personal vengeance

Let's talk about the crazed look Oz gave Ed.

And how it’s so DIFFERENT from his typical crazy peng look. Crazypeng™ is wild, he trembles a bit, smiles, and his eyes are wide but somehow tight? You all know, we’ve seen it a million times.

The look last night was different. It was calm, angry but not raging, thoughtful, intent. His eyes were wide, but staring somewhat calmly. He reaches for Ed, we assume (but don’t know) to try to hurt him, but he doesn’t lose control. There’s something else there, and he’s never quite looked at anyone like this.

Meanwhile, Ed. I thought Ed would be outraged at first to learn Oswald escaped death, but it wasn’t so. He was immediately shocked and almost relieved, it seemed. Wanting to come closer but stepping back to avoid being grabbed. He proceeded to look Oswald up and down in disbelief.

These two have not been abandoned by the writers in their love for each other, not by a long shot. Oswald’s look was not one of sheer vengeance - I’d personally say it seems like he’s going through the actions, but not committed. Doing it because he has to and because this is what he does when he’s hurt. He still loves Ed and it shows on his face when he speaks of him, or sees him on TV, or meets him face to face. Ed, I think, does have feelings for Oswald, and it shows in the way Oswald appears in his mind, the way he confesses the meaningfulness of their friendship, the way he looks at him, wanting to come closer, when they meet again.

Eye for an Eye

Part 1: Banished

Based on @samijen’s Ender Eye AU

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Ryan’s reign of terror had, at long last, come to an end.

With much resistance, his hands had been bound behind his back and he had been forced to his knees, but there was still a fire in his chest and defiance in his eyes.

Gavin now stood over him, sword outstretched, the tip pressing lightly against his forehead more in a show of dominance than real threat; still, Ryan refused to yield, causing a ruby droplet to gather against the edge of the blade where it met skin, beading and eventually breaking, running down his face and gathering in the corner of his right eye. He didn’t even blink.

To Gavin’s right, Michael stood with one hand on the hilt of his own sword, ready to defend if need be, and to Gavin’s left, Jeremy wore a disappointed expression hidden beneath cold eyes. Far behind them, Geoff and Jack watched on reproachfully.

In front of them, crowds of villagers had eagerly gathered to watch justice be dealt, many of them seeking some kind of personal vengeance for the horrors Ryan had unleashed upon the world.

This part was ceremonial. They’d discussed Ryan’s punishment at length in private; they all knew how this was going to go down. Michael was prepared to carry out the orders, should it come to that, but they all doubted it. Ryan wasn’t one to give up without a fight. They were much better prepared for the alternative.

“Ryan Haywood,” Gavin began, sounding much more in-control than he felt, “For the crime of necromancy, use of illicit magic and manslaughter, you have been found guilty.”

A cheer went up from the audience.

Ryan glared back at him along the length of the blade, his icy blue eyes condemning.

For just a second, Gavin faltered and looked away before he regained composure and went on; “How do you wish to die?”

“I do not.”

Ryan’s response was immediate and unflinching. He continued to glare at Gavin.

This time Gavin glared back, a self-satisfied smile curling into his lips.

“Then you shall be banished to the Nether until you do.”

Ryan’s eyes grew wide at the realisation, “No! You can’t!”

“Light it up,” Gavin commanded Jeremy, who immediately knelt at the base of the obsidian archway a little way behind Ryan, sparking a small fire with flint and steel.

The portal shimmered to life, purple waves of light gently lapping at the obsidian border, softly humming, vibrating, almost beckoning.

Ryan was all too familiar with the sound. It immediately sent waves of panic through him and he thrashed about, trying to free himself of the coarse rope that tied his wrists.

“Please, no, anywhere but there…”

“An eye for an eye, Ryan,” Gavin mocked, “You brought the monsters here, now we send them one back.”

Michael picked him off the ground, the strength of Mogar coursing through his veins; Ryan tried to find his footing, but Michael gave him a sharp shove backwards and he felt the sudden cold embrace of the light of the portal. He remained suspended there for a moment that felt like an eternity, cursing his own mistakes, their treachery, everything that had led to this point, before the world he knew faded to the dim red glow and heat of the Nether. He stumbled backwards, falling on his left shoulder, tearing his shirt and leaving a bloody scrape along the length of his arm from the sharp, rocky netherrack. He sprang to his feet and dove for the portal, but he was too late. Just as he reached it, the light stuttered and went out completely. Momentum carried him forward and he landed hard on the other side of the portal, taking the brunt of the impact on his chin, leaving his face bloody. He struggled to his knees, looking back at the empty obsidian archway forlornly.

They must have destroyed the portal in the Overworld.

He was trapped.

The acrid, sulfurous scent of lava and netherrack flooded his nostrils, burning in his sinuses and bringing tears to his eyes. The sound of the mobs that lurked in the darkness echoed around him. His blood turned to ice. With his hands still bound, he felt acutely vulnerable, and for the first time in a long time, he truly felt afraid.

