perfection in one human being


Zendaya is more than just a pretty face. She’s a beautiful human being and an amazing role model, and this is why I stan for her.

[update: finally got around to fixing the caption for the the photoshop and barbie photo’s. Thanks for letting me know @underbree@merlzii ]

Is it possible, in the final analysis, for one human being to achieve perfect understanding of another?
We can invest enormous time and energy in serious efforts to know another person, but in the end, how close can we come to that person’s essence? We convince ourselves that we know the other person well, but do we really know anything important about anyone?

I am so much more than the color of my skin..

& with it being 2017.
Having seen 25 birthdays.
Marrying the most gorgeous woman whose skin color is different than mine.
& together creating a little girl who has such a mixture in her & is the epitome of everything that is holy.
I’m both ashamed & conscious that even though the world is better..
This better isn’t even close to good enough.

0.1 millimeters.
Practically a sheet of paper difference.
We’ve allowed it to be cause for so much turmoil.
..when in truth, no one has more value than the other.
Because we all love.
We all hurt.
We all want a good life.
& the crazy thing is, it’s possible.
But with all the animosity because “their skin isn’t like ours.”
Good will never fully come.
0.1 millimeters.
Practically a sheet of paper difference.
You take that away.
& I ask you.. what will you judge me on?
My character?
My failures?
My faith?
My drive?
..because I will never be a perfect human being.
But I will always be one who strives to be better.
& though my mistakes can be catastrophic.
My redemption will always be more.

So I have to say it.
For the strangers that kill over the difference.
For the families that show indifference with the spouse, but love the kid without prejudice.
For those I know, who disagree with one’s choices in who they love because of that difference, so they make sure to never let anyone else make the same “bad choice” as long as they have a role to play.
& for myself, so that I never become a part of the problem.. so that my daughter can love & feel loved from all those around her.

..I am so much more than the color of my skin.

Dunesy needs to stop sneaking up on people like that. So rude.

Just to change your and my mood ….look at louis in the mirror… Tiny son always up for some mischief 😍


On May 27th, 2017 I met these wonderful human beings <3

Will replace images when I scan them when home next month.

Catherine Tate: She called me watermelon and it was just the sweetest things to hear from such a wonderful lady.

Donnie Yen: It was just amazing to be in the same convention as him! He is so nice.

Sophie Hopkins: She has the sweetest, cutest voice ever. Like, she was just pure cuteness. 

Fady Elsayed: He jumped over to have the photo and pulled a face that made me laugh. Which I had noticed he had his arms around me in more of a hug position, but I was too starstruck.

Greg Austin: He came straight over, shook my hand, asked me how I was and then told me, with the biggest smile on his face, “come on, let’s cuddle.” Sir, I could not love you more.

Hey there guys, this is Kae. 

Let me make it clear before you read on that this post is not McHanzo related so to speak, but it is fandom related. I just got back online after a three day long mental breakdown, and I want to talk about some things. It’s gonna be a long one.

The most important thing I want to talk about is this fandom. Before Friday, when I had the first breakdown of many last weekend due to real life stuff, there was a lot going on here and building up here. Nothing out of the ordinary for me and Lynn– some people treated us badly, we responded, and suddenly there was a witch-hunt in the tag for us. Happens all the time, no big deal, usually.

But it is a big deal to me right now. Why is that not out of the ordinary for me and Lynn? Why are we used to people treating us this way, acting as if every word we speak has to be scrutinised, or as if we need to act in a way that suits everyone, or not act at all?

I want the people who think this way of us to read these words carefully: We Are Not A Service. 

We are not an official blog. We represent no one but ourselves, and we never claimed otherwise. We are just two human beings running a blog and trying to have a good time with a community who shares our interest.

Yet every time we try to do something, spanning as far back as when we brought in the Artist and Author directory or the Spotify playlist, we see hate in the tag here, or on twitter, or sent to us anonymously, because we’ve apparently done something wrong. 

Now, sometimes, when we know the source, we know what the real issue is. But if all we see is people insulting myself and Lynn as people because of the way we’ve said something or worded something, or because we acted in a way somebody didn’t like and word travels from person to person that we’re suddenly horrible, we can’t possibly know how to respond.

