slipknot, Pulp, Smashing Pumpkins and more.
Favourite tv shows: i don’t usually watch tv, i don’t like what airs here in Italy, so i just watch tv series on netflix; my faves are, in random order, Downton Abbey, OItNB, Mtv Scream, Reign, the good ol’ Gilmore Girls and Love. i need more seasons ! Dream job(s): i don’t honestly have one, not yet. all i know is that i want to help people, make them feel better both mentally and physically.
Why I made my blog: i used to wonder how it would’ve been to have a place where i could post my stuff and get in touch with people with similar tastes to mine, i found it on tumblr Love or lust: none of em at least for now Lemonade or iced tea: iced tea Cats or dogs: dogs Coke or pepsi: coke Day or night: day (?), going out all night is getting a bit boring Text or call: audio Met a celebrity: just some italian ones
How tall are you? about 5′4 What color and style is your hair? I have long blonde-ish wavy hair that is an absolute wreck What color are your eyes? blue Do you wear glasses? nah Do you have braces? nah What is your fashion sense? I have no fashion sense i just throw on a bunch of crap thats comfy and im ready to get down to it man but i wear a ton of the 1975 stuff so theres that Do you have any siblings? i have 2 younger sisters and a younger bro :)) What kind of student are/were you? I was shy as hell and goody two shoes tbh lol, im just glad its over What are your favorite subjects? i always liked psychology and philosphy/ethics What are your favorite TV shows? brooklyn nine nine, american horror story, adventure time, it crowd, the mighty boosh, garth marenghi’s dark place, extras, parks and rec, peep show, that mitchell and webb look, 24 and more that i cant remember right now Favorite books? probs harry potter lol and i always liked the jacqueline wilson books when i was younger :)) i need to read more Favorite past time? going on tumblr, playing my 3ds and literally just napping Any regrets? I donna, probably eating like 3 burgers the other day at a bbq What is your dream job? freeloading Do you want to get married? ya, to matty lmao Do you want kids, and how many? nah, kids suck and im too lazy How many countries have you visited? ive only left england once when i was like 5 and that was to go to disney land paris What is the scariest dream you’ve had? i had a lucid dream once where i was awake and couldnt move and these 2 men were trying to abduct me and i could actually see it irl and they were shaking the door loads and it was horrible and i felt like i was paralysed Do you have any enemies? i hope not i would literally cry if i found out i was someones enemy Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend right now? lmao nAh
i LOVE religious philosphy but i feel like so much of it gets caught up in minutiae (esp. with christrianity) and like. idk. i got them holy feels and so i guess i might describe myself as “non-denominational but weirdly religious” but also i am moslty quiet about it and my religious feelings dont have any laws in them so theres no real NEED to like, prosyletize