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Thank you

for all the sweet messages I’ve gotten. I’m sorry if I made any of you worry. I was in a really bad place after the episode, and to be quite honest I’m not feeling my best right now either, but I’m doing a lot better. I’m sorry if anyone thought I was rude to the anon, but I said I needed time because this episode was not good for me (and even if I hadn’t said I literally do this for free and I got home from school 30 minutes ago) so please don’t be rude or demanding?
I had to watch the episode 3 times over to add the subtitles, and with this one that wasn’t at all easy.. But it’s rendering right now and I’ll upload it as soon as it’s done ♥ 

rejected star trek timelines characters:
  • romulan grandpa piss 
  • blep spocko 
  • soaked sarek 
  • charlee x
  • rekt riker
  • plaid gay kirk 
  • greek goddess uhura 
  • greek goddess chapel
  • whale mom gillian taylor 
  • lieutenant janice rand
  • lal soong *gross sobbing* 
  • watermelon shirt garak 
  • frilly romance movie shirt kirk 
  • black undershirt bones 
  • kolinahr spock 
  • goddess of empathy deanna troi 
  • traditional betazoid wedding lwaxana troi
  • ressikan flute picard 
  • the borg queen
  • dr. zimmerman
  • literally any form of guinan

dan: (about yandere-chan) I AM THE FLASH

me: haha cool joke

me, internally: MY NAME IS BARRY ALLEN AND I AM THE FASTEST MAN ALIVE. WHEN I WAS A CHILD I SAW MY MOTHER KILLED BY SOMETHING IMPOSSIBLE. MY FATHER WENT TO PRISON FOR HER MURDER. THEN AN ACCIDENT MADE ME THE IMPOSSIBLE. TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD I’M AN ORDINARY FORENSIC SCIENTIST BUT SECRETLY I USE MY SPEED TO FIGHT CRIME AND FIND OTHERS LIKE ME. AND ONE DAY I’LL FIND WHO KILLED MY MOTHER AND GET JUSTICE FOR MY FATHER. I AM THE FLASH. previously on the flash

isthisrubble  asked:

hi, with the 'spock is coded' thing (sorry my vocab may be a bit off), I always assumed spock was coded as autistic? is that something that you've encountered anywhere else? like I definitely see the queer & jewish coding, but am I alone in adding autism to the list? (I've only watched aos in case that makes a difference)

You’re definitely not alone in this, I’ve seen many posts discussing why Spock is autistic. However, this is—to the best of my knowledge—something I see with AOS Spock significantly more than TOS Spock. My understanding of this is because TOS Spock comes off as someone who “assimilated” into allistic society much more smoothly, whereas AOS Spock……didn’t. Does this mean AOS Spock ever will? Not necessarily. He seems perfectly happy the way he is, and he can grow and develop in other ways that don’t meet allistic-normative standards. Also they’re different characters, and while I do see basis for both Spocks being autistic, it seems to be much more common for people to discuss it with AOS Spock. 

The Star Trek characters I see the most autistic headcanons/interpretations of are Data, Julian Bashir, Seven of Nine, Chekov, Odo, Worf, and Rom. All of these seem legit, as well as both Spocks and many other characters who fall on the hyperempathy side of the spectrum (Bones, Uhura, Deanna Troi, and Kira Nerys). But really, if an autistic person says that character is autistic, they probably are. And if enough autistic people repeat those same ideas and agree/add their own takes to it, they absolutely are. 

sadiedoyleparker  asked:

Im glad that you talk so much about Judaism but i was wondering if there were things that people do that are nonsemitic and offensive without realizing it? I just want to be more aware of what i say and how i say things. Its okay if you don't answer this/take a while to answer. Either way, thank you and have a nice day

Yes, there absolutely are. This is a rather extensive list of antisemitic aggressions (micro or otherwise) that goyim perpetrate and don’t seem to find antisemitic. 

Adding to that list from my own personal experiences:

  • “You’re not a REAL Jew because [insert reason that has absolutely nothing to do with how Jewish identity works].”
  • “Are you JEWISH Jewish, or Jewish?” (wtf does this even mean??????? goyim…..explain……)
  • “I have a Jewish [friend/neighbor/coworker/person I spoke to in an elevator for 3 seconds] and THEY don’t find it antisemitic!!!!!” (hint: they probably do, but calling people out is exhausting and not worth it in most cases.)
  • “You’re Jewish???? But you look Aryan!!!” (yeah thanks asshole, but having blue eyes and blonde hair wouldn’t have saved me or any other Jew who looks like that from the Holocaust. Also that term is still used in white supremacy groups today. Need I say more?)
  • [insert Yiddish or Hebrew word] is UGLY!” (language and our perceptions of language are 100% learned. There is nothing inherently “ugly” about either language. If you think that, you’re being antisemitic.)
  • “There are fewer Jews than there are [other minority group that gets erased even though that erasure has absolutely nothing to do with Jews]!!! How come THEY get all the attention and WE don’t?????” (hint: ace tumblr, please take 10 fucking seats. You’re hurting ace Jews in your own community, as well as all other Jews regardless of their orientations.) 
  • Any form of appropriating/bastardizing Jewish religion and/or culture, such as a “Christmas kippah.” But that’s a story for another time……… *eyerolls into another dimension* 

Antisemitism in fandom takes a similar form, but tends to be more focused on erasure of Jewish actors/characters/creators/content makers, not listening to Jewish fan’s perspectives, tone policing, identity policing, etc. rather than the broad, generalized antisemitism captured in the previous list. However, the intersection between fandom antisemitism and generalized antisemitism is inevitable, because it’s derived from the same source. To attempt to explain this in simple terms, I made a bingo chart of common antisemitic occurrences in fandom that have happened to both myself and other Jewish bloggers far too often. 

Hopefully this helped, sorry it got so long. I’ve been fighting against antisemitism my whole life, sometimes even in my own household. Like fighting any form of systematic oppression, it wears you out after some time.