Part 2

fma realization time

so i was thinking about the mustang vs envy fight in episode 54, and just now realized a thing.

i’m sure everyone has noticed the difference between mustang’s fights against lust and envy. with lust, mustang was focused on eliminating the threat as soon as possible. sure he gloats a bit, but overall his approach is very pragmatic, more about protecting others than any personal feelings.

with envy, on the other hand, there’s no pragmatism, no focus on stopping a threat from doing more damage; only a rage-fueled, borderline-sadistic desire for vengeance. he could kill envy and get it over with, but instead he draws out the “fight” just to make him suffer as much as possible.

now look at envy vs hughes.

envy had hughes at his mercy for a good chunk of that scene. even if hughes was fast enough to knife him in the face like with lust (who, incidentally, could have killed him immediately if she hadn’t instead taken the time to gloat first), envy still had his immortality on his side. nothing was stopping him from just straight up shooting hughes and getting it over with.

no, he had to pull the gracia thing. he drew out hughes’s death solely for the purpose of making his death as painful as possible, potentially risking hughes’s survival, which would risk ruining his father’s plans, for no reason other than just to be a dick, because it makes him feel better about his inferiority complex with humans.

in both cases, we have someone who will unnecessarily draw out what would normally be a quick fight in order to torture their opponent, prioritizing their personal feelings of vengeance for their tragic situation over simply preventing further damage to their side.

in taking his revenge on envy for hughes’s murder, mustang behaved exactly like envy did during hughes’s murder.

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(side note: even when i first saw the anime episode, the way roy’s eyes are drawn have always reminded me a bit of envy. for the longest time i thought it was probably just a coincidence, like maybe that’s just how the animators draw characters acting truly monstrous, but maybe there’s something there after all?)

I get why people are salty. I’m a little salty too.

But here’s the way I see it, A&E are never gonna stop writing plastic angst, but at least where Killian is concerned, it always leads to good things. It’s been the pattern since season 2. We find out that Killian did a bad thing, or has the potential to keep a big secret, he comes clean either a few scenes later or at most a couple episodes and we get awesome Killian character development, and then we get cute, romantic and awesome captain swan moments

Season 2

1) Zomg, Hook stole Aurora’s heart, so evil, he’ll never be redeemed.

2) Even at the beginning of his arc, when he was still technically a villain, Killian chose to do the right thing and saved Aurora’s heart

3) We got some cute CS sword fighting banter

Season 3A

1) OMG Neal is alive and now Hook is the only one who knows. He’s so selfish, and he’s gonna keep the secret so he can try and trick Emma into loving him He’s irredeemable.

2) Literally, the next scene, Killian tells everyone that Neal is alive, and helps the nevengers to find and save his boring ass. We get the the amazing bridge confession.

3) We get the cute when I win your heart scene. 

Season 3B

1) Killian screwed over Ariel and Eric, in the very recent past, OMG he’s so selfish and he’s never gonna be fully redeemed. It comes back to haunt him in present day.

2) Killian tries to help fake!Ariel find Eric, apologizes to fake!Ariel and we get amazing character development.

3) Killian gets cursed literally because of his love for Emma Swan.

Season 4

1) Oh my god, Killian screwed over Ursula, and now he’s keeping a secret from Emma. He’s so horrible and they’re gonna break up.

2) Reunites Ursula with her father and helps get her voice back.We get the amazing character moments when he confesses that he’s afraid of losing his happy ending. And the brotp scene with Ariel, further showing how far he has come.

3) We get the “Killian’s happy ending is Emma Swan” scene and one of the cutest cs kisses ever.

Season 5A

1) Killian is about to go full Dark One and destroy the town and all his loved ones. 

2) Resists the ultimate darkness, and his ultimate personal weakness for vengeance, and is “being the man he wants to be” and then sacrifices himself to save everyone and goes to literal hell.

3) We get the one of the most beautiful, epic and heartbreaking captain swan scenes of all time, and then Emma goes to literal hell to save him. 

Season 6A

1) Killian holds onto the shears, Omg, he’s taking away Emma’s choice, he is so selfish.

2) Has his adventure with Henry, and he and Henry decide together that they will find another way, he drops the shears and Killian confesses to Emma about keeping the shears.

3) Emma forgives hims, says she would have done that same, and we get a cute reassuring hug. 

Season 6B

1) Zomg, Killian killed David’s father (he obviously didn’t know it was David’s father at the time, it was just some random guy), he’s gonna keep this a secret so that he can marry Emma. He’s so selfish.

2) LBR, Killian is gonna tell Archie, then tell Emma, and then probably go on a quest with the princess squad and Liam II to find a way to break Snowing’s curse, and tell David the truth and apologize and the curse will be broken.

3) He is going to propose to Emma, she will say yes, and everyone will be a big happy family together.

So yeah, I get why people are annoyed by the plastic angst, and it feels like a poor writing choice. I’m not saying it’s a good writing choice, but it has been in the writing of Killian’s character arc since the beginning, and the ride always leads to awesome things for Killian and Captain Swan.

So do I like it? Not really. But am I gonna enjoy the ride by seeing more of Killian continuing to demonstrate how much of a hero he is, and captain charming, and the epic captain swan proposal that we will get at the end of this ride. HELL YES.

So sure, be salty if you want, you do you. But know that it’s gonna be okay, and it will be resolved. It’s all in the spoilers.

pomrania  asked:

Is there anything you can tell me about Mando colour symbolism that isn't already on that "armour colour" post? I'm planning out a Sabine POV story where it would be relevant.

Well, yes and no. I went over the “facts” of colors and mandalorian color theory. What I can do now is kind of dig deeper into the actual mando’a words for colors, and maybe extrapolate more on the etymology of each word as they’re relevant to colors. If anything, it’ll give you an idea of how to break down the colors and maybe play with the meanings, or even the construction of the words themselves. Hopefully that helps?

I got a little carried away (again?) so I apologize for the length and time it took to put this together … and also you can take everything I say with a grain of salt as I’m trying to make sense of the etymology of these words. I’m also skipping orange as there’s no word for in the dictionary as of yet, and including violet since it is.

So, let’s go in the order that I went in the original post. Forewarning that black is going to be the longest section as I’ve thought about it maybe way too much.

  • ne’tra — black 

Ne’ is traditionally one of the negative prefixes of mando’a. It’s meant to indicate the opposite of what it’s attached to, or the not-thing. Tra means space, void … but it also translates to starfield, or field of stars. 

