I’m a very lonely person. I do get lonely sometimes… I’m not depressed, I’m not sad, but I think to be a human being is to be alone. I mean, I have an awareness of my inability at times to connect with other people because I can’t say exactly what I mean. You can’t directly connect. The inability to fully love another person is a form of loneliness. I don’t know how to fully love another person because there is always some part of me that I’m not sharing. There’s always some part of me that I don’t know how to open up and give to another person. Even the people I love most in the world.
7.12.16// today a new library day. I explored the HU Zweigbibliothek Campus Nord. Tiny space but somehow cozy, and just half an hour from my place.
Today was so productive. I read about 100 pages from Hannah Arendt “Totalitarism”. IN GERMAN( yes, I’m so proud of me).
I just can’t stop myself, it’s such a good book.
And I had a very good yoga praxis in the morning.
Today was such a good day 🍀
10.11.16 // even on this surreal day it’s still the middle of the exam period so I have to submit 3 essays tomorrow. I’m desperately trying to finish my art & aesthetics one because I lost a full day of work yesterday just glued to the election results :/
So in my class everyone has to make a two page newspaper that is set in 1930. I was wondering if any of you would want to write something short that I can put in there. You can message me it with your name so I’ll be sure to make you the author :b
I hate Cartesian dualism and I’m stupidly insecure about my body at the moment. I’ve come so far in recovering from my blip with an ED but I’m not all the way there yet and I’m definitely not made of stone. It’s hard to focus on down days but I need to get these grades.