Recently I realised that my need to make “good” art was boxing me in, and I was losing my imaginative flair.
When we were kids we drew and scribbled whatever came to mind, and we coloured it however we wanted, and we went outside the lines, and it didn’t matter if the things we drew were totally two dimensional, because they had character. I used to draw these silly little cartoon crocodiles with one line and they were very very not what crocodiles look like but my dad loved them and I showed him every single one, with no embarrassment. I was proud of them.
So I’ve started scribbling again. I mean really scribbling. A lot doesn’t make “sense” and sometimes turns out “ugly” but I’m letting my imagination control my hand and not worry about the “quality” of it. And it’s So. Much. Fun. I’ve drawn aliens and landscapes and spaceships and old men and viking helmets and crystal earrings.
So if you’re an artist and you’re getting frustrated about not being “good enough” (because I know I was), then try to clear your mind and let your hand go wild, who cares if it ends up wonky, it’s your special brand of wonky.
Well, promotion for Blue is officially over! It’s sad that we didn’t get the boys a win, but I feel like we did succeed in some ways. I feel like slowly but surely, more people are beginning to take an interest. New babyz have been coming in, and new fansites apparently as well. There was also quite a bit of love from other fandoms as well. I still remember seeing tweets from ExoL’s and Carats about helping with Mcountdown voting. So many of them were just like “B.A.P really deserve it”. I just feel like, eventually, eventually B.A.P’s hard work will pay off and they will get the recognition they deserve.
Until they come back again, I am sending out my wishes for B.A.P. I hope that all the boys will be able to chase their individual dreams, with solo activities. Whether it be acting in a drama, doing variety, mcing, an ost, etc, I hope each member of B.A.P is able to test the waters and try whatever they want. I also hope that when they come back again, they’ll be allowed to promote longer than just a few weeks.
I hate that there wasn’t a huge Stydia reunion, but then I got to thinking. Those two probably talk every night. Lydia waits for Stiles to call because he loves being the one who makes the call and she loves him. They discuss their future at least once a week. They jokingly argue about who is going to get Scott in their wedding, but they both know they aren’t totally joking. They didn’t have to make up for lost time because there wasn’t any time lost between them. The small gestures were perfect. The hand holds and the smiles and the banter. Because that’s what makes Stydia, Stydia. They are two best friends who fell in love.