people worth my time

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all the boys // panic! at the disco

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I beat The Witcher 3 in one week. It is easily the best game I’ve ever played, believe it or not… Like, woah. Anyway, decided to draw some future!au Geralt concept (lmao, Mass Effect, basically). I took too long doing this, so just flats before my brain melts. : )

Nico Robin from One Piece, Happy Birthday

I missed her birthday by a few days but better late than never I guess.

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He thinks about Kit, some kind of warped, ruined saint with all her broken morals and shades of grey, surrounded by all of her foolish righteous holier-than-thou comrades, whiter than white, and he swallows heavily, because finally he understands what she meant. He doesn’t understand you like I do though, does he? he thinks, but she turns her back before he gets the chance to say it out loud.

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back home

ive never written anything w this relationship so i am pleased as punch and kinda wanna live in this world for a little while so i might post more

words: 2k

warnings: parent death ment

feat: everybody except scott and thor. iโ€™ll probably find some way to work them in though.

a/n: buckyโ€™s gonna b a bit of an ass



You were practically jumping up and down in the elevator because of how excited you were as the doors slid open. Itโ€™d been almost 6 months since youโ€™d last seen Tony which was without a doubt the longest period of time youโ€™d gone without seeing him in your life. Things had become chaotic in your life and his but the two of you still talked on a regular basis. You were his one sense of stability at this point in his life and he had proven time and time again that he would do anything to keep you safe.

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Decided to binge-watch all of Underverse so far and it’s even more magical than I remembered it being :’) I still get that hyped-want-to-scream feeling in my chest with every episode :D Definitely want to draw something for the Underversary, just not sure what yet…

Just a reminder that when I say this blog is for wlw I mean ALL women who love women! Lesbians are wonderful (I am one!) but they are not the only women who love women. I am also including bisexual women, pansexual women, polysexual women, asexual/ace spectrum wlw, aromantic/aro spectrum wlw (as long as they’re comfortable with this blog being unapologetically romance heavy, since that IS the theme) trans wlw, women aligned non-binary wlw, wlw who use a different label, women who aren’t sure of their label but know they like women… and hell, this blog is also for women who are questioning their feelings for other women. AND for people who like girls who are also questioning their gender identity who feel they may be woman aligned. 

(This blog is also for minors who are too young to comfortably call themselves women, or sapphics who otherwise have a complex relationship with that word- I just used it for the sake of consistency.) 

If there’s anything I can ever to do make you feel more welcome here as a wlw, please let me know!

And if any of this is a problem, then this isn’t the blog for you! 

when you’re writing a fic with an incredibly niche premise so you keep your equally niche otp out of it in the forlorn hope of increasing its mainstream appeal

yandereycat  asked:

You are such!! A kind person!!!!! Like I read your tags on art often and I'm just like "I wish I could be on that level of sweetness" ALSO YOUR ART IS SO SOFT IM LOV IT..... you are so lovely please don't stop being wonderful

aaaaaaaaaaa thaNK you sO mUCh????? youre the sweet one for sending such a kind message im???? smiling so big this is so so so kind aahHHh thANK YOU SO MUCH I HOPE YOU HAVE SUCH AN AMAZING DAY :’)))

i hate it so much when im clearly upset and pushing someone away and they literally just leave?? like.. nobody ever wants to say “hey i know you dont really wanna be alone so im not gonna leave and im gonna make sure ur okay and happy before i ever do have to leave you by yourself” am i really not worth doing that for?

