personal CRISIS

How soon hath Time the suttle theef of youth,
Stoln on his wing my three and twentith yeer!
My hasting dayes flie on with full career,
But my late spring no bud or blossom shew'th.
—  John Milton has a personal crisis about his lack of achievement at the age of 23.
I got the job!

But there is a dark side to this. They told me it is necessary to shave. SHAVE.

All my life I have desired a well-rounded collection of facial hair, and now that that dream stands close to reality, I am forced to make a decision. I know the right decision is to just accept the job and keep stubble, but the thought of shaving this hounds my thoughts like a shadow. 

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That’s right, I just used a GIF. Possibly the first time ever.

OMFG BOYS!

seriously why do they either have to have everything or nothing?? YOU’RE AN ODD LITTLE SPECIES AREN’T YOU.

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Personal Crisis

After 3 weeks (and a lot of money) I’ve finally recovered all the data from my broken external hard drive. That also means I also have recovered the draft of next chapter of Fields of Gold. It’s coming 😉

Currently going through an identity crisis.

It’s been so long since I last watched a super cute shoujo anime… I feel like shonen has taken over my life ;w;

(more specifically, this little guy has taken over my life T^T)

Can anyone recommend a shoujo anime to me? Something like Lovely Complex or Kimi Ni Todoki? Please? I feel like one day I’ll wake up as a boy who only dreamed that he was a girl, and I won’t even be surprised. *cries*

anonymous asked:

Hello. My mom has fibromyalgia and I see what she goes through and it really sucks. I'm very sorry you're having to suffer. You do amazing things and I, personally, am grateful that you share your experience with the world. I hope things get better.

Thank you so much, that means a lot to me. I really needed this today. I’ve been considering just shutting down this blog tbh bc I worry that I’m not doing any good and that relying on tumblr to distract me from my pain is bad bc it keeps me from doing things that will make me money. But I cannot be relied on to do a whole lot that makes money bc I’m so sick all the time. Tumblr I can just ignore if I have to if I feel horrible (which is most of the time) and I can just pick it back up again when I’m in need or if I feel better. But I worry that tumbling while sick is bad bc I my brain isn’t always on it and I worry about doing harm. Fuck, this whole thing is just such a mess. I’m definitely having a bit of a crisis today. :’(

Another Personal Update

So things didn’t go as planned and I’m up to my eyeballs in stress. Well… waayyy more than that, but you get my point. My would-be future roommate’s dealing with a lot of shit, so the plan to get an apartment together fell through. I don’t blame him. I know enough of what he’s been dealing with and it’s probably about at the same level that my situation is.

So while he figures his stuff out, that leaves me to figure my stuff out. It’s going to be a real struggle through hell, to be honest. I’m not going to bore everyone with the details, but I’ll just say that I’m under the iron fist of an overbearing, super controlling, textbook narcissistic mother, and I’ve been damn near fighting for my life for a good number of years.

In the meantime, I’ll be job hunting so I can earn my own income and figure out where to live/if I’m even capable of living on my own. I have a really great support system of friends out there, some who have offered me a place to stay in case the homefront gets… intolerable… so no matter what happens, I know I’ve got places I can go to in times of need.

I’m going to keep apologizing, for what it’s worth. I figured a hiatus would be better so I could clear my head instead of forcing myself to write and end up with potentially shitty material. You guys and your positive feedback mean the world to me, and it’d be disrespectful to not offer my best for you in return. 

Again, I want to thank everyone profusely for putting up with me and my absence, and I hope to return in good condition at a later time. Much love to you all <3

GUYS HELP ME.

So my mom asked me to choose between a trip to New York or London for my 18th birthday.

First of all, I love her so much for even letting me do this omg THANK YOU MOTHER YOU ARE THE BEST. BLOODY BRILLIANT YOU ARE. But second of all, WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?! How the frak do I choose between them?! My dreams, holy crap!

Broadway or West End? Times Square or Trafalgar? Liberty or the Big Ben? NYC pizza or authentic english tea? Empire State or the Buckingham Palace? I’ve always wanted to go to London. Like forever now, seriously. It’s my dream okay. I mean hello, LONDON (Sherlock Holmes dreams). And I’ve been to New York in 2004. But come on it’s frickin New York! Broadway! Aaron! NEW YORK. NEW. YORK.

What do you think guys? NYC or London?