The Rebound | Newt Scamander x Reader
You and Newt had decided to go your separate ways. No one could quite believe that, since you two seemed like the perfect match. You couldn’t believe it either, you genuinely thought he was the one for you, the one you would start a family with. It turns out that going around the globe, not being able to stay in the same place for more than a few months or even weeks, wasn’t ideal. It also meant that you either had to stop working for a long period of time, devoting your time completely to him and his creatures, or that you would never see enough of each other. You decided that it wasn’t the life you wanted for yourself. Either desperate housewife or being in a long distance relationship.
You began resenting each other quite a lot, taking your time building little theories in your heads, or having huge fights. The relationship grew more and more cold each day, until there was barely anything left. You still cared deeply for each other, that’s why you sill fought. Those outbursts of passion were the only thing capable of showing how much you still cared for each other, since nothing else seemed to be working. You couldn’t believe how both of you were so calm and sweet once. Now all you saw was red. Every time you met his eyes you felt this anger rally up inside you, ready to burst out at any given time.
It was quite easy to get lost in those fights. One scream louder than the previous one, one word harsher than the other. The sound of complete heartbreak feeling the home you once built out of nothing but love for each other. Companionship was ruined, like it never existed. Unfortunately, as you both found out, you couldn’t run a healthy relationship solely on love. So that was it, possibly forever.
You walked out your home, closed the door behind you trying to control both the anger and the tears. You felt frustrated and furious.
You decided you needed to take your time, making sure you were giving yourself enough space to heal. Except your definition of healing wasn’t all that healthy. You drowned yourself in alcohol for a few days before feeling like you could face the world once again. It didn’t take long for you to find comfort in another man’s sheets. You just wanted so desperately to forget the whole thing, it really didn’t matter who you were with, all it mattered was the short term satisfaction that they could provide you. The faster the better.
So off you went, searching for another easy way to feed your hunger, to ease the pain in your chest, a way to possibly forget the man you once loved so desperately with another man’s body. It felt better for five minutes before it felt worse all over again. This wasn’t who you were but you couldn’t care less. You wanted the thrill of the chase more than anything else. You also wanted to know you could make other people crave you, since things with Newt were so cold for so long.
Days turned to months and it was finally time to see him again. Of course you didn’t want to, but you couldn’t miss Queenie and Jacob’s big dinner party. They were hosting their first party at their house and they couldn’t be happier. You were thrilled for them, they really did love each other and the whole world knew it.
Queenie and Tina were quite concerned about you, they would take out every Saturday to a “girl’s day”, as they called it. You enjoyed spending time with them and knew they were worried sick about you, so you complied.
As you walked into Jacob and Queenie’s house you couldn’t help but feel overwhelmed. It was the perfect home, it matched their personalities as well as it did their love for each other. But you couldn’t help but feel slightly sad, this brought you back to the house you and Newt shared, to the cold nights and all of the fights, but also to the lovely moments you had shared, when love, friendship and happiness danced around the living room with you.
You greeted everybody and kept to yourself instantly. You grabbed yourself a cocktail and decided to look around the flat, unsupervised. As you were walking down the hallway you saw Newt. Your body froze but your mind was telling you to turn around before he saw you. You didn’t so you decided to put on a brave face and just talk to him like any regular human would.
“Hello, nice to see you” you said, as cold as ice. You didn’t intended to come out so cold, but you also couldn’t help yourself. You wanted to get a reaction out of him. You could tell his eyes were bitter and he didn’t even bother to smile before he answered.
“Hello…” he paused for a while, looking at you and your glass. “Surprised you could make it” he said immediately.
You couldn’t believe him! What the hell was wrong with him? This was the first time you guys had seen each other in months and he was being flat out rude. What the hell did he meant by that? Well, he was a still mad, that was for sure.
“What does that mean, Newt?” the frown lines in your forehead gave you away. You were pissed.
“You know exactly what I mean” he said, bitterly.
“Well, I clearly don’t. Could you explain?” you replied sarcastically.
“I know you’ve been quite busy every night, so I wasn’t sure if you would take the night off to be with you friends” his tone accusatory.
You had no idea how he knew about it or who told him but you were absolutely gutted.
“Oh…” you smiled bitterly “I don’t think that’s any of your business” you said quickly, not wanting to let him know how confused you were.
“Yeah… Not anymore… I guess” he looked to the floor and rushed out of the way, meeting everybody else in the living room.
You suddenly felt all those unresolved feelings bubbling up inside you. The anger, the love, the frustration. Everything coming to you. You couldn’t help but shed a tear, so you decided it was best to head to the bathroom. It was all hitting you, after all the time you spent trying to hide your thoughts and feelings, they had finally caught up to you and you could swore you forgot how to breath for a good five minutes.
You just sat in the bathtub and pressed your hands to your face, trying to muffle the crying and wiping away the tears. You had to pull it together, just this one time, just right now. You could go home and cry your heart out later. Not right now though. Right now was all about the two lovebirds standing in the living room making small talk with everybody else.
You joined everyone in the living room and decided it was probably a better move to chat with someone, or else you would just be consumed by your own demons, letting them take over you all together.
You found yourself in a small circle of people, some you knew from the bakery, some your friends and some complete strangers. Newt was there too. You couldn’t stop talking to other people so you wouldn’t even hear his voice. The whole thing felt absolutely surreal, it felt like you had this war going, walls up, one trying to outdo the other, trying to talk over each other.