So. Black. Justice. Not the void of space, or, alternatively, Without stars, a starless night. 

However way you want to interpret that is up to you, but to me? From what I understand of mandalorian history? They were once a truly nomadic people, who voyaged across the stars. They were, arguably, wayfinders. More than just warriors, or conquerors, or however most would like to put it.

I originally wasn’t going to do this, but because you mentioned (elsewhere) that you’re focusing on dusk, I want to take a moment to extrapolate on this thought. The reason I say this is because of how they view stars. 

Mandalorians are generally not considered to be religious. But the language they speak is still very deeply steeped in poetic concepts — grasping at the enormous and unthinkable with words as clever and broad as a people can attempt to embody them. Stars is my personal favorite.

Ka’ra — stars, ruling council of fallen leaders. Mandalorians still speak of those who pass as not being dead, but marching far far away. The origin of the word stars is the belief that the Mand’alore ascend to the stars, to watch over the people and to guide them.

The word for breath is kar’am. Hyperdrive is karbakar (star to star). Kar’ta is heart. Kar’taylir is awareness, knowledge, lit. to hold in the heart. Karyai is the main communal living room of a communal home, where a family convenes to spend time together — and often the last bastion against an invasion.

Jate’kara, luck, destiny, literally good stars, a course to steer by. 

All of these words stem from stars.

Black, the color, is literally a starless night. But, while the impulse is to go for something negative, I would actually pull away from that. Mandalorians, in general, also view adversity (something difficult, something terrible, something terrifying) as something to challenge and overcome as a way of life. A starless night is not to be feared but to be met

A starless night may also be indicative, poetically, of a place or a people or an event without justice. And that void, that emptiness, that lack? Must be filled. Whomsoever wears black has taken it upon themselves to fill a void and reinstate justice in whatever manner that may mean.

But also consider: a night without stars evokes a specific sort of image and feeling … which may also be completely different depending on the person in question. Someone who lives in a bright city and experiences light pollution would be used to a night without stars, versus someone living out in the wild (like Krownest) or who is dependent on the stars to travel, would be used to a night full of stars and may find it distressing or strange.

  • ve’vut — gold

This one is a little less straightforward. Vut, or vutyc, indicates special. Unique, precious. Ve’ (pronounced vay or veh) is unclear as to what it’s meant to indicate, but often when we see ve’ as a prefix, it’s usually from ven (future tense), but in this case it may be from vheh, earth, soil, dirt. 

Gold. Vengeance. A precious future, or, precious metal.

Maybe evocative of the sun rising after a long and difficult night. The gold of the sun rising is a promise of a future — or at the very least, the feeling of surviving to tomorrow. This might be too poetic though lmao, and tbh … I really like the simplicity and the directness of precious metal (lit. special dirt, lmao).

The funny thing here is that though I have gold and yellow listed together for meaning (as they are, generally, considered under the same banner of Vengeance), the word for yellow is different.

  • shi'yayc — yellow

So. I’m not really a fan of this word, to be perfectly honest with you. I’m of the opinion this is less an actual color and more an adjective meant to describe something else. But regardless, here it is.

From shi, just/only, and yayc, which may be from oyayc, meaning alive (or oya! which carries many meanings and generally overwhelmingly positive). Generally though, with the yc added to the end, it’s less a noun and more an adjective, so it might actually be meant to be a descriptor (ie. yellowing of skin or eyes etc)

Yellow. Vengeance. Only just alive, or barely dead.

Maybe comparison to, say, a recently deceased person — but that only really works if one assumed that all dead persons are pale and turn yellow when they die, and that’s a weird assumption to make in the context of mandalorians.

Also consider: yellow is dull compared to the shine of a metallic gold. Less intense in that way. My question is what becomes of a person after they’ve enacted vengeance? What becomes of a life devoid of a perpetual motivating force like that? What happens when gold loses its sheen and fades, dulls? 

Am I just taking this too far, to the next level it doesn’t need to go? maybe


EDIT:: w/ points from anon through a later ask, I’d like to also add what they said: 

you pondered about the connotations of yellow regarding ‘just/barely alive’ and its comparison to gold. I thought maybe it’s about flames/light - like a bright vivid flame is a bright gold, while the flame, when it’s only small and ->barely alive<- has more of a dull and yellowish shine. 

I hadn’t even consider that it might have been referencing intensity of light/fire? But the way you put it, that may actually make more sense than the direction I was going in. I was definitely perplexed somewhat, like I was missing something. This sounds like what I was missing.

That could also apply for the heat of a flame, too. Like, referring to the intensity of the light, or the intensity of the heat, or both, depending entirely on context, and related to the below.


  • Lust for life

So, there’s no word for orange in mando’a at this time.

Consider: Yellow is sometimes indicated to also mean lust for life, depending on who you ask and what source material you’re comparing it to.

It’s entirely possible that mandalorians don’t have a way to differentiate between yellow and orange. Some cultures do display a limitation in language, seeing what we would consider a range (yellow to orange) as all one spectrum under the same banner.

So while Yellow may mean barely alive/barely dead, yellow may also mean nothing but life.

Something to think about.

  • genet — gray

Gray/Silver. Mourning lost love.

Ge’ for almost, by proximity (literally or metaphorically). Net, we can assume, comes from the word for black, ne’tra. So, in this case, gray is literally almost black, but not quite. Reaching towards it, maybe, but not quite there.

I’ve used overcast before to describe gray, or the feeling of a loss, of grief, and it still applies here. Almost, not quite, as a starless night sky. Duller, paler, than a starfield. That kind of thing—perpetually in comparison to black.

