personality switch i guess

Collide Prt. 3

Prompt: Riley Matthews is a struggling writer who works as a bartender to pay off her student loans. Lucas Friar is a rich kid from Texas who’s lost his way. One night fate brings them together causing their two different worlds to collide.
A/N: This chapter is mainly to give a little bit of backstory on Riley and its meant to be the lead up to her opening up to Lucas and explaining why she’s changed so much since high school. Obviously something went down between her and Maya which caused the switch in personalities. I also wanted to include her second guessing her initial judgement of Lucas. Hope this wasn't too boring. xo
Word Count: 2,070
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Part 3 - “Our Spot.”

I considered calling him but in the end I decided no good would come of it. No matter how charming or relentless he was we were still from two different worlds. He’s champagne and trust funds and I’m cheap beer and student loans.

Every so often I get a few days off and it just so happened that this week was the week where my presence wasn’t needed at work. We were over staffed for the weekend so Lou offered me a three day vacay and I took it.

Whenever I do have off I like to drive down to Connecticut and visit one of my oldest friends, Isaiah. He and I met in high school and got along straight away. He is probably the funniest person I’ve ever met. He’s witty and clever and always has the best stories. We had a short lived fling for a while but it was over before it ever really started. We both knew we were doing it for the wrong reasons and we also knew we were better off as friends.

I get the closest parking spot on the street than I can find and figure its best to just walk the rest of the way. Downtown New Haven is beautiful in the fall. It’s a thing New England is known for but it’s the beautiful architecture and small shops that surround the green that really make it pop.

Zay moved to CT right after graduation. He was a drama major at Southern State and after that he started performing in plays and productions of musicals. He was close enough to the city for him to commute if he needed to but he had his own little actor’s studio here and a loft right above where he lived. Big enough for just one with huge windows that overlooked the town square. It’s in my top 5 favorite places to be.

I walk in just in time to catch the ending of what sounded like Cell Block Tango. I stand quietly towards the back until they’re finished to avoid any interruptions. Once their rehearsal is over Zay spots me in the back and waves me over.

“Well if it isn’t Cotton Candy Face.” He chuckles, “C’mere you.” He pulls me in for a hug and I can’t help but sink into it. Sometimes you don’t know how much you need a hug from a friend until you get it. Nothing was wrong, it was just one of those days where you just don’t feel like yourself.

“I needed that.” I sigh when I finally let him go.

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1. He will forget everything, and you will forgive him for it. He will apologize, but don’t let him. Never let him apologize for being himself.

2. His eyes are the color of coffee; you will be addicted to their caffeine.  
3. He will close off sometimes; give him the space he needs to collect his thoughts. He has thousands of them every day and he can only share so many of them with you. Let him build his bridge to you, and don’t burn it when he tells you things that make you question his intentions.


4. He will call you when he’s drunk and giggle and he’ll say “I love you so much” twenty times in twelve minutes. He’ll tell you his favorite things about you, and then fall asleep and forget to hang up the phone. Make sure you whisper that you love him as you hang up to the sound of his breathing, and remind him to take an aspirin in the morning. 


5. Do not tell him he can’t do anything; he will only try to prove it to you as soon as the challenge leaves your lips.


6. Listen to his troubles, he has so many. Your heart will break for him. Don’t let it break you, too.


7. His laugh is clear and bright and sounds like sunshine. You will want to make him laugh just so you can hear it again, and again, and again. Soak up the sound of his happiness. Burn it into your skin. You make him happier than I did, after all.


8. I don’t envy you, or hate you because you are all that I am not. Thank you for taking care of him in ways I never could. His safety has always been my first priority, and I’m happy he found happiness with you.


9. He takes his coffee with two sugars, remember that. 


10. He broke my heart for the sake of finding yours. Let him handle yours with the same tenderness as he did mine. You will not regret loving him, I swear.

—  to the girl who loves him next

anonymous asked:

i'm so confused and scared bootsie sometimes I start feelin like my body isn't mine and then someone else takes over but the thing is the line between them and me is so blurry like it's not exactly a full switch I just feel like a diff person when it happens I guess, like we're both fighting for control but the other persons rlly bad, like all my bad thoughts together and I just don't know what to do I'm scared they're going to hurt someone halp

There’s a few things this could be ranging from severe depersonalization, BPD, or even OSDD1. It’s really important that you try to get professional help since some of that can be difficult to diagnose.

In the meantime, learn to recognize what triggers these incidents. Write your thoughts while its happening. Recognize that it still might be you, just a different mode of self, not necessarily an alter. Document when this started and when it happens. Work towards talking to a doctor though. This isnt something you should handle by yourself.

the only prompt I was missing for rarepairs week was switched personality, and the only 2 characters I had been planning to draw that I didn’t were Sousuke and Makoto because I had to draw Momo and Kisumi and anime Mackelmore instead, but of course they weren’t a rare pairing (lmao how did 2 characters who never interact become a popular pairing, y'all off the chain). BUT I DREW IT ANYWAY, AND DID RULE 63 BECAUSE I CAN AND I WILL GET MY YURI SPORTS ANIME.