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Michael Jackson has met this Australian Chinese Freeman Chiu, who was born in Hong Kong, during the HIStory era. At that time, he made a MJ website. He told us on Aug. 29, 2015 when he met Michael, Michael gave him a strong handshake, and “thank you very much for coming guys,thank you.” He said Michael is unique and he admired MJ’s perfectionism.

Info via https://www.facebook.com/MJJCNchina 

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August 30th 2015 || #20

after what felt like a week of absolute procrastination, feelings of panic & stress which were not needed but still somehow felt, putting off literally everything despite creating a new goals list, at the verge of ripping my hair out because of perfectionism and utter frustration because of some classes,
I AM BACK!

this week I haven’t felt my best, I haven’t taken as good care as I used to, I didn’t feel like doing anything at all, I found myself in a devious loop which seemed like it didn’t want to end but I finally broke free. I have realized that motivation is a myth, there might be a spark of motivation every then and now but I’d never ever rely on motivation anymore. I rather rely on what I desire, what I want to work on, the people that inspire me to work hard, go out there, make things happen.

In the end it comes down to what my intentions are, what I desire, what I long for, the vision I have and then it comes to the work and commitment I want to put into what I want to work on, that’s all that matters. All that comes from within is what matters.

And what I really really want to achieve from within is a better report than last year, I want to improve in every class, I want to put myself out there, I want and I WILL achieve what I dream of because dreams don’t come true unless you act on ‘em. 💥

And from today on, I will fully commit to working on what I dream about, reach the goals I’ve set for myself not only academically but also in aspects of health and over all life. 👊

Good Luck & Happy Studying

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Top painting: totally from imagination when I started Art Camp 1, which is around the time I decided to start taking my desire to do visdev seriously, in late March of this year (2015), took a ridiculous number of hours at the time–almost the first time ever I sat down and tried to do an enviro

Bottom painting: Done today, took a fair number of hours, for an assignment in Art Camp 2, late August 2015

I FEEL LIKE I’M PRETTY IMPRESSED RIGHT NOW especially because I suffer from distorted judgement of my own work due to perfectionism. It’s nice to have things like this to force myself to see sense, meaning yes in fact if you do practice you will in fact improve

okay so maybe i do need to just get over my perfectionism and submit my damn writing to, um, anywhere, but shoutout to myself for my willingness to make huge revisions and scrap what isn’t working

Perfectionism is very addictive because it is very seductive. It’s so great to think ‘There’s a way I can do things where I can never be held in judgment by other people, that I can totally escape criticism.’ But it doesn’t work.

virgo are idealists at heart. and this is where the association with perfectionism comes in. it’s like virgos have a pristine idealism. to perceive the best that something can be, in put in a method to bring it into reality takes a wicked imagination and acute logic. but being mercury ruled and mutable can be confusing - just ask gemini. mercury can be deceptive, hence being known as the trickster. the mutable quality perceives multiple perspectives and can be a little unsteady. maybe the idea of what is perfect keeps changing. or he is too idealistic to feel content in reality. virgo is my favorite sign. i think they are as perfect as you could get, i wish they could see themselves the way i see them

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Jun Matsumoto → La Tormenta ♪

“He’ll abruptly start talking/ it’s so sudden/ He dances like a mollusc/ Without worrying about his surroundings, he starts swearing/ He has dark, strong features/ Over and over and over again/ "What should we do?“ At any time/ His passion takes off/ He’s always exceptional/ Noticing even the smallest mistakes, he’s Matsujun” (x)

hatressoflore asked:

Hi, I'm at the planning stages of something and really getting my teeth into the world and characters - but I have one huge prblem - the starting to never finish problem.With fanfiction, either I get negative reviews and fade out, or I get a feeling in my bones that the story's bad and take it down - the same thing happens with my original work. Any tips for overcoming this crippling perfectionism? I say I love to write but never actually finishing anything makes me feel I'll never be a writer.

Here’s the thing, Hatressflore. If you’re writing and do it because you enjoy it, then you’re already a writer.

We all experience those problems as some point in our lives. Where the editor comes out far too early and fills us with doubt before we can even get the finished work. I do have a few suggestions, and I encourage everyone to join in with them.

1: Work on the piece everyday: It can be two words, it can be an entire page, it can be more. It could simply be you reading through and fixing things. Its just important that the work stays as a constant reminder.

2: When you’re writing, turn off spell check: There’s fewer things more distracting than that little red line. And seeing it takes your focus off your work and onto the editing, which then adds in the doubt and makes you think you’re doing something wrong. It breaks the flow.

