personal angers

@ fellow college student peeps, when you’re writing papers, do you feel like you do better or worse if you’re actively being critical or made angry by your chosen topic??? It’s a thing I’ve been thinking about a lot because I know in my experience, anger is such a toxic and unproductive headspace that I’ve never written against something and been able to produce above a middle B, while if I’m neutral or positive on it, I do much, much better. However I also know a few people in my life have gotten very good grades and works from writing against something. So now I’m curious, academia peeps following me!

anonymous asked:

snowed in (in a cabin) - with nemesis Taehyung

what even is a nemesis.

“They said to stay put, most of the cabins are snowed in, so we might be stuck here for a while.”

You tuck your phone away and sigh, wondering how long you can keep the fire going and whether one of you will murder the other before then.

“This is the worst,” Taehyung scowls as if you personally angered the weather gods.

You’re the worst.”

“This is the opposite of a Christmas miracle,” he complains. “You’re the opposite of a Christmas miracle.”

And maybe you had angered some higher power, because just two days ago you could not have imagined a worse fate than being stuck in a cabin with your self-declared arch nemesis and both your families. But now karma must well and truly be out for your ass because everyone but you two drove back into town for supplies, and now you’re snowed in with the bastard!

“Shut up.” Your defence is lacklustre, as you sink into the sofa with your head in your hands. This was not by any stretch how you had imagined your holiday, you were tired of arguing, and the disappointment was starting to really get to you.

For a moment everything is blissful and silent. The fire crackles, and the wind whistles outside, but the bickering had finally stopped.

“You okay?” You feel the sofa dip beneath your shared weight. “Hey, I’m scared too, but–”

“No, oh my god, I’m stuck here with you!” Your frustration has reached its boiling point and you don’t know whether to laugh or cry.

Taehyung deflates, picking up a cushion to fiddle with while pointedly avoiding your gaze. “Why do you hate me?”

“What, I don’t– I don’t know. Same reason as you hate me, I guess.” You look down at your hands in your lap, just in time to miss Taehyung looking up at you in surprise.

“I don’t hate you.”

You can’t help but laugh bitterly, “Then why ha–” Only when you look back up at him, Taehyung’s face betrays a sincerity you hadn’t previously thought him capable of. “What?”

“I don’t hate you?” He’s almost smiling.

“Then why are we always fighting?”

“Because you hate me.”

“I don’t hate you.”

“Oh.”

For a while that’s all either of you can say.

“Oh.”

The wind whistles, the fire crackles, and all you can do is laugh.

autistic people using big words and “clinical” sounding language because they feel it to be the most effective means of communication is so often perceived by allistics as pretension. autistics are then made fun of for this use of language which can be incredibly damaging and often causes autistics to retreat further into themselves as any attempts they make to communicate with allistics cause them to be punished
so in general if you don’t like the way someone speaks (especially if you know for a fact that they’re autistic) maybe don’t make fun of them and instead do your best to understand and communicate with them in a way that’s beneficial to you both

“These women fight with unmatched savagery! I’ve never seen their equal. They are… perfect warriors.” - Grom Hellscream

BPD diaries

Being borderline feels like you have two people inside of you. You shoved all of the trauma and abuse into one corner of yourself for so long that it metastasized and grew until it took over half of you. And now you’re constantly at war with this creature that you hate, yet that you can’t help but feel compassion for; that monster inside of you… you know it’s only a product of all of the pain you fed it.

Being borderline… feels like having two souls. One is genuine and kind and so, so loving. The other is malicious and cruel and so, so hateful. But a body doesn’t have enough room for two souls, and you can never decide which is yours.

  • Me: I think I'm gonna work on being a better person by letting go of my anger
  • Some asshole: *does unnecessary stupid shit for no goddamn reason*
  • Me: It's time 2 murder

jonathan: *comforts his brother who feels like a freak* *doesnt want to go to a party bc classmates dont like him* * strongly hints at having social anxiety* *enjoys photography bc he doesnt have to talk to people, which makes him anxious* *protects those he loves*

yall demons: “god how pretentious when will he shut the fuck up”

friendly reminders:

- it is not practical to revolve your life around one thing, one person, one problem, etc.
- understand that it is NOT ALWAYS about your grades; most of the time, it is the things that you have learned and kept inside your heart.
- sometimes, all you need is passion, love, and perseverance in order to harvest good outcomes.
- it is alright not to feel okay!!
- there are some things and people in your life that are not meant to be yours forever
- let go of toxic people because instead of helping you grow, they might be the ones who will bring you down
- crying over certain things when you’re vulnerable does not make you weak.
- there’s a huge difference between falling in love with the thought of falling in love and falling in love with the person
- non-conformity is not ‘weird’ and it’s true that being ‘normal’ gets exhausting sometimes
- always find time to contact and leave messages to important people in your life
- do not permit the opinion of one person to alter your entire life
- do not change for people who are not willing to move forward with you
- nothing beats being the most genuine version of yourself
- failure is part of becoming a better person.
- do not permit anger to rule over your permanent decisions in life
- try to be kinder in everything that you do
- you cannot please everyone!!
- do NOT apologize for being yourself
- things do get better. you will heal and get better.
- this probably wouldn’t matter in ten years