I had a talk with someone today who had some things about myself and Lynn miscommunicated to them by other people, who probably heard from someone else, etc, etc. When I heard what their grievances were with us and I helped clear up where they were wrong and where they were right, I feel like it was a good conversation. This person learned something about who we really are as people, and I got some constructive criticism rather than mindless hate. 

The things to be learned from that conversation are, first of all, that you can always approach me and Lynn if you have some constructive criticism. Don’t assume that someone else has and that we’ve just ignored them. I can tell you that 100% of the time thus far, we need input, because nobody just comes straight up and tells us, “Hey, I think you could do this better this way,” or something. 

Secondly, do not believe everything you hear about us. This person today heard a weird rumour that people who ship certain other ships (such as McReyes, in this case) were not going to be allowed in our McHanzo Zine. I don’t even know where that rumour came from– I ship McReyes myself, why would I do that? If you’ve heard something and you’re worried, just ask us. 

The third, learned not only by that conversation, but by my entire experience running this blog, is to try to remember that me and Lynn are just people. We have feelings, we’re not all-knowing, we’re not perfect. We do not always know if there’s a problem unless you tell us. We get things wrong sometimes and we are 100% capable of owning that and improving. Please, please don’t assume that we do not care. We see all tagged hate both here and on Twitter because we check the tags for content. It hurts when it’s personal. 

I am just getting pretty tired, my friends, which is why I’m making this post. These last few days, when I tried to come online to escape what’s happening in my life right now, all I came back to was hate, drama, and more hate, and a lot of it very personally directed at us as people. I was this close to quitting this blog, dropping the Zine, deleting Discord, etc. But then I remembered that I used to have so much fun doing this, I really did. It isn’t fun right now, and I mean that when I say it. But it can be again sometime. 

I know some of what I’m feeling has something to do with the fact that my mental health is literally in the drain right now because of things in my life, but the fact that I care about this blog has not helped, because that makes it hurt even more when the personal attacks come in.

But yeah, in summary– yes, we fuck up. No, we are not always aware of it, because we are human beings and no one is perfect. People rarely bring it to our attention when we do, and instead they complain and tag hate, which spreads, and creates an impression of us as people that others begin to think is true. This can be solved by just talking to us. 

I really mean it. Just talk to us, cause I promise you we are listening.

anonymous asked:

So I just found out why YouTube did what they did the reason is because pewdiepie on his channel posted Hitler Anthoms he paid 2 guys in India to hold up signs saying Jews deserve to die and he also did a couple more horrendous things I was so disappointed in him because I had been there since the beginning so I understand it might be a shock but it is true thwart is why YouTube did what they did

I’m very well aware of what Felix did. However, what other people seem to not understand is that they were these little things called jokes. You see, some people have trouble understanding this concept.

On top of that, there is this thing called “context”. For example, the context behind his actions on Fiverr was: “People will do terrible things for as little as $5″. He also apologized and owned up to his actions. Every time Felix has been called out for something he’s owned up to it and admitted his fault. Why? Because he recognizes that things sometimes go too far.

Here’s why I’m so pissed about this: Everyone and their mother knows how much time, energy, and money was spent by not only him, but his friends as well, in the making of the season 2 of Scare PewDiePie. This whole thing is not only screwing him over, but also the people who were in it. (Ex.: Mark, Jack, etc.) 

YouTube is only pulling this because they’re afraid of people who make it an occupation to be offended for others. (Ethan from h3h3 touched on the topic in this video.)

Anyways, I’m sure this didn’t really make a difference to you, but I felt the need to explain this. What people seem to forget is that Felix is more than just pixels on a screen; he is a human being. No one is perfect. Are some imperfections bigger than others? Absolutely. That doesn’t mean he deserves to have his right to create taken from him.


Is it possible, in the final analysis, for one human being to achieve perfect understanding of another? We can invest enormous time and energy in serious efforts to know another person, but in the end, how close can we come to that person’s essence? We convince ourselves that we know the other person well, but do we really know anything important about anyone?
—  Haruki Murakami, The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle

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“She understood her worth which made her powerful. The world gravely needed a hero so she became one. No superpowers really; just a strong woman who took no shit from anyone” [x]