Also consider that it may infer obscuring the target, instead of almost reaching black, it may act like a filter, a translucent overlay to take away or obscure intensity of (in this case from black, or night sky). Mandalorians, who are (or once was) so used to navigating by/the stars, suddenly having to deal with their guidance obscured? There’s loss, there, too.

  • kebiin — blue

This one’s a little … less straightforward. Ke’ is used as an imperative prefix, usually to indicate that this word/sentence is a command, but keb may also come from kebbur, meaning to try or make an attempt. Biin, or bii, may come from abiik, air (interestingly, kebii’tra indicates sky, so it’s literally blue starfield, blue space).

What is reliable? What is faithful? Following through, or making the attempt again and again—someone consistent, trustworthy. To stretch the meaning, as trustworthy as the air. 

Blue. Reliability. Faithful. As consistent, or trustworthy, as the air.

I wonder if that was ever a phrase in use. “As trustworthy as the air” might ring true on a planet where they can breathe without their helmets … but what if they so happen to land on a planet that they cannot?

In hindsight, that sounds like a very mando joke to make. B’)

“Who ever is reliable all the time?” Both a joke and a very serious question.

  • ge’tal — red

Ge shows up again. Almost. Tal, blood. Almost blood, or nearly / like blood. 

From what I understand, the Taung did bleed red, and since they were the original mandalorians, it makes sense for them to make the simplest association for the color.

Red. Honoring a parent. 

This is kind of a call back, imo, to the saying “the blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb,” as chosen family ties are stronger than that of biological ones, and consider that mandalorians are expected to shed blood for their chosen family if it ever came to it.

But also consider pointing at a rose and, quite literally, calling it like blood

  • vorpan — green

Vor, figuratively, is to thank. Literally, it’s to accept. Pan… is a little difficult to discover what it might indicate, or where it may come from, but from the two other words it’s a part of (epan, for guts, entrails, and sapan for electromagnet) we can kind of infer that it’s meant to indicate core, or insides, the interior of a thing.

Metaphorically, vorpan can be understood to be accepting a task to fulfill with one’s whole being.  For context, vorpan’oy is the word for vegetation, as in bringing life to green.

Green. Duty. To embody one’s accepted task

Not really sure why, but let’s go with that.

  • saviin — violet

This word is actually very close to Sabine’s name — they’re pronounced the same, just with a v instead of b. In some dialects or accent, one might say they are the same. I would argue they are.

So. VioletSaviin. Sa’ most likely comes from sarad, meaning flower, bloom. Viin is from viinir, for run. 

Running flower. Wild violets are considered weeds in some places, and so instead of run as in flee, run may lean more towards running wild, an overgrowth — or a plant that can live, even thrive, anywhere, in spite of adversity and outside forces attempting to eradicate them. 

Survival in adversity.

And, maybe unintentionally maybe not, given the above I would argue it’s a perfect name for Sabine under the circumstances. 


EDIT:: referring again to points brought up by anon in a later ask:

saviin sounds a lot like Sabine, which seems very very likely to me, considering the long i (or rather e - from an anglophone perspective) and that [v] and [b] are very similar sounds, so maybe Sabine is like a basic transcription or a dialect form of Saviin. Regarding the meaning of the colour/name

My etymology for it would be the following: “viin”/“bine” being a degenerated/shortened form (or even the root?) of kebiin - blue connected with “sa” - as, like, it gives “sa viin” - “like blue”, what is kind of a good description for purple/violet, implying the standard shade in mandalorian perception would be a darker bluish purple ALSO implying that the concept of purple cam up comparably late in the language, similar of the color orange getting it’s name rather late in germanic languages 

I was going color by color so I missed the connection in the effort to complete the post, which was an oversight by me sadly. 

It might also then directly connect the connotations of blue (reliability) with purple (adaptability, survival in adversity). They who are reliable can be depended on to adapt and survive adversity, or so on, kind of like orange (lust for life) from yellow, as thought about from above (the intensity of the flame).

Definitely some interesting things to think about.

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’Cause I’ve seen twilight

I was stained by a role
In a day not my own
But as you walked into my life
You showed what needed to be shown
I always knew what was right
I just didn’t know that I might
Peel away and choose to see
With such a different sight

Happy Jenny Calendar Day! @dreadfulcalendarwoman

anonymous asked:

What if scenario. If someone who's been hurt by Bill- someone who's life was utterly destroyed and lost everything and everyone they loved because of Bill- somehow managed to hunt Bill down with the intent of killing him, but Mabel (&/or any of the other Pines') was there and she was aware of how Bill's wronged them, would she still protect him? What would she say to the grief stricken person seeking vengeance? What about the other Pines'? What would BILL do/say?

Ohhhh boy that is a good question.
Okay so
It’d probably depend on where Bill would be at in the story. Though either way the pines probably wouldn’t just stand back and let him get killed. They’d probably find a way to get them away from each other and try to talk to the attacker. The attacker like tells them their story of vengeance and what bill did to their dimension and the pines probably wouldn’t be that surprised but still a bit sympathetic towards the guy and not very happy at all with Billy.
The attacker would probably try to explain how Bill is chaos incarnate, won’t change and can never be trusted and the Pines are just like
“We know.”

To the poor guy who tried to kill him, they’d probably explain the situation and why bill’s with them in the first place. And the attacker probably realizes that this is Bill’s “punishment” and doesn’t make a scene when he leaves. Makes some comment about Bill and then leaves to who knows where.
Depending on where bill’s at in this story, it would either end in a lot of guilt or a lot of denial. Or both.
Ford would not let him hear the end of it though. There would be a whoooole lot of salt from Ford.

