perfection in a bottle

If some lives form a perfect circle, other take shape in ways we cannot predict or always understand. Loss has been part of my journey. But it has also shown me what is precious. So has love for which I can only be grateful.
—  Message In A Bottle by Nicholas Sparks

anonymous asked:

U know, because I see Peridot as an emotional strong character, she doesn't seems to breakdown easily, plus with her optimistic nature and high selfesteem no wonder she's always ok, or she's just trying to appear strong.

I’m honestly convinced that this point that she’s perfected the art of bottling things up.

I mean, she has shown a lot of emotion in the past but I get the impression that she doesn’t actually like to do this in front of others (hence why she looked away from Steven whilst shedding a tear in Gem Drill, for instance).

She’s very up-beat a lot of the time and I do think that she’s genuinely happy now that she’s settled with Lapis, but at the same time, she probably feels awful about some of the things that she’s done in the past.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.