People tell me all the time that I couldโ€™ve done better, that a girl like me shouldnโ€™t be with a guy like him. they tell me to move on, that he wasnโ€™t worth my time then and he isnโ€™t worth my time now. but i think those people, the people that tell me to just move on.. i donโ€™t think theyโ€™ve ever lost someone. they tell me that there will be other guys, better ones than he ever was. but i donโ€™t think that they understand. Iโ€™m not sad because i lost my boyfriend.. iโ€™m sad because i lost my best friend. my person.
—  Excerpt from a book iโ€™ll never write // whyโ€™d you have to go.

anonymous asked:

i mean to be fair we've all been brainwashed into thinking capitalism is the only thing that makes sense since we were children. like i KNOW your points make sense and are better but i'm still like "but... how will i know my Worth™๏ธ" every time you talk about people being able to pursue what they want. it's a hell of a thing to unlearn

yeah it is hard to unlearn, I guess I’ve just had some time away from society for a while because I’m mentally ill and I’ve really been thinking about it … and there are things I want to do because I want to do them, I want to survive too, but I want to contribute to society, I want to be a part of my community, I want to do what’s best for myself and others while enjoying my life, and I just don’t think … I need to account for worth in that … I don’t believe it exists anymore, conceptually. Like obviously it’s a real thing in our society, but I don’t believe in it anymore. 

anonymous asked:

Hey, I've been having trouble finding my type, so I want to ask for your advice. I think I'm an Ni-dom, but I can't tell my middle functions. I was abused, which probably had a negative effect on my functions. I think I might be an INTJ because I'm focused on efficiency and have a need to accomplish things, even at the cost of others' feelings, or else I start feeling empty (Te). I also spend most of my time alone, and don't have an interest in forming relationships, or feel lonely much (1/6).

  • I’m focused on efficiency and have a need to accomplish things, even at the cost of others’ feelings, or else I start feeling empty (Te). [needing to aggressively accomplish things and feeling empty if you don’t can be attributed to Ni-Se imbalance, so not necessarily Te, if it is Te, it’s a negative/compensatory manifestation of it which is not entirely consistent with auxiliary positioning]
  • I also spend most of my time alone, and don’t have an interest in forming relationships, or feel lonely much [have to know the real reason why, whether it is a natural state or an unconsciously self-protective state, i.e., if you are deep in a loop and have convinced yourself that you don’t need people in order to stay in a safe bubble]
  • When I was younger, that was mixed with the belief that other people weren’t worth my time (Ni-Fi). I’ve been trying to build relationships lately, but I’ve been told I act cold and as if I don’t like the other person. [unhealthy Ni colored expectations and inferior Se in terms of not understanding how to actualize your self well in situations]
  • I also base my self-esteem on being competent, and feel useless if I’m not. I often reject the external world or other people’s standards, but at the same time, I want approval and to be seen as intelligent and competent (Te-Fi). [Nobody likes to feel incompetent, so that is not in itself enough to indicate Te. Rejecting “external standards” can be true of both types when they resist Fe or Te development, so it is good evidence of looping but which loop is not clear. WHY do you want approval or to be seen as intelligent? If you can’t explain exactly why, you can’t link it to the right function. “Uselessness” is actually more of a symptom of Ni-Se insecurity whereas “helplessness” would be more linked to Te-Fi insecurity.]
  • I have a hard time understanding social rules and often get told I’m not behaving properly, which might point to a lack of Fe. [Along with other details you’ve given, it could also point to heavily undervaluing or resisting Fe and therefore haven’t picked up that knowledge due to chronic looping. If you are Ti looping, you would unconsciously avoid understanding social rules and connecting with other people because these things would push you to change, they’d push you to leave your comfort zone.]
  • I also dislike conforming to outside standards, because it feels like a betrayal to who I am (Fi). [this can be true of looping introverts in general]
  • I used to have a problem with overgeneralizing principles and not caring about individuality, but I’ve started trying to think more carefully about my beliefs rather than blindly applying my principles (Te-Fi). [Overgeneralizing is common to both TJs and FJs when Te or Fe is applied too “universally” as would be the case when it is unhealthy. When paired with unhealthy dom Ni, both Te or Fe aux can take on a very absolutist tone. Slight contradiction/confusion here where you say you don’t care much about “individuality” yet seem to be very protective of only your own yet later you say you don’t care enough for your own needs -> better evidence of Fe-Ti than Te-Fi]
  • I’ve been told I act more like an unhealthy ESFP at my worst. [need more detail to ensure it is the correct interpretation]
  • I’m very private, and I used to hate feelings before and thought they were stupid, could never understand others’ feelings, and was detached from my own. Even now, I struggle with understanding them, but I’m trying to improve (Te-Fi?). [likely to be a result of abuse and poor emotional development that inhibits empathy and self-empathy, perhaps not really due to personality, abuse usually stunts F function development specifically]
  • As for being an INFJ, I’m sensitive to what other people say and think, and a part of me wishes to change myself to become more “acceptable” to others (Fe). I try to stop that when I notice I’m doing it, though, and think about what they said and decide for myself (Ti?). [evidence of Fe struggle]
  • I also have unrealistic relationship standards, and get annoyed when people fail to live up to them (Ni-Fe). [common to both types, unhealthy Ni but not necessarily Fe]
  • I’m also interested in understanding people and what motivates them (Fe), though more in a detached, impersonal way. [dom Ni, perhaps Ti related analysis]
  • A part of the reason I don’t seek relationships is also because I’m afraid I could be hurt, so I’d rather reject others before they have a chance to reject me (unhealthy Fe-Ti?). [evidence of suppressed Fe and Ti looping]
  • I also focus on others (my family, specifically) more than myself, and I have a hard time caring and valuing my needs because it feels selfish (Fe). [evidence of unhealthy Fe, evidence of a low/underdeveloped introverted judging function]
  • As for Ti, a lot of my detachment and focus on competence could stem from a Ni-Ti loop, rather than Te-Fi. [yes, so you’ll have to be as honest as you can with yourself about that, whether you want competence truly for its own sake or rather to compensate for some other underlying problem/issue]
  • At the same time, though, if I have Ti, I don’t think it’s underdeveloped because I can critically evaluate things easily, [critically evaluating things is a SKILL that can be learned through study or experience, not in itself sufficient evidence for developed Ti, so it is unclear whether you deeply understand/experience Ti or not]
  • and while I do have a desire to conform for approval, it doesn’t affect me much, and I maintain my beliefs regardless of how others feel about them. [common for looping introverts]

