So last night, I had a major wtf moment in Crestwood, post-breakup.
It was a series of soul-crushing coincidences, and I needed to share…
hasn’t been that long since Solas removed my Lavellan’s vallaslin and
then made everything terrible. I’ve been killing a lot of time as
Lavellan licks her wounds, and somehow, last night as I’m playing, everybody (Quiz,
Sera, Cole, and, yes, Solas) just ends up back in Crestwood, on a mission to
kill a wyvern for a nice lady named Judith. The quest itself is easy.
But the moment the wyvern is dead, Lavellan looks up and sees this:
Cue first moment of major surprise.
I must have missed this on my last Lavellan, as I really had no idea
you could return to the exact place where Solas plays out his cowardice.
It then felt somehow extra shitty and ironic that the title of the
quest that brings her here is “Wyrm Hole.” Could that title possibly be
a coincidence? Is this just Weekes again, fucking with us? Wyrm Hole? Because
that’s exactly what it felt like to me: time travel, diving through a
worm hole and waking up in the past.
Anyway. That’s only the beginning.
At this point, Lavellan is feeling stung, surprised, hurt all over
again, awkward (because Solas is there), and frankly, a little sweaty.
She is brash and hates to wallow, and so she’s ready to go. But one of
those creepy murals catches her eye, over behind the waterfall–and
like, I personally can’t resist that. So she goes to check it out, and
as she’s walking over to the waterfall, Cole just…starts talking. This happens (I apologize for the quality–I’ve never actually used any of my game footage before on youtube and kind of suck):
Notice how she just stops like, dead in her tracks. That’s me,
dying a little inside. I was never able to trigger this banter with my
first Lavellan at all, but here it is, now, as Cole recounts their
break-up in the exact same spot the break-up occurred. This was just one of those scary perfect storytelling moments for me. Of course Cole
would feel it here, the pain, all that’s happened. And of course Solas
would be replaying the scene in his mind, in this very moment, this
exact place, and Cole would feel his hurt, attempt to deconstruct it and
to heal. I mean, I lost my breath a little bit I lost
all my breath. The banter triggering was completely random (right?), but it
didn’t feel that way. This was one of the coolest, most heartbreaking
moments I’ve ever experienced playing any game, ever. That it was a
coincidence–how we ended up here, the title of the quest, and the banter itself…that’s
Also, I have heard this banter before on youtube, but the version I’ve heard has always had a different Solas line, which is–
Solas: You cannot heal this, Cole. Please, let it go.
But my Lavellan was hurt and angry in Crestwood (I’ve written more about this here). She shoved him around, dared him to tell her he doesn’t care. And so–
Solas: You cannot heal this, Cole. Let her carry her anger in peace.
This line just felt really…strong. It was careful, attentive. It’s
totally keyed into her emotional state, post-breakup, and the fact that
Solas is weirdly mindful (and respectful) of her anger makes it just all
the more hurtful, especially given the setting, and everything else. “Let her be angry,
Cole. It is her anger to bear. And I deserve it all.”