3: If you don’t like what you’ve written, fix it: It is absolutely never too late to fix something you’ve written. Even when its published on a website, you can go back in and replace a chapter with a revised version. Don’t think in the terms of “this sucks, I’m the worst.” Try “this doesn’t work. Let’s do it this way instead!” If you don’t like something but have no idea how to change it, you’re allowed to walk away and come back later. In some cases, that’s even your best option. Just remember to go back so you can look at it from a new perspective.

4: Use those negative reviews: There are two things negative reviews will be. opinions of that particular reader and actual critiques. If there’s nothing you can get out of the review to help you grow as a writer, then it’s someone shouting their opinion at you. You’re not going to please everyone with your writing and not everyone is going to take that gracefully. It’s just the way of the world, especially with the internet making it easy to forget that’s another person with their own thoughts and feelings.

5: Do not beat yourself up: I cannot stress this point enough. Probably one of the most dangerous things about creating something new is that nagging feeling that you’re doing it wrong. In turn, there will be moments you’ll want to listen. Don’t fall into the cracks and tell yourself you’re worthless because you haven’t written or you can’t bring yourself to finish a work. That’s only going to further your own self-hatred and cause you to work on it even less.

Always remember there is no such thing as the perfect writer. All the mistakes you make are simply you learning what doesn’t work so you can better figure out what does.

This is all the advice I have for now. I hope I was able to help! Happy Writing!

-Jay

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total nerd win this morning omg

my professor walked by my desk and like gasped and picked up my notebook and raved about my notes to the point where she held them up and told the class that they don’t need to do nearly as much as i did, but that they can learn from me

I am embarrassed but it was validating because I always put so much time into them 

Most perfectionists were raised being praised for achievement and performance (grades, manners, rule-following, people-pleasing, appearance, sports). Somewhere along the way, we adopt this dangerous and debilitating belief system: I am what I accomplish and how well I accomplish it. Please. Perform. Perfect.
Healthy striving is self-focused—How can I improve? Perfectionism is other-focused—What will they think?
—  Brene Brown

Being a perfectionist is a bit of curse. It discourages me from new pursuits, because if I don’t think I’ll naturally be good at, it becomes a waste of time, To a perfectionist, the old adage of “practice makes perfect!” is an exhausting taunt. It means hours of trying, falling short of personal goals I lack the skills to accomplish at that time. It means hours, days, weeks of facing repeated failures and feelings of inadequacy with the hope that someday, after enough blood, sweat, and tears I might be passable. But even then, there’s no guarantee that, for all my effort, I’ll be good enough to be satisfied—the toxic fear of perfectionists everywhere. Adequate, okay, decent, average. These are all words that cut through a perfectionist like a knife.

But that’s the problem. Our circular torment. Truth is, a perfectionist will never be good enough. Not to them. They can received all kinds of respect and approbation from others, and people may wonder why a perfectionist is so haughty to dismiss the praise they receive. You tell them they’re talented, the scoff, “No.” You tell them what they have produced or achieved is good, and they respond with, “It’s not enough.” Our harshest critic is ourself, the one person that will never be happy. That will never be completely satisfied.

As a writer, I come across someone better and it cripples me. It makes me think, ‘All this time and effort spent amounts to nothing. I will never be anything. I’m never going to be that good. Why did I even bother? Why should I even continue? It’s all just a complete waste.” Because I’m good. But I’m not great. I’m not perfect.

Objectively, it sounds whiny. It sounds arrogant, but it is a very real struggle for the perfectionist. “Fishing for compliments” or “Being dramatic”, sometimes even, “Full of shit” comes to mind in response to our voiced insecurities. People see “good” and can’t understand why that is torture for the perfectionist. Why it isn’t “enough.”

Every day is a struggle of looking in the mirror, going about life to the best of your abilities, feeling stuck in a mediocre shell, diminished by our limitations until we are so woefully defeatist. But we work hard, all with thoughts of inadequacy swirling in the back of our minds, because we physically can’t settle for anything less than our best effort, even if we look at the finished product like “This is complete crap. What am I doing with my life?” We are seldom proud of our work, hypersensitive to criticism, easily defeated. Every little mistake is a catastrophe.

All of this is, for the most part, internal. We’re see as over-achievers, workaholics, arrogant, self-absorbed, anal retentive, neurotic…but there is a very good reason. Don’t hate us, mock us, roll your eyes as we dismiss our abilities yet again. Pity us.

Perfectionism is a miserable trait. It is the root of all my anxieties and it’s been killing my ability to write lately. I apologize to all of you for that.