Dinner was absolutely delicious. Queenie and Jacob knew how to make an impression in the kitchen. It was nice. It was a wonderful change from all the others nights you had before. This was completely different. It was warm, cozy, familiar and you felt protected, your heart slightly soothed by your friends, despite the fact your ex-boyfriend was there too.
You sat on the couch, sipping on another delicious cocktail Jacob and prepared for everyone. You were alone, but not for long. Tina joined you after a while and you were talking up a storm. You were chatting about everything and anything, but nothing serious. After a while, Newt and another friend joined you. You all made some small innocent talk and you managed to pull yourself together, being polite and even charming towards everybody, even Newt. And so did he. He was so pleasant, it looked like the man you had fallen for in the first place. You missed him, this side of him. A completely different person from the one who had that talk with you earlier.
Tina grabbed your mutual friend by the hand to show him something. You were pretty sure it was all set up but you didn’t care. Newt was about to leave too but you held his arm. He sat next to you right away, quiet.
“You’re mad” you said, bluntly.
“It’s not my place” he said, holding his glass tighter, his jaw clenched and his eyes wondering trough the room.
“Maybe…” you said. You knew it wasn’t his place, but you wanted it to be. You knew everything you did was after the break up but it still sucked that he had found out.
“How did you…?” he didn’t let you finish. “I saw you a couple of times. I was hanging out with Jacob, he wanted to cheer me up. Said I was getting quite isolated…” he looked at you with those puppy eyes that made your heart melt, his lips were pursed together.
“You shouldn’t have seen it…” you meant it. You didn’t want to hurt him anymore than you already did. That was never your intention. It never crossed your mind that he could possibly have seen you. Every time you met another guy, you did it for you. To take your mind off of everything, to give you the rush your life was lacking. You always thought you were damaging only yourself… But this was different. It was Newt. Sure, you ended on the worst of terms, you said terrible things to each other but this was different. With all those fights he knew how much you still cared, how much you loved him. With every tear how much you just couldn’t stand what was going on. But this… this was new.
“I know” that was all he said for a while. “Should I be worried?” he placed his hand on your knee.
“Don’t” you replied. That was the last thing you needed, for him to be worried for you or to pity you.
“Why?” he asked.
“I don’t need pity and I don’t need supervision” you voice cracked but you cleared your throat.
“So you’re in control…” his hand left your knee. You felt weak so you just decided to be honest with him. “I wish we hadn’t destroyed each other”.
He looked at you again “Do you…? Or do you wish you could stop destroying yourself?” he was dead serious. No hint of mockery, pity or hate in his eyes. It was like he was seeing through you and couldn’t help but speak up.
“Don’t do this Newt.” that was all you had strength to say. You couldn’t start this conversation right now, let alone with him and especially not here.
“Why?” he asked “This is not the time nor the place” he agreed and as he was leaving to join the party again he said “you know where to find me”.
Time flew by since the party. You finally found a way to start to heal without needing to rush to the bar to find some cheap thrill. You decided it was time to clear the air, talk to Newt. He was probably waiting for you to show up since you last talked.
You knocked on the door. You were so nervous your palms were sweaty. You didn’t let him know you were going to swing by so you had no idea if he would be in. You were also quite nervous to walk in the house you once shared with him, filled with so many memories.
He answered the door and was surprised to see you. He welcomed you with a smile and as you walked through the door you noticed everything looked the same. Just as you remembered. So beautiful, your home. The home you had built together.
“Glad you came” he said quickly, asking you to take a sit. You took your coat off and sat down as you saw him head to the kitchen to make some tea. Newt had this theory that everything could be solved either with tea or over tea. You couldn’t help but grin. He came back and handed you your mug, the one you always had tea out of in the mornings. You smiled. “Nice place you got here” you said with a smirk.
He blushed slightly, probably remembering how everything had come to be in its place, hours and hours of planning and all the trips to the thrift shop. “Yeah, it’s not all my doing though” he said with a huge smile. You rested your mug on your lap and looked down, biting your lip slightly. This was supposed to be you clearing things up but instead it was you falling for him all over again. Everything just felt like a dance again, like you were testing boundaries and waiting to see who would break first.
You cleared your throat and decided to cut to the chase. “I’ve been thinking about what you said a lot…” you paused for a moment, looking at him, his expression expectant. “You were right, I did get lost for a minute there”.
He smiled with a sad look in his eyes. “I guess I just needed to be brought down to earth again… So, thank you”.
“That’s quite alright” he said “I’m glad you’re in a better place now”.
“How are you?” you asked a bit too eager.
“I’m fine, you know… I’ve been getting out of the house a bit more” he looked down and you knew something was up.
“Who is she?” you asked, impatient.
“Ahmmm” you could tell he was uncomfortable “I don’t think it’s like that, you know…”
“How is it then?”
“It’s just someone who’s been helping me with the book and the creatures and such….” He couldn’t look you in the eye.
“Well… Do you like her?” you couldn’t take your eyes off of him. You felt slightly sick but you needed to know.
“I’m very… confused” he said, genuinely. You both stayed quite for a while. Not knowing what to say. “I still think about you” he said.
“Yeah… I think about you too” you drank your tea and placed it on the coffee table. “Does she stay here?” you asked immediately.
“No… Of course not” he replied all too quickly.
“Maybe this is as much as we’re going to get out of each other” you said.
“Just… don’t disappear this time” he begged.
“I will try” you smiled.
You walked out and felt better, for some reason. The mess you both made was starting to feel slightly organized… So he still thought about you and you about him but he was getting close to someone else… You shrugged your shoulders, imagining that would probably be it. You and him done for good with nothing but a complicated story to tell and a past shared.