These are very useful details but still somewhat inconclusive. You have a decent grasp of function theory which is good (thanks for doing your homework!), however, the area you seem to fall short in is self-knowledge. You seem too cut off from your emotional life, which means that there is a rather large and glaring component of yourself that you don’t fully understand, that you don’t have full conscious access to. It seems like you are too self-protective (probably looping) and cannot fully acknowledge all of your emotional needs and this makes it difficult for you to know for certain what it is you really need/want in life and how best to realize your potential, i.e., would your best self come through better with Fe-Ti or Te-Fi development? You can adequately describe some negative aspects of your personality which is a great start, however, what would you be if you were genuinely fulfilled and being fully your true self (as opposed to only acting for self-protection or to compensate for some vague void/lack within)?

Based on the details you’ve selected, there seems to be more subtle reference to Fe-Ti issues (struggling with low self-worth and trying to compensate) than Te-Fi issues (struggling with feelings of powerlessness or helplessness), so gun to my head, I would lean slightly towards INFJ just based on the evidence you’ve provided. A running theme in your description is wanting to “be yourself” but not because you truly value your own individuality as Fi types do. Instead, you are fixated on resisting the need to “conform” which, counter-intuitively, actually means that you define yourself by external standards and don’t realize it, otherwise you’d know yourself better. You can’t truly know yourself well when your “self” is merely defined by what you are trying “not” to be, by the “negation” of something external, i.e., there is no positive/substantive definition of the self to be found in your description and this issue tends to be more indicative of some Fe related developmental pitfall. You seem to be at a low level of ego development (common in people who’ve suffered abuse), which means that your self-awareness is lower than you realize, making it hard to type yourself. The first step in building better self-awareness would be to open yourself up and see what happens, to allow yourself to feel and experience life more deeply and expansively so that you can learn more about yourself and what would be best for your development.

We’ll find a place where there’s room to grow
And yes, we’ve just begun