I feel like ever since I've started a studyblr, my perfectionism anxiety has increased so much, that I've been so counter-productive in not only studying - but EVERYTHING I do. This past school year - when I first joined the studyblr community - I expected myself to be in my optimal state of productivity now that I could get motivated to study from pretty studyspo pics of desks and cute notes and stationary. At first it was only supposed to be 'motivation', but I developed a non-realistic & (1)
unnecessary mindset that if my notes didn’t look like these pics from my dashboard, I wasn’t doing it right because these studyblrs were so successful in their academics by studying like this. Eventually my academic goals focused on trying to CREATE the perfect notes - as if I were creating a painting - and NOT actually understanding the content I had to learn. I made my desk space look exactly like a generic studyspo study spot with an endless supply of colorful pens and cute printouts of (2)
calendars hung up on my wall. I spent less time studying there than time spent decorating it. I completely lost my initial motive of doing well in school prior to discovering the studyblr community. I spent less time trying to truly learn the content I had to learn because so much of my time was consumed in trying to dig out this unrealistic goal of perfection from my studying, which sort of leaked into other aspects of my life as well. Of course, I only reached this reflection of this past (3)
year after receiving my final exam marks (which, if you didn’t guess it, was absolutely terrible). It took me so long to realize how toxic the studyspo posts have been to my life, and now I’m spending this summer trying to reverse the mindset I have grown into. I know this message is so long, but I just wanted to give my two cents to anyone out there who may be struggling like I had this past year. I’m not saying that you should completely abandon the studyblr community, because aside from (4)
the aesthetic notes pics, there is extremely helpful study advice and tips here. I’m saying that you shouldn’t let these studyspo posts of ideal studying materials subconsciously allow you to create a toxic mindset that studying ISN’T done right if your stationary or your notes don’t live up to a certain standard. I’ve wasted SO. MUCH. TIME. because of this and I regret it SO much. Studying is about gaining knowledge. Don’t let the studyblr community change that definition. (5)
I feel you, anon. My video this week is actually about this very topic.