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“You’re so consumed by your personal vengeance against life, whether it be its inherent cruelties or its mysteries, that everything takes on a warped significance to fit your megalomaniacal cosmology.” “Scully, are you coming on to me?”

anonymous asked:

What are your thoughts on the Dorne revenge plot? It seems to be cool to shit over Doran & Oberyn even trying to get justice for Elia (Jon Arryn rewarded it) or bothering to worry about the Dornish common folk (the Tyrells & Lannisters don't care about their own). Ask about the North or the Riverlands, it is justified & lauded but Dorne is all about the 'water gardens are going to burn.'

I think there are two points of discussion here: the implications of the plot GRRM wrote, and the way fandom discusses it vis-à-vis the other revenge-driven plots. As far as the second point go, there is definitely a conversation to be had about how factions in fandom latch onto the obvious fallibility of Doran’s actions but ignore them from other characters, even though the vengeance commentary runs through so many stories from the very first book. It’s in Robert’s, Robb’s, Arya’s, Dany’s, Sandor’s, Tywin’s, Tyrion’s and others. There is also a tendency in many fandoms to deny PoC the space for a story about vengeance without utterly vilifying them for it, which has to be a point of criticism in a story that is filled to the brim with revenge quests because Doran should not be held to a different standard than the other characters. And I’ll raise you the tendency to dismiss a powerful scene such as Oberyn’s screaming at Clegane to “say her name” and reduce it to a mere manifestation of Oberyn’s desire for vengeance. Oh, you’ll have to pry this scene from my cold dead fingers.

However, I do not want this to be conflated with legit interpretation of the story Martin gave us and the imagery and foreshadowing he drops, or criticism of Doran’s motives and plans. It is not productive to take any and every discussion about the repercussions of Doran’s plans and the grievous mistakes he makes to be an attempt to shit over him and Oberyn. The theory about the Water Gardens burning isn’t an attempt to punish Dorne for daring to want revenge for Elia and her children, no one is reveling in it or thinks it’d be just, but as much as I really don’t want it to happen, it does fall in line with GRRM’s pattern when it comes to portraying the end results of revenge plots, and the progression of the Dornish storyline does not look promising. King’s Landing exploding and the Water Gardens burning are the Red Wedding and the Sack of Winterfell of the Dornish plot. You see the mistakes the characters are making and the path they are going to lead to, you want to scream at them to stop, turn back, don’t do this. But you know they are walking right into their doom.

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Mulder, it's me.

Happy Birthday, Dana Scully! Hope you have a fabulous day.

Sure know how to make a girl feel special on her birthday. 

I actually was thinking about, uh, this gift that you gave me for my birthday. You never got to tell me why you gave it to me or what it means, but I think I know. I think that you appreciate that there are extraordinary men and women and extraordinary moments when history leaps forward on the backs of these individuals, that what can be imagined can be achieved, that you must dare to dream, but that there’s no substitute for perseverance and hard work and teamwork because no one gets there alone.   

You don’t honestly believe this is some kind of extraterrestrial? This is somebody’s sick joke.

Agent Mulder believes we are not alone.

Are you suggesting that I go before the Violent Crime Section and present a profile declaring that these murders are done by aliens?

Then I can’t wait till you fall off and land on your ass.

Mulder, I wouldn’t put myself on the line for anybody but you.

Oh is that what you were extending?

Science.

Nothing happens in contradiction to nature, only in contradiction to what we know of it.

Please explain to me the scientific nature of the “whammy”.

I trust him with my life.

Mulder, are you okay?

I’m a medical doctor.

You prognosticated Buddy Holly’s death? 

Mulder, toads just fell from the sky!

Sure. Fine. Whatever.

Shut up, Mulder.

Good, because I put it back in that drawer with all those other videos that aren’t yours.

I’m not going to ask you if you just said what I think you just said, because I know it’s what you just said.

Her name is Bambi?

Smart is sexy.

I’ve heard the truth, Mulder. Now what I want are the answers.

Do you know how much the human body is worth, Mulder?

No. How much you’re like Ahab. You’re so… consumed by your personal vengeance against life, whether it be its inherent cruelties or its mysteries, that everything takes on a warped significance to fit your megalomaniacal cosmology.

Meanwhile, I’ve quit the FBI and become a spokesperson for the Ab-Roller.

We’re going in an endless line, two steps forward and three steps back. While my own life is standing still. 

You said it yourself, once: “A dream is an answer to a question we haven’t learned how to ask.”

For the first time, I feel time like a heart beat. The seconds pumping in my breast like a reckoning. The numinous mysteries, that once seemed so distant and unreal, threatening clarity in the presence of a truth entertained not in youth, but only in its passage. I feel these words as if their meaning were weight being lifted from me knowing that you will read them and share my burden as I have come to trust no other. That you should know my heart, look into it, finding there the memory and experience that belong to you, that are you, is a comfort to me now as I feel the tethers loose and the prospects darken for the continuance of a journey that began not so long ago. And which began again with a faith shaken and strengthened by your convictions. If not for which I might never have been so strong now as I cross to face you and look at you, incomplete, hoping that you will forgive me for not making the rest of the journey with you. 

All lies lead to the truth.

Did he have a lightsaber?

I don’t imagine you need to be told this, Mulder, but you’re not a loser.

Jeremiah was a bullfrog… Was a good friend of mine… Never understood a single word he said… But I helped him drink his wine…

Maybe if it rains sleeping bags, you’ll get lucky.

Begin autopsy on white male, age sixty, who is arguably having a worse time in Texas than I am, though not by much.

And it wasn’t even real cream cheese, it was light cream cheese! 

I was hoping for something a little more helpful.

Why did they assign me to you in the first place, Mulder? To debunk your work. To rein you in, to shut you down.

