yanno, i was thinking last night when i literally could not fall asleep because how late i slept in yesterday morning and i realized that even looking at my blog i can tell how much better i’m getting.
before my blog was filled with unrealistically thin girls and personal posts about my self-hatred. and those bodies were what i saw as my goal. i weighed 125 pounds and still thought that i was fat even though now looking back on photos, i looked like you could snap my body in half. now my goal is just healthy and toned, not hip bones sticking out, not ridiculously thin legs. and i love my body now and i will love my body when i’m more fit, but i don’t see myself getting obsessed with it again like i was. i’m fine with the process being slow, i don’t care about the weight on the scale. and i love the hell out of food, so never will i ever skip a meal again in hopes that i will be thinner.
i am getting better and i am so happy.