DON’T THINK! JUST PICK UP THAT PHONE AND MAKE IT HAPPEN.

Look… if I quit now, they win.

Don’t you ever just want to stop? Get out of the damn car… settle down and live something approaching a normal life?

Well, it seems to me that the best relationships - the ones that last - are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. You know, one day you look at the person and you see something more than you did the night before. Like a switch has been flicked somewhere. And the person who was just a friend is… suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with. The storm drains are filling up. Let’s get out of here.

The blind leading the blind.

Baby me and you will be peeing through a catheter.

All right, I’m afraid. But it’s an irrational fear.

No, I mean… Maybe I did want to be out there with you.

That’s right, poopy head.

Spontaneous human combustion.

I don’t know what to believe anymore. Mulder, I was so determined to find a cure to save you that I could deny what it was that I saw and now I don’t even know… I don’t know… I don’t know what the truth is… I don’t know who to listen to. I don’t know who to trust.

Happy New Year, Mulder.

Mulder, it’s such a gorgeous day outside. Have you ever entertained the idea of trying to find life on this planet?

umm… and I didn’t say that God spoke back. I said that I had some kind of a vision.

What kind of moron gets his ya-yas out like that?

Well, I’m fairly happy. That’s something.

Time passes in moments … moments which, rushing past define the path of a life just as surely as they lead towards its end. How rarely do we stop to examine that path, to see the reasons why all things happen, to consider whether the path we take in life is our own making or simply one into which we drift with eyes closed? 

Mulder when you find me dead, my dessicated corpse propped up staring lifelessly through the telescope at drunken frat boys peeing and vomiting into the gutter, just know that my last thoughts were of you… and how I’d like to kill you.

Snake handling. I didn’t learn that in catechism class.

I guess it was too much to hope for. It was my last chance.

No, I just… I just want to get warm.

I won’t let you go alone

But, we don’t know that it was, but you don’t have a picture of it or anything.

Mulder… No no no no no sorry. Then you were frozen and I remember I hugged you until you were not frozen anymore…

I remain forever yours - Dana.

I once had a talk with Mulder about starlight. How it’s billions of years old. Stars that are now long dead whose light is still travelling through time. It won’t die, that light. Maybe that’s the only thing that never does. He said that’s where souls reside. I hope he’s right.

Oh, my God. Don’t do that to me. Do you know…? Do you have any idea what you’ve been through?

From the moment I became pregnant, I feared the truth… about how… and why. And I know that you feared it, too.

Why would I accept defeat? Why would I accept it, if you won’t? Mulder, you say that you’ve failed, but you only fail if you give up. And I know you - you can’t give up. It’s what I saw in you when we first met. It’s what made me follow you… why I’d do it all over again.

Ugh, scratchy beard!  

This stubbornness of yours, it’s why I fell in love with you.

I don’t know there’s a choice.

I’m old-school, Mulder. Pre-Google.   

I’m a doctor. You can tell me anything.

Mulder, the Internet is not good for you.

You’re bat-crap crazy!

Nobody but the FBI’s most unwanted. I’ve been waiting 23 years to say that!

Originally posted by thegatw

[You know how some argue that Thor’s terms for letting Loki out of prison were actually reasonable and there was totally something substantial in it for Loki because he was promised vengeance on the being that killed his mother?

Well, actually, he was not going to get that either until Kurse turned out to be too powerful for even Thor and Loki, not according to plan, stepped in and saved Thor + killed Kurse.

Think about it. Thor promises Loki vengeance upon the one that killed Frigga and afterward his cell again for thousands of years.

But that is okay. At least Loki gets to be satisfied with avenging Frigga’s death, right? Wrong.

The Svartalfheim plan turned out to be tricking Malekith and Kurse into thinking Loki turned on Thor, having Malekith draw out the Aether, surprising Malekith by Loki cancelling his illusions, and destroying the Aether via Thor’s lightening. If the plan went south, which it did since the Aether is an Infinity Gem and cannot be so easily destroyed, Thor was the one who was supposed to, on his own, take out Kurse.

Why do I say this?

Because, when running to and kneeling beside Loki’s body after Kurse is killed by the activated void bomb, Thor says, “You fool, you fool. You didn’t listen.”

Loki was not supposed to tangle with Kurse, apparently, because every other part of the plan he pulled off as instructed/plotted. It seems, that Thor was to be the one to take down Kurse, likely due to Kurse’s almost insurmountable brute strength. Loki didn’t listen, and stepped into the fray between Thor and Kurse.

But where does that leave Loki in the scheme of things, and in the terms of the original plan/agreement? Assisting Thor in saving the world by helping him escape Asgard and dupe Malekith, as well as dispatching Malekith’s men, but getting no personal vengeance on Kurse, as was promised, and being returned to prison for eternity anyway. Yeah; ouch.

There are 500,000 reasons Thor: The Dark World hurts. This is just one of them.]

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Torturer?

     Miles isn’t exactly… merciful, when he’s going after Murkoff people. If they had any exposure to the Engine or any of the projects even tangentially related to it, he can use the Walrider to mess with their heads for days before he actually kills them. The deaths themselves are fairly quick (when he’s possessed, Miles loses what little patience he has), but he’s been known to get a bit brutal.

     He’d hesitate to label his actions as torture or murder or serial killing because of how staunchly he’s tried to justify it all, but in spite of how “deserving” his victims may be, it’s hard to sugar coat what he’s done.

//A sort of Analysis on Orihara Izaya and Kida Masaomi

Kida loves girls.
Izaya loves humans.
Saki was abused and didn’t have a family, so Izaya was kind of like a paternal figure to her. Saki still smiled(though at times it was creepy as hell) and nothing ever seemed to bother her.
Shinra’s family situation was odd, and his mother and father were divorced, so at first Celty was like a maternal figure to Shinra. Still, he also constantly smiled like nothing ever seemed to bother him(though in that scene with him about to kill Aoba with a scalpel… *cough*).

Saki allowed herself to be a puppet for the one she loved or worshipped, with an inability to hate her abusers and user. She could read straight through Masaomi. Later in life, she was neutral to Izaya, and didn’t have a good nor bad opinion of Izaya, yet still seemed to get along with him.
Shinra said he didn’t mind being a puppet for the one he loved. And he could read both Celty and Izaya like a book. And Shinra neither hates nor really likes Izaya(though they are best friends), because Izaya just remains true to his desires as Shizuo just remains true to his emotions. And Shinra couldn’t hate Kujiragi and could remain happy because of his love for Celty.

Saki is Yandere.
Shinra is Yandere as well.
Masaomi is a coward kept running away from his feelings of guilt.
Izaya is a coward that rejects or denies his feelings of guilt.

When Saki was still (willingly)under the impression of Izaya, Masaomi greatly suggested to her that she ought to be her own person and try to fix that flaw of her unwavering trust in Izaya. Meanwhile, Masaomi was also into problems of his own with dabbling in a street gang, which would lead to attacks to and from an opposing gangs which would lead to a thirst for revenge which would lead to Saki being hurt.
When Shinra was under the influence of Celty, Izaya was actually sighing at Shinra’s willingness to be used and be a puppet and told him, “you’re hopeless.” Meanwhile, Izaya was involved in gambling at that time, which would lead to a personal vengeance from somebody else (however, Nakura had no reason to stab Izaya considering that Nakura was fully to blame for choosing gamble away his own money)which would lead to Shinra getting hurt.

Izumii broke Saki’s leg (when she fully willingly allowed herself to get hurt to stop the war for Masaomi) in an attempt to scare Masaomi and make him meet him.
Nakura stabbed Shinra(who fully willingly allowed himself to be stabbed to impress Celty and be a supposed hero and to stop a fight) in an attempt to scare Izaya and get him to return his money.

Masaomi strongly spites Izumii, and the feelings are returned for SOME of the same reasons.
Izaya obviously spites Nakura and Nakura spites what Izaya has done to him.
Izumii had major family problems.
Nakura obviously had some kind of family problems as well.
Masaomi’s parents had no problem with him being in a gang or dropping out of school.
Izaya seemed to have a lack of parenting, and his parents were never around and were constantly overseas.

Masaomi failed to protect Saki, and couldn’t bring himself to go after her because he was afraid. Kadota ended up taking her to the hospital. Masaomi had fled.
Izaya failed to fight back to protect Shinra, and felt anxious and a sense of defeat back then. Somebody else ended up taking Shinra to the hospital. Izaya also had fled the scene.

Izaya vowed to live his life making Nakura regret hurting Shinra in return for Shinra to lie and say that it was he(Izaya) that stabbed him.
Masaomi wanted more than anything for Saki to blame him(though he would feel guilty either way), and Kadota lied to Saki to cover up what had really happened.

When Saki was in the hospital, Izaya came to visit her once in a while.(at that point there were things I’m guessing she was holding back from him, considering she also called Simon on him).
When Shinra had been stabbed(though he didn’t tell her the whole story back then and covered it up with another one), Celty was there to watch after him though for searching for her head she couldn’t always be there.

Saki seemed to know all along what had happened, and she didn’t blame Masaomi. She in fact acted like she understood. However, at first, Masaomi wanted to break up with Saki to keep her from getting hurt.
Shinra never really saw Izaya to blame for him getting stabbed. At points, you can tell that Izaya genuinely wonders why Shinra wants to stay friends with somebody like him.

Kida founded Yellow scarves, was titled as ‘Shogun’ and stayed despite the growing numbers to fit in.
Izaya founded a Biology Club, titled as ‘Vice President’, so he could observe Shinra and had started gambling and ignored complaints about Nakura and allowed anybody to partake in the gambling.
(Being as innocent as they were when they originally formed those things, at the time, they didn’t really think about it.)

Before meeting Saki, none of the relationships Masaomi had with any other girl ever lasted. Masaomi was beginning to want somebody in his life that would actually stay around.
Before meeting Shinra, Izaya was never emotionally attached to people even though he was a top model student; he was getting tired of seeing the same old stuff, “pretty soon there was less to see”.

Saki, who basically worshiped Izaya, approached Masaomi under Izaya’s word because she trusted him just that much.
Shinra, who had been greatly influenced by Celty, approached Izaya(somebody) under suggestion of Celty to make friends.

Kida was suspicious of Saki at first, but went along, though he also had a huge uneasy feeling shortly before and after meeting Izaya. Kida couldn’t read Saki and expected her to leave and not to stick around.
Something about Shinra irked yet intrigued Izaya, but he couldn’t place his finger on it until later. He couldn’t read Shinra at all and was surprised when he didn’t turn out like everybody else and leave him(likely out of boredom)
It was the first time that both people were used to such an interaction with somebody else.

Masaomi went back to the Yellow Scarves for various reasons, which caused more distance between Mikado, Anri and him in the long run. And the distance between him and his best friend only kept growing, and Mikado nearly lost his life partially because of it.

Izaya, for some reason or another, got the gambling club back together in high school, which led to further problems down the road. Izaya and Shinra only kept growing more distant. Izaya and Shinra rarely talked to each other, and because of where his own selfish interests were taking him, Izaya nearly betrayed Shinra’s happiness.

When under stress, Masaomi verbally tried to attack Anri, his best friend’s crush, (he may or may not have loved her a little, though not as much as he loved Saki) accusing her of leading him on while sleeping around with Mikado. She got defensive and slapped him, running off. He then fell against the wall, asking himself what he was even doing.
Izaya accuses Celty, his best friend’s crush, of influencing Shinra to the point of him not caring about humans. It actually pointed out that it seemed like he was trying to intimidate her. A short while later he laughs and laughs before punching a telephone pole when he realizes(and tried to deny that he was afraid because) Shinra would probably be mad at him for involving Celty in his plans.
(Plus, both Celty and Anri have supernatural powers.)

After Saki got hurt and he fled her for two years, it seems like his flirting make have gotten worse as he tried to deceive and distract himself with other girls to the point you could say it sort of became obsessive at times, because he didn’t want to face her. However, after that two years they finally made up.
After Shinra got stabbed by Nakura, Izaya’s “love” for humans turned from passive to active and it seemed keep getting more and more obsessive. Shinra was said to live above the world in Izaya’s mind. Considering that it was partially Izaya’s fault that Celty’s head awoke in the end, and that Izaya seemed desperate to get away from Ikebukuro especially when Kine mentioned Shinra. It was obvious that he didn’t want to face Shinra either(in fact, I don’t think he had even wanted to dare face him after he had punched the telephone pole back in volume 9) and was fine bleeding to death. Because he felt he “love” was far away and unattainable. However, there is a possibility that, after the two year timeskip between Durarara!! and Durarara!!SH(hoping for a return of Nakura wherever he went :T), Shinra and Izaya will be able to properly make up as best friends(like Masaomi made up with both Mikado and Saki( and Anri too of course :) ), but I will still always have my own strange one-sided IzaShin theories. Izaya was only ever true to his desires, not his emotions(which includes his very very brittle heart).
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“ You’re afraid, aren’t you? If she wakes up, you might be blamed for your part in this for the rest of your life.”
“…”
“But what would happen if she dies without ever waking up? Wouldn’t that be a lifetime of guilt for you? I suppose it would be, knowing you. So whether she lives or dies, you’re left with the guilt on your conscience.”
“…”
The boy fell silent. Izaya turn to him and gently spoke words of comfort. It was as if he was pulling out the forgiveness in the girl’s stead. But the actual content of those words was anything but warm.
“You can’t escape it, no matter how you struggle. No matter where you go, the past will always follow you. No matter if you die and let it all disappear, the past will always be right behind you, chasing you down. Chasing, chasing, chasing, chasing… Do you know why?”
Izaya shrugged his shoulders, gesturing that even he could do nothing about this.
“Because it’s lonely. The past, memories, and outcomes are all lonely things. They want a companion.”
He stopped momentarily, leaned back against the wall, and gazed into the distance. 
“I don’t believe in God. Because its existence is anything but certain.”
“…”
“In a world where even the future is uncertain, the past is a great and mighty thing- because it surely existed.” he said, the grand concepts belied by the matter-of-fact tone in his voice. “Sometimes, I even think that the accumulation of the past itself should be ‘God’ to mankind.”
Simple, so simple.
“Even if the past is colored by mistakes and illusions that make it different from reality…as long as the person involved believes it, that past becomes the truth to them.”
He could have been speaking to anyone, or perhaps himself. But it almost seemed like he was talking to the silent girl on the other side of the glass.
“And if you use that past as the basis for your actions and your way of life, wouldn’t that make it a type of god?”
“I have no idea… What you’re trying to say,” the boy grunted, shaking his head in dead seriousness,“
Izaya sighed with the trace of a bitter smile. “You know perfectly well,” the informant agent said, his mouth twisted with pleasure, as he stared down at the trembling boy. “You cannot escape her anymore. Your guilt toward her will become your past, which means that, in a way, she has become your god.”
The boy was silent. He had no choice but to feel the impact of Izaya’s words. 
“She is absolute. But that’s not so bad, is it? After all…you love her, don’t you?”
Even as the boy accepted that truth, he wanted nothing more than to expel it from his being.

It was two days later that she regained consciousness.
When the girl, who had no family, opened her eyes at last, the boy was not there.

Masaomi Kida had fled from her.

Even though he knew, as Izaya said, he could never escape her. He couldn’t find an answer other than to run. That was his only reason.

• • •

Time passed.

The girl became Masaomi’s past, and thus she gripped his heart.

Even as she lived, she became the past.

- Durarara!! Light Novel, Volume 2
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(Keep in mind that in that in the Naritaverse, Izaya is basically the personification of humanity/man kind, so it’s possible that Izaya sees Shinra as his “god”. After all, he aspired to be just like Shinra and looked up to him. Unlike Shizuo, whom Izaya supposedly hates and envies, Shinra the first and only one that truly broke through Izaya’s world and saw and accepted the real him, and acknowledged the existence of his human heart when nobody else, not even Izaya himself, wanted or dared to acknowledge it.

To Izaya, Shinra confidently lived in a different world from anybody else all together. And he was the only one that remained basically untouchable to Izaya throughout all those years, the only person that truly ever made Izaya reconsider anything, by just being him and not acting against him or against anything, but rather, for somebody, not being swayed and hurt by humans. The person that gave Izaya a purpose and the only person that ultimately affected Izaya’s formation in a “significant way”, or that is what Izaya believes, which means that he believes Shinra getting stabbed had far greater of an effect on him than anything or any events related to even Shizuo.

anonymous asked:

nobody came to my little brother's 9th birthday party. will you?

Why of course! And I will personally WREAK VENGEANCE UPON ALL THE MISERABLE HUMANS WHO DID NOT ATTEND as well (I’m a bit short on money so that would be his birthday gift